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@Empty Good question man. I think it comes down to trying to be mindfull in your daily activities. I think what prevents me from being mindfull in day-to-day life are the addictions I have which send me into low consciousness states of being.

Porn addiction is tough. From meditation my mindfullness is slowly increasing, but my porn addiction isn't getting any better. 10 minutes into my meditation today I felt really sleepy and horny for some reason. Instead of continuing with my meditation, I watched porn! At least I meditated for 45 minutes afterwards. Every porn addict knows just how severely numbed their pleasure response from masturbation has become. 3-5 years ago when I was 12-14 the pleasure response from masturbation + porn was enormous, but now that's changed. Nofap has been so unsuccessful for me for 2-3 years now (I wasn't 100% serious about nofap during this time though) for me that I've never seen enough progress from abstinence to know that numbed pleasure can even be fixed. I'm worried that I've broken my dick forever in some way. I wonder whether people who don't masturbate but have sex on a weekly basis have a number pleasure response as well.

@Artimus You called the Police on someone who raped you, there should be nothing to feel guilty about. This "sweet guy" wants to blame you for calling the Police on a criminal. Here's my interpretation of things: You've been raped, but Nathan cares so little for you and "cares" much more about his family to the point that he is screaming at you despite the fact that you've maliciously attacked by his Brother. Your emotional attachment to Nathan is toxic and unhealthy. From an outside perspective, I'm telling you, Nathan is a complete prick. The person at fault here for ruining a family is Nathan's brother, not you.

@Arman good advice. I feel like I needed to read this thread, since I've been in a constant state of anxiety and worrying for weeks on end due to external circumstances and my reaction to them. I feel mentally drained in every way lol.

I usually drink 1-2 glasses of milk a day, and I dont know whether it is worth it to give up dairy.

@TheSomeBody Besides being raped lol, you could probably change your sexuality by watching transexual or gender bender porn as a "gateway". I don't think someone who is exclusively heterosexual can become exclusively homosexual, but they could probably become bisexual.

@TheSomeBody Someone's sexuality could probably change if they were to be repeatedly raped by the sex they weren't attracted to.

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@egoless yes?

@Source_Mystic It appears to me as well that many people on this site do accept what Leo says uncritically, but that doesn't mean that you have to accept everything he says nor does it mean that there is no benefit in this forum. A big issue for you seems to be that you think that Leo and many people here are encouraging a practice which is dangerous to your health. I can't say that I know whether you are right or not. Hyperventilation does indeed decrease oxygen supply to your brain as a whole, but I don't really know the specifics of this and whether it can cause damage. Here's a paragraph I found online explaining this: "What, then, happens if hyperventilation — deliberate over-breathing — is continued? The ‘wash-out’ of carbon dioxide progresses, from the lungs, and hence from the blood, and from the body tissues including, importantly, the brain. Carbon dioxide is a crucial variable in acid–base homeostasis; its reduction shifts the body fluids towards greater alkalinity (increased pH) and this has further knock-on effects. For one thing, it tends to cause constriction of some blood vessels, particularly those in the brain, reducing its blood supply and therefore its oxygen supply. So, in what might seem the midst of plenty when an excess of air is being shifted in and out of the lungs, the brain can actually be short of oxygen. It is for this reason that persistent, vigorous over-breathing soon makes us feel faint and dizzy. Another result of the alkalinization of the blood may be tetany: an uncontrollable twitching (caused by neuromuscular over-excitability consequent upon an increase in the binding of calcium ions to proteins in the plasma)." From the surface to me, it would appear that holotropic breathing is a gamble. Although I've read people saying that they've never seen someone get any sort of brain damage from the practice e.g. https://www.quora.com/Is-holotropic-breathwork-harmful/answer/Joseph-Moore-36 . There seems to be a massive split in opinion online as to whether voluntary hyperventilation is harmful to your brain.

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@tsuki I don't really have the patience to watch this lol. Could you mention one or two ideas on how understanding alchemy might help spiritual growth?

@Peter Zemskov To meditate through sleepiness requires becoming a fucking god.

What I'm about to say is not directly related to this topic, but I feel it's worth saying. Not to be arrogant or stuck up, but I hate politics and discussions on social issues because 99% of the people involved pay very little attention to the metaphysics and chains of reasoning that lead to different perspectives. People get very emotionally hung up on it as well, its extremely toxic, and I find political discussion to be very unenjoyable. And even if you discuss politics, nothing will change. You have but a tiny,tiny influence on any real social change in the world. There is value to be had in thinking about politics and social issues, but its littered with toxicity (which I myself have contributed towards) to the point that I don't give a shit about any of it any more. I'd find it amazing if there existed high consciousness people who found real fulfillment from activism.

@Peter Zemskov Meditate with your eyes open. Try and keep your back straight.

@Prabhaker That guys' videos are hilarious as fuck. There are lessons to be learnt from his parodies as well

@Andre Quinonez I personally feel I need 9, but that exact number may be a consequence of unhealthy lifestyle habits. I almost never get 9 though, I'm constantly sleep deprived tbh.

Is persistent mindfulness in the face of pain and suffering the quickest way to reach enlightenment? One or two weeks ago I was feeling depressed in an almost suicidal state of mind, but when I forced myself to be mindful, I found my mind racing with thoughts like "why me? Why am I in so much pain?" whilst I was crying. I feel like doing this gave me an experiential glimpse of what ego is and how it feels. After meditation, my neurotic hellish state of mind turned into a somber but gentle state of mind with less suffering. Is the quickest way to enlightenment just meditate and be mindful through intense suffering?

After I've finished meditating for 35 mins (been doing this daily for a couple of months) my awareness will be sharpened for 30 mins or so, but then it just fades away. I'm really annoyed, because after the last time I meditated my mind was going a bit crazy, but that was because my mind was racing with thoughts about the nature of reality. I felt as though everything is paradoxical, and that the reality I perceive in day to day life is completely determined by unquestioned beliefs and assumptions. I came to realise that all concepts are ultimately groundless, and that if there is a "truth" to reality, it's beyond words. From meditation you can consistently reach mystical states, but these states are temporary. Does it take lots and lots of consciousness work before these states become temporary? Are the most enlightened people in the world constantly in a natural state of hyper minfullness, even when they are not meditating? Is it their "default" mode to be mindfull?

This video will tell you everything about how to go about choosing a guru. There is something to be learned from this.

@Shakazulu lol what. I don't think it's to do with consciousness work, it's to do with people's desire to be in a world where you can do more exciting things (like alchemy, ninjutsu, becoming faster than light like goku, and etc).

@Argue My list of things: Working out (weight lifting) Getting vitamins and minerals, but ZINC in particular is quite important. Eating a clean diet Sleeping well Nofap Anything which reduces you overall level of neuroticism and anxiety. This is one of the main goals of consciousness work.

@MM1988 And men are just attracted by looks. Looks matter for both sexes. but men care more.

@Spiral From what you've said it sounds like you hate small talk with people, and so I can't be bothered to put mental effort into these sorts of conversations. I am like this as well, and there's nothing wrong with this in my opinion. I'm not the most emotionally normal or compassionate person either. People could simply see you as cold because of a mismatch between your temperament and theirs. I am like this as well, but I don't feel bad about it at all, it doesn't mean that there is something "broken" about you. I don't think the solution is to seek meaning from relationships, as it doesn't address the root cause of your negative feelings. By all means, try and learn how to make and maintain good relationships, but don't let your relationships be the source of your happiness and satisfaction.

@Leo Gura what's the point of the tribal drumming music?