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I don't have a clue what half of you are on about. It's all so positive yet vague. The south park episode with the underpants stealing gnomes explains it best. Steal underpants, ? , profit Every time someone here gives me a pep talk I have no idea what they are saying. Be it, be now, be free, you are now (which now? calm now, meditation now, dmt world now, which now?), you have no brain, we are 2 dimensional beings and we are certain of it, really? certain of things like that? that requires so much vagueness to believe. When two people here are talking about the regular topics pertaining to self actualization often they seem to be so vague both people have a completely different idea in their mind of what they are discussing. If your successes in self inquiry are vague you should check them again.

I was never a big poster so I am probably not remembered, but I left in a rage. Now I'm back. A touch of the humility must have taken hold of me. I will try and not shut down ideas of others I don't believe (unless you seem mentally unwell and are trying to justify drug use when you clearly need help).

do you even see keyboard keys or words on a screen?

He was already crazy is my guess, he harnessed the crazy but now he's like eccentric surrealist genius writers or Telsa, a candle that burns so bright we all benefit from their torture but they snuff out too soon.

I didn't get any pearls of wisdom out of it but it was an compelling watch.

I really think it's a lack of one or two nutrients, vague depression that isn't about one particular negative experience is such a common form of depression. And I've searched all over the net for my own issues and so many times you'll find a lady got off prozac taking mega b3 shots, or too much mercury was in the canned tuna and months were needed to improve, or cruciferous vegetables antagonized the thyroid. I bet it's one very hard to find but very easy to solve problem like remove on thing from your diet or take one vitamin or mineral.

You should look into intermittent fasting. There are huge long term benefits to IF. Also less grains and starches in your diet will level out your hunger pangs. If you could eat between 2pm and 8pm each day and only water or unsweetened tea drank during the day you are doing the 16:8 intermittent fast which is the standard method for most people. If you haven't already google 16:8 intermittent fasting just to check it works for a 17 year old.

Leo looked like he was pretending to have revelation, sorry but I never saw anyone that confident, clear in their words and able to not only operate a camera and keep everything in frame but remember the whole point for that long. To keep on track for that long on some big trip doesn't sit right with me, it must be like the after glow of a substance and he still remembers the experience or he is full blown having some awakening moment. That would be scary, you would hate to be driving a car or operating a giant crane and all of a sudden go through that.

There goes a philosopher without his coat, another without his book, yet another half starved saying as he goes "I have no bread but I still remain faithful to reason." And here I sit, well nourished and surrounded by my books, unfaithful to reason. - Marcus Aurelius, the Emperor's Handbook Brilliant book, feels like one Roman man came up with his own Tao Te Ching

Subconsciously trying? I think that's a contradiction Try thinking some song lyrics in your head while breathing in and out. Try and do the opposite of TM by not matching the rhythm of the breathing with the rhythm of the song lyrics. It feels weird to me, I always want to finish singing one line in the song with one breath and the next line with the other breath. My internal voice seeks the rhythm of my breathing in some strange way. I think that could help but what do I know? I'm no specialist. edit: I mean try that song lyric idea in little bursts, not in a meditation session, just standing in line, sitting at a desk whatever

No offense but I suspect it would be hard to identify 2 year cycles at the age of 20. All teenagers are crazy and up and down so I'm pretty certain that is why you need to be older before the diagnosis can be reliable. Medication is hard to get off for some people, don't be certain.

Try and enjoy each breath, breath it in and appreciate how good it feels, focus on how deep the breath is, focus on how the inhalation is bringing good qi and the exhalation is expelling stagnant qi. If you have any ache of pains imagine breathing into the pain with the breath coming from your head and not your lungs and push it into the aching areas, imagine on the inhale you are bringing in clean energy to heal and on the exhale imagine you are letting go of the pain or stress. If you focus on all those other things surrounding the breath and simply try and enjoy it if you have no aches or pains I think you can get over it.

I agree 100%. Evolution is something I suspect happens to god just as much as it happens to creatures. Maybe we really did create the sun as an illusion in my mind but that will never help me in my life so I take a more grounded approach. Otherwise day and night, the earth being a a ball orbiting a sun, vitamin d, sunburn, how plants grow, the temperature etc is just more illusion.

Enlightenment is a journey that never ends, not a destination. Personality disorder is an excuse for some people but a list of symptoms and possible remedies and treatments for others.

Are you in your late 20s or early 30s? Those age groups are the common ages for bi polar or schizoid disorders to emerge Have you tried all the lame exercise, vegan, no dairy, no this, no that, boring stuff? The boring stuff helped me and it also freed me from self deceptions that I needed some out there thing to make life seem worth living.

Thought is you creating a narrative of your past and predicted future. The structure, nature and essence is purely made up of outside stimuli. Something happens and you react and afterward you think about your reaction and use this narrative to develop ego and essentially create a subconscious system of probabilities eg. I met 300 men named Jim and 298 of them punched me in the balls so next time I meet a Jim I'm not letting him anywhere near my balls. So your thought isn't really yours it's a reaction to others as they react to you. Most people aren't afraid of every Jim out there but in this example I have every reason to be afraid of every Jim. So thought is a reaction, is the environment positive to the life form?

If there was no privacy there would be no crimes so I would look at crime stats to determine how well our privacy is being upheld.

Have you tried all the usual dietary and exercise options like: fish oil, walking, meditating, 8 hours sleep between 10pm and 6am, circadian rhythm, vegan, dairy free gluten free, blood tests to determine vitamin deficiencies etc. I wasted almost a decade convinced I needed the hardest meds to solve my problems but all I needed to do was every sensible lame old lady remedy under the sun. Unfortunately I knew this deep down but I wanted my misery and I see that now.

I meant more along the lines of when you first moralized against games in the first place that was in hindsight, I suspect it's more of the same again. You say "My mind abused this realization" which is 2 things, the mind and the realization itself. Sorry but I don't believe you realized anything and then came to conclusions, I think you played a game and made up a narrative after the fact, then you played another game and made a different narrative involving reasoning and topics pertaining to self inquiry. The ego seems to be applying heaps of importance to the lessons you are learning when you procrastinate, always i hindsight.

Did you come up with that theory after playing a video game or did you mull over the theory and then decide "Video games are not bad, let's play a game?" I think we apply a lot of meaning to our actions in hindsight and subconsciously we are just reacting. In hindsight we create a narrative for the subconscious actions and a positive yet manipulative part of our ego deludes us into thinking we chose that bad vice due to reasoning. Then we tell ourselves it must be such a complex topic and of course we didn't just let our egos trick us into some low conscious act - we are high conscious beings after all - and that the search is so challenging. I have no real recollection of typing any of this and now that I am finishing the response I apply my usual narrative that I am a often described as seeing things from a slightly different angle to most people and therefor I have a good chance of helping you and making myself feel useful.

Lots of people have social anxiety. Do you see it in others? If so then they see it in you too. Try and spot people like you and practice socializing on them first, they may be practicing socializing on you at the very same time.

I agree with that so yes it looks like a lack of understanding what you meant

before you said "The problem isn't with negativity per se but the fact that most people don't actually want to be negative deep down" why is it a problem that people don't want to be negative?

so you don't like synonyms?

My point was I didn't understand why you looked so deeply into someone's motivations for not watch the news and then told them they had all these illusions of labels. My simple take on the situation: "I don't like that thing over there, so I will not go over there and now I have no problem"