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I think you believe you don't have free will. That's a difference. Stop believing that.

That's the time for lungs detox. Just saying.

"There are, strictly speaking, no enlightened people, there is only enlightened activity." -Shunryu Suzuki

This is exactly the attitude that will keep you in your current state for so long, that it becomes too unbearable and you will have to do something. Don't wait.

Make sure you pick the right mushrooms. And maybe... although, as I understand from what you wrote, you will have a schedule of mediation, yoga etc... allow yourself to improvise when the urge hits you. E.x. when your self inquiry is going very well and you are almost at the breakthrough, skip your jurnaling that was planned

My advice: go sit in an empty room for a week. Alone. Silent. (airbnb is good for this )

The last couple of days I was inquiring constantly. Working and contemplating myself deeply. Taking care of the body, eating, talking and keeping the questioning going fully. I did not know it's possible to be so fully immersed in contemplation and live life. Yesterday evening I was tripping and played this video: There was a great fear of this strange man and at the same time I felt as if he was pulling my soul from my body. I allowed this. Then I played this: As Ralston was doing his hand thing, I got who I am. Some minutes later the ego flew back in like a tornado. Damn, that was really uncomfortable. As if an imp, a disgusting creature has possessed me. Oh man, that was the worst feeling ever. Fortunately, I saw it coming clearly and I did not mistake it for myself right away. There was some struggle back and forth. And yes. I see who I am. I knew this all along during my contemplations, I just didn't know that that's what it is... so to say. It's a miracle, really.

I think it would be good manners to ask him if you can

? @flowboy Thank you.

@kieranperez Yep, I really like your posts too You might also want to check out the author's facebook page. He regularly does live satsangs and it's possible to talk to him afterwards.

@milii Is there something you find beautiful? Is there a place you love to go to? Is there an activity that you know is true for you? What is it for you? Don't say nothing, everyone has these things. Think about it, find it and make your stand there. Find your passion for life in 'this thing', that you know is there for you. You know what I am speaking of, don't you? There is something.

how can I help?

The body is not mine. It is borrowed from Mother Nature. My duty/privilege is to return these cells full of consciousness and love.

'What remains of Edith Finch' is an amazing, beautiful short game with the theme of death. 'Firewatch' is also a short walking-exploration game bringing up a lot to think about.

Hey DPT pluggers! How much water do you use to dissolve these 50-60-70mcg doses of DPT? Thanks!

I don't agree. You can be a great mediator, but a terrible teacher. A course can show you how to share your skills.

I think it's more like 'transform'.

There is a really good paragraph ('Psychedelics as way-showers') on the topic in this article. Check it out

@lmfao deep/amazing? I don't know. There is not much knowledge or intellectual understanding to take away, if that is what you mean. It's not trying to teach you anything, it's just trying to make you see and feel that love is all there is. I was simply blown away by the energy from page one. It really resonated. Each time I looked into it, great bliss would come over me, so much so that I had trouble reading. Might not be like that for you... But yeah, in this way, it is super amazing.

Thanks

Shinzen's system seems really broad and well thought out.

I find that, paradoxically, when you surrender totally during unhealthy activities (any activity actually), a new perspective comes up that gets you free of that activity or recontextualaizes it.

A little bit about me: I am 22. About 2,5 years ago I had an awakening induced by LSD. That experience made me quit university (I just finnished the first year) and start travelling. I have been traveling and working odd jobs on and off ever since. My prime goal in mind always being to find happiness, freedom, enlightenment. Since the initial awakening I also started studying personal development, Leo's work and started meditating. Slowly I came to the realization that meditation is the key to what I am looking for. All the time, my parents have been encouraging me to come back and study. I saw the reason in that and decided to study social studies. I like working with people, it would not be bad, I thought. And so until recently I was sure I would start studying in September. However things have changed. I had a realization. I am not interested in social studies. I am not interested in going to college. I only planned to do it in order to please my parents and above all to insure some kind of security for myself. This would ensure a few more lesiure years with my parents supporting me and a degree, which could get me a regular job. My parents made it clear that if I don't go to college now, I am on my own and have to take care of myself. Instead I want to fully comit to going inside and discovering consciousness further. That is all that brings me contentment. That is all that interests me. That is what I want to share with the world. In order to do that, I would go live in a yoga ashram and stay there for a year or two. Or who knows how long. That would allow me a supportive environment for my practice, free of distractions and a community of people sharing my goals. My big concern that keeps coming up is, what will I do when I come back into the world? I will have no proffesion to work in. No money. No buisness. No degree. Literally nothing. I can get enlightened, but I will come back with nothing. How will I survive in the world? That is the big fear. My insecurity. I value all of your opinions and that is why I am writing this post. If you have a perspective on this, please share it with me. Do you think it's a waste of time and resources to go live in an ashram? Do you think that stabilizing myself financially should come first?