Aquarius

I skipped Orange. I am now integrating it, see my other posts and my journal about shadow work and alpha personality. I know you're not attacking me, I am an empath and attack feels differently. You actually had clear arguments which were valuable for me even if I didn't show it. I appreciated your posts! What if I don't want to? If you had those abilities do you think you would go around bragging and showing off? Do you know what danger that means? I don't even mention what kind of abilities I have. Because then I am asked to prove. It doesn't work that way. I don't want to prove anything. You guys can choose to believe me or not. I couldn't care less. Meh.

Hey thanks I really liked your post. The thing is.. whatever I write you guys dissect it and make it into something which might not be true. Just to prove me I have an ego. Which I know I do have. Cause I'm alive, im not dead. Survival is real, yes. I admit that I got an ego lashback when I saw the person attacking me, so my ego rose and fought back. It's true it's true. I am not deluded. The way I write is because I have a personality. I do have a personality and a sense of humour and all that baggage I refuse to let go of. I'm young. And even after ego death, you still have a personality and preferences. We are not robots, after all. You're welcome! Hope you enjoy subliminals. I don't identify with anything but then what should I say? Oh wait. I could just remain silent and ignore everyone. But then, oh wait. Everyone will think that I'm now angry. And giving the silent treatment like Aquarians do. haha You guys do assume a lot of things that might not be true about me. Anyway the thing is... I love my life. I am healthy now. My relationship is saved from my ugly shadow that I integrated quite nicely all by myself. I have friends. I have food and shelter. My love needs are met and I practice self love, which is the highest teaching, yes. I think this thread is just getting overcomplicated with mental masturbation. But I love a good argument sooo I am not offended i am calm while i write everything here. you guys might misunderstand me because well idk. I have a temper i do. Some see Leo as Turquoise and even he is sometimes laughing at stupid stuff that he usually ignores Honestly I start caring less and less about labels. I think this talk is helping me. Thanks dude, cheers

Psychological therapy, cognitive behavioral or humanistic psychologist. I was meaning that dogs are dangerous so in a way it is rational to fear them. So avoid them. And irrational animals because they lack thinking mind, they're instinctual unlike humans. Also, I'm sorry you're going through this. I've been attacked many times. Fearing a simple dog would make no sense if you can see that they are friendly. But fearing a hoard of dogs is rational cause they attack when in gangs. There is an exercise where you detach from your fear. Like instead of trying to worry about your fear of dogs, and struggling to avoid the fear of dogs, you let the fear wander freely in your mind, and view it as a cloud. Let yourself feel freely. You may cry and release emotions which is normal. Try 7 cups therapy. They have a cool chat bot and exercises and level up and all. Just google 7cups

This whole SD model is fun and cool and all. But it's quite simplistic. Everyone is so complex. There is no such thing as ordinary human beings. That notion needs to be gone! People are so complex and cannot be boxed in one group. SD model is a science. Sociological science. Science likes to measure and put things into boxes. I don't even feel like using it since it's only useful as a tool of showing you where you should end up. But everyone has their own rules and thinkings, and everyone is so unique. Even the simplest man has a complex life. And reality is mysterious and the mysteries are vast. I don't like how some of you just come to this forum to argue with each other. Why cannot we see the big picture?

What makes you think that? Where is your evidence? OR are you just parroting Leo's words? And again, this is just a model, and is a map, not the real world. Wake up to reality.

You guys were assuming I created an identity of myself being a Turquoise person who looks down on the Blue person who lives next to her. But this is not a hierarchy ladder, just a model of values. Like who appreciates what in life. Simple as that. You are not a better person if you are Turquoise. And 0.1% of society is still thousands of people. And those are still estimates. And old ones. Leo really made the whole values system seem like a hierarchy. Really? Cool have fun then Love to help a friend have a good laugh I'm also having fun arguing. I get your guys points of views though. And I think they are valid. I might have exaggerated a bit in some places. Also remember I was in an asylum for 1 month after kundalini awakening. So the first half of my post is not what I am right now. I am not the sum of my past mistakes. So no resentments whatsoever from my part. Keep enjoying.

That's exactly what I didn't do. I didn't create an identity around being turquoise. But this thing is just a model. I first thought it's just having those values like the stages. And yes thank you for formulating it differently than Raccoon. I understand what he meant now. Probably im not Turquoise, but I have supernatural abilities and friends who are supernatural. We have our small secret circles everywhere. And this is just a model. It's not perfect. Any secret underground occultist could be Coral. Coral are usually criminals who operate on global stage but you don't know their name. Rich guys. Zeta males and females. I wasn't taking the whole model seriously like you guys do. I don't care if I'm Turquoise or not. If I call myself Yellow with a pinch of supernatural, would you guys please stop attacking me? I just wanted to create a fun study of the behaviors between stages.

Not really. It all comes naturally. If you are trying hard, you're not allowing. Just keep allowing. Get in flow state. Enjoy love, blessing, life, infinity, God. It's more a state of BEING (god) rather than DOING+HAVING (ego). I'm not too good at explaining cause I never had the theory. I just have the experience. Some people get lost in theory while never getting to experience the eternal NOW. Which is the only thing that is and always was. There is no past or future. You always been here (now). tadaa That's a grounding exercise btw. Felt like you needed it.

Wow.

Look, I'm just human. The world needs the good and the bad, the light and the dark, the male and the female, and the beyond of those dualities. It's obvious that we are disagreeing on very fundamental stuff. I dropped the spiral dynamics stuff because I didn't wanna argue anymore. Seeking peace and no arguments. I assumed it bothered you so i didn't continue. I am honest. Agreed, good point on the S&M, but words and mental masturbation won't stop slavery. Did you do something today that stopped slavery? Other than speak up against it? I did do actions on the words I said before on the forum, like literally healing and enlightening people. And I did meet people who see the devil in I, in me, Aquarius user. I feel like you really hate me for some reason. Or maybe you just hate my ideas. So please, if you feel like attacking something, attack my ideas, not me. I am we. We are you. You do not have to do shadow work, only if you want to heal yourself. It was a mere suggestion, not a need. I am just simply everything right now and everything is Perfect and Love. Infinite Love. Maybe contemplate this gif for insights.. And this gif explains how your mind is working right now: I read the other half of your writings but my mind just doesn't compute. And I also don't understand good and evil. Because I'm thinking of non-dual terms. And idk your whole post feels like mental masturbation. Go out there and smell a rose. Would do better for your mind and spirit than trying to defeat me in an "argument" that doesn't even exist. Because I don't actually disagree with you. Just slightly differ in opinion. I never said you were wrong. I just showed the way I think. I think your perspective is interesting and valid. And I've been there before, maybe. Thank you for showing me your mind's content. Is interesting and maybe when I'm less tired I will have that "aha" moment you trying so hard to give me.

Today was a productive day. I achieved some minor stuff, but lots of them. Still got art stuff pending. My art business is on hold right now, cause I'm doing self-help, taking care of my self, pampering myself, enjoying myself. The astrals allow me a bit of that sensual pleasures.. yet.. I feel like I have no time for anything. I'm also lazy as fuck. and in the same time, I feel like I got too much free time on my hands. it's weird, really! I'm reading religious texts. I would not call that stage blue, the stuff I'm reading. Some religious people are stage yellow. rare occurence. Dr. R. C. Sprout for example is a systematic theologian. First time I heard the therm. I'm reading his book called: Does God Control Everything? It's really good for minor insights, cool stuff in there honestly. A light read. I drank two coffees but nothing. I am just lazy today, even if it seems I achieved tons of stuff... but those were minor stuff. I am too harsh with myself, but I need it because of my spoiled ego trap where I tend to be too lazy because I feel like I achieved a lot already. I think I might spend the rest of the day reading random short stuff. I just feel like letting loose today. I did have a serious talk with my family about the way they overdose me with psychiatric meds though. I am no lab rat or tester. I refuse to take this injection in high doses. Not higher than 25mg at least. Paliperidone.. (Xeplion) Anyone had issues with the medicine called Paliperidone? I only see bad reviews of it on YouTube but for me it helps just I feel I lose my creative vibe. I need to remind myself it is only a phase. This shall all pass.

We are living in a non-dual world, and evil is just the opposite of what the ego wants. Or with other words, evil is what ego fears. Okay, let's drop the spiral dynamics cause it doesn't help. And idk some people just enjoy being slaves. I had many people begging to be my slave so I have no response to that, I'm no encyclopedia haha. You're very defensive. Ego is defensive. Let go. Stop living in a bubble. All this new age vegan stuff is all nice but hard to implement. I would do it if I had the chance. You don't need to convince me to stop eating meat. You have serious shadow work to do my friend..

You should get therapy. It's irrational fear, but it has a base, and it's in your subconscious. Maybe if you work a bit on your self development and enlightenment you can achieve no-fear state. That's where I am now. But I have moments when I fear dogs as well. They are instinctual and irrational animals so yeah. Avoid them then?

hahahaha i dont honestly care about your opinion you just seem jealous why even make this post some of you guys are honestly toxic do you know me or what I do in real life? have you met me and experienced my supernatural abilities? Oh yeah, no? okay, then?

I've been like him at that age. I always felt lonely in my theories... I agree with Leo, spirituality is hardwired in some people. I'm an earth angel myself. That stuff is real. Good to hear this planet has people like him.

True! But maybe in two days cause I just got my medication and it creates fever from physical effort. I, however, might go for a walk. Not really feeling like it. I do cardio inside my home cause of huge halls. I lost a lot of water mass and built muscle since yesterday. Ate tons of meat and ran about 10 km. I look sweet.

Not selfish, just how nature works. Humans are part of nature. You have a strong stage green ego. Nothing wrong with eating meat. There is cruelty - free ways of slaughtering animals which is a bit better than the way most humans do. Life is cruel. Not all fluffy and pink rainbows.

My day is good so far. I finished more than I thought I would, and faster than I thought it's possible. I think I will take a break now and meditate and gain insight on life. Or just relax. I have all day still. Guys! Anything productive that I can do today? That is mildly difficult?

Dude why did you get so defensive? I do not know you, so I didn't know! I'm sorry if you thought I insulted you.. I just meant people here do dirty things like if you are a friend of a friend of a friend you can get higher on the social leaderboard. 35k in my town if im right thanks for writing all that and trying to help. It's just super hard for me. especially with all my psychiatric medication.. Dude thanks for not letting go of me! I work from home right now on my art business but I want a job in GSM. I want to learn a bit of phone decoding and all that stuff, IT things. That would pay nicely. But I'm good with computers. Or else I need to work in wood factory which is not really female work. And people who don't like you will make you suffer there. Big dogs, we call em.. you know how it works. Again not trying to insult you. What i meant is that you must know how it works. You are older than me also. Much respect man. As a female it's also harder to find work.

There are no job opportunities in my small town, unless I get higher education. Things work more dirty in real life than you'd believe. Being a cashier would be a huge blessing, but nobody would want me to be a cashier. I got some reputation here because of my mental illness. I'm living a hard period.

Note to self.. My plans for today would be: 1. get therapy from 7cups do some exercises on 7 cups say self-love affirmations discuss traumatic childhood events with mom talk to mom, small talk, deep talk, or anything? reply to SOME messages from friends i didnt reply to in the last 6 weeks delete some unknown contacts from facebook interact with people's stories on facebook call a few friends (if in the mood.. im quite distant today) say a prayer for health listen to brain playlist subliminals ( 100% brain activation + heal all brain illness) tell family members you love them and why you love them. offer gratitude. express opinion freely 2. take care of weekly feet hygiene facial make-up and healthcare beauty subliminals from velmental playlist wash teeth 3 times MINIMUM clean room dress nicely even at home love yourself unconditionally <3 look in the mirror and notice how beautiful you are <3 draw your favourite character in a cute sketchy style 3. write essay about yin yang and god comparison pray to god listen to insights meditate to psytrance pray watch religious or spiritual content from watch later on youtube Wow I have a full day x__x

There are people saying subliminals are not working. Don't be fooled.. there are actually people trying to keep it secret. Cause it works so well. My boyfriend used subliminals for a month now. We had a playlist together but I couldn't listen cause I wasn't home and had no phone for 5 weeks. He got pale skin, scar removal, feline eyes, slightly reddish hair, sharper facial looks, smoother skin... Wow. He even made me squirt today.. God knows what else he listened to! Some subliminals like eye colour change can work in 2 years ... others work in 1 day or first listen. Especially chakra ones work fast.

I realised my lifestyle cannot be maintained without meat so now I am an omnivore. I'm sad, because honestly ... if I am quite frank with myself it was because of spiritual or psychological reasons. Yes, the propaganda. I love the taste of a good ham and a good spicy salami. I just want to live my life without feeling sorry for the animals. They're already dead, its already done. Even if you don't eat it, the sin is done. Idk, maybe I'm just mindgaming myself again into eating meat. I have friends who don't eat meat because their body cannot take it. But they supplement protein a different way, I am taking supplements right now, multivitamins. To reverse the bad effects. And eating tons of meat and eggs and all that. And I feel great and have a good shape and no problems with health.

That was my first thought. I did sublingual melatonin and I overdosed to hard that I went on a psychedelic trip. Lmao was cool. I never took psychedelics before. I don't think I ever will. If I want a trip I just don't take my meds. *shrug* I'm on so many psychiatric drugs... today I got my injection. It's sad how it's limiting the insights I get from God....

In some states I am aware of all you say but I just took a huge dose of psychiatric medication. IT's sad how it slows down my spiritual progress. My mind is naturally psychedelic so I don't need to take psychedelics. But I need to to psychiatric meds to function as a member of society. Beautifully written key insights that I loved to read, thanks @Inliytened1