Heart of Space

Yes, but who is the one who's asshole is being fucked?

You can live countless lives. Experience paradoxes or impossibilities, or even be annihilated and become oblivion itself. It's really quite something worthy of the most intense astonishment.

You want to know the kicker? That sadness you feel now has always been there. The LSD just brought it to the surface and forced you to look at it dead in the eyes in the most vivid and blunt way possible. The important part now is to stay on point with your meditation practice. This part can be unpleasant, but give it time and have faith that you'll be better for it in the long run. The alternative is to go back to hiding from it in TV, internet, food, drugs, sex, or whatever distractions you have. You have to face it eventually, just do it now and you'll achieve a level of happiness you didn't think was possible.

I agree.

If you know deception for what it is you aren't being deceived. Deception comes from ignorance and if you are ignorant you are not fully enlightened.

If I were you I'd wait on the DMT till a later date. You have to establish yourself strongly in mindfulness before going deep into psychedelics in my opinion. You're trying to run from your suffering it seems rather than facing it and looking it straight in the eyes. Looking it straight in the eyes is hard to do, but necessary. Becareful, be smart, be safe. I'm sorry you feel so alone and unloved. Good luck, whatever you decide to do.

Take it in a house, take it with a mouse, take it in a box, take it with a fox, take it here of there, take it anywhere. Where ever you take it it will not matter because you aren't in your environment anymore. But, probably do it in a safe place, on a soft sofa, or bed, with someone you trust watching over you.

Is it ok to celebrate? Genuine question.

Yes, and maybe? It depends on your level of experience, but yea you can go even further than just access concentration.

Yea, sorry, I'm having a tough time even typing about it on a forum to strangers. Sad, right? Had the kind of experience that makes me want to leave civilization and pursue God full time, you know? This is some tough work if you really truly want to get to the goal. Way more than I ever originally bargained for. But, might as well ride this to the end I guess.

Glad that she was ok. Sorry to assume the gender.

I won't lie. I'm pretty confused and bewildered.

Was he ok? Damn.

That is a really good answer. Thank you.

I'm all for calling out fake guru's, god knows there's plenty of them out there. But this article is incredibly bad. One of his points was that he said "fuck you" once, but if you actually see the context he was clearly trying to make a point regarding the meaning of words and our minds projection over them. The dude could be a total charlatan, but this article is clearly not an objective reporting of the facts. It's a character assassination peice. I have no affiliation with this "guru," nor do I care to even listen to his teachings.

Yea funny enough this thread reminded me that the wim hoff breathing method was a thing so I started trying it again. I think it does something, but it's fairly subtle. I agree about the meditative state though, it definitely relaxes me in a way that's ideal for meditation. I sometimes get a mild euphoria after 4 to 5 sets. Idk, it will probably be something that I experiment with here and there.

I started initially with a few minutes of cold shower at the end of a warm one. I've moved up to submerging myself in my pool now that it's winter time. I do about 10 minutes in the water at about 40 degrees F. The pain sort of creates a large motivation to stay in an intensely focused state, so that the pain of the cold sort of disappears. The benefits I've noticed are an increase in physical and mental energy, better mood, and it puts you into a mindful and lucid state of consciousness which is a great way to start the day. There are also many physical health benefits such as increased immune function and heavy anti-inflammatory effects. I highly recommend meditating a bit, getting into the cold water for 10 minutes and then meditating when you get out for a while. You'll likely have great results.

I never really found much benefit to the breathing and I've done a lot of it. However, cold submersion has been very helpful.

I got one here in about two weeks as well. Which one are you going to? Just ask for a chair if you think you're going to need one, just don't get so comfortable that it makes you sleepy and not alert. Will it change you? I mean for 10 days if you put in the full effort the effect is pretty substantial, but ultimately if it changes you is mostly up to whether or not you keep up a consistent practice from their on or if you just revert to old habits.

Oh lord. It's possible, even beneficial, to have a sober conversation about potential consequences of usage. Education is proven to lower fear and increase pain threshold, so an objective education on all possibilities positive and negative should be laid out to someone before they use it. The worse case scenario is someone using a drug after being told by some of these hippy new age doofs that they are perfect magic substances that have no potential for negative consequences and then receiving said negative consequences. It's the same thing with even fairly benign drugs like weed, people rave about how magically perfect the substance is. Yet, studies trickle out more and more showing that long term usage does actually damage the brain in terms of decreasing grey matter in important areas of the brain leading to more impulsive behavior. Basically similar sort of traits that someone who has damaged their brain from concussion.

I feel sick in a clean way on the tail end of being sick anyways. It's how your body recovers from sickness, gets rid of bad shit, you fast, and by the time you're recovering you usually feel really fresh and good. I doubt that kambo did anything but poison your ass. And it without a doubt DOES NOT heal AIDS or cancer. That's horrible misinfo.

Sure, I agree with that. You can make all kinds of claims about what you consider to be your 'self.' But, it is impossible for the brain to perceive something that is primary to its existence. Would you agree?

Not even the person knows lol, that's funny part. The human brain cannot by definition recognize enlightenment, so why would anyone claim that they are? It's because they're deluded that's why.

Anti-depressants generally numb the high and low spikes of your neurotransmitters which are associated with what you probably define as happiness. If you became enlightened while on anti-depressants you would still have a numbing of those emotions, you'd just have a lack of certain thoughts and concepts superimposed onto reality by your mind relating to yourself and the external world.

I'm going on a retreat during as similar time. I'm also building momentum up to a solid 5 hours a day before I go on it. I'm not trying to make you feel bad, but I'm just trying to give you perspective. You don't need to build up to 5 hours a day, but I'd say 1 to 2 every day for a few weeks before the retreat would really help you. 25 minutes, as you'll find, is almost nothing in comparison to what you'll be doing on the retreat. The less you build up, the more pain you go through. But pain is good for you, so good luck haha. Edit: Another quick recommendation is to switch your diet to vegetarian 3 or 4 days out from the retreat. The diet change causes a change in your body that could be conceivably uncomfortable. Trust me, you'll hear people's bellies make funny noises days 2 through 4 for this very reason. You left on day 2, so you basically never even started. You have to get over the hump of the first 3 to 4 days. If you can consistently hit about an hour of meditation a day I'd say you're ready for a retreat.