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I have been practicing mindful meditation for about a 2 months now, roughly one month ago I started practicing the do-nothing mediation technique by Shinzen Young. the objective. As i understood was to let any though come and go without tampering with the thoughts or emotions. now since the age of about 13 or 14 (can't quite remember) I was watching porn. I started off with soft then went to hardcore. I stopped watching since the age of 17 due to reading up on the nofap website about all the benefits that come with stopping porn. I was an addict. It started affecting my life as i became more emotionally unstable, i am now 18 and a half years old. My problem is the reoccurring wet dreams that I keep getting. I have read up on some sites that it is normal to get wet dreams whilst others say that it isn't normal. Every time i have a wet dream it drowns me and makes me feel like shit. I tried affirmation such as I am positive but they seem to have little to no effect as they occur at random nights, so i can't judge whether i'm getting results or not. I am trying to remove wet dreams from my life. When i first read about the benefits of do-nothing meditation i was excited as I understood that you clean your mind from all the things in the subconscious such as porn which caught my interest as wet dreams would stop all together if i eliminated the sexual thoughts and beliefs that were stored deep in my subconscious from all the years of watching porn. My first practice session with the mindfulness meditation technique shocked me. The first thought that came up into my mind was about sexual fantasies such as foot worship and other domination type porn which is what i used to watch when i was younger. I kept with the thoughts until it got really intense, i had a huge erection and though I would ejaculate. I was also scared that that would lead me to start watching porn again which is why i freaked out as the thoughts didn't change to anything else than sex. I manually changed my thoughts and kept them away from sexual thoughts which is not what the do-nothing meditation technique was about. The sexual thoughts became so intense at moments that I though i had lost control over thinking about something else which scared me a lot The second session was the same as only sexual thoughts and fantasies kept coming up. I recently changed to the mindfulness meditation technique as i though the sexual thoughts would cause me to go back to porn which is not something i could allow at any cost as i would feel miserable. Any help on this matter would be really appreciated as I don't know what to do. I keep having wet dreams up to this day and feel miserable every time it happens. I want it to stop and think the root of this problem lies in my subconscious.Sorry if i violated any rules with the pornographic words and descriptions used. Again any help on this matter would be highly appreciated. I posted this under meditation as that is what i though this would be most relevant to. I felt reluctant to post this as I do not like talking about my problems, especially sexual ones but felt safer talking about it online so here it is.

I have been doing affirmations for about 2 months but haven't noticed many results, i spend 5 minutes daily repeating the affirmation, am i doing something wrong, would appreciate any feedback

as i have understood emotions are a result of a though in your mind. Find the thought so you can identify why your angry. Once you've identified the thought, ask yourself why you are angry over the thought. You may not be able to find the thought is it's deep within your subconscious. If you can't you can try positive affirmations on YouTube. I personally listen to 450+ positive affirmations by Bernadette Logue. After listening to it for about a month without skipping days I do feel more positive and happier. I find that with affirmations if you do not add emotion they are not as effective. I suggest listening to some positive affirmations and then go on to create some affirmations of your own. Visualize yourself doing what you say in your affirmation and feel the great positive vibe that you would get if you were living your affirmation. Do not skip days if you choose to listen to positive affirmations as you are trying to reprogram your subconscious which requires consistence and effort. Try to relax whilst listening as it helps your mind buy into the affirmation Also check out this video by you are creators which talks about positive affirmations and other great topics. This video made me instantly feel great. Check it out and tell me your thoughts

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If you have never done push ups before in your life I don't suggest starting with 100 per day as you will most probably burn out. I would start off with 5 and increase the number by 5 each week so you are gradually building up. I think it is also easier on the mind to get used to doing push ups as 5 push ups isn't much but it was enough for me to start doing them as I didn't feel overwhelmed with pressure which is one of the main reasons i think that people keep backsliding with their habits. I also personally tend to look at the mirror and tense after doing my push ups and sit ups as it makes me feel good to see my muscles after tensing. It gets me pumped on doing more as I can see some progress, even if it is minor. I also approached meditation the same way. I am currently spending 40 minutes daily meditating (haven't skipped any days in my meditation practice.). I started off with 10 minutes and bumped it to 20 minutes after a month, then 30 minutes after 2 months and eventually bumped it up to 40 minutes. The most important thing for me personally was to put the habit into place even if you have to do less or spend less time doing it in order to create the habit. Leo has said that it takes roughly a month, maybe 2 to form the habit so if you have to spend less time or do less in order for the habit to be implanted then so be it.

I have watched Leo's video about affirmations and followed the instructions. My affirmation is I am naturally positive, I do add the emotion of being happy and positive into it and try to visualize a positive environment where i am being positive whilst saying my affirmation if that is what you mean by applying action