tatsumaru

I spend ALL of my time indoors, I never get out at all. I've barely gotten out for the last 10 years. I just don't know what to do outside, all I encounter is the madness of crowds, ads about shitty businesses and shitty businesses and this depresses me. When I am at home I have the power to create my own bubble that protects me from this ignorant society. That all being said I realize that living in a cave isn't great for the body, but I think it's important to note that my nasal problems started before I became a recluse, while still in high school so while I agree that I am outdoors deficient I am somewhat skeptical that this is the cause to my nasal problems.

What really initiated (but by no means completed) this transition to viewing life from the lens of music was something Alan Watts said here: An important caveat though, I would caution you against believing Alan's idea that there's no necessity for the universe or existence and would like to instead suggest to only focus on his music analogy rather than his premature conclusions about the whole of existence. Personally I think Alan Watts didn't really understand how fundamental this insight was and kind of left it underdeveloped. He thought it was just an analogy and never considered the possibility that life isn't like music, but that music is like life and that playing the piano is to music what living is to life. To answer your questions, I would suggest to you that you actually take a look at musical theory as if you are studying physics (i.e. as something fundamental to the understanding of life itself, not something arcane or tangential to life like most musicians think of it). Pay particular attention to what harmony actually is and why it is different than non-harmony, then contemplate what harmony outside of the context of music is and how it could guide you in a profoundly honest and direct way that no teaching or "ism" ever could. Also pay attention to what octaves are and compare them with spiral dynamics theory. Pay attention to what frequencies are and contemplate wave functions. Contemplate the differences between static and dynamic. A word of caution though, if you go this route you might uncover that almost all of modern education is incorrect, you might also discover Taoism naturally on your own. Realizing certain truths may make you incompatible with the current version of the social software. This could lead to profound loneliness. Buyer beware. Any book on musical theory should provide some interesting insights even something like "Musical Theory for Dummies", if you resonate with it take it as far as you want, and then you should really consider "A course in miracles". Finally Walter Russell's "A new concept of the universe." should provide you with a fundamental understanding of the workings of the universe and may open the gates for your transformation to Homo Universalis. Good luck.

“Contradictions in perspective among those Seeing the profound do not occur”- Taranatha According to Taranatha one or all of the debaters are clueless. P.S. Shenxiu seems like an idiot. Shambhala says, a warrior never hesitates reflecting light on everything even a pile of shit. A free mind doesn't reject dust or shit.

This is the only song I've heard and loved that has a legit enlightenment vibe:

In my experience there's no such thing as failure that's just an invention by the schooling system. The only possible failure is giving up and people only give up on things they don't really care about and only do for stupid reasons like fame, money, status or recognition. If you catch yourself starting a bunch of new things all the time and never finishing them and quitting on them consider the possibility that you don't really want to do them and are only doing them for the wrong reasons. If so take Leo's life purpose course and see where it leads you.

Not being too serious about life has had a really positive effect on my mood. When I get too serious I start to express all kinds of neuroses and mood disorders. However one unfortunate side effect of not taking life too seriously is that I get lazy and unmotivated like a stoner. How can I relax, have fun and be productive at the same time?

Are we supposed to be depressed at times or is all depression a symptom of some sort of disease be it psychological, spiritual or physiological? Is there any value to depression whatsoever? Thanks.

How do you know if you are clinically depressed? And what kind of help is there anyway, I am not taking these shit drugs that tell my body to feel differently despite the fact I hold the same beliefs, neuroses, mindsets and live in the same circumstances.

Great news! Good luck. My suggestions: - The Portal with Eric Weinstein - Hotboxin’ with Mike Tyson Also please consider doing certain podcasts which are lower on the spiral dynamics model just to help the lower tiers move up a notch as well. Thank you for your efforts.

That was golden. Made me laugh. Thank you.

You have to start at 3 or you are toast, sorry.

I am getting such a mentalgasm from this.

Here are some beautiful systems thinking concepts to contemplate and enrich your thought process with: - Synergy - Emergence - Threshold - Transformation - Transmutation - Catalyst - Wave - Membrane - Mutualism - Evolution - Whole - Dynamic - Relativity - Environmental health - Innovation - Complex coordination - Elasticity - Paradigm - Network / Net - Critical mass - Escape velocity - Gestalt - Harmony - Resonance - Hive - Seed - Unfold - Balanced interchange - Spectrum - Taijitu (aka the Yin Yang symbol) - Transcendence - Renaissance Some of these words actually transcend systems and penetrate deeper into holism, but that's fine. Systems is how we describe imaginary subsets of the whole within the limitation of concepts. Let's embrace this beautiful wisdom and welcome World 2.0.

Thank you. I added them.

"Blessed is he who has a soul, blessed is he who has none, but woe and grief to him who has it in embryo." - Gurdjieff

Around 5 years ago I had a health meltdown followed by a psychological meltdown. Not sure what happened but one night I woke up with vertigo and it all went downhill from there. I am not going to go in details about the specifics of the health problems that I went through because that's not the focus of this topic, but what's important is that I had a really bad experience dealing with many multiple doctors in trying to figure out what was happening to me. Suffice it to say I got to experience everything from incompetence to gaslighting and indifference, spent massive money and got zero results in return. At the end of the day I felt incredibly betrayed by this system that was supposed to be a system of wise healers but turned out to be one of indifferent and incompetent gaslighters for the most part. This was incredibly traumatizing for me and took me nearly 6 years to recover psychologically. Earlier today I stumbled upon a theory by psychologist Jennifer Freyd called Institutional betrayal referring to "wrongdoings perpetrated by an institution upon individuals dependent on that institution, including failure to prevent or respond supportively to wrongdoings by individuals (e.g. sexual assault) committed within the context of the institution". Not sure if that's what happened to me, but I resonated with this concept for the reasons above. For whatever reason that's left me with this overwhelming fear of my whole city. I feel like Winston Smith from 1984. Like the whole infrastructure is out to get me. It's because the people who I held in the highest regard betrayed me and now I feel that I can't trust humanity anymore. In the beginning I had a massive PTSD from this and just passing by a hospital or even the thought of a hospital made me want to curl up and cry, now the fear is mostly gone but there is still trauma and something deeply disturbing that I can't quite express. I feel like I am in purgatory or that this is some nightmare that I am supposed to wake up from. I tried emotional freedom technique but got limited benefit. What can I do to let that trauma go ?

I want to share four experiences from my life which when I think about the word 'madness' comes to mind. I want to share them because I find the concept of madness deeply troubling. Madness is one of my greatest fears and I want to understand it and transcend it in order to become a fully integrated human being. I don't want to be afraid of it or resist it or to anticipate it or to live in fear of it for the rest of my life. Without further ado... I had this schoolmate who always scared me a little bit. He wasn't evil or anything like that but he had this intense look in his eyes like he was ready to start a riot or something. Like he had no inhibitions and he could turn into pure chaos. Like he was gasoline waiting for a spark to happen. This was both curious and quite disconcerting. He was always looking for trouble. For whatever reason this unstable personality that he had scared me, felt like he could lose his mind any moment and just descend into madness, take his dick out and start pissing on people on the streets or something like that. A couple years ago my uncle started hearing voices possibly out of the blue, I am not sure. He was always a reclusive and troubled person but this was a new low even for him. He couldn't handle the suffering and tried to commit suicide. He didn't succeed. He's currently on psychiatric meds and seems to be doing somewhat better, but at the expense of being a zombie. Now I wonder, what if I start hearing voices one day, what if I can't handle the suffering and want to kill myself too? The thought that there exists some punishment like that out there which can visit anyone out of the blue and can cause such suffering is almost unbearable. I tried psychedelics a few times and on some of the trips I had the sensation that the intensity of the trip is is so overwhelming that if it increased even a little bit I wouldn't be able to handle it and would get fucked up beyond repair or something like that. It never happened but it always felt like I was about to lose everything to chaos - a disintegration more complete than even death. I've heard of people who took psychedelics and got broken and could never recover afterwards. What is that? In the movie Zorba the Greek there was a scene in the beginning where Zorba was really wild and just started dancing chaotically to exhaustion like some wild animal out of control. Apparently he needed to do it because that was a form of emotional or energetic release for him. For whatever reason that triggered fear in me. I started wondering what is this state, what if he succumbs to madness and can never return to order again? What if his mind gets trapped in some chaotic dimension and he becomes lost forever? Where does madness come from? What are we to do about it as individuals and as a society? Is it self-inflicted or simply bad luck? Can we heal it or recover from it once it happens? What can I personally do to let go of my fear of madness and become more integrated? Let me know your thoughts. Thanks.

While this is mostly true, I wouldn't overgeneralize it as an absolute fact. I've met individuals who were able to help. This is extremely rare because we live in a culture of ignorance and mediocrity. Almost everything we are taught is wrong and therefore the people that come out of this education system are mostly useless. But some aren't. Regardless the bad ones can often cause much harm to others consciously or unconsciously. For starters we need better tools to deal with trauma. Personally my own vertigo symptoms were caused by magnesium and vitamin K2 deficiency. They went away permanently after two weeks of supplementation. Give it a try if you haven't already. As for the rest I totally agree. With the exception of acute trauma (heart attacks, gunshot wounds etc.) doctors are mostly useless, particularly the ones dealing with chronic disease - they haven't healed anyone and the drugs that address these issues have failed miserably too. It's clear our society has no clue where chronic disease comes from. You go to them when you are at your most desperate and they act all annoyed and try to convince you that you are crazy and should not bother them and that it's all in your head, but the reality is that the whole healthcare system is a fraud and is of no help to anyone - trillions of dollars going in the trash, doctors have to gaslight you in order to cover the lie that they are just clueless idiots walking around with white coats pretending to know something.

Something happened in the 8th grade and I stopped caring for left-brain intensive activities. While I was always interested in holistic and systems thinking I became less and less interested in logical, math and abstract sort of thinking. As a result I feel quite asymmetrically developed with my right brain being way stronger than my left brain. Additionally I feel quite disinterested in math, logic, set theories, spatial reasoning, mental permutations, inference etc. And while that is the case I am starting to recognize that this is starting to become a significant weakness because I am becoming less and less capable of dealing with number crunching and computation in general. In my experience left brain thinking is mostly about discrimination and survival. It's like a scalpel. It turns the whole into parts and tries to reorganize them in clever ways, but at the end of the day it's just that. And while engineering is useful, no amount of concept shuffling will ever get you There. Because of this I find it hard to motivate myself to exercise my left brain. How can I rekindle my interest in my left-brain again so it doesn't deteriorate? Thanks.

I totally understand where you are coming from. I am totally the same. Has nothing to do with my sex drive, I get crazy horny every day. It's just that somehow I've transcended living for the sake of my lower self all the time. Sure I think about fucking often but the desperation is gone. The neediness is gone. I am on my own journey, life is about me and my gift to humanity. If I find someone along the way that I want to share it with - great, even kids are welcome, but I am not on a mission to conquer women anymore. Oddly enough, women tend to find this lack of desperation quite sexy so it's the best of both worlds. I think this happens when you find some sort of inspiration or purpose in your life, it gives you a certain sort of satisfaction that fills in the void in your life and you no longer live for external validation anymore.

Don't hijack my thread with your nonsense please. You want to talk about life purpose or something else unrelated, take it to the DMs.

I've realized that my Mom's always had a serious psychological problem but has always found ways to mask it or avoid it up until recently. And now it's surfacing and manifesting big time. What I am talking about is that throughout her whole life she's had serious self-worth and self-hate issues and her philosophy about dealing with them has always been to distract herself from her thoughts through extraverted activities and work. Now she's nearing retirement and also her second husband died ~6 years ago and so both of her crutches were taken away by life and the depression is hitting big time. This is important because her husband used to successfuly compensate and mask the self-worth issues through constant compliments and encouraging words. If you've read the book "The 6 Pillars of Self-Esteem" a situation between two partners is described in the beginning where one partner has self-esteem issues and because of that they need the other one to constantly fill that void they are creating through compliments and reassuring words. Something quite similar is happening here too. She doesn't have her job anymore to distract herself from her thoughts and her husband died so he's no longer here to constantly reassure her and she's getting more and more depressed. This is how her usual day goes by - She wakes up at around 8 o'clock, she drinks coffee, she plays scrabble by herself for 8 hours, watches a tv show and goes to bed. She's not doing anything with her life and whenever I ask her what are her plans for the rest of her life she says something along the lines of "It's too late for plans", "I'm old now, it doesn't matter" etc. She's 60 btw. So she could easily live another 20-30 years. So the reality is not that it's too late, but that she's lost the will to live. I tried giving her Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now, but she didn't even read it. She's not interested in doing anything. I don't know how to reach her to be honest. I talk to her about awareness, meditation, psychoanalysis, emotional intelligence, but the only thing she's interested in is drinking alcohol with her loser friends, eating junk food, hating herself and watching tv. 6 years have passed and she still can't let go her husband's death, keeps a big picture of him in her room and lives in the past imagining that those were better times when in reality she was the same back then, but had him to give her emotional drugs all the time. In my experience there's always something you can say or do to help another person get out of their rut and understand why they are stuck, because there's always some underlying belief or identity that manifests as these so called psychological problems. However most of the times it's not clear at all what that thing is. I would be really happy if I could do something for her so she can spend the rest of her life in a meaningful and productive way rather than self-wallowing, drinking and waiting to die. What should I do? Thank you.

Good question. I am not entirely ready to depart from this dimension I suppose. I want to contribute to society a little bit. This will require some engineering and math probably.

In Buddhist and Hindu stories there are many cases of highly truth realized yogis who are capable of moving their consciousness from one body to another. According to Sadhguru this is entirely possible and according to one other spiritual master I've personally studied under this should be possible as well. Most of the stories go like that: - A young prince died and an older yogi saw his dead beautiful young body and decided to leave his old body for the prince's body. (Honestly that sounds impossible since if that body was viable then how come the prince died in the first place. Unless the Yogi can also raise the dead I don't see how this is logically possible). - One guy left his body for some astral traveling. While he was away some Yogi took his body and left his old body for the other guy to use. Now I know this sounds somewhat ridiculous, but what if there's some truth to it? It also implies that memory and consciousness are not of the body which isn't exactly true since DNA is definitely of the body. Maybe it's just an old wife's tail. But what if it's not. What if we could switch bodies? Is there anything in anyone's experience here to suggest that this might be possible?

Whenever I try to implement some routine and discipline in my life, some good habits I get this fear that I am trading my freedom away, that I am losing my humanity, my ability to adapt and improvise and instead am turning into this automaton. As Sadhguru put it, habits are a type of unconsciousness and for me unconsciousness is death. That all being said without any discipline and routine in my life I tend to spiral out of control and become a mess. What is the solution here?