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Don't try to change your feelings, brah. Huge rookie mistake. Observe them, bring them to your attention with the fullest intensity you possibly can, but do not be attached to them. It's hard to comprehend what pure observation is compared to getting attached to feelings if you're new to the whole mindfulness thing. To know whether or not you're getting attached to them, ask yourself if you're leading yourself to more thoughts that are negative in nature. Also, try to notice how it affects your behavior. Pretend if you were watching your favorite TV show and your roommates asshole cat that you hate jumps in front of the TV. If you were being mindful of the situation you would assess the situation very objectively, the cat has jumped in front of the TV and is obscuring my view of the TV and the feeling of anger has manifested itself in response. If you're not being mindful, you might get really angry, get up and punch the cat out of the way. This is a really simplistic way of looking at how you should practice this, but I think it's a good way for you to see it if you're new to this and it seems you are. Accept what is happening and it so happens you are someone who gets angry, anxious, and depressed. This is ok, you are human and these things will happen like a rock rolls down a hill. Don't try to control things that you can't control, it will only cause more problems. Good luck, gangster.
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I'm very self-aware and continue to become more self-aware everyday. Not sure where you're going with this. I just sound like a neurotic ass who has zero self-awareness, partly because I am incredibly neurotic, but also because I'm honest about the thoughts and feelings passing in the mind. I don't have a Jesus complex just because I meditate and embrace the very flawed human side of myself. In terms of sex, I like sex with women. When I have sex with one woman after a few months it starts to get pretty boring and stale. I mean it's ok I guess, but it's nothing like that first week when you first do it with a new person. Part of my sexual enjoyment is new women and that urge ever goes away in the long run, for me. I thought that's how most men felt, deep inside if they're being honest with themselves. No matter how much you love your wife or girlfriend, no matter how hot they are, you always just want to fuck other women on the side. Am I wrong? And I don't want my partner to do the same because I'm selfish and I hate the idea of her being with someone else, probably just some instinctual desire that's pretty ingrained. It's really all just selfishness, but it's there and it's not going to magically poof away with introspection.
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Heart of Space replied to DizIzMikey's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I took a pretty enlightened shit earlier, felt great. The log looked like Sadguru's face a little too. Does that count? It was a giant dump, surely the percentage of self lost in the process was enough to drop my identity. -
Wow, negative Nancy over here. Leave the body and continue to be unconscious? What? How does one remain existing as an unconscious being when they are dead? Pretty much none of the new age mumbo jumbo is correct, if any at all. It's mostly just beliefs and concepts people are creating, which are no better than religious beliefs. I probably won't exist forever and enlightenment could very well be and probably is bullshit, I acknowledge all of that. You don't have to be nice to me at all, that's not a prerequisite in interacting with me.
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Actually, I kind of support this idea. As long as you can do it safely and the girl is cool and nice as to be positive to your self-esteem. It will show you that sex isn't that big of a deal and you will stop thinking about it as much as you currently do. You will not stop thinking about it though lol. But, ironically sex will come much easier after you don't care as much about it. Just don't get addicted to hookers, dawg. Don't listen to all these goody two shoe, flacid weenars in here. Just do it, trust me, mang. I never give bad advice.
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Threesomes are overrated as fuck. Have had quite a few at this point. Girl, girl, me, and guy, me, girl. The girl, girl ones were ok, but really all I wanted to do was fuck the newer girl solo, because of novelty factor. But, you can't really just do that because you will make the other girl jealous most of the time. So, if you're a nice and polite person like me you worry about stuff like that which takes your mind off the pleasure. The guy, girl, guy ones were annoying. Most of the time, me and the girl just wait till the other male (her husband) gets too drunk and we bang by ourselves and it's waaaaaaaaay more enjoyable. I know this seems scummy, but he doesn't care at all, he actually likes that his wife is desired and banged by other males. Anyways, all they are is pretty much bragging rights. Which is fun for all about five minutes when you realize you're just being a shallow twat.
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The answer is no. More interesting question, thread poster: Can I get yo numba?
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Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I wasn't necessarily referring to you in regards to an emotional reaction, oh holy one. And make sure your regards aren't too warm as I may receive an erection. Unless, that's what you want... joy and happiness to all Zen Satan -
Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
lol wtf happened to my post and how do I delete? -
Heart of Space replied to Ayla's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Reoowww -
Heart of Space replied to Ayla's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I really like cats. -
Heart of Space replied to abrakamowse's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
So far the legit ones I've seen are Rupert Spira, Adyashanti, and Jetsunma Tenzin Palmo. Leo is legit too, but he's not as deep as these guys since he's only a few years in. Leo is certainly awesome though. Fake enlightened shit list: Sadguru. This guy is the biggest fraud ever lol, fuck that guy. Some of the pure bullshit that comes out of his mouth is halarious. I can't believe people buy into that joke. -
Heart of Space replied to Leo Gura's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I enjoyed the documentary quite a bit. With that said, I'm always somewhat put off by this deification of people as holy men. Yoganada was a human like the rest of us and it's like they're trying to spin him into some kind of mythical religious figure. Not a problem with Yoganada himself, but a problem with how the documentary creators are viewing him through rose tinted glasses. Perhaps they should have added a scene where one of his disciples aptly described the stench and visual spectacle of his dumps so that the audience better understands his human-ness. -
Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
How is it necessarily dysfunctional and how do you know my motivations better than I do? You backed your statement with absolutely zero reasoning what-so-ever. You can call any explanation for behavior a rationalization. What's dysfunctional is having an emotional reaction to my words. You're just too attached with the idea of acting in a particular manner that you perceive to be "functional." Yea, look how polite I am, god I'm so self-aware and enlightened. I'm practically Jesus himself. Perhaps I'll end my post with a gay ass tag line like, "much joy and happiness to all." much joy and happiness to all phaggots Not really, but really don't take shit so serious. -
Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Ya, it's cool man. Everyone is so somber and nice here, I feel like it's partly a little disingenuous. Not that you're being disingenuous at all. But, when I see an environment like that I get the urge to be a contrarian. I don't know why really, I've always done that. Plus, when seeing how people react you get to see how self-aware they are and it's kind of how I pick out who to listen to and how much to respect what they have to say. Idk, I don't really mean to hurt feelings or anything. It's just my way of exploring people and their reactions by poking them in a way they didn't expect. -
Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
It twas a joke, buddy. You're taking the internet a little too serious right now lol. -
Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I'm kind of an outrageous person. It's ok, we all have raised our self-awareness enough so that petty words shouldn't bother you at all, fa*****. Very true. Enjoyed the video. Sorry, OP, I'm a cu** sometimes. Don't be russled. Edit: Censorship!? Leo I am disappoint. -
It feels like I'm on a mission to perform heart surgery on a elephant with a toothpick, and the elephant is in an undisclosed room in a pitch black building that happens to e the biggest building in the world. I've been on this mission for a solid 2 years now and I have nothing lol. Enlightened people make it sound like it's so obvious and easy I'm probably just missing something. Anyone have thoughts about this, or feel similar(Question mark) (my question mark button is broke)
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Heart of Space replied to Guivs's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
You do realize you can post video's right? So go on... And to be quite blunt I don't give a flying fuck at what elevation he was doing meditation, lets see the content of what he has to say. -
Heart of Space replied to Heart of Space's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Yea, I feel that too. I know now exactly what I have to do. Drop the illusion of self. Previous to this I was seeking, conceptualizing, then I realized I can't conceptualize, but then I was conceptualizing about not conceptualizing about nothing. Making it way more complicated then it is. Thanks guys and gals, ya'll have been great teachers. -
Heart of Space replied to Heart of Space's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I probably haven't had the full realization, but that video really helped. Because I've somewhat seen through the illusion of self. I still find myself attributing things to "I" that is false, so I'm not fully realized. But I have had the experience of seeing that my feelings are literally just nothing taking the form of that feeling or "layering" over it in a skin tight way. It's hard to put into words. But yes, you're the nothing, not the thing. Still, I feel I'm pretty caught up in the illusion of self. Now I feel like I can fully cut out all the seeking and journeying to find this so called state of enlightenment. Cut out the extra nonsense so to speak. -
Heart of Space replied to Heart of Space's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
That's really all it is? I've seen this before. My thoughts and feelings are things, which are wrapped in a skin tight nothing and I am that nothing, not the content of that thing. Lol, it really is pretty simple then. I've already had the realization, I just didn't know that was what people meant by enlightenment. If that's really it, then there are a lot of people that are simply full of shit and shouldn't be talking about the subject. This is really super easy and simple to see. You could meditate for a few months and probably nail this no problem. -
Heart of Space replied to Heart of Space's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
"I came, I returned, it was nothing special" I laughed out loud at this. Great video. I think I'm starting to see my errors. I'm expecting something and I've even fooled myself to think that I'm not expecting something, but I'm still conceptualizing expecting nothing. This is such difficult work for a lowly human with a small amount of self-awareness. -
Heart of Space replied to Heart of Space's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
So, I've gotten to the point where I can see that I'm an illusion, but I have a problem. Whenever I try "to be," or put my attention on awareness itself I get all these concepts that pop up of what that should be. Should I just keep flattening the illusions of these concepts and images in my mind to progress? I can't see what's already there, fuck this is hard, ese. -
Heart of Space replied to Heart of Space's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Yea, that's been a big problem for me. I try to intellectualize and logic out everything that comes up in my meditation. I've gotten very, very good at being a mindful observer of thoughts and perceptions as they arise and fall in the mind without getting caught up in them. But, being a scientifically minded logical thinker I always try to logically understand the implications of everything and give myself a logical progression to work towards enlightenment. I almost have a romantic love of logical and rational thinking that is very deep ridden within myself. I've only recently been able to turn that off after an hour or so of meditation in a single sit. It's very hard for me to get past. Once I do, there's much more silence in the mind. I feel like I'm getting close to were I need to be, but there's no hint, no path, no goal, nothing to get me to enlightenment. So, this has become a someone defeating journey for me. Yet, I still continue to do this. I'm even skeptical about the whole idea and go in between believing enlightenment is something that can be realized, or that it's complete bullshit and I'm wasting my time. Oh well, meditating and mindfulness is a deeply ingrained habit at this point so I'll continue. Big thanks to everyone who has posted here. I actually feel like a lot of posts here stimulated a greater amount of self-awareness and I've made some short hops in progress just reading your posts. Appreciate the love guys, I hope you all are successful in your attempts to increase your awareness as well.