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Yep I can confirm, the GVG makes it a whole lot easier, sometimes even in one big hit as you said

Jung is great to study for shadow work. There's a shadow work book on the booklist which takes a lot of Jung's insights and puts them into the context of the spiritual path. I also like Shunyamurti's understanding and take on Jung's ideas, he takes them beyond what Jung understood himself. He was certainly in contact with his true Self. This is amazing (check 7:45):

@Nahm Great post, I find it quite clarifying ?? This pendulum movement feels like awareness forgetting it's everything and frantically starting to panic, looking for itself, then forgetting even what it's looking for. After the "return", it truly feels like one was just dozing off, like a gentle amnesia. "Oh right, it's everywhere... OH right, it's all me anyway. How could I forget?"

Leo's booklist has great books on the topic, some of them really helped me get some basics down. It's worth it!

All the other advice is great as well, but this one is the most important in my opinion. Learning to sit with horniness - there might be shame and guilt beneath that or any other form of emotion that makes you impulsive. Sit with that, ask yourself why you can't just NOT masturbate. What is the facet of the feeling that you want to "release", why can't you just let it flow over you. It's not easy at all, but it works

@Applegarden Respect for being so open about that! Can be very liberating psychologically No shame whatsoever!! @Rolo Listen to @LfcCharlie4 's advice, would have pointed at the same!

One of the best things I recently did is getting myself a Kindle and the Readwise app, and connecting the app to my Notion system. When I highlight something on my Kindle, the app automatically creates a sub-page for each book and saves all the highlights in my Notion (which is my "commonplace book" or life OS). When you come in later, it's much simpler to sort the highlights coherently. You can also add notes to the highlights directly on your Kindle. Also, the app gives you a daily review with your latest highlights, this repeated exposure to the ideas makes them stick better. I love this setup This is how it looks like, all automated:

You say your disillusionment comes from the IDEA, but what about your experience? Not even the most mundane experience can be deconstructed without referring to thoughts, which always come AFTER the experience, not to speak of direct consciousness of infinity or whatever you want to call it. Your practice sounds very solid, my feeling tells me you're trying to grock it all with your mind and are in your head most of the time. I recognize myself in that, so my two cents would be: maybe try forgetting all you read so far and focusing more on actually feeling your experience, most importantly feel into your body. Maybe you already do that, but if not, that might help guiding you. To me when I'm too stuck in my head and I "fall" into the heart and belly area, I understand that I was asking sincerely but looking from a certain perspective that would never satisfy the question.

I agree, I tried it at some point and it worked really well. The cool thing about it is that you can keep lying ind bed , but when as soon as 1-2 rounds and you naturally want to get out of bed

This is the optimum I would say, to have a natural rhythm. But in my own experience I could never do that in 4 days. I meditated through so many nights because I tried to sleep early ? I think many people's sleeping rhythms are rather fucked up (mine most often is), and maybe yours is a bit more quick to adjust? Anyway, good advice These questions are really good too! My visualization is really weak but still I found visualizing to be much more profound than thinking. I visualize from first person perspective, works better for me than seeing myself from outside. Also, when it comes to productivity, visualizing the day when you start your day is also amazing. These two visualizations do a lot, I think I might put them back into my routine as well Let me know how it works out for you!

Ultimately I think we can't know until we actually do "merge back", when it's no longer an idea but actual. Leo has talked about Mahasamadhi, just as other sages have - which is, to merge into Infinity, you have to die. Mahasamadhi seems to be a free choice of leaving the body to not be bound to any form. It's a nice thought, but who knows. I definitely had a very similar experience to the one Leo talks about on 5-MeO, where it actually felt like I wanted to leave this body, and it also felt like one step further would mean voluntary death. But I didn't do it, so no idea But an amazing question for sure!

All you're doing on this forum is telling people that they're wrong and that they're closed-minded, until they tell you you're of course right. You're offensive and you try to win arguments where the other side didn't ask for it. I told you I'm not interested to argue with you, just let it be. I've been here a few years and I've seen how it goes with you. I won't reply to you again, a normal conversation with you is not possible without hostility. Nobody is trying to hurt you. All the best.

Sorry, no interest in arguing with you about something that has nothing to do with what was originally said. Good day to you

That's why this work is no game, it's all in. You want to know yourself? Then you have to know everything, especially those darkest places. Have you ever done psychedelics? Do you meditate? Memories surfacing is a normal thing happening on that path, be it with or without psychedelics. Of course they can break through something that's kept repressed with all the force the subconscious can bring up.

No that's what you're adding out of nowhere here, when I say silence I point towards an absence of something - and even that definition is again just a word, which is not what I mean. You just argue about it, I point to direct experience. Sorry but direct experience is more coherent than your insistence on everything being an ideology. No, that's not at all what I'm saying.

What you say makes sense but doesn't prove in the slightest that no ideology = an ideology. It's like saying when there is no apple here, that is still an apple being here, a no-apple. No. In silence, there is not even the idea of ideology or no ideology. It's actually pretty simple, I don't get the rambling to be honest. But no reason to argue, I was just curious what your reasoning is.

@DocWatts Good points, it's really important to see it in context with the whole system. Imagine the potential of turquoise when it's elevated by turquoise all around, embedded in society. And then imagine what levels of consciousness, understanding and creativity those few individuals have that go even further than the mass. It truly looks like there is no end in sight. Deeper and deeper into infinity and its creative powers. Well, let's talk again in a later life in 1000000 years or so ?

Why? Where do you get that logic from?

Great insights, really resonates! Yes! True love doesn't care if people know that you love them or if they hold you as a loving person. In one sense, I feel that actions show how loving you are, but these actions don't have to be visible. They probably most often are internal, energetic actions of devotion, surrender, courage. They spring from love to love, as love, without needing anything more than that.

In the end, EVERYTHING has a downside. Do you know "How Not To Die" from Dr. Greger? I like his approach. He says beans/lentils are one of the best foods you can possibly eat. The question is often not is it good or bad but rather: do the benefits far outweigh the downsides? Or vice versa? No single food is perfect, they all have some form of toxicity or side effect.

Yeah my body clearly tells me they don't - but maybe that's also because of the processing they go through to become noodles.

In truth you may only enter green when you're ripped, vegan and use natural skin care products, these TV shows are so unrealistic! Good point! It's a bit more nuanced than that though I would say, because from a certain perspective it is true that one is more developed than someone else, and someone else may be more developed than oneself. The question is: what do you make of that? Is it another identity structure you fall into that traps you in separation? That of course leads to arrogance, and I feel like that is something we all have to go through - and hopefully come out with a mature humility. From another perspective though, it's important to know where you are and what you can do with it for the whole of reality. From this view, it's also about responsibility. A sage might(!) be more useful directing his/her energy toward giving love than just bathing in it him/herself.

This Relentless Love No matter how hard you may struggle to stay afloat, how violently you may cry out, "No! This cannot be God," you can feel it, can't you, this current that keeps pulling you under, this force that simply will not stop. No matter how hard we may struggle to keep from hearing it the song goes on: "This too, My child, this too..." John Astin

It's probably not, but arbitrary topics might be. What I call "random thoughts" is what other members here use their own journal thread for. It's like a playground to share thoughts that are not thread-worthy but still nice to share It's just to keep the topics relevant and interesting you know. Thanks for being here, hope I don't come off as a dick now

I think the way of giving is not the issue most of the time - the action itself is not as important as where it comes from. Do you know that feeling of overflowing with love? Of being so complete, so connected to your heart, that there is an infinite fountain inside your chest? From that clarity that you are more than abundant, you give fully, in whatever way you can. Not because anything.. just for the sake of the love itself, and out a choice to shower your partner with that love instead of someone else in that instant.