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Thanks guys! <3

Im sorry to hear that <3

Yeah i completely relate to that "punched in the gut" feeling, and I totally understand that has to feel terrible after putting so much heart into it. Yes it is possible to ban, but I don't think avoidance is the way to go. They'll just figure out other means to do what they do.. or new ones will pop up. Better to learn to deal with it imo. I think you have to be very developed for not feeling (at least a little bit) sad when you read something like that.

he is a downloaded model from 3dsky, but he needed to be more handsome so i altered him a bit I work in the 3d business with 3ds max, vray, inventor, revit, VR and adobe. A job I made for myself, just like i made my channel, without a guy paying me because i look a certain way This wasnt my question, id prefer to stay on topic. Which is how to deal with comments that ridicule your looks when you put everything you have into making something of great value. Any other questions, send it on PM. That has to be the craziest shit ive ever heard. He really uploaded videos imitating you? Just wow, you're thick skinned indeed

Thank you, but its in norwegian <3 hugs

Thats a good idea, you learn more deeply when you have the intention of teaching it to others. And yeah, but you'll encounter trolls no matter what you decide to do i guess. Im just tired, and its hard getting comments about the way you look when you've put your heart and soul into a topic

Thats what i do

Get well soon, sending you warm thoughts. If it takes too long to clear up, I can gift you my masque of clavicus vile

Thank you everyone for your answers <3

best of luck, PM me if you ever need someone to talk to

Lean into your fear. I think at least you should see your daughter. Look into her eyes. Hold her. What do you feel in that moment? You'll never know if you don't try. You made this little human. She is literally made out of you. And she is helpless in this world without you. Maybe a new purpose will arise in you when you see her. The truly meaningful thing in this world is service. I think you know the answer if you listen to your heart Good luck <3

Not sure where to put this, maybe Health/Nutrition/Fitness is better, but I'm asking this question in the light of spirituality and consciousness work not health. I've come to the realization.. or, I guess I've known for a while, that I have to give up alcohol if I want to progress on this journey. Maybe it's not like that for everyone, but I guess with my relationship to it, it's extremely toxic.. Does alcohol and spirituality even work together in some cases? Do you drink? How often? Why/Why not? Are you planning to quit it?

Yes, it's kind of hard when people insist to always get liquered up while socializing. Thank you for the wishes & I'm very proud of you

I relate so much to this, and I'm so happy you got out of it. <3 I'll save this part for a rainy day, "From my experience and from knowing others with the same situation, the control and compulsion gets more intense, never better."

Thank you <3 Thank you for the advice, much appreciated <3 I see. It's probably different for different people then. I actually don't drink very often. My problem is I only have a choice to *not* drink my first drink. After that first drink, I always end up shitfaced. With weak willpower, doing stupid shit I regret deeply later. Yeah, actually when I think about it... I believe creating this thread was my psychological addiction to alcohol talking - Trying to confirm drinking is totally fine in my case when it's obviously stupid af

I've come to the conclusion that it's time to remove alcohol from my life. I've known for many years - But sometimes thoughts need some time to mature into action. For me at least.

Thank you all for your time and enlightening aswers.

When did you quit alcohol? Was it difficult for you?

Any thoughts on Jbp? Im from scandinavia, dont know much about him. People keep nagging me to check him out, but im preoccupied with other resources atm. Is he worth the time?

Well, this did not spark my interest at all. "Alpha", debating, feminism.. bleh.

In terms of spiral dynamics im not interested in an orange teacher if that's what you're implying.

This weekend my boyfriend got angry with me, because we had been at a birthday party and I avoided him the whole time. I avoided him because he and his friends talked about porn, I didnt want to listen to it so I would rather sit and talk with other people. I have jealousy issues so I knew this was my problem , but it felt really bad and I did not want to talk about it with him at a party. When we got home he was angry with me for not spending any time with him at the party, and asked me why. I felt embarrassed about the reason why, but I told him and he got very mad. He started yelling at me, telling me to grow up and so on. I asked him three or four times if he could lower his voice and he did not listen. Then he told me to get my shit together and leave. I got up from the bed and collected my things so I could leave. Then he started following me around, he was still yelling. I did not respond or look at him, I get very uncomfortable around angry people, especially men. I understand it must feel very frustrating for him when I don't even respond or look at him while he is angry, he wants a reaction from me. Anyways he proceeded to grab my shoulders and push me into the wall. At this point I got very scared and started crying. He continued to hold me for about 3 or 4 minutes. When my crying eased up he said "you're not even crying" and "i would rather be pushed into a wall instead of the psychological stuff you pull on me". I started crying even more and was very uncomfortable. Then he backed away and got me some water and told me he was sorry. I was sexually abused when I was a child, and last year I was raped in the middle of the day while walking in the city. He knows this. When a man yells at me or puts his hands on me or get angry with me I have an immidiate panic responce. It's just fight/flight, game over. He has pushed me into the wall once before when he was sober, and he promised he would never do that to me again. I'm not sure if I am overreacting because of my background. I did not treat him right when I was avoiding him for a whole night because of my silly jealousy issues. I have broken up with him once before, so I know he must have felt very scared for me leaving the relationship again. I also know I'm very avoidant in conflict related situations, which can be hard for others to deal with. It did not hurt when he pushed me into the wall and I know he never would have done anything to physically hurt me. Is this ok?

Well... I'm a very attractive and intelligent girl (If it's ok to say that) None of my ex boyfriends have either looks or money. What they did have though was humour and intelligence. I absolutely can not be with a man who's not able to make me laugh. Or if he's dumber than me. Major turn off. I do not resonate with this video at all.