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I’m getting close to it. I have so much space. But is it safe? Should I do this? I remember reading a few times on this forum people saying not to do it. Yet again most people say that this is the only way to true happiness. Disidentifying from mind. Leo & others say that’s a true hallmark to being yellow. I’m so damn tired of the mind. It never stops wanting. It’s always suffering. I just want to disidentify from it & live in states of bliss. I do want to transcend it, I still want to have experiences, but I want to make the mind my humble servant. Whenever I have a negative emotion or thought I just come back to myself, the empty spaciousness inside. I don’t look into them to discover and integrate my shadow. The times I’ve tried to look into them it just stresses me out.

This comes off as a projection to me. ?

Thankss @Moksha!!

@Hojo thank you so much! ?

Thank you!

Why?

In meditation, should one focus on a pleasant feeling that arises such as joy (1st Jhana), our ‘inner body’, or the breath? ? I was just reading about the 8 jhanas and am amazed (why isn’t this discussed more in this forum or by Leo or the ascended masters?). Even the first jhana seems ‘heavenly’ to me. It says to focus on and stay on a pleasant feeling that arises such as joy or a smile. When I did it today in my meditation it didn’t feel natural so I went to the emptiness feeling I was feeling behind and stayed there. Although let me tell you one of my practices right now is cultivating more joy in my lyfe so I would love for this to work. Or should we focus on the breath, or is the breath just a tool to calm the body and mind enough to be able to feel into the body and feel the inner body (emptiness) inside (<is this the goal of everything, to feel what we are as often as possible, the vast emptiness, to become identified w/this our true self instead of being identified w/ the thinking mind/illusury self>?), as eckhart Tolle says? Sometimes when I go about it like this I feel my meditation is more dynamic, in that instead of a just pure concentration practice of the breath, I start w/ breath then can feel into inner body, so it’s a bit dynamic. And p.s I usually don’t feel called to stay on the feeling of emptiness for to long where I can usually go for a longer period of time if I was focusing on the breath. Been feeling a lot of space lately, so not so called to be meditating as much lately just btw. Again please let me know if focusing on pleasant sensation during meditation is good because I would love to cultivate more of these feelings into my daily life or better to focus on emptiness or breath. P.s3. doesn’t focussing on the emptiness ‘theoretically’ ‘jump’ ‘us’ to the 7th jhana of ‘nothingness’? Thanks! ?

Thank you so much ? And I meant to ask about the jhana technique, feeling and keeping a pleasant sensation. What do you think about this? Do you think it’s a good way of experiencing these ‘positive’emotions more in one’s life?

Thank you! how about this part? “is the goal of everything, to feel what we are as often as possible, the vast emptiness, to become identified w/this our true self instead of being identified w/ the thinking mind/illusury self?”

**^MODS: please allow question here. Resonates with me to be here in personal development, the mental health section doesn’t get a lot of views or replies. TIA*** I know I should answer this question myself but even though I’m much better I still get I paralyzed with fear from anxiety (like now) every so often & feel like I need the support. WHEN I TAKE .25 MG XANAX (every other day) THE NEXT DAY: I’m extremely silent. Seriously. It’s like I become a Buddha. I feel no need to talk with anyone. & at the same time when I do I become a social butterfly. I feel complete & self sustained. I complete all my tasks with ease & flow (I’m working on building a life. Currently having financial difficulties & getting a job difficulties & getting my life organized). My life gets so much better when I take it. I know if I continue taking .25 Xanax every other day for the long term my life will get incrementally better (with the intention to eventually stop). Do you think it’s ok I continue taking it? I’m pretty responsible with staying on .25 (I have a history of taking meds). Thanks any help would be much appreciated ?

I’ve done/doing it all man.

I’ve been doing this for a couple of months now & have felt no need to up the dosage. I’m pretty mindful about it. When I finish one supply I sometimes goes weeks/a week till I get my next one. And honestly it’s less then EOD. Sometimes go days w/out taking it (& sometimes I take it 2 consecutive days in a row so might average to about 2.5-3x a week). I like to microdose psilocybin & work w/ cacao medicine so I go through phases where I feel I don’t need the xanax ? Plus I exercise & eat healthy on the regular.

I get them prescribed

So one of my good friends told me that and then I researched it a bit and it seems so. According to Osho and many other sources within like 2 months sex goes and a month later love. Energy from the root chakra moves up, until you reach the crown and become one with the universe. You go deep into the void and human emotions become virtually non-existent. I want to chant to become more calm and accomplish more in life. I started chanting OM last night and oh boy did I feel calm and the emptiness after that. My friend is a kundalini yoga instructor and recommended I chant one of the kundalini yoga chants, I think he said the OM NAMO GURU DEV NAMO chant. I read what it translates to and it’s “I bow to the power within me and serve it,” some dogmatic thing like that that doesn't resonate. What do you reckon? <3

So if I understand you correctly are you saying the meaning of the words don’t matter so much but the feeling they invoke within when you chant it? So you would chant “I bow to the power within”? Isn’t that a dual statement? You are fooling yourself. Then again I don’t know you. Your mantra means btw “I pray to Lord Hanuman to bestow upon me power, strength, and stamina.” @Leo Gura I’m very interested in your opinion about this!

Thanks for sharing, answer I was kinda looking for. Is there a chant that you can recommend me for what I’m looking for? And do you agree chants hypnotize your?

Osho is always talking about watching your thoughts. Would feeling your emotions be the same thing?

I’m always hearing this, connect to your breath. Sometimes it doesn’t feel in alignment for me to connect to my breath, I’d rather feel my body for example or get present looking at an object. Sometimes when I do “force” myself to connect to breath even though I don’t feel like it, I get a feeling of disassociation kinda. But on the other hand when I do this I’m often able to see any parts of my body that may be tense through doing a quick body scan and loosen up those parts. What do you reckon, what does it mean to connect to our breath, is it literally connecting to breath or just getting present?

Yes, same can be done with a body scan. The breath is just an anchor.

Awesome. Btw I was just referring to taking like 3 conscious breaths for a break throughout the day or feeling inner body for like 30 seconds versus a full on meditation.

I still feel a difference when I connect to my breath. Like I’m more present. Maybe it’s a journey ey? Anymore feedback would be awesome.

Thankss for ur input.

I feel like one of those Samoans, just a constant fountain of anger in me. I try to feel it. All I do is feel it. But it doesn’t end. Sometimes it gets to the point where it’s to much and I feel I might get into a fight. I’m getting back to the horizontal and working a lot, more stress in my life. I’m living in community and get triggered so easily by certain people When does it end? I run every morning, I’m sometimes screaming at the top of my lungs to release it. Does it ever end? Will I eventually be free of anger or for the most part? Thanks. P.S. I’ve been working on my anger a lot, for over a year and I feel I’m at the final stage, like life is giving me a test to see if I can handle it, just fyi.

@Breakingthewall right on. do you mean experiencing the emotion of anger is enough, like you should change something because you shouldn’t be experiencing the emotion of anger, or do you mean anger is a representation of something else not going accordingly in your life and enough is enough of that..? Thanks.