Heart of Space

Hey guys, I got enlightened and I just wanted to share my experience. So, I've meditated and meditated for years and just a few days ago I was finally told by my guru that I was ready for my enlightenment and all I had to do was climb to Gods temple on the tippy top of Mount Everest. So, I climbed, strained, and struggled up that mountain for days on end ready to receive my enlightenment. Some of my fingers even fell off and because of how cold it was my penis was no bigger than a hydrogen atom. But like the badass mother fucker I am I just trucked along staying mindful the whole time. After days of arduous climbing I had finally reached the temple completely exhausted, almost dead, but ready for enlightenment. So, I go into Gods temple and sit down on a pillow seemingly laid out there for me and God floats down while some new age electronic music plays (you know the stuff) on the speakers. "Wow," I couldn't believe it, God was sitting right in front of me. And God said, "you are finally ready for your enlightenment." I said, "Thanks God, this is great, this is the best moment of my life, I've been training so hard for this and struggled massively for years to get here." I was in tears I was so happy I was about to finally become enlightened. God then clasped his mighty hands together and moved them towards me as if he was going to reveal something to me. I was about to explode with excitement and amazement. And then God said "just kidding!" and poofs out of existence. Silence. I was pretty dumb struck at this point. I could feel how tired and broken my body was from the journey. My utter shock slowly transformed into major disappointment when I realized that this was what was really at the end of the tunnel of my spiritual practice. But I then shortly accepted it and let it go. My disappointment faded and I was left with nothing but bliss and peace. But it wasn't some mystical magical super ultra peace bliss, and I wasn't in some jamba juice state of super conscioussness, I wasn't strange looping, I didn't open all 45 chakra chocolates, I didn't even have a cool guru beard to match my nothing that I had received. It was just a simple pure satisfaction for what is. Far better put, a very ordinary lack of unfulfillment. When you truly realize it you'll have the laughing fit of your life. All this for nothing. Seriously, I was brutally cramping from laughing so hard. Good one God, you definitely got me. No doubt those who read this will be confused. I know, I'm sorry. Good luck everyone! Pah-pow.

Because it was the dropping away of all self narrative, all narrative in general. Reality as it is. There's a million ways to convey it, did you have a more specific question? Funny enough, the actual moment came after the initial trip, during the end of the come down.

I think you're misunderstanding me a bit. I said that any belief is not enlightenment, as in the belief itself is not what enlightenment is. Enlightenment is reality as it is, at least that is a facet of it. Beliefs happen, I'm not trying to belief shame or anything like that. Only pointing out what I did because people get caught up in the very alluring intellectual entertainment of hypothesizing about what reality is or isn't. There's an easy mistake to make if you're seeking enlightenment and you question your belief in physical reality only to replace that with an equally strongly held belief in another narrative about reality. Does that make sense, or am I still losing you?

I'm a bit of a penny pincher, so I use my self created ghetto wipes. When I'm in my parents bathroom, there are preparation H wet wipes and I it's a real treat for my butthole when I get to use them.

You know sometimes when I take messy poops, you know the softer wetter ones, I often will wipe a few times and then wet the toilet paper so that I can clean my bunghole better. It makes me feel more secure about my booty hygiene.

A limitation on words, not your ability to actually be and live your life. It's important not to confuse the two. Kisses and hugs!

True they are what we call words, but that's all they are. Now point the beliefs that are in my subjective experience. Can you? Rhetorical question. The answer is no because you don't know my reality. Could I be full of shit as you seem to think? The answer is yes because everyone has the potential to be full of shit. Whether or not you see me as full of shit, or actually giving an intelligible thing to say is up to your interpretation. You see me as full of shit, and contradicting myself, because that's how you interpret the words on your screen next to my name. That's fine. You've received nothing of value from me and that's ok. Hopefully the OP got something of value, but if he too thinks I'm full of shit that's ok too. Good day, m'lord.

Those are words on a screen. I was only trying to help. If you disagree, or see some sort of flaw in what I'm saying that's fine, friend. @zedprotect Take what I say for what it is. Hope I was helpful in some way at least.

Thanks man. I actually randomly remembered something you said at some point and it was very helpful and rang very true. Thanks for being such a fantastic human, Nahm. Nothing off the top of my head, but don't worry I'll have a joke or more for you at some point.

Oh well, I guess all I was trying to put across is that it's not just a belief in the physicality of the world that "blocks enlightenment" as you say. Any narrative about reality has the same effect. So, I was just trying to mention that just so you are aware of that. It is correct to say that the belief in the physicality of the universe is false, but the mistake is to take that information and simply alter your narrative or belief about reality rather than seeing reality as it is. Is-ness is the only way to enlightenment. All this intellectual philosophizing and contemplating about reality is fun, but understand narrative for what it is. Does that make more sense? Enlightenment? Yes. @SOUL

You. Just read this guys post. He said it well:

Believing in any narrative about reality is not enlightenment. Whether or not you think its fake, real, physical, a dream, a hologram, or whatever. Reality isn't anything. It just is.

I'll try in different ways to put it into words. No desire to seek enlightenment anymore. Not that I won’t meditate, I still will meditate and incorporate a mindfulness into my life, it just won’t be the focal point of my life. It will be how I live rather than what I live for. All narrative is false. There is only what is. The obvious false narratives conditioned by modern western culture. But also even the narratives of spirituality, such as that I need to attain enlightenment. I don't need to attain anything at all. I can still imbibe in narrative, I just won’t do it so seriously because I understand it for what it is. Fulfillment is lack of unfulfillment. Missing a that old shard of glass in my soul. I'm not special, I didn't gain anything that others don't have. Ordinary and normal as could be. One of the best quotes about enlightenment is that one "before enlightenment chop wood carry water, after enlightenment chop wood, carry water." It really conveys the ordinary-ness of what it really is. It's so incredibly ordinary. I've finally learned how to live and now I can live my life fully.

Based on what you are saying. I think it may be a good idea to get professional outside help. Take a break from your meditating in the very least. Do you have a loved one you can contact?

Tail end of LSD trip. Got enlightened. I was trying to convey something, I think I failed lol, oh well.

You should study this one really awesome one. I think his Sri enlightened lord-ness goes by the name of @Joseph Maynor. Jokes aside, just meditate dude.

So true. Very profound.

It's a bit difficult to escape rebirth when you are God, infinity, and all its forms. Haha

What are chakras relating to your actual experience of reality? I've always kind of seen them as just another belief that could potentially limit your growth. For example, like I can't feel the feelings related to the heart chakra until I believe it's open. I'm totally ignorant about this stuff. Like what does the actual chakra feel like?

Did he kill anyone though? Or did he just attract crazy people who did? You should look into this case. His trial was a witch hunt. I'm not saying Manson was a spiritual role model or anything, but you should look at the facts of this case you may be surprised. He literally used LSD as a means of killing the ego in the consciousness of his followers in his commune. The word enlightenment is very relevant here. You guys really should look into this case, it's really interesting.

I had an insight about him recently, I don't know how accurate it is, but yes he is actually enlightened to some degree. He's dead inside, which is why if you listen to him talk you can almost get this ineffable feeling that he is. But he's filled his consciousness with complete trash though, so he's definitely not someone to get spiritual advice from.

Very well put, friend. I was trying to make that point a little earlier in my discussion with @Outer. Great points.

Oh ok, I actually think we're in agreement, at least with that last statement regarding IQ and the speed of learning. That absolutely effects your ability to do this work and the speed at which you progress. You're totally right, it does make a difference in that regard.

So, I take it you disagree with Leo and the majority of major spiritual teacher's on their idea of what enlightenment is? I'm not chastising you, I'm genuinely asking. Correct, it is. No doubt, some brains definitely have a higher processing power, that's very true. Still, you haven't explained what your definition of truth is and then how this higher processing power is somehow necessary to get to that truth.