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Hello where did you get those images, what's the source? Is there more? Any keywords you recommend typing into google to get similar images, resources and links? Perhaps books on the topic?

Where can I find that video? I'm intrigued.

It happened to me recently, but usually never happens. So what helps is to keep your vibes positive, be in the flow, have a cheerful attitude. Also when it happened to me I imagined sending white light to the body parts that were feeling bad. Just remember that it might all be in your imagination, but nevertheless the mind is a very powerful thing so you might want to lay off the psych for a while and concentrate on becoming more positive and happy/carefree. Also avoid doing psych during major transits and full moons.

No it's not.

Try cleaning up your place twice a day. That could be a good start. Not set to a particular hour or time of the day, but maybe daytime and evening, when you're free. For me self-help apps helped a lot. It doesn't really matter which one you use, I'm just saying that apps that gamify tasks can be very useful, but only if they are minimalistic enough for you to easily use them. I use Finch to manage most of my self-care habits. Try to associate the activity with something pleasant, like putting on meditation music or lighting a scented candle or incense stick. You could put the paperwork in a drawer or buy a folder for them that you keep in a safe place. Maybe make a habit that you only rest or work when the room is tidy. But you need motivation for this. You can make it work though. Make the activity fun, maybe buy a cloth/fabric freshener, so then you look forward to getting your stuff nice and organized and fresh.

I'm not any professional or athlete or anything.. but you mentioned fasting with coffee and water, and I used to do the exact same thing in the past, so I hopped on this thread to say that it's extremely damaging to do that. So if you can, please please eat 5 meals or more a day, that would include 3 big meals and a few snacks (perhaps protein bars or whatever you're having). And at least 3 to 5 portions of fruits or veggies raw daily. I've been studying these informations I just gave you for a while now and this is what they recommend for the best health. And I tried it and it really gives me great energy boost, also uplifted mood.

Appreciate your hard work, Leo. I'm sorry this happened and it sounds scary, I'm glad that I didn't get any messages.

@Nahm They are beautiful and profound contemplations, I started reading them but I don't understand much, I must be really underdeveloped spiritually or something is wrong with me haha. But I saved it for later, I might just need to read them a few times to make sense. I might even message you later to ask a few questions. Thank you.

Hello actualizers! It's been a while since I logged in. Hope all of you are doing well! ^^ Anyway so I have this problem with myself, like I feel not beautiful enough. I always see some minor deformity or flaw in my appearance and I feel terrible about myself... I am 24 and I'm going through a phase in my life when I feel ugly, lazy, unmotivated, unsuccessful compared to my peers and I just keep wanting to change literally everything about myself, and while I know it is toxic, I know it is vanity...I can't help but feel worthless. And it's mostly about appearance, rather than success (both can get toxic, I know I know). How can I feel better about myself? Should I just change my appearance to look hot (make up, law of attraction, perhaps even surgery), change my clothes to what society deems attractive, learn to be classy and well-behaved, instead of dressing how I like, being carefree about my face/body and being myself no matter what? Should I work my ass off just to earn money and get rich, instead of enjoying a normal lifestyle with a 5-9? I'm looking for serious advice, please don't troll me. xx

@Matthew85 hey guys I'm back again sorry for the late response.. Yes actually, I started doing breathing exercises, focusing on daily self-care routines and exercises including skincare. And a few days ago I checked out a few YouTubers that talk about feminine essence and I've been trying to follow some tips but I'm kinda new to it, but that's ok since those tips are mostly for women 25+ I don't need psychedelics, I naturally fall into trips. I actually got meds prescribed for these hightened moods, serotonine suppressants and whatnot.. Since my last login I tried lots of things like journaling, I also found out I don't want to change anything about myself other than smiling more and being softer in my approach with socializing, like just generally friendlier and being kind and open. Right now I am focusing on physical health and diet. What tips do you have for expanding consciousness, as you named it? What helped you in your journey and self-Image? Did you also have self-esteem issues before, and how did you handle it? Thanks in advance.

I'm actually willing to try this myself. I also use affirmations and out-loud positive self talk. It's just feels weird to praise myself while being alone in my room haha.. Thank you, this post was really enlightening. I will try to work on myself more.

Yes I totally agree with the Everything is Self part. I know what you mean.. beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. In indian culture there is no such thing as God of Beauty for example, such as Aphrodite for the greeks.. or maybe Helene. I am still spiritual and I tend to see things with the spirit's eye rather than being judgemental. I'm talking about social life. And the way I get treated.. What I actually wanted to express with my initial post is that it's so hard to live up to the expectations of men who judge you by your appearance alone most of the time, and also the western beauty standard for females.. By which I mean extremely long hair, feline/fox/doe eyes, small upturned nose, sharp v jaw and a body that is perfectly thick in the right places but also skinny enough not to have any belly fat and all that other body stuff... Like I'm always told by men that they hate my short hair. I honestly by my own choice I'd have extra short hair because thats just what appeals to me. Also to dye it crazy colours... but everyone tells me to grow my hair.. and why only me? I bet other girls who are perfect and pretty dont get told to grow their hair in case they have it short.. They just get told how cute their pixie cut is. But when it comes to me, they are so inconsiderate. It hurts me when ppl tell me that I look better with long hair.. What if I told them they look better without glasses or they should lose 30kg? They would lose their mind! But when it comes to me, everyone allows themselves to hurt me directly. Or to be inconsiderate. Also people trying to shame me by telling me I look like a guy... so now I am scared to wear basic unisex clothing outdoors. Like black t-shirts and straight jeans. So it's not just me judging myself, I actually feel victimized to the point I don't leave the house because I feel so bad about myself that I cannot feel ready enough to appear in front of other humans. And that just makes me cry.

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Today was a decent day. I did me some overall beauty glo-up.. I feel like I should do these glo-ups more often, even if not in a daily basis.. Then I worked on my art. It turned out a disaster.. couldn't draw anything decent. I was researching handmade objects. I want to open an online shop for my future works..

On this journal I wish to write down my actualization process. Using this as a compass for now: https://www.actualized.org/start Along with other interesting stuff I work on. ^^

I have a need to grow myself in communication. I feel like I isolated myself a lot. My agoraphobia doesn't really help me. I am scared to cross the street, I am scared even of open windows, I keep isolating myself from going to the store or taking out the garbage. I just feel a bit off.. I stopped talking to my friends as well. I'm completely alone, searching for a way out. In other news, today I went outside and I just decided to ignore the anxiety. I bought some skin-care products as well, which makes me happy to care for myself. I think as a woman I need to care more for my beauty than I usually do... Might have to start a daily and nightly routine for skincare and haircare etc etc etc...

I noticed some progress on myself yesterday.. I was arguing with my mom and I was very direct and honest about my feelings. I did tell her I was angry, while usually I just brush it off and keep it for myself. But no, this time I was honest. It might've sounded bad, but at least I didn't hide my feelings anymore. It felt good to express myself without hiding anything. Today I was exploring podcasts just to gain more knowledge and clarity about various topics, modern culture and entertainment. I find that I come across many inspiring ideas that I want to implement on my own life too.

Some article I read today.. https://www.inc.com/john-rampton/15-ways-to-become-a-better-person.html What I learned: ✨ I should listen to my loved ones more often, especially family and close friends. Accord them time to open up or just chat in general ✨ when angry, start managing my thoughts, remove myself from the situation and write down what I feel, meditate on the emotion, observe myself ✨ forgive, give thanks for my suffering, let go of negative emotions towards a person ✨ be more honest of what I think about something when in a conversation, always directly telling what I think instead of just agreeing blindly ✨ start volunteering and gifting away goods ✨ create healthy boundaries ✨ open to change, travel, go outside more, try new things, visit museums.. ✨ give away gifts, go out with friends, surprise them with a coffee, drink or snack in town These are the habits I want to give a chance to. ^^ A cool site I will take time to explore: https://www.beingbetterhumans.com

The big picture of self-actualization, understanding the fundamentals and the key insights for a good life. I will be re-watching this episode a few times, just as the others when I get to them. I really want to understand this properly. Below are my key take-aways from that video... https://www.actualized.org/articles/the-big-picture-of-self-actualization Key ideas: ✨ It all starts with a deep need for growth in you. You sense there is something more to it, or you suffer with your current results. ✨ You take a 100% responsibility for your life. Everything is created by you and reflects your thoughts, emotions, actions. ✨ You discriminate reality from appearances: Understanding how reality actually works. ✨ Epistemic and metaphysical questioning - what is the very fabric and structure of reality, myself, other people, life, etc., what it means to know things? ✨Traps. Religions, cults, etc. ✨ Glimpse of the Absolute / Truth / God. Have transcendence penetrate in your whole experience. ✨ Growth - raising the quality of your consciousness. ✨ Unconditional Love towards everything and all beings. Self-Love: accepting yourself totally and unconditionally, no matter of outside circumstances. ✨ Detachment: you will be detaching yourself from all experience, all thoughts, emotions, and actions. Being vs Doing / Having. ✨ Observation. Precise, careful, steady observation of everything, especially yourself. Watch out for self-agenda, self-deception, egoistic manipulation. ✨ Mindfulness. Meditation. Self-Inquiry. Direct experience. -- over years and decades. ✨ Undermining selfish impulses, becoming aware of lower consciousness needs and desires. ✨ Honesty with others and yourself. How you deceive, lie, manipulate, desires, excuses.. ✨ Surrendering control, giving up manipulation. ✨ Facing hard truths, boredom, emptiness, your death. ✨ Identifying fear barriers, defense mechanisms, where you are stuck, fear about money, relationships, life in general. ✨ Raising the quality of your motivations and desires. Most of the stuff you chase are programmed into you by society. Motivation for stimulation is toxic. ✨ Becoming a creator, life purpose, career, being an "artist" ✨ Reconciling evil, suffering and ignorance. Most people misunderstand these things but brutal self-honesty will show you that you're the evil one! Understand what suffering and evil is. ✨ Understand everything at Big-Picture level, holistic understanding ✨ From left brain to right brain thinking. ✨ Sattvic lifestyle / vs intoxicated lifestyle, Become addiction-free, toxicity-free ✨ Overcoming childhood- and school-programming ✨ Non-manipulative relating ✨ You'll become very strategic, decisive, proactive and visionary ✨ Deep recognition in you that this takes serious work, as it won't happen suddenly and accidentally. ✨ Set up the right environment that helps you achieve these things ✨ The "human-machine" is already well understood, society and culture doesn't inform you well about its workings, it intoxicates you. I will start working on these, I will have to plan and research it through though. Sure thing, thanks!

I have to act serious all the time. Trust me, when I'm serious I am intimidating. People fear me. But I'm blind to looks, I love everybody. //innocent archetype (Jungian) + //high priestess archetype (tarot) My work on earth have left me sick mentally nowadays I'm healing.

I decided to start a new journal because the old was getting really old. I started that in mid-spring of 2020 and since then I'm a whole new person. I still have to finish my old journal because I have some thoughts to add, but I'm happy to start this fresh new journal with a fresh mind. I still have darker parts of me that need more love and acceptance.. also weaker parts of me that also need more love but also strengthening. Some things I would like to work on in the upcoming weeks/months, even years: Working on a healthy relating to men Strengthening my bond with my parents/family My appearance for the outer world (how I present myself) How I see myself and how I feel about myself (inner game) Alpha personality - without cockiness and arrogance Feminine and masculine essences in balance (yin and yang energies) Self-care routines and daily routines Transmutation, biokinesis, experimental shapeshifting, energy-work, magick Channeling (unsure about this yet, but a possibility) Living a passionate life, making a living and living abundantly by doing only what I like Hinduism and mantra-yoga I probs have more than this that I work on.. like drinking water and taking care of my health during covid19... or like maintaining my vlog or blogs. But I don't really feel like "advertizing" my blogs or vlogs on this forum because that's wrong lol. So I might post videos only to show my progress. My vlog is personal vlog anyways, not one for self help (yet).. Looking forward to connect with you guys and I hope I can make all of you proud of me . ^.^

Ok I'm back. What did I miss? I looked around. Yes some people are looking for themselves while they're at home. That's how sad this world is. Not sure we are looking at what we are searching or what we wanted to see.

Should I draw more shadow music to my shadow journal. The lights are out for now, we are relying on technology. Symbols everywhere, I am just writing out my shadowy thoughts on my shadowy journal, I am not a journalist, I may look like one, but peace calms me down if I look for peace peacefully, diving deep once again, was going on, people just lookin? I got you a chilled mix, it's with the heard. Yoopie yoop yay..

What movies are good in Bollywood? I am genuinely interested. I would like to see some movies but I don't know which one to pick. Only real Indians are allowed to reply to this message, please keep it to this forum post and reply here, to me, on this forum post if you are a real Indian and if you would like to offer me a movie recommendation. Please keep it real and be so that it is a real movie, like what I can actually watch on my laptop. Please also keep in mind that I have a broken laptop, in many ways. I hope it will not break even more. I hope no one is breaking into my laptop for me saying this things out loud on a virtual forum. Thank you for understanding my privacy, I hope you understand yours and that it is mutual for us. Have a nice day and sorry if you stole your own time reading this post in case you had nothing to offer to me. I'm just having a nice conversation with the future Indian who will offer me a good movie recommendation, I might not watch what you send me. Maybe there are trailers that you can send to me from YouTube, maybe I don't have time to watch that now, but I might have to eat too while keeping an eye on my own information because I protect myself accordingly to the privacy of others, so, in case you wanna send me something, send this here to this journal, you if you want to send something with this journal somewhere, don't. So, just send me a movie trailer if you are an Indian because that is what I am asking for. If you are not a coward you will let it show in my journal that is here. Thank you for your time.

I don't write my songs to this websites because then it's a mess and let's not forget this is a shadow hournal, are we throwing some shade on that? I hope so not? *journal