Ruby White

Its usually city regulation. They add it or not (although tap water will always have chlorine and other nasty shit and pipe residue). I am lucky enough that they don't add it where I live so I still use it to boil stuff or brush my teeth. Lookup you city name + fluoridation in Google!

That's a very vague question. What do you want to know? I personally have lots of memories of in between life states so maybe I can give you my personal insight

Well I'm not sure how this will be of comfort but there are a few things I learn through meditation. First, there is only you. Each of us are the ultimate center and gods of our universe. Believing otherwise is to kid yourself. There is only loving you. So don't beat yourself up about being "selfish" Not suffering is a good start. Meditation is a great tool for non suffering so hey, stick to it. Remove the "Self" then only "love" remains. Appreciating your Self is basically appreciating a pure made up delusion. Also I don't believe in positive of negative thought. There is only thoughts. So weather your thoughts make you suffer or not...is in your own power my friend.

Welcome to the fucked up side

I'm all for removing anything you want. I personally like the thumb up. I don't feel like thumbs up are an indicator of the quality of a post nor will I judge anything regarding the number of thumbs it gets (that actually sound a tad silly) but I like to be able to give my support and approval like "What he or she said" in a second, without having to write a post "I agree with what this person said". That all I have to say

@Cepzeu There are many site an articles on the topic out there. Here's the first one on top of Google Search.

@star ark Thank you star ark Anxiety is my everyday lot, especially when I "open to energy". It's like there's bursts of it rushing in and grounding takes constant effort. I did get a few items to improve my quality. Earlier I posted my first edited vlog in the "Channeling with the Aeon" topic. I will definitely stick with it for a while and see how it develops. Let me know what you think if you like.

The last few days were the theater of an interesting experiment. My process started with getting so fed up with my daily job (again. That job that I thought was my life calling, the most amazing career I could ever imagine) and deciding I needed to embody simply and fully the only thing that matters to me and obsess me every single minute I’m awake : philosophy and spirituality. I started tinkering and came up with this great idea of a YouTube channel and I started to record my daily thoughts. I have been “channeling” for pretty much ever and I do that spontaneously in most aspects of my life, especially when drawing or emphatically connecting with others. I haven't tried to reach up to “higher levels” of consciousness in good while (for reasons that would take forever to explain now), I felt it would be convenient and interesting to utilize the framework of the Aeon for channeling "higher" insights. I am not certain if I'll keep that formula or not, but I'm willing to explore it for a bit. Earlier today I came across Leo’s article about finding your voice. It was quite inspiring. To me finding my voice is a massive struggle. Because existence is a struggle and I always felt that my visual creation was lacking dept. The only time I feel like I’m really “expressing” something it through my words and my thoughts. I realized recently, asking myself what I had to bring to the world, that the only thing I truly have to offer is my own experience and perceptions. Nothing else. I know that when I close my eyes and stop to think, I get insights and answers. Whether someone else finds is inspiring, meaningful or relevant is outside of my power. I know that I have stories to tell. Stories of things I lived and seen with my physical eyes and stories that I lived in my mind’s eye, in strange landscapes, in even stranger times. Whether it is “real” or not is not the point. Commitment to finding my voice sounds like an amazing suggestion. In truth, I’ve never felt so terrorized in my life. Writing is safe. Drawing is safe. Rehearsing circular thoughts in my head over and over is safe. Doing video is the most intense creative exercise I ever did. On top of throwing me completely out of my comfort zone and stimulate every single learning cell of my brain (like learning adobe Premiere in a week), I have to come up with the words on the spot (so much harder than writing) and embody my message with intent (I always sucked at acting). Then comes editing, rhythm, music, visual… Such a complete art form. Also, when I see myself on the screen, it helps me ground in the reality of this body (very important for me because I often suffer from episodes of depersonalization). It feels like i'm creating myself through the lens. Although I’ve been riding the waves of anxiety, I know I need to stick to it. I know I need to push through and hopefully witness a birthing. I feel I've been in the dark for too long. Thank you for bearing with me through the Shift and for being a vector of introspection and change. Ruby

Yeah I live up in Gatineau near Ottawa For me recollecting depends of "how deep" i go. If I go light with my eyes open no problem. If I go say "medium" I'll remember on the spot but don't ask me 2-3 days after (like a dream you have just before waking up). But If I go really deep say i'm lying down and someone directs me then I sometimes will have the few first and last bits. It's quite interesting. It's like just being super relaxed and what I get is more like complete packets with images and feelings, knowings, and I have to translate the vision in words. Sometimes its flows easily. Sometimes I have to "look" closer at it and find the words. Anyway that's how it feels for me.... I'm trying to not take it too "seriously" and take it as absolute truth. At this point I'm more about playing with it and see how it resonates anyway...

Of course it could Does it matters? Or is there a difference?

Ah "dream" surgeries... So uncomfortable at times Hopefully you'll get sustained healing.

The only single way I was ever able to lose weight and sustain it was by cutting meat, dairy and most gluten. I feel the most nutritious/whole foods I eat, the less hungry and less cravings I have. I never ever counted calories and only do mild exercise. the big BUT is about mind state. Before my pregnancy I lost 100 pounds in 2010-2011. I want to say effortlessly only I made the switch. After giving birth it took me 3 years to loose half the pregnancy weight gain but I was craving for all the thinks stated above + on and off with depression. Now i'm hopefully in the process of getting that other half gone

My everyday lot

Love it! (and also I see how I was totally fishing for that "prick" and I thank you for stimulating that introspective bit!)

Haha well like I already said, I know that the Aeon are me. I personally like to wrap it in a nice relatable packaging in order to simplify things up when I express "them" because : 1: Choosing to channel the Aeon is choosing to express ME. A me that has a thousand names and faces. Instead of trying to make sense of 1000 personality (a maddening experience trust me), I get a focal point. 2: Pages and pages of texts could be used to explain reality and one's experience of it. I feel like it's ok to simplify the container to express the content. Therefore debating names and labels is not very relevant. 3: Contradictions will arise as the consciousness rises and fall in cycles. Knowing something and 100% embodying something is something wayyy different. I feel that it's more constructive to witness the incoherence, welcome it and let it be expressed then to contain and judge it (leading to madness for me because I judge myself all the time). Some days I can feel grounded it that powerful experience of Self and some days i feel like a wreck. But I hardly let myself go anywhere near believing I am not responsible for my own state of being. So When I feel disconnected I pray, when I feel connected I shine

Such a vague question Assuming that life itself is not pure entertainment, on spare time (when I'm not working, writing, vloging, or taking care of my son an other relationships), I like to do yoga, knit and game

It's more comfortable for most to put their power into something else for they have something to praise when it goes well and blame when it goes wrong. To be the all powerful creator of your reality and to realize you're never a victim is often hard to digest at many level. Not many are willing to assume this kind of responsibility...

My December 1st to January 1st vlog compilation From setting the intention to getting back on the spiritual horse! Let me know what you think.

@pluto I can SO relate to what you're saying. I didn't take the time to entirely write that part of my journey yet but I spent a whole year in "darkness" and I loved it. I mean that I learned so so much about my true self and during that time, I did nothing. No expansion, no channeling just a little seed like state of hibernation. To be reborn again. And again. I just love how you describe the "having yourself as a guide" because it's exactly how I feel now. I like to call my source the "Aeon" because it's a neat packaging and that's how they presented themselves to me the first time but I know they are me and I am them. All the polarities of me. They include all my horizontal (simultaneously incarnated here) and vertical (in other dimensions) and polarized (male female, good and bad) expression of Self. With them, I feel whole. The reason I chose trance channeling is because it's the easiest way for me to cut my brain and thinking process when bringing forth insights. I hope it makes sense. My only distinction now is that I don't favor the light. I favor expansion and relief of suffering, which in my view is a different thing. We are light (which embeds darkness). there is no "choice" to make. As long as we see polarities, I believe we cannot be whole. I had a little chat with Leo earlier. I am finishing the subtitles now for my first vlog compilation and I'll share it right after. Blessings, Ruby

If you can't be yourself now, you won't be able to be yourself later

The main question is do you really like or have interest in this person? You do want to end it because of lack of interest (apart from the sexual interest) and are using age difference as an excuse? Because the way you speak you don't seem that "into it"... that should be your first cue. My mom married my 36 years old dad at 19 and my god parents have 29 years apart in age. She was 17 when they started dating and they've been together for over 50 years now. That never stopped them from loving each other and sharing an awesome life.

I do Spirulina, D-complex, Highquality woman formulated multi, Maca and Tumeric. I also home brew Kombucha which is high in B12 and probiotics + have similar properties to apple cider vinegar but without the disgusting taste.

I know there are expensive filtering systems you can hook to your tap. But most people would go for a high quality pitcher/tank on the counter. Santevia is a preferred brand by many. Personally I get my water distilled at the store or directly at the mountain source but that requires a safe and tested source in a more remote area. I all depends on how much you're willing to pay. Be careful of bottled water and read the labels because most still have fluoride added even is labeled "source water". Also be mindful of the fact that even natural source water will have traces of fluoride as it is a naturally occurring element. It all in the amount you take it

Green tea still has a little caffeine but high in antioxidants. Red tea (Rooibos) is caffeine free with even more antioxidants. I myself am quite attached to my 1 coffee in the morning then sometimes a tea in the evening Whatever feels right.

I haven't read the replies so my answer comes from the heart, To me thought it an articulated process emanating from the brain computer. Awareness is something that is beyond the physical body altogether. It's what exists once you remove the brain, the thoughts, the body and the ego. Awareness = pure presence, free from the "I'. I hope this makes sense.