ZahariaNicu

@Carl-Richard @Gesundheit2 @Terell Kirby @kever I appreciate all of your points. It does feel like Nihilism it is encountered through Orange and it gets diminished as you evolve into Green, a more relativistic stage.

@BenG I get your point. Nihilistic thoughts might appear at Purple or Red stage (indigenous people/in tribes) but they still give it a meaning, as it would happen at blue or orange. I would assume, the lower the stage the more difficult it is to live with those kind of thoughts?

@Nahm That is understood. The question was from an outside perspective about people who are nihilists through their work of thoughts. Im giving it as an example, the philosopher Emil Cioran who wrote over 20 books on this theme of life.

In which stage of the Spiral Dynamics model do nihilism or nihilists writers or thinkers fit in? Because it takes some revelations about the nature of reality to get to that point, i would put them somewhere above orange, maybe Green or even Yellow but i would like to know your opinion on this matter.

What do you think about the current situation at the Capitol in Washington DC? 25 000 people troops defending the capitol on 20th of January Do you think the fear is justified? Would people go that far and attack the transition?

The way reality is seen (through psychedelics) as all sorts of patterns, that repeat themselves in various forms. This makes me imagine how habits are a the way patters emerge into my form as a human. The way habits define what that human/animal form can or can't do. I know that my body learned walking through a series of trying and errors, becoming more of a habit with every step my body took. Then the needs to survive pushed my body into a talking habit, which this alone lead my body into a whole new world of habits to explore. The way my body performed in sports at school or the way my body learned to sing not only talk. The way the Rocky Mountain goat's body became more efficient surviving through climbing in the hardest conditions. The way a kitten's body learns to master hunting through replicating mom's behavior. The way coat patterns replicate on a giraffe's body or a zebra. The way my body craves to roll a joint right now, because it's built into the habit to do that once at 2h. The way I claim/judge every process/habit my body does. Here's a video talking about the subject of "HABITS"

Assuming that you have something to learn only from certain situations it ll make it complicated to understand for you. You are the creator of the universe, so if there is something to learn from anything is that no matter the situation you re in or were in is there for you to learn from. Just realize that you re infinite intelligence and you ll use for sure everything that you ve learned councious or unconscious to to give value to your being. So if you're tendency is to become a serial killer, concentrate and learn to become a good one(just kidding don't do that)

A good practice that works for my ego is...when a thought arises..become aware of the nature of that thought and then the nature of the thought about thought and then the nature of the thought about the nature of thought about the initial thought and notice that you could go forever this way..that s the moment when you become aware of it and find no reason to continue thinking forward, you ll notice that there s no reason to think in the first place and when this is truly understood by your ego it ll be a kids play to stop your thoughts on command and become calm.

The ego doesn't necessarily chases success or advancements and it s not selfish or aggressive. Ego is the lower self, is YOU the one who opened this topic in the first place. Ego is the form, the sum total of all the experiences that the body s been through. So if the environment that the body is been exposed acted in such a way that favorised the need to be successful or selfish or aggressive in order to survive then that s what your definition as a ego.

Recently i found a technique to reach a state i cannot label so i ll let you interpret it. Description: A state of being pure formless and bliss in which i felt like nothing could harm me for the first time in my life. At 7pm(Romania/12amChicagotime) today i rolled myself a doobie(predominantly sativa) with the thought of practicing the new technique i ve been working on. Smoked it and i lay down on my bed with a Christ on the cross like posture..both arms resting on the bed(palms up), put my headphones on and play random binaural beats astral projetion video you find on YT. As soon as the weed kick in i start focusing on erasing every thought as soon as it pops up until until i get to a calm state where the only thought that i had was a white wall. Soon after i spent a couple of minutes on this state i start focusing on the feelings i felt at the moment in the body(note: i havent labeled these feelings or where are they situated in my body..i was just observing whats happening to me) until i get to a point where i notice that each of these feelings are disappearing one by one. Few more minutes later i felt how my arms are just fading, there wasnt any feeling actually and went along with it until my legs followed up and my butt and then all of my body, but all these transitions were so smooth that ive noticed that i don t have a form just after it happened. Yes, you heard me right. Formless. I dont really know how to discribe this but i was like nothing that could be anything. There was a moment when being with the eyes closed and having not being aware that i still had eyelids, some shines got into my pupils. An observation that i made at the time it was that the thoughts that were just flying in void were taking form and shapes and forms because of the patterns of light screening on my eyelids. I wasn't the one responsible for closing or opening my eyes because at that point i had no controls whatsoerver over my body. I remembered then the topic of Free will vs determinism that Leo broke down and then realizing that all of those thoughts were brought up to surface in the same time as the eyelids were making their uncontrolled movement. The thoughts were just interpretation and projection of the movement my body already did by itself. A few more moments after that, my blood pressure got stable in the whole body, it was like there was no barrier at all between me and everything. All felt right and nothing felt wrong. I felt like i could be a rock, or a wall or a piece of land or a tree and that i could stay like that forever without any resentment. If you know the feeling just before you re about to run unconscious in sleep mode. The feeling of stillnes and bliss and sweetness. You can picture the state that i was just like that with the difference that the thoughts that were floating in void were aligning somehow in a logical order and i was still able to be councious of what i am. But it was like every idea that i had it felt right, nothing like the normal state where the ego opposes resistance to many of the ideas i have. Now, why did i told you all this story is that one of the beliefs this body holds right now is that the STATE that i was in today (formlessness where all of the thoughts were just results of all the memory/karma this form acquired for 22 years) might be for you a source of pure inspiration, a muse as it was called in ancient times and you might find an idea that can be useful for your journey in life. In the end, if you do try this and works please leave a comment with your experience here, i would love to learn more about it. Thanks for reading! Love you all!