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Yep, just like Yogananda in this video (00:25)

The setting 2 or 3 weeks ago I packed my bag in the late afternoon and hiked into the forest. My very first insight was, that the human, and particularly the human mind, is very very noisy in contrast with nature. All of nature, even when making sounds, is quiet. Just the mind is constantly disturbed and disturbing. When I was far enough and was sure I would not be disturbed by any humans I built my tent and started mediating until the evening. I lay down and had a terrible night's sleep on a very uncomfortable surface. In the morning I woke up around 5am and started meditating. I was reluctant to get out of the tent, as it was pretty cold, but after a while I took a short walk. I was at a really beautiful place - a pine forest surrounding a small meadow. Ideal location for a trip. The LSD Around 8am I took 200mcg of LSD. It came up very quick. I was sitting in my tent meditating again, when my consciousness was transformed - my sens of self was very much loosened up and it was really easy to get deep into meditation, but also a lot of tough stuff was coming up. The main insight After a while I went out into the meadow and had a startling realization. I love nature. As this though came into my mind a lot of resistance appeared - 'That's really weird.', 'What a freak!', 'Nature boy!' and so on and so on. I realized that I was programmed by my society to reject nature. I was deeply conditioned. I gave it up and declared my love towards nature openly. I said - I love you - to all that was surrounding me from the bottom of my heart. Just like that, the duality between me and nature collapsed. What was present was nature. I was just one of the things in there. And what very much surprised me was that nature was very happy. Every tree, every bush, every insect and my body also was extremely joyful. I never noticed before. I was reminded of the taoist paintings of nature, where the human is just a small thing in one of the corners. Insignificant really, just one of the creatures hanging around the forest. Like this: Nature is the thing that was not created by the ego and that is why our love for it was banned by our culture. It's a shame, really. We are afraid of nature, and inside we love it so much. Nature as a healer For the rest of the day I was walking around the forest and the meadow very slowly and allowed for the various beings there to heal me. By beings I mean the trees, the grass, the sky the earth. Believe it or not, they are all very intelligent in their own way. It seemed like every plant had a lesson for me. Each leaf allowed me to project my shadow onto itself and teach me about reality. I understood what shamanism means. The depths of the body The trip seemed never ending. After about 7-8 hours my consciousness was still over the roof. I sat in my tent again and started breathing and feeling my body. I quickly went very, very deep inside discovering that there are entire dimensions inside of the body. Beautiful dimensions full of colorful mandalas and also hellish ones full of dark abysses. What an exploration! There is so much to discover right in here! The ego had enough It was around 8pm. I was tripping and meditating for the whole day and the mind begged me to stop. I would not give up, I was committed to doing a few more hours that day. The mind would threaten and beg again. It would try to talk me out of it. It tried all the tricks. The predator Suddenly I realized something was moving in the forest near me. I really sensed it before I heard it. It seemed big. My whole body went into fight or flight mode. Total terror. In a minute or so, I could hear it coming, breaking a few branches and sniffing very loudly. Just imagine my mind! It was going fucking crazy! Crazy, crazy! "It's a bear! I'm gonna die! That's it! It's gonna tear me apart!" Countless images of a huge bear eating the whole tent in one bite and so on. I was in a deep state of terror, but also very pleased in the back of my mind that I can work through this fear of death. In a minute, my rational mind kicked in saying. "Well, the ego might be right this time. You can get enlightened, but if you get eaten here, that's not much of a win." I had to give in. It was time for the ego this time. It won. When the sniffing stopped and the big guy left, I calmed my racing heart, and quickly ran away leaving the tent and all my stuff behind. What was it really? As I was far away and calmed down, I looked at the tracks on the ground. Just dear tracks. Oh man, I thought, the mind tricked me to leave in the end! I ran from a dear. But who knows... My message I am sharing this mostly because I think many people here don't trip in nature, don't do inner work in nature, don't encounter nature much. Nature is a kind of shadow of the human ego as a whole. We denied it and there is a great wound inside of us because of it. So... get in the forest and love nature again

maybe a moment you saw a baby smile? a moment someone offered you a random act of kindness? when your mother kissed you goodnight as a child? ...you know, love is often not very flashy. It's not what you think. It's quite ordinary and you do know it. If you really try to drop the ideas you have about love and think about it deeply, you will remember moments of love, you will remember love. Hope it helps Much love

@kieranperezI live very close to these forested hills. 30 minutes walk from my house and I am in the wild wild. There is a place where the forest opens up into a small meadow + there is a lookout tower, which is amazing. No humans, very peaceful. Just deer, squirrels, and yes, wild boars

Yeah, I'm aware of that. Fortunately I was on a lookout tower when I saw them and left the place right away.

Ok, all clear now. I went camping to the same place yesterday and spotted a group of wild boars. Maybe 5-6 adult ones and 10-15 piglets. A happy family. Anyway, I didn't stay there for the night, as I planned. It's their territory and I can be grateful for the mild treatment I received lat time.

I kept attending the breath and the body. Spontaneously there were some questions to contemplate coming up like - "Where is the border between me and nature?" - these helped me get my breakthroughs.

@traveler or just your projection? Some shadow-work material for you?

Taking care of the energies As I am discovering 'the depths of my consciousness', I can often feel disturbances in my energies. Here is a good recourse I found that helps me balance these out: Mukti - A Yogic Qi Gong Routine with Instruction

Meditation is my passion. I want to devote my life to studying an practicing this art. Even though my meditation practice was pretty unsystematic until now, I am very pleased with my spiritual progress. I can foresee, that if I make my practice and study into a system, even greater benefits can be achieved for me and for others. My informal practice so far was self-inquiry, breath-awareness and body-awareness. My formal practice so far was do-noting, self-inquiry, body scan, metta etc. I want to study Shinzen Young's Unified Mindfulness. I think Shinzen's system doesn't include energy work (Kundalini, Qi Gong...), so I'd like to study that separately. I want to study Neidan, the Taoist energy works. This is more or less it for now. I'll be expanding on it soon.

effortless effort

I was inspired by the Duality miniseries to make this poster to put on my wall. Here I chose a few of the dualities I want to contemplate the most.

Hello all programmers. I know nothing much about programming, but I am considering creating a very simple video game. What would be a relatively easy language to start with, to get going with this? Would it be possible with bash/python? Thanks in advance!

Reminded me of this:

Every time you spot some rotten food, a dying tree, a pile of dog shit, moldy spot, or anything disgusting, sick, bad, dead... notice how you feel about it and open your heart ❤️

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It was quite challenging for me.

Just like Thich Nhat Hanh always says, breath and smile

ADMINS! This thread is possibly inappropriate. If so, please take down. I am sure there is plenty seekers hanging around here, who would love some help with their spiritual process. In my experience, associating with enlightened masters is one of the best ways to awaken. You basically catch it by osmosis. With that being said, there is a group online led by two awakened beings meeting twice a week. They offer their presence and what they call Christ Consciousness Transmission. Sitting with them and getting this energy transmission is truly wonderful. Often times, two more spiritual teachers join in. It's a really good company to hang out with Here you can see more information as well as instructions on how to take part: https://endless-satsang.com/christ-consciousness-transmission.htm Here are interviews with the awakened couple leading the group: I am aware that this might be considered as advertisement and therefore inappropriate here, but I get the sense that a lot of people here could use this sort of thing

That's a great help in letting go. Thanks for the reminder

Yeah, totally. I read 'meh' books too, but when the right book comes, it feels really different and I am really into it. Just read Adyashanti's "End of Your World", which was like that. another book by Hawkins' is there

I'll @Ponder that.

It really feels like an unhealthy way to go about things. To much push.

My practices