Heart of Space

My lord dude, you're making life way harder on yourself. You have a habit, it's nothing to be ashamed of. Are you deeply ashamed when you watch too much TV or go on the internet for too long? Or drink your daily coffee? Or eat a do-nut? For fucks sake, this is part of the problem with no-fap it make people feel bad for doing something that's hardly a big deal. You're literally adding a ton of psychological stress on yourself for a fairly benign behavior and that stress adds to your need to continue performing said addictive behaviors in your life. It's a bad way to be man, no need to feel bad about something that's completely normal. I'd say that's the first step to quitting.

No fap people tend to way overstate the benefits. But yes, there's definitely clear benefits. I'd distill the main ones down to simple increase in focus, will power, and a more clear head. This shit about how it shifts the world around you like you took a limitless pill is a load of poo. Definitely worth doing, but it's not magic or anything.

It's your choice, bud. If the meds work correctly, yes they kind of zombify you, but that's only a temporary numbing of your extreme negative psychological experience of life. That allows you to take more action than you would have previously. If you're really on the edge with the suicide stuff and you're not able to integrate better behaviors and patterns into your life because your too depressed they are an option that can help you get beyond that. After a while you can simply get off them and stop being a zombie when you feel appropriate. It can be a good option for people like you, but again it is your choice. I just hope you're not irrationally shrugging this off as an option because it could really help you.

Sorry guys, had a few drinks last night and transformed into a cu** for a minute. Sorry about that, I'm entertained with myself at the time, but I'm always embarrassed the next day. Now to go make this same apology post, but over on Facebook. Trolled my conservative grandmother on some post about the Vegas shooting and gun control.

Lol, you didn't fully trip on Salvia then, homie. I'm not saying you didn't smoke it, because you probably did. Very common for people to not get the full effects at first or even for a second or third try. It kind of has a reverse tolerance sort of effect if you don't do it fully proper. If you had even a slightly legit salvia trip you are gone, G-O-N-E. Motor function is gone. Period. Sounds like you had the typical tried it once, but didn't get the real effects teenage salvia non-trip (but the slight change in consciousness caused a placebo that made me feel like I had some crazy experience that I call ego death, but wasn't really ego death). Salvia for most people is a trip straight to hell. Enjoy.

My singular experience was reading your great posts my master Guru Maynor-san. I am little more enlightened form your response. Thanks for setting me straight. I am sorry, OP, I was way off base.

Reminds me a bit of this forum to be honest. Around every corner is someone who had a singular experience wants to play teacher/guru and way overuses the word "fucking" for emotional emphasis like a pre-teen.

Only a playful joke, friend. No need to be concerned though, I assure you the cries of sexism was just marketing damage control when the movie trailers were receiving (very valid) heavy criticism. The response was to poison the well of the critics by saying they were biased due to their sexism. There was no such actual sexism (no more than normal at least).

If you thought Ghost Busters 2016 was a good movie, no we cannot get along. We just can't. Sorry.

Op, I get your hate of psychiatry, it's definitely partially, mostly, warranted. Buuuut, but, but, you may actually need something at least temporarily to numb the psychological pain, anxiety, and depression so that you can start to create better habits and behaviors for yourself. Consider getting on an anti-depressant. Stay away from benzodiazepines like it's the black plague, find a therapist that you really like, and once the anti-depressant kicks in a works properly try to start introducing positive behavior patterns into your life. Like meditation, exercise, eating healthy, finding meaningful loving relationships with others, and so on. Trust me enough to at least consider this option, it may save your life. Good luck, OP, please update us in the future on what you decide to do and how you are doing. You're accountable to the people of this forum now. I wish there was negative reputation to give. This is literally the worst advice I've ever heard. Literally the opposite of what he needs.

I agree with the majority of the posts. One thing I'd like to add: Most psychedelic users are familiar with the description of tryptamines as an experience that "comes in waves." Meaning you go up and down in intensity sort of like a roller coaster. Natural substances tend to be much smoother roller coasters than synthetics in general. LSD is sort of a wild up and down roller coaster experience where as my personal favorite and often forgotten mescaline is a smooth journey with gradual inclines and declines. Same with psilocybin, and ayahuasca. This doesn't always apply, as I've never taken AL-LAD, but based on everyone's description here it sounds very similar to the natural substances in terms of the intensity of the wave phenomenon.

That's a good question I've wondered about myself. I've always thought of awareness as being the thing that purely knows your reality and consciousness is the apparent content of awareness. For example, if I get drunk awareness does not change, but my consciousness does. As in the content vs pure knowing or being. I'm curious to hear answers from those who've thought this through deeper than I.

@Leo Gura Haha, well with your experience and level of care you put into it I'd say that you can handle it. I'd actually like to hear your opinion on that substance, which most people (including my 20 year old self) say is pretty negative and non-comparable to tryptamine substances. I know I'm being off topic so I'll stop, but I'm just curious what your experiences have been like.

Yea, that's how I used to remember it here in Texas. On another note, who the hell needs x100 extract? Lmao, so many poor unsuspecting teenagers gonna get blasted to an infinite hell scape.

I thought it was. You used to be able to get it at your random smoke shops, but they quit selling it years ago. edit: Googled it, apparently it's not illegal federally, but a lot of states made it illegal.

The difference between Vipassana and Self-Inquiry is that Vipassana looks to dissolve everything related to the ego. All your neurotic behaviors, thought patterns, cravings, and aversions. Everything. Self-inquiry goes straight to attempting to dissolve all thoughts and mental constructs that you have of "self" to get to a state of "no-self" as quickly as possible. Both are valid techniques, one is just more focused with a very specific goal and purpose in mind. I prefer Vippassana because I view it will produce a more 'complete' result, but that's only my personal feelings and bias. Do what feels right for you.

Hey Leo, could you do more vids with button up where the top buttons are undone? Asking for a friend.

Never tried on psychedelics. I knew a guy who was an LSD user who took it one time and tried to read and he found he already understood every book he picked up and flipped through the pages. Or at least he thought. Interesting experience I'm sure.

You're overthinking a mild mushroom trip me thinks. I'd say, yes to trip sitter, but for all other things you may want to acclimate yourself with the psychedelic experience first before you start making too many plans. Because if you actually go into even mildly deep water your plan will go bye bye.

Those scores on the labels are complete horse shit by the way. Take 3 grams first, 2 if you're a bit of a pussy. Nothing wrong with being a pussy on your first time, sometimes it's a good idea.

One. Me. The rest of you are all unenlightened plebs.

I went a solid 3 or 4 months with no sex or masturbation and admittedly the effects were far more significant that I would have originally thought. I had greater focus, more awareness and sensitivity to my emotions, thoughts, and feelings. It was very helpful. I broke the period with sex and the sex caused me to fall into my old habits somewhat, but I'm working to get back to abstaining for a while. Once you go for a while your urges go down significantly and you don't even care that much for sex. It's actually very freeing considering it's all I used to think about practically.

I'm not the spiritual community. Neither of us actually know his motivations, but does he not sound like a proselytizing mormon? I think that's a pretty apt description. Acting like he did works to push people away from spiritual idea's because it's socially awkward and makes him look like a kook. Get me in a room with people and I could at least put certain idea's across in a socially cohesive way so that people accept a lot of the idea's. It's not even that hard. I've gotten a fair amount of completely non-spiritual people in my life meditating and it wasn't by walking around them in circles going out of my way to act eccentric and telling them they don't exist and 'things are only happening.' If I did that they'd just look at me like that interviewer did and say, 'oooooookkkk....' and then awkwardly slink away. Which is the same way one acts when someone comes up to them saying, "can I take a minute to tell you about how you can be saved by our lord Jesus Christ?"

The room stays dark? That's going to feel like a month with your lack of ability to tell the time. I'm also curious what places are doing something like this. Seems somewhat psychologically dangerous if you aren't ready tbh.

If you have family that has had mental illness show up due to drugs than the answer is a definitive no. I believe you already know this, but want to go onto this forum and have other people justify your decision to take them anyways. You're welcome to do so, but you're playing Russian roulette with your mental health. If you are going to do them anyways stick to small doses and avoid certain psychedelics. I'd probably do a small amount of mescaline or psilosybin if I were you.