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@DoubleYou What approach are you using to do so? I heard someone regarding it as a tantric practice recommend to go up to about 70%, then stop and wait for a while. Then repeat. No release at any point of course. Then there is Mantak Chia with the same approach, but practically using Mula Bandha to send energy up the spine when at 70/80/whatever percent. It's effectively how you go about tantric sex as well (at least that's how I understood it so far). Experimented with that masturbation technique as well and found it extremely satisfying and energizing and I became more present as well. But right now I first want to completely rewire my brain from all the shit I strained it with all those years before I try that again.

@outlandish Thanks for the advice! @DrMobius I mean energetically overloading my body. I just heard it can happen from different people. Something I experienced on a 400μg LSD trip: I was laying in corpse pose for 3-4 hours or so. When the peak hit and I let it all happen, I had a very interesting feeling. I had the feeling that through surrendering mentally and physically, all this energy could flow through me, like I was a conductor. But if I fought it, it would be too much for my body. I know it sounds crazy but this is how it felt. It was way too much but through letting go completely it wasn't hitting any "blockages".

That's beautiful! I had the chance to learn Mandarin in high school for two years, unfortunately never continued. It's an interesting language for sure.

@Key Elements How do you (plan to) connect language with art? I think about connecting art with therapy or something in that direction. Language can be a huge part in that to, when choosing expressive writing/sharing as the art form.

You once advised against doing Kriya Yoga during a trip, which makes sense. Is there any reason one should not trip on a day when already practiced Kriya Yoga? Also, I'm 8 weeks into semen retention. My energy levels are going through the roof, especially through the combination with Kriya Yoga. I'm a little scared of 5-Meo (planning to try it out for the first time very soon). Do you think it's still safe to try? I don't want to fry my system and getting chronic issues.

Train your kegel muscles and keep your semen in, have sex as often as you like Or as in tantra, don't aim for orgasm. Aim for 3 hours of ongoing arousal, it's possible!

That's a good point, but it's definitely not easy to see. You need to be in the right perspective. When I did my N,N-DMT trips last year, I was in a very stable consciousness, at least it felt like that. I felt like nothing, however terrifying it would be, could break me. And with "me" I don't mean the psyche. I mean the *whatever* that I am, which is not my psyche or my body. This gave me tons of confidence which was more than needed to be brave enough to go into the DMT experience again and again. Damn was this world shattering. But since I didn't really identify with any phenomena, it was okay. It was bad, terrifying, beautiful, extremely confusing and intense. But it was just what it was, just fleeting phenomena. It's not easy to stay in this awareness during the trip. And as a word of caution to others and myself - it can be dangerous because at some point I felt the desire to "challenge my psyche/ego until it finally breaks". And I sensed, although it was exactly what I needed at that time, that this was the destructive tendency of the ego. Crazily so, as on a self-destruction mission. "Is this an intuition of my higher self?" I asked myself. That's so hard to say, especially between back to back sessions. Are you just not brave enough or are you being self destructive now? And if I weren't careful, I would really go mad by doing DMT too much, I thought. It's super tricky. But then again I always fear not being brave enough and finding reasons not to trip again, especially with DMT. So to be careful and responsible I took a step back and I stopped for 4 months. Now I'll start diving in again.

Interesting, thank you! I also feel like it's more effective this way

At the moment I try to do Kriya after exercising in the morning, after about 22-24 hours of fasting (I do one meal a day at the moment). Do you think there might be any negative side effect in doing it directly after exercising or during a fasted state? I imagine the latter to be of poisitive impact, but I have no idea about the former. I generally feel very grounded when doing Kriya and especially afterwards. I just think about switching it up, doing Kriya first and exercise after, only for nutritional purposes. But I'm not sure if this might be the less effective way. Also, what's new to me since February when I restarted Kriya - I generally am not suuuper hyped about doing it, I feel resistance building up; but as soon as I do 1-2 Kriya bows, I'm like in a trance, as if the Kriya is doing itself. It's quite amazing.

Might happen, and a direction to take is always worth thinking about, but my advice would be to not have a "goal" in mind. Forget about that. Just encounter what will happen and, as molosku said, remind yourself to stay focused so your attention is not taken over by your monkey mind. Whatever will happen is exactly what is meant to be shown to you in this moment. So drop any expectations if possible Also for me personally, if you feel super lost and can't get your way out of your head by yourself, good ambient music can be a powerful guide.

Yes for me tripping after more than say 16 hours of fasting always makes the trip super heavy on the body. On the other side, my mind feels much cleaner and I don't have severe stomach issues which I always have when tripping after eating (even if 4+ hours of waiting after last meal). I think a light meal might be the best compromise? This truly is the holy grail of wisdom. Not doing so ruined a 6g shroom trip for me. I just wasn't able to get up to take a shit but the need to do so was so uncomfortable... Reminded me of my creature-ness.

Very very important yes. I feel like the nature of this being a forum greatly increases the tendencies of protectiveness etc. I always wonder, although there are many interesting discussions in this forum, if all this is confusing me more than it is really helping me...

Interesting. Apart from what she's saying, I find her presence really radiant. She feels authentic. Can't speak about the content, but it definitely made me think. Actually reminded me of Matt Kahn a bit.

A lot of respect for pursuing your purpose and actually finishing an album. That's not an easy thing to do. I would love to push you further. So first, let me say that I like some of the tracks, some not so much. That's just personal taste though of course so take it as that To offer you some constructive criticism - I felt often times that too much is going on at once. Maybe that's style, but these passages were not so pleasant-sounding to me. As you may know, music and composition are a LOT about minimal sounds which are well balanced. Of course, it depends on the genre etc. but most if not all times "less is more" is a golden rule. In some tracks I found there to be too many sounds, even some counter acting rhtythms (only during some passages). Maybe get into this aspect more. But take my criticism with a grain of salt as well, I'm not an expert at all. I just used to make electronic music myself for some years, but it's been a while. I also love the artwork, it's amazing!! I am reading "The War of Art" at the moment. At one point the author, whose art is writing, talks about the moment he finished his first screenplay (or novel) after many years of failing to do so. He went up to a friend of his who offered him valuable wisdom for pursuing his passion. He told him that he finished his novel. The guy didn't even look up and says: "Good for you. Start the new one today." This right there really got me! I used to stop working after I finished a piece of music and think too much about it. So just as a pointer: Let it go. It's not yours. It's its own creation now. Now start your new album/EP today! Much love for your journey man, never give up!

@moon777light Wow the article is amazing, thank you This is a valid point and I am always keeping it in mind. But I also see that it developed into a limiting belief for me. No, I never drew. And because I never did, I didn't know what I was missing and I assumed I'm just not talented enough. The past shouldn't limit me in what I feel is calling me right now. I think that's super important, inquiring into it really freed me. But still, you have a point there. I think what I always liked as a child was thinking about how the human mind works and also existential questioning. This is what brought me to spirituality and why I'm studying psychology right now. That's why I want to combine all of those Yes, such a good point! In my mind, this is what scares me the most. The thing is, without fundamentals, I can't translate what I want to communicate into this medium. This is why I want to master this field. Just because it will allow me the best possible way to translate what I really want to express. This is the thought where this whole plan came from. Thank you for reminding me about this, after I have the very basics down, I will always try to do my own pieces while continuing to learn the craft itself @Emerald Very interesting other points you made. I do know about the book. But I'm a little overwhelmed even when reading what belongs to the fundamentals. I always remind myself: One step after the other. There are so many resources, I don't want them to hinder me in the journey. So after some research, I have the following plan for the coming months: - Doing the full course from the book "The Natural Way to Draw". It's about one year of 3h daily exercises. It's supposed to be rough but I like the approach very much. - At the same time, I'm gonna work through Lumis' "Fun with a Pencil". To really get into the habit of... just having fun drawing I heard a lot of good stuff about Lumis. This is all I will tackle in the beginning. I don't want to take on too much at the same time. My plan (which might change) for after some months is to enroll at "New Masters Academy" and learn figure drawing, head drawing, color theory etc. there. When I feel comfortable in a year or two, I will start painting. You think that's a solid plan? Thank you so much for your advice already, it is highly appreciated.

Hey guys, so in the last week something incredible happened. I have been struggling with finding a "life purpose" for roughly 4 years. There have been times where it drove me nuts, then I thought I had something but it turned out not to be and then other times I trusted in God to reveal my way when I'm ready to receive it. And with that attitude of surrender and trust I went in and dove into consciousness work deeper than ever for the last month or so and perfected my daily habits and stuff. I have been feeling a deepening connection to Truth every single day since then. And last week, in the middle of a Wim Hof session, it just hit me out of nowhere: All this energy, all this potential that I see unfolding in me through consciousness work - I want all that to flow into a translation of that creative energy in the form of art. I want to master visual art! And there it was, right in my face, no way to deny what was so clearly calling me. Ever since I did some inquiry on many doubts I instantly built up. And I could dissolve some of those already. I built a vision around this insight and started strategizing. On monday (after exam and night shifts) I will start a 100% dedicated regime to pursue mastery in art. Now, I would love to hear some general feedback regarding some factors. I just started studying psychology and I feel like I should stick with it. The degree would give me opportunities to combine art and counseling or even art therapy or something like this. Also, it gives me financial advances (as in no taxes, I only have to work half time). If I stopped studying to have more time for practicing, I would at the same time need to work a full time job to earn enough for a living. That's another pro for the studies: with a degree I could get a better paid job and maybe would only need to work part time -> more time for practice. One additional info: I'm at point zero. I did have a short phase of learning art but that's not worth mentioning. So basically I can draw stick figures, nothing more. This created many doubts, but I found out for myself that this is no barrier. Van Gogh started at 26. I'm 23, and I feel like starting way too late but yeah, I think it's no problem at all. That means that I would first have to build my foundations. I am willing to spend years only getting the basics down. But I'm super dedicated to do this for hours a day. So I also thought about tracking my progress and - through combining that with serious consciousness work - maybe writing a book about my journey 5 or 10 years down the line or even later. I could show other people who doubt themselves what's possible. And letting God create through me, I feel, is a big and important part of this whole journey. So what do you guys think about this? Where should I be careful? Do you think some thinking of mine is astray? Should I quit studying and work in an art department and only practice and do my sadhana for the rest of the time? I'm seriously open to everything right now. I never felt so right about something. Also, do you have strategic advice? As in, how to proceed, what is important to keep an eye on? Maybe you self-taught artists have some ideas.

@Space Hey thank you so much for your words. That's very encouraging Yes, you're absolutely right. At the moment, I'm definitely more drawn towards classical 'analogue' painting. Digital is not that appealing to me (right now). And I have no clue about art really, so I don't know what's possible. So one goal for this next year would be to get a rough overview of the field, what directions there are, which styles there are and which of those interest me the most. I also think I will dig into some art history. Accompanied with dedicated drawing practice, this should be a nice introduction to this field. Many other good points you made, I will keep them in my mind and my heart <3

This would mean "Don't create until you have... awakened?... mastered self development?" Everyone is growing and there are people in their early 20s who created amazing stories. I think you're far enough to distinguish between a message that raises consciousness and a message that makes people more asleep. At least generally speaking, everyone will read from their own point of view. So don't worry about it, of course you will become better and your meanings will advance in nuance and impact. So what? Trust in your greatness right now and just do it. You can change your writer name as often as you like when you don't want to identify with the old stuff anymore, there are no limits here but your thoughts. That is really a beautiful lesson you learned, very inspiring.

Let's do this! After some months I will maybe create a thread to keep you guys updated about the journey. Your encouragement is deeply appreciated, thank you!! <3

Exactly, very true. I heard that a lot already but I think I will have to live these frustrations to really integrate what is being said here. But it's immensely helpful to keep as a reminder. This point is so important. I know myself and out of my motivation for something I want to improve too quickly. This time though, I'm taking it slow. My goal for the next 1-2 years is to become very good at the absolute basics. That's all I'm aiming for. I know the foundation will be necessary for anything else, so I'll start there. I already got some resources to start from, will probably enroll in New Masters Academy in 1-2 months and do their absolute beginner class. If it takes me longer than suggested to do it correctly, that's okay. This is the point from where i will dive into other territory like figure drawing. I think this is going to be the hard part: Even if I put in 3-5 hours a day, I will progress very slowly and that might feel frustrating. Your words are very helpful. I will keep the most helpful tips I collected from different people, write them down and stick them to the drawing table so I never forget Thank you so much <3

This guy's latest video popped up in my newsfeed two or three days ago. It's over one hour and he talks about his whole process. I'm exactly at where he started. This gave me SO much encouragement and inspiration. The video you posted is also very inspiring, thank you for sharing that I even sent him an email because this video came just so perfectly timed. Damn... Anything is possible

Great advice, thank you so much! Yes, showcasing and stuff will come later, I don't think about that now. I will get the feedback I need for growing - but from teachers and professionals. Good points about intuitive direction change, will keep that in mind!

Hey man thank you for the reply No it was not a hobby of mine. As said I have zero experience. The thing is I had a phase of about one month where I put 8 hours a day into 3D modeling, texturing, also some drawing (but only for this one month). I stopped because I didn't want to pursue something that requires working on the computer all the time. That's just not my thing. So I dropped all this for a year. But what I learned and what now came back out of nowhere was this: if there is anything I admire deeply and more than anything else (besides truth itself) then it is the beauty of the visual world, form, color, light. It just came to me: this is what I want to create. Now, the getting to learning to draw is a consequential step towards this, derived from my vision. Maybe I will specialize in some other field but now it's about the foundation. And drawing is crucial for that. Also I remember how much I enjoyed it last year. As Leo said you have to pump your passion until it's primed. I am the one to choose being passionate about something. And if it takes me 1-2 years of hard work until I enjoy it more than anything else, then that is okay. I learned through the years that this doesn't come from nowhere and you suddenly have a passion. No it is important to try stuff out and then decide on a direction. That's what I did, and it really came from my intuition. And about the work put in: you're absolutely right. But 1 hour a day isn't nearly enough. I will dedicate ALL my free time to this. Except for consciousness work and exercise etc., this I see outside of free time already. There is no going back, this thing is decided. And I know why you might say I should have drawn for some time to be able to make this decision. But it's not true for me. There is just call to be a creator, the process is seen separately. Vision first, everything else follows. Give me 6 months of dedicated effort and joyful creation and I will know if I enjoy it Thank you so much for your opionion, it's always important to get an outside view and reflect on decisions.

Hey, welcome to the forum First of all, it's important that you really want to write despite what effect it is going to have. Do you love writing? Are you doing it because you're enjoying the process of creating fiction? If yes, then forget all your doubts. That's all you gotta know for now. Do your best to stay true to your vision and incorporate deep wisdom in there. That's what storytelling was originally about - through beauty, symbolism and intelligent craftsmanship point to the truth. Viewers may unconsciously or consciously grasp what was being hinted at, even if they don't understand it mentally. That's what all art does. It can only show truth peripherally. Through beauty. If that is what you really wanna do, then do it! Don't worry about the sellings or the impact. You will create the best quality books if you work hard on your craft, pursue truth and let It speak through you. All the best for your journey man I thought I wanted to become an author, I also thought I wanna be a musician (did it for years) but they didn't give me the spark to seriously pursue it. Now I found out it's the visual arts I'm gonna master and now I'm on my way. I too think about the future, especially in the form of doubts. But I always inquire these thoghts and see that they are merely thoughts. Let's get to work Everything else will fall in place

You might be quite right about that.