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@MartineF thank you

@A way to Actualize ok thanks, i will check him out!

@Man in the Mirror I respond normally: "fuck you" "fuck off" something like that or i just laugh it off! even if it hurts, i just dont make them feel it!

@vizual Insecure very much! but im definetly not needy, you see they are the ones who always call me, everyday we spend together. its not like that i am needy and trying to keep them. its really fucekd up and strange. and they have tons of insecurities, but i dont make them feel like shit for it! It would be totally wrong from me as a friend to remind them about it all the time, thats how i feel, but they constantly do the opposite and i feel like i am the only one who has to compromise!

@theinevitableandi i do ask. but it seems it just isnt going anywhere? i ask these questions but nothing comes up! i just sit there and total silence, well not total silence as thoughts constantly come up, but leo has said that the answer wont be given by mind.

So I watched leos video about self-acceptance and while I was doing guided visualization i just couldnt give love to my parts! I couldnt even feel this love emotion. how can I do it?

leo said that enlightenment is our true nature. enlightened self is the true self. well if so that means that a newborn child must be enlightened before his ego is developed. but as leo said that is not the case. why is that so and how the fuck is it the natural state for us? and how the fuck is such timeless, omnipresent, unchangable thing that is us so easily mistaken about its own nature?

oo I see! if you dont enjoy it then you should probably give it up. good luck!

why should you?

@shouldnt Heyy, WOW what a temper you have got. Firstly, you are beautiful. Ok, so i can emphathize with you on this, been feeling like worthless piece of shit for long now, i have forgotten how it feels to be happy, fulfilled, to have confidence, to love and respect yourself, so i feel like a hipocrite for trying to encourage you. well, dont let anyone tell you or make you feel like you are piece of shit! you are unique, you are an universe, you have your own story, background. be proud of who you are. remember that we all feel fucked up about ourselves, thats part of being human! accept yourself for who you are, for what you have endured! you are tough. Feel all those emotions fully, dont try to avoid them or to distract your self! I can assure you that things will change and i hope that the cloud thats raining over your head will soon dissapear. wish you endurance and all the best, remember people care here.

@8LanguageStud congrats. did you feel something coming before, some sort of build up before experience or did it just happen randomly? can you describe your enlightenment experience in details?

@kalter000 nice to know.

Dont avoid emotions like sadness, depression, sorrow, guilt. when i feel depressed i listen to sad songs and try to completely feel this emotions, its quite soothing!

so you say that if i listen to jump by van halen i will commit suicide by jumping off a building? dont take these things too seriously, some of the music lyrics give me very good and interesting insights!

share your ideas and experiences please. If such transformations have happened in your lives? how did they happen? how can you become one? Im interested to hear your thoughts.

i agree with you on that definition!

thanks for sharing your thoughts!

Initially i was able to stop smoking very easily for several months and i have lost desire and everything, but once me and my friends were drinking and i smoked several cigarettes that evening and the next day it started again, but now i dont consider that much of a problem. just relax and dont try too hard. if you wanna be a smoker, so be it. my guess is, when you become more and more self-actualized that habit will go away, good luck on your journey!

@Rasmus jesus christ im dying

So heres the thing no matter how much i think about it and prepare myself, once i face some guys who have names of badasses, tough guys, when i interact with them i always feel like shit compared to them, and im very nervous and i cant control that. i think that they are gonna humiliate me, insult me and then i have to stand up for myself and fight back, and what if i cant do that, or do that but still get humiliated, or beaten because im not a good fighter, im very weak physically and clumsy so. anyways this feeling of weakness, and cowardice is destroying me, i hate myself and my life, if im such a pussy, how can i even live? how can i meet a girl and make her my girlfriend if i cant stand up for myself, how can i do that for her?

@Phrae thank you for you advice! i appreciate it

@Phrae nicely said, your right!

@ite thanks i ll check it out!

@Natura Sonoris actually im not afraid of physical confrontation and getting my ass handed to me as much as verbal. i would rather stand my ground verbally and if i get beaten like shit for that i would be very proud!

@Harry actually im not blaming circumstances or other people for the way i am. i take responsibility and blame no one but my self for my situation.