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@Scholar It's okay dude just ignore the haters we can burn all the anti no nut November heretics.

@Nahm You win the Internet for this post. Excellent guide. JK THERE IS NO YOU, TRY HARDER NEXT TIME PLEBE.

@Roman Edouard life is a gamble, yeah. It's only at a higher consciousness perspective that this doesn't matter. Yeah I don't see the possible existence of autism to be inherently negatively. All I know is that I've struggled to fit in due to being on slightly different wavelength from people around me and one possible explanation seems to be autism. Good advice

@Mu_ cheers bruh

@Mu_ To add onto my question, I think that there are times I feel happy and content with being alone. But I feel like theres an underfed and somewhat repressed part of my psyche. Sometimes I'm happy being alone but at other times I'm just lonely. I didn't have much time to type in my previous message since I'm actually typing a lab report right now for a nearby deadline LOL.

@Mu_ It was around the third time or so that I meditated that I had an experience of no free will and no self. I was in the present moment and I realised that any action I performed (moving my head, breathing, etc) or any thoughts I had were as much me as every other facet of my consciousness (the things I see, things I hear, bodily sensations of pressure, the actions of other people, etc). I've had this feeling quite a few times now from various meditation sessions. What has really touched me from meditation is feeling that my thoughts are just as much as a part of the happening that is reality as every other part of the happening. If I'm in a higher consciousness state I'll feel the thoughts and words coming out of my mind to be vacuous and they will be no more truthful than random sounds/sights in my experience. Another thing which has really felt profound is time and perception. The past literally does not exist. I have found myself starting to see through the illusion of time when I notice that my thought about a particular thing is not that particular thing and my thoughts start to slow down as I become mindful of them. I have felt things to only be in the "now", but I wonder, what is now? I made a thread wondering how it is that perception exists if time does not exist. If I'm in a high consciousness state, I'll feel existence to be effortless. This is because for all points in my life as a conscious being, I exist in a situation which has no cause. That's because it's always now. I made a thread about this insight I felt a week ago. Even if I experience high consciousness states, my state of consciousness throughout the day/week is like a rollercoaster. At my best I'm buddha, at my worst I'm like a crack cocaine addict. I have a technology (youtube, porn, Netflix, etc) and bad food addiction which tears me down (the food addiction isn't that bad though, technology is 100x harder to quit for me). My meditation routine for the past 2 months has been garbage because I've been stressed and fatigued all the time since starting university. I used to be able to meditate for 80 mins and now I can barely do 45 mins.

@Mu_ The only spiritual practice I've done is meditation. I started January this year, but my meditation routine for the past 2 months has been bad but its recently picked up again. I've had enlightenment experiences. That's about it.

@Emerald Thank you!

Today was the first time I ever tried anything analagous to "pick up". I sat down next to this nerdy (but good looking) Jewish girl on a train who was 20 (I'm 18) and she was playing a random mobile game so the conversation started there. We were both going to the same city since we were students in the same university. Talked with her for an hour. I went outside of my comfort zone quite a bit, since I'm usually very shy infront of other girls. Turns out shes obsessed with MBTI, was interested in having deep conversations. I was attracted to her. I interpreted signals of interest from her since she was quite enthusiastic when talking. I asked her if she wanted to chill or do anything, after I'd walked outside of the train station with her. She said no . I am thankful for the practice/confidence I got at the very least. So my question is directed at the guys here. How many times have you gotten rejected when asking people out? Are the odds quite bad?

@Emerald yeah, 20 per day is a no go. Its probably impossible for me to do that in my day-to-day life. A few per week though sounds alright. I feel bad for that guy you talked about lol. I find it difficult to pick up on social ques as well lol, making this process harder. Right now I'm just flirting with the idea of a relationships, but I feel very pessimistic about the whole thing. I'm an INTP who only enjoys talking about maths, physics, philosophy, psychology, politics... Etc and besides that the only thing which interests me is Eastern spirituality. I just feel like I'm on a different temperamental level from everyone around me, e. G. I'll have better conversations with my university professors then I do with my acquaintances. Sustained periods of loneliness in my life has made me skeptical that I'll ever find people I connect with. Edit: Even if I were to cold approach girls, my only accomplashible objective is likely sex since I doubt I will find anyone on the same wavelength as me.

@Emerald I just read the note you added. I hate clubbing with a passion. Its full of drunk retards awkwardly dancing to trashy songs.

IT WAS WORTH A SHOT, LOL. You don't look old Good point. Thank you for the response (all jokes aside).

@Emerald thanks for the response. You gave quite the guide there. So cold approaches don't work out that well on a case by case basis. If women were to cold approach men, they would succeed. I think this is a consequence of women finding it easier to get partners. The way males and females form attractions is different as well. I mean right now, I don't know if I want hook ups or an actual relationships. I just have urges for affection and sex. Stronger urges for just intamcy. So if I approach 20 women a day I'll probably find someone after 1 and a half weeks. Today I've approached 1, maybe you can be my second? ?

@now is forever (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ Matthew 21:12 (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ Just call me Jesus

That's true. It seems as though the phallus was the more powerful decision maker than the brain. At the time I felt convinced she'd go out with me because she seemed very engaged and interested when talking to me (from my perspective anyway). Seems that she was passionate about the contents of the discussion rather than being passionate "about me" . Is it bad that I feel quite deflated lol

@now is forever @now is forever @now is forever Bro I am livid after reading that. I've got that feeling where I just wanna (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ flip tables due to the bottomless pit of rage that you have incurred.

@kieranperez 5w6, the type of a compulsive worrier.

@VioletFlame humming with different tones sounds like a good idea, bonus points if chakras are affected. The fact that my voice sounds like a dying frong whenever I try to sing might be a small obstacle, LOL. And I don't have a singing bowl. @Strikr thanks for the suggestion. @PsiloPutty I'm typing this sentence whilst I'm sipping green tea.

I've found that if I'm struggling to enter a meditative state, humming and listening to gong noises helps. One thing that really helped me the other day was listening to this with headphones, And humming in synchronisation with the noises. If you ever block your own ears, with headphones in this case, the sound of your voice is sort of amplified in sense in your perception.

@now is forever @now is forever From my experiences of what is referred to as "non-dual love", I'd say that it's quite different from egoic love. I am sort of the state now to a small degree so, I'll try to describe it. I'm in a state of ease and acceptance with everything around me. "I" feel slightly happy by seeing different expressions of reality around me, even if those expressions threaten my ego. Despite this however, I am detached from things. I can feel no ill feelings towards someone (in fact I might "like them") yet I wouldn't hesitate to do something that might harm them. Right now I feel no need to do something that causes harm but I feel detached enough to the point that I could. Egoic love on the other hand is all about attachment.

Love how you made that prediction. Love you too Joseph.

@Viking To add on to what @aurum , do you feel as though you are not being uninhibited because being uninhibited would result in you not fitting in and being socially rejected?

@winterknight Why/how does there arise the distinction between something that is "pleasurable" and something that is "uncomfortable"?Why do some things cause "suffering" whilst other things cause "happiness"? For example, why is eating tasty food pleasurable whilst getting stabbed with a knife extremely painful? A scientist will tell me that things which are beneficial for my biological survival will give pleasure and things which are not advantageous will cause me pain. But that's just a shallow thought story imo, I've been wondering if there is anything deeper to it. Why are some sensations pleasurable and other not pleasurable? Can whether a thing is pleasurable or not pleasurable be reduced to thoughts? Or is there a complex relationship between thoughts and this extremely intangible thing we call awareness which causes sensations to be perceived a certain way?

@Merch you can likely generate an infinite number of proofs which prove that you are a coffee table and you can also likely generate an infinite number of proofs which prove that you are not a coffee table. As a quick digression, the word "infinite" as I have used it is synonymous with the idea that "at all times, more can be generated". Infinity isn't a number. E. G. We have an infinite number of numbers between 1 and 2. Just consider this list of numbers: 1, 1.01, 1.001, 1.0001, 1.00001..... The list can go on forever. No matter how may numbers I write down, I can always generate a new number because of how mathematics as a language has been defined. Infinity is like a property of the language that is mathematics, in this context. In order for us to make any truth claims or chains of reasoning, we have to start off with baseless assumptions and axioms. By arbitrarily changing your axioms and assumptions you have created a new perspective on reality. There are a practically infinite number of perspectives then, and an infinite number of proofs that you can generate. For example, Mathematicians generally share the same set of axioms and assumptions as other mathematicians. It is because of this that you have this massive body of knowledge, discovery and research. However, all of this knowledge rests upon foundations which are completely baseless in nature. For me to make any of the claims in these sentences I type to you right now requires baseless assumptions.

@winterknight @winterknight Is what I want to know the same as what I should know?