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Paul Chek. A holistic coach and an extremely wise man talking about so many aspects of life. Check out his youtube channel, which is mostly fitness based as that is his domain of mastery, but not only. A great, I dare say, turquoise stage video would be:

Good luck then!

Thank you for your answer. Is the book you are using supposed to be read all at once or is it a gradual read as you progress?

Anti-fungal diet After my Darkness Retreat I was rather confused. The night I came home I binged on some sugary food, the exact opposite of what I should be doing on my diet. Is it the emotional stress I experienced in the dark? Is it the "not too rich diet " I was eating in there (mostly buckwheat and millet with some salad)? No worries! We lost a battle, but the war is ours! I am going on There is a lot of guilt associated with the binges. Emotional stuff to work around. This time it was not that bad though. As I saw the binge coming, I saw no real sense in resisting and in stead I focused on the emotions arising with it and loving them. The "I love you" mantra was my guide during this late night experience making it very educational and possibly growth promoting. What is amazing is, that I kept repeating the mantra when I went to bed and found myself saying "I love you" to myself in my dreams! Strangely enough I had a lot of dreams associated with guilt and fear this night, but the magical words seemed to dissolve all thatI woke up feeling pretty terrible in my body (from the crap food) , but blissful even deeper inside. Thank you! I love you.

I don't know much about yoga. I only heard a little from Sadghuru, about how yoga is supposed to safely and gradually align your whole system to ultimately ease into higher consciousness. Is that the case with the yoga you guys are practicing? Are there any physical exercises? What is the goal, is is supposed to balance the practitioner emotionally and energetically also or just get you real high real quick?

With all the consciousness work you have been doing lately, do you experience a lot of dark side of meditation stuff or paranormal experiences? If so, what kind? Some saints like Ramakrishna and AnandaMayi Ma were so flooded by samadhi experiences that they had trouble functioning normally in the world and needed the help of their disciples to even get around. Aren't you worried that this might happen to you eventually?

So I have been learning to mediate and self inquire. Beautiful practices. During my sessions I can sit in peace, fulfillment and clarity. However, I cannot sit like that all day. I get up, go about my business and although I try to keep my awareness sharp, I get distracted. How do you keep concentrated? When interacting with people, using technology, performing difficult tasks... How do you stay keep the meditative state going?

Openness "Oh Openness, you take it all. every person you take in tough emotions? bring it on terrifying pain is welcome thoughts of pros and of the cons! I just wonder, where's the limit? What will stop your mighty love? I keep looking, I keep searching, but all I find is... more Openness."

Darkness Retreat Darkness, share you secrets with me and I will give myself to you.

5 Day Bow and Arch Challenge Day 5/5 On the last day I finally managed to do full 3 minutes of the Bow. It's a huge achievement! Bravo! Challenge Summary: I can tell my body started opening. Every day I could tune into the feelings and energy shifts more and more instead of listening to the resistance of the mind during these exercises. Lots of stuff moved. The last two days I followed the Bow and Arch with some spontaneous movement of the body, that wanted to come out. This freed me up so much. Afterwards it seemed as though I dropped some baggage I was not even aware of carrying. Overall, amazing workouts!

Thank you for all your responses. Seems like it will simply take some time to bring this awareness to every part of my life.

@How to be wise It's using the meridian system to clear negative emotions. You tap your fingers on certain places of your body and while experiencing difficult emotions and this helps the emotions go. Maybe check this out, if you are interested:

For anyone using the Work, I highly suggest combining it with EFT tapping. Makes difficult cases much easier.

I didn't take any psychedelics for at least 2-3 weeks before this trip. And at that time it was 5-Meo too. I did not really worry about this, as all the other sources suggested that there is little to no tolerance to 5-MeO.

5 Day Bow and Arch Challenge Day 4/5 For much too long I have been pursuing ideas, experiences and consciousness without checking in with my body. It feels very good indeed to be back in here. Feeling, living, sensating.

My tolerance to LSD or mushrooms is pretty low I would say. My guess was that maybe my scale is no good? Any way, thank you for your answer, I will proceed slow and consider smoking/vaporizing.

Anti-fungal diet Another soaking experiment. This time quinoa. Turns out, soaking quinoa for 24 hours doesn't make it edible. No good for me. Buckwheat is still the winner. I will see about millet soon.

5 Day Bow and Arch Challange Day 3/5 Wow. My poor little neck, what is your back side holding? So much tension so much heat. Is that fear you are storing there? No need to worry necky, that is what the challenge is here for! Let's get you nice and clean, and with you the whole rest of your body. It doesn't seem to get much easier. I still didn't make it all the way through my Bows, but I got further I guess. So much stuff getting released. I wonder, is there an end to it? When did I hide so much garbage in my body?

I have a question for the ones more experienced with this substance. I have been experimenting with 5-MeO for a short while now with mild results only. My last try was the most I have done - 27mcg 5-MeO-DMT HCl plugged. I experienced some purging via energy shifting, but it did not feel too spectacular (very comparable to a short time of the shamanic breathing). I expected something more dramatic or powerful at this amount of 5-MeO. Should I proceed with 30 and go up? Or should I try 30 and just stick with 30 until something clicks? What could be the optimal dosing in my case?

Two modes of being I seem to be having to types of experiences. Being LOST and being FOUND. When I am lost I don't really know I am lost. It's a kind of blur. It is as though I get caught up in a strong current. It's as though I am drunk. Or as though I am asleep. Suddenly, something happens. That moment is very interesting. I become found. Everything is clear (to an extend, "foundness" seems to have degrees). The pain is lessened or often eliminated right away. Stuff is fresh. There is a kind of excitement. Without a doubt this is the preferable state. Sooo, if this is the state I enjoy more, how do I stay here forever? Well, this seems to be very puzzling. At the first glance, it seems as though some activity of the mind brings me here. And that would make sense from the lost point of view, where the mind has a lot of power. But when I am found, and the mind wonders how these states changes, it becomes apparent, that it doesn't switch through its effort. The mind is just noise it seems! And so it goes on and on. Back and forth. I forget that there is such a state as found, and then suddenly there it is again! Only to turn into the lost one, which is realized only when the found one is back! Crazy stuff. In need of further investigation...

Anti-fungal diet Today it turned out that only soaking amaranth is no good. I had to cook it for a while, which is a lot of hustle. Sprouting would probably work. But as I said, too much hustle. I will probably drop amaranth. Soaking buckwheat is amazing. Doesn't even take that long. 12 hours is enough to get some yummy food. This little nut seems to be very promising.

@zoey101 what about grounding? If you feel disconnected from life and people around you, I would guess your awareness of your body is not top notch either. Can you find time and place to walk barefoot outside? Do you interact with nature? If that is not a possibility, try to look into some basic grounding exercises. The basic one you could do right away is just standing up firmly on your feet (no shoes, no socks). Breathing as if into your feet. Feeling the connection with the ground. Maybe jumping a little and falling flat on the feet. Massaging them etc. Try to get the connection down there. Hope it helps!

5 Day Bow and Arch Challange Day 2/5 Dear Body, I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you. You have been neglected for a long time. Forgotten. Put aside. Taken for granted. You deserve better. You deserve my time and attention. You deserve the best food, the movement you desire and the pleasures which you crave. You deserve all that. I abandoned you before, but I want to make peace now. I want to understand and feel. Let's do it With love, I A lot of tension comes up with these exercises. There is a lot of discomfort in my body which I am avoiding. The Bow is still extremely difficult. The back of the neck and the lower back is very tight, hands are vibrating extremely and the mind drives me away from this position. I still could't make it for the full 3 minutes. Same with the Shamanic Breathing. It is not soooo uncomfortable that there is no way to stand it, the mind just makes it seem like a tragedy and a real threat. I will not give up so easily next time. It's not over mind bugs!

The Headless Way Oh the headless way! What a way! Such simplicity and ease in non-duality. That is amazing. No need talk of God, Brahman, the Self or whatever. I think everyone can get it easily with these exercises. A most interesting approach to spirituality. "You can't see your face!" - carry on noticing this

Anti-fungal diet I like eating things like porridge for breakfast. For a long, long time I used to eat oats with nuts and fruits every morning. As I am getting rid of most grains now, I want to substitute it with something. Some of the pseudo-grains that are actually seeds and would be ok for me are: buckwheat amaranth quinoa millet Some of them take a long time to cook though (amaranth ~ 30-40 minutes). That is a lot of time in the kitchen in the morning. I know I can soak buckwheat and it's amazing in the morning. I will experiment with soaking the other ones. I put some amaranth into water just a while ago and will see tomorrow how it is.