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I had these very intense desire to understand what reality it's all about, i took ketamine and meditate , i came to a state where my belief system was crushed, it open up a possibility everything i knew it's just ideas and concept and it could be wrong, and here comes the big question, what is the ultimate Truth? I put my focus on what is really going on right now, i came to the conclusion, it's only an appearance and sensation,bubble of consciousness constantly shape shifting into different motion that play out story of my life , how is this even possible? later on i having a full blown energy rising shit going on,that moment i had a strong sense of my entire reality its made up of consciousness and i realize god decide to manifest my entire reality this is why im having this first person experience

Has anyone notice that in Reality,Everything it's just appearing and disappearing within the bubble of consciousness,including thoughts,sensation,visual,sound.. literally everything , include my whole existence are appearing and disappearing every single day, it's so strange to interpretate reality in direct experience, I look at my direct experience and trying hard to squeeze the juice out, this is what i get There is only this "screen" happening to me and everything in this "screen" appears and dissapear, including the screen itself . Im this process of appearing and disappearing, isn't that so strange, this left a big question mark on my mind.

Hi guys, this is the first time I do 3g of mushroom,I'm here to share the experience that I had, It was deeply profound and recontextualized my whole paradigms Let's cut the story short Usually I only do 1-2g of shroom to explore myself, but this time I decide to go deeper, but unfortunately I didn't expect the trip goes so hard, barely can even handle, I tried to stand up but I just can't function properly, I decide to lay down and do conscious breathing hope that I'm able to get better, at the same time I'm monitoring my consciousness, and notice that kundalini thing are doing its work, clearly felt the energy flowing through my spine and forehead And next I was in the peak of my experience, all my emotion just happening at once, I feel happy, sad, angry, hopeless, love, I thought I was dying, the horror of death are approaching to me, I'm at the border of alive and death, I did not let go fully, I just let go 30%, and next was magical I enter into a very strange state of consciousness , the supriseness feeling that suddenly arise,i was genuinely suprise that I found myself "congratulation, look who you have you found, it's me, I am you" The trip goes full celebration mode, balloon and party visual appearing, I was in total bliss, its like the first time you find out who you truly are! And next was super mind blown, I was directly conscious about how I manifest my own reality, I am literally imaginating my own existence, i heard Leo said God is imaginating everything,I think a lot of time I just don't get it, but this time I verified the statement, witness the truth. I'm conscious about all these enlightenment guru, it's all me trying to make myself fully realize my true being, it was super weird. And the trip coming down I come back to my ordinary state, felt a little bit different, I will take some time to digest the experience, hopefully the next time I'm able to get full insight Thanks for reading and pardon my English

What do you mean when you say "stay in awareness"

The observer does not exist you cant pin point a observer because the observer it's only a mental construct idea.

I am buffled by my own existance lately ,this question keep pop in my mind,like seriously what is really going on here? Why is there existance? And out of suddent , holy shit , i get a sense of understanding , i must exist because i am the result of infinity, this thing that is happening right now infront of me is the result of infinity.

Meditate while driving actually feels trippy and spiritual ,i felt like i did not going anywhere,i am here and now this screen,and the pixel arising and passing, almost felt like the entire experience of consciousness floating at middle of nowhere.

When come full circle ,non dual include all duality, just like leo said in recent episode,all speaking are dualisic.

You are awareness, when you are looking at the wall (which is awareness) you already aware of awareness , you just don't realize yet. The wall are not saperate from awareness, it is awareness. So when you look at the wall, yes you are aware of the wall and simutanously you are aware of awareness. Based on direct experience There is an appearance(screen/awareness),and everything that appear in the screen are you ,for example like the wall, the wall are you.

I really hate the concept of "you are this you are not that " Clearly there is one experience of seemless totality that we call it the self/consciousness , everything appear in the consciousness are self , my body are me, my tv are me, my phone are me, literally everything is me. Emotion happening in me and i am aware of emotion are actually me.

kundalini does exist.

My advice to you is listen "om mani padme hum" to neutralize the energy , it work very well on me.

i have done ket more than 600 time , after i've experience approaximately 400+ i got a full blown kundalini effect, so what it does is to suck me into a mystical realm what i call it the "kundalini k hole" and i am fully consciousness observing everything about it, my third eye and crown chakra pulsing sensation like some object struck inside And then i started to feel chi energy depart from my body spinning around me,there are some interesting part of kundalini k hole, i have seen humanoid doing things like some agenda going on and then my visual field are like astral projection i cant really control where do i fly , something controling the movement, it know how to turn left and right and going inside tunnel and then found a machine like object then the "screen" zoom towards the object and do something on it, immediately my heart chakra blast off i got some weird bliss spiritual sensation every since that day..yeah thats my ketamine story ,one in a while i still do trip on ket to check out whats going on inside

you are you, everything else is just experience <-- so you are trying to say there's a duality between me and my experience? isn't that the non dual truth pointing to me and experience are actually "One" therefor i am the experience itself.

based on my direct experience there is only an appearance, simply this experience, i existed as this experience,the self is the existance itself,everything happening right now is EVERYTHING,the experience keep changing but "i" existed as the experience itself are aware of the experience changing. question: are you the laptop that locates in front of your body