Heart of Space

If I am an ant and God is a child he has got his magnifier glass out in the hot sun just for me. I am deserving of this treatment.

Just got out of the hospital. I feel extremely humble right now. I'm very grateful for all the posts from everyone here. Thank you for the love and support. I hope to return it to each of you if I can some day. <3

There's a lot of good words in this thread. I'll be honest, right now, I am experiencing a hellish existence. The moment I transition into the sleep state I dream of times I've made people suffer and it's an extremely vivid portrayal of my devilishness. I also am hearing the thoughts of those I've made suffer directed towards me. The intensity of my situation is difficult to portray in words. I'm going to do my best to get through this.

It is very difficult, the most difficult thing I've had to face emotionally. Thank you for your advice, I will do my best.

It's a problem if that's the only perspective you look through, it's a strength in that it's a unique perspective that allows you to understand the greater context to something.

Omg I lost it at the display case that portrays convicted holocaust deniers like they're Rosa Parks.

Thank you. Well, the main interesting thing is that I'm regularly in contact with higher conscious beings. They took pity on me and frankly, saved my ass in a big way. I also have psychic communications quite commonly as well. If you have any more specific questions I'll do my best to answer. It requires an open mind though, because it will sound like I'm just bonkers, but I'm not.

I haven't done psychedelics for a while, but the life becomes more psychedelic by itself the closer I get to death. You would be in absolute disbelief in some of the things I've experienced if I told you.

Oh man, you are so right. Modern society serves to allow us to be in denial of our death. I was in denial for a long time. To the point where you even fool yourself into thinking you're not afraid of death because you're so on top of the world healthy and enjoying life. Well, the moment your true mortality is flashed in front of you it's like slamming into a brick wall. I will be doing a lot of meditation and self-inquiry in this process. Thank you for responding, I read your post before I went to sleep a few hours ago and I felt your love and passion. No offense taken at all. Thanks Nahm, you're the man. Much to let go, but we'll see what I can do. I have some choices to make on how this plays out. And to the gentleman who talks to me in my dreams sometimes, you know who you are. Thank you, you've been a real friend.

As someone who is gender queer and has felt as if I was both sexes, I actually think Rogan's view on trans people is actually very reasonable. His concern and skepticism is actually a good thing. I think a lot of trans people are the result of men not being accepted as feminine and vice versa. I could go into a lot of detail on this, but I'll just tell you my understanding comes from personal experience. And yes, I'm not sure what Rogan see's in Shapiro. I watched his last appearance and for me how Shapiro views the world is very dark, grimy, and gross.

I was told that I can choose to fight it and maybe survive longer, but I would just be trapping myself in this life and the suffering that comes with non-acceptance of death. Or I can choose to accept it, die, and be reborn. It came to me in a sort of vision, which prompted the creation of this thread. I feel it relates to what you say here.

My mind and my ego is afraid of it. I don't know about a rational reason. I've let go of most of my attachments and baggage, but I'm still attached to the idea of existing. Survival programming in my genes or not, there is still a sense of fear over death or non-existence. Regardless of explanation of origin, it does not change the face that this feeling exists for me.

I went through a phase of my life where I nearly self-destructed. Got through it, but now I'm living with the physical consequences.

You the great irony is that once you get close to death you'll have the feeling that you wasted your life NOT doing consciousness work and instead chose to chase meaningless things. Either way, the end result will likely be the same, so do what you will.

I was always confused when Joe Rogan had him on like three times. To me he's like a poor man's Ben Shapiro and he obviously is grifting onto the popularity of alt-right for views and attention. He has nothing profound to say. Next.

"Biden hates good things and loves bad things" "Biden bad" -Trump 2020 trying to get reelected

The problem with your thinking, and green thinking in general, is that it looks at everything as a result of a greater context. When people constantly attribute bad things in their life to external variables that are mostly out of their control how would you expect them to ever take responsibility to change their situation themselves? The main point is that if Floyd's behavior and psychological state when interacting with the police was different, there is a good chance he'd still be a live. So, in that sense he played a big role in creating the situation that ultimately led to his death. That is not only a valid perspective, but one that you ignore so that you can believe the more emotionally rewarding one where everything bad that happens to you is the worlds fault. ^ Also know that I posted this in the previous thread.

I think reparations is one of the most green idea's ever conceived. It's also a bad idea in my opinion. Reparations will have very little effect on the long term socioeconomic status of people of color. I think the answer is more structural changes to society, which allow people to pull themselves up through society. Reparations money will just get squandered and then everyone will be back at square one.

@dyslexicCnut Nothing wrong with alternate perspectives. If you honestly look at them you'll find multiple true ways if looking at it. It's just that this perspective tends to trigger you.

I just want to add that I fell asleep shortly after my last post and I had a vivid related nightmare. I was driving down a street on a motorcycle, with a handgun during the evening (this is not something I normally do, I don't own either a handgun or motorcycle). A bullet zinged past me from a parking lot to the right of me, a nearby motorcycle cop pursued the guy who shot it, also on a motorcycle, which erupted in a back and forth gun fight and then chase. I drive further down the street and get stuck at a left turn lane red light, which a bunch of others also on motorcycles. The chase between the cop and the shooter makes its way down the street where the shooter, struck by a bullet, crashes just at the red light and still alive with his weapon. He, bloodied and disoriented, slowly gets up and starts firing into the crowd of people I was in at the red light. I am in a life or death fight or flight state and even though I had a handgun I chose to cower behind the crowd of people to shield myself from the incoming bullets. Somehow the cop had ran out of bullets in the initial shooting and was right next to me. I gave him my gun and he proceeded to empty it into the shooter's head killing him. Covered in some blood and shaking from adrenaline he pulls out his wallet and tries to give me money to pay for the bullets he used in my gun. I was also in shock and shaking and I said to the cop, "no sir, my tip is being able to go home and see my family again... you're a hero." He just sat there in shock fumbling his dollar bills staining them with bloody prints from his shaky hands. Then I woke up, my heart was pounding and to be honest I feel a little shocked by that nightmare. I guess you could say my dreams were trying to give me an exercise in empathy like no other. I'm going back to sleep now, hopefully to dream something pleasant now lol.

Well it would obviously be 'pussy-people,' duh.

I can see the perspective of some of the people who are pointing out things that counter the one sided narrative that this was a cold blooded murder. There are certainly a lot of valid points being made. I'd also like to add a couple things. It's important to keep in mind that there is a greater socioeconomic context and history of oppression, which this particular event symbolizes. Sure I agree, it's not pure example of a cold blooded murder. George Floyd was murdered though, just not specifically by Derek Chauvin. He was murdered the complex multi-generational oppressive environment that produced him, his behaviors, and his psychological state when interacting with police. Even though there are arguments to be made in regards to the relative innocence of the officers involved, I think that it is reasonable to expect better. Why not analyze this interaction and try to see how the cops could have handled the situation so that it had a better outcome? Maybe physical restraint was needed, but why are our cops not trained extensively in non-lethal grappling techniques that would have saved Georges life? I believe that we and our police could do better.

You're right, there is potential for abuse with all tools. I like how that sounds, I'll check it out.

I mean when you chart types of thinking in such a way do you not think that is a mistake that someone could make? You think so?

I think he's self-destructing. These video's are legit comedy at this point and I don't say that in a pejorative way.