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Yeah, it's a rabbit hole. Although, it's probably better to read about how dopamine works than to waste time on YouTube but you're right. It's kinda like studying the biology of how the nervous system works to get better at sports and controlling your body.

@Focus Shift I think one of the very valid criticisms of green is it's virtue signalling nature. Stuck in games of labelling people as good or bad rather than just focusing on troubleshooting a problem and solving like yellow would.

The amount of ridiculing and mockery on the internet is far above the threshold amount necessary for progress to occur, so it is not necessary.

@Cykaaaa If I am to believe some of these writers online talking about their lives, then yes it is true that there are some people who are biological psychopaths. They just cannot bond to others in the same way @Leo Gura you might like this interview https://m.soundcloud.com/albert-johnson-490/bbc-radio-interview-with-female-psychopath-athena-walker This woman wrote a lot on quora, seems maybe genuine. And she describes it as biological for her. The interview isn't that informative compared to her writing I think. --- Another interview

Angry Karen videos are 2020's version of "feminist triggered" compilations. Just mindless shit.

I posted this textbook example of a stage red man in the stage blue thread over 2 years ago, to show what it is that stage blue is reacting against --- Also, I'll add another golden video which I'll be surprised if no one else has posted on this thread

@NorthNow Death is an extremely powerful force. My most recent insights from inquiry and meditation have been about death. Reflecting on the fact that you will die one day can serve as a good prompt for investigation. This is technically unnecessary, as that's an idea about the future and you only have to look at the present for this all. Acceptance of death is fearlessness. Death=flux. However, one can become conscious that one's true nature is imperturbable. Once you physically die, your true nature will still remain. So then if you can accept death, all your problems will go away. I'm still very far away.

@XeRnOg I don't know if you noticed but after your first post here you starting bashing Leo and the forum meaninglessly, talking to yourself and being antagonistic without a single prompt from anyone else. You're not here out of any good will. So actually talk more seriously or provide actual criticism rather than this bullshit rambling. Mods just lock this thread.

@4201 Yeah bro I got that psychic download on you.

@Rasheed Self actualisation is a lot of stuff like productivity, routine, conscientiousness, health and life purpose. The nice thing about the self-actualisation sub forum and self-actualisation in general is that you're less likely to get in worthless arguments and bickerings with people. With consciousness work, people can argue to no end about things. I'm not saying that arguing is bad, I have no problem with it, it's just not productive sometimes. And there's a certain sense where with consciousness work you feel its best to just shut mouth and do practices/contemplation.

@4201 Very relatable post. Dopamine addiction issues here as well. Judging by your manner of speech, I think you'd enjoy reading or listening to Peter Ralston and Jiddu Krishnamurti.

Sounds like your technique is good but you're exaggerating the facts of the matter because you're high on the results it's given you, which is good if you are high on that and what others to experience that high. If someone could hold their breath for hours there would be a world record, so your factual claims sound bullshit. From practicing kriya yoga or meditation you can experience states of deep relaxation and focus where you don't breathe as frequently, or breathe very slowly. I've had this, others can have it, so it's not like there isn't a kernel of truth in what you're saying obviously. And samadhi is often described in terms of not breathing iirc. But it mostly sounds like you're exaggerating things because you're excited. I will give some criticism to your technique and instruction though. Asking someone to not think about breathing is like asking someone to not think of a pink elephant.

@Iksander Morality and principles are the shadows of "right action"

@Elshaddai I procrastinate decision making and seem to magically think I can make a decision later. But if I can't make a decision now, there's a good chance I can't make a decision later because later will be now when later arrives.

Old people are generally lower in the spiral because the location of a collective on the spiral usually increases as time elapses. The driving factor for time elapsing being significant is young people being born and old people dying. So the observation that the collective evolves over time shows younger people tend to be higher on the spiral.

I talked to some old high school friends of mine today. I remember feeling uneasy during the conversation, that these people hadn't changed and were still entertaining the same dynamics. In the back of my mind, I've known for a long time that a lot of my trauma accumulated from high school. But I've denied it, got very triggered when reminded of it, but then ultimately try to forget about it. But I think I should stop doing that. Anyway after that conversation with my friends, I was feeling anxious for no reason, and the feeling just mutated slowly over time after the convo finished. I ended up feeling a bit manic, racing thoughts. I was in such denial and had such low awareness of myself that I didn't even realise this conversation and the triggers to my past were why I was feeling this. So I then decided to do some kriya yoga. After some mahamudra at the end, a lot of negative emotions from the past came flooding up and I suddenly became aware of why I was feeling this way. So now I've decided I have to heal this trauma for sure this time, no more just forgetting about it. I will revisit Leo's forgiveness video, but I've still other things to consider. The problem I have is that I don't know where to begin. Everything is tangled. Leo's video is about considering individuals and sometimes particular events. I can think of a few events sure. But the problem is that the trauma I have is from the collective. So how to address that I don't know, and am seeking help about that. The entire environment I was in in high school. I went to a prestigious, rich white kids school (not white myself and there were traces of racism). The atmosphere was authoritarian and soul crushing. Part of the problem is that I almost just hate everyone there. So how do I narrow down targets and go about this... Since I can think of a few events, I will use those but my entire experience there felt like the event. The issue with that though is that the more I think about it the more everything I remember can be considered an event to address. --- My natural temperament has always been philosophical and deep since I've been young. I switch between the capacity of being logical and impressionistic/jungian, thinking in artistic images and metaphors. I've always gone through my life feeling like everyone around me just doesn't see what I see. They can't see the bigger picture, can't see the meta structure of things, can't appreciate what's important even if you fully lay it out for them let alone deduce it for themselves. And then the authoritarianism, the group think, the feeling isolated and rejected from the tribe for being different.

Read the lyrics of it as well.

Sounds a bit classist but sure Sounds biased against stay at home moms and poor people. As nice as an idea as having philosopher kings sounds, you can't impose your will on a people who are mostly resistant to what you want. If I'm some stage yellow ruler of some stage red place I can't just impose my personal values on everyone, even if my values are more developed. It doesn't work.

Miss me with that sieg heil shit

@IJB063 Just because IQ is significant statistically doesn't make it this godly measuring stick for human worth. IQ correlates with a shit tonne of things, and sure you can fairly confidently say quite a few of those things are causation rather than just correlation based. Even if that is true, you seem to appreciate no other nuance about the situation. And you seem to be all the much too eager to use these facts in the service of your political narrative. Genuine question, no sarcasm here. Do you view most of the people giving criticisms to you on this topic as cucked and "not based"? IQ is a statistical force and predictor. This doesn't make modern science, and it's associated ideological culture/circlejerk which you seem to be unaware of, or IQ to be the divine authority over metaphysics, philosophy and truth. Put IQ in it's proper place as a partial truth and statistical force for outcomes. This is also a point but cba to go into it fully. Perceived value and the worth of IQ for life outcomes is shaped by whatever standards the people interpreting the data hold. Western thought and empiricists are concerned with very crude things like GDP as measures of success and brilliance. And also bear in mind that society can be shaped in such a way that only certain types of people flourish but others don't, in a one size fits all approach. Statistical forces and correlations in these IQ studies say absolutely nothing about the deeper workings of human brains or consciousness. But you seem to ignore that in your worldview, and now you've reduced something first order to reality like intelligence to something as silly as IQ and these shitty little studies.

@Spiral Wizard Around the online MBTI communities I has hanging around, there was this dude who would hop from server to server, finding places to troll but he always got banned extremely quickly. He had his own server though which I joined for a tiny bit to see what this guy was about. He was an odd fellow. I talked to him a bit on voice chat, he was a disgusting person. His version of having fun was pathological lying and provoking. I did manage to have a few "genuine" conversations with him. He's been diagnosed irl with ASPD, seemed like a sociopath for sure, probably a narcissist as well. My first convo was when I was talking to him because he said he was seeking a philosophy that matched his "naturally hateful way of being". I asked him why he thought this was a fundamental part of his nature, why he couldn't become kinder or calmer. He claimed he was incapable of otherwise, and that hate and aggression is his default. I got the feeling that most of what he was saying was bullshit excuses. I asked him if he's tried psychedelics. He said he's tried them before (I remember he tried LSD, cant remember what else) and they don't anything. I recommended maybe trying again but he was adamant they won't help. I don't know to what degree he was speaking the truth or making shit up here. I'm no psychedelic user, and I don't know how it would work on people like this. He started his own community/server so I got to see that side of him. He established cult-like dynamics. Now observations about him as a person in general. He enjoys and revels in making truth indistinguishable from falsehood. It was all just psychological warfare and pointless manipulation for whatever imaginary gains his petty mind conceived of. He was a control freak. In his conversations he needs a very particular power dynamic. The person he's talking to needs to be humble, respectful and somewhat meek. And he's the brash and aggressive one. And in reward for fulfilling this dynamic, he would metaphorically suck your dick by giving you compliments of being intelligent or ascended. He claimed all his compliments were genuine. More of that in the next paragraph now. There is one caveat to what I'm saying. I don't know how much of what he was doing was intentionally manipulative and deceitful. He tried to give off the image of someone who was brutally honest most of the time, and that the lying was all just him trolling and having fun, and it's your fault for being a sucker. And I think that image was at least partially true if not mostly true. He was certainly imitating (or actually was, rather than imitating) , to a degree, what self proclaimed (some of which are genuine and not just self-proclaimed) biological psychopaths on Quora exhibit. What I mean is that he gave off the vibe of someone very un-neurotic at times and there were times when he was serious that he felt "raw" and charismatic. He felt like the real deal. Extremely blunt, logical and pragmatic. Excellent at rational, matter of fact judgement at times. Good at seeing through inconsistencies of emotion/belief and calling out fake shit. First time I met him I felt a weird fear just from his manner of speech and energy. He felt like an alien, and there's the conflicting feelings of intrigue and fear someone feels when encountering a dangerous and unknown entity. In the end though, I mostly decoded it all. It wasn't that mysterious or amazing really. Psychopaths are just people with a smaller range of emotion, and it limits their perspective and what dimensions of consciousness they can explore and grasp. ---- I am currently in a place where I struggle to see low consciousness as being loving and as a part of reality to accept and "surrender" to.

This question could be moved into Serious Emotional Problems if mods want to. I can't say what the mistake is, but I feel a lot of shame about it. Like I've hit rock bottom and worthless. There are no tangible reparations for what has been done, albeit perhaps private ones with myself in the process of healing. Anyone here ever had intense events/mistakes they've overcome, and how they healed? I'm thinking of adopting shamanic breathing as a weekly thing. I'll watch Leo's forgiveness/trauma video. How does a sinner/criminal repent and heal?

@Boethius Right I see. @Mu_ Good walking through of things.

@Knowledge Pointless question here no? So the way I'm reading this question, you're asking why we've forgotten our "first memory"? What you mean by memory here is confusing. But that aside. Isn't the answer just that people forget their first memory. So doesn't that make your question become "Why do humans forget memories they've had?" ?