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  1. @Intraplanetary I don't think so. From a certain space I might say "spiral dynamics is true". But I've learnt that just because something is true, or because you can say it is true, doesn't mean that it's useful or helpful to think in the terms of that model. ___ Another tip I'd give is to see spiral dynamics (or whatever exact model you're using) as a lot more approximate, less linear and less hierarchical.
  2. @Muhammad Jawad I asked a question about lesson 4 and concentration as well, just above, if it helps. About your first question. As a first step, pay attention to the experience of having a physical head in your experience. How exactly that feels. Then from there, pay attention to different areas (inside the head, not just the surface of your face as well). And you should be able to figure it out. Don't expect all of this to be exact and precise. You'll learn from direct experience how the actuality of having a physical body with sensations contrasts what expectations you had.
  3. Being able to just be happy without circumstance isn't trivial. Everyone's got their own load of shit, and all people are fundamentally the same at root. But some people have more negative states to consciousness which its harder to surrender or be happy with. I.e. Health, physical and mental. BUT even if life is unfair and you were dealt a shit hand, there's probably still a path for you. It might just be a lot more painful though. -- I think if you are severely miserable, at some level you have to have acceptance of your situation. And I'm mainly typing that for myself to hear.
  4. @soos_mite_ah I'm in a really similar situation lol. I've been with my family since March 2020 and it's my 3rd year of uni right now. I'm on track for a 4 year masters degree, but I hate what I'm studying. Even though I hate physics now, I decided to finish this 3rd year at least to get a degree, and try and enjoy the student/University life before it ends. Well it's already ended, and I never took advantage of university or student life. I'm clueless about life purpose. The clock is ticking, the real world is about to break its way into my house of sheltered ignorance. --- About this whole dealing with toxic family thing. No answers here, I probably handle it worse than you. My bad habits being denial and conflict avoidance. Losing control of emotions easily But. I'm working on the capacity for honesty with myself and others. And it makes me able to be very "matter of fact", but in an emotionally sensitive way. I have to make sure I don't fall into the trap of being a cold, calculating, walking corpse. Cauterising my own emotional nervous system. It's a bad pathology I'm susceptible to. Because there's a way to do it such that you don't become devoid of all inner spark and playfulness. Probably "role models" like Peter Ralston or David Hawkins. I don't know what I am or what my personality is anymore.
  5. @r0ckyreed Who needs to reference the absolute my dude. Within the domain of relative, gender and race are of a weaker existence than a tree or rock. Gender isn't the same as sex. And infused and within race is a bunch of cultural and collective identity shit.
  6. No human can think this. Entering the domain of consciousness work. Even if you were "enlightened" this quote wouldn't contain the truth.
  7. @BipolarGrowth You aren't sure ! Saying the brain doesn't create consciousness is equivalent to saying that gravity doesn't exist, despite the fact you can clearly see what happens when you drop your pen or know what will happen if you jump out of a window. This is causality you're asking about. Ask yourself how cause and effect its determined.

  8. lmfao replied to lmfao's topic in Self-Actualization Journals

    Tuesday 19/09/2020 , 20:30 I don't know why I exist or why things are the way they are. I've asked myself now to wonder why I'm addicted and how addiction is, but I also open my mind to my judgements being wrong. And so it is I say, Maybe "addiction" and "wasting my life" isn't so wrong. Maybe suicide isn't such an irrational idea. Maybe I won't "wake up". Maybe there's no need and no point to me studying for these exams. Maybe it's fine if I'm never happy. Maybe it's fine if I never regain my emotion or regain my past. Maybe it's fine if my Dp & Dr lasts forever. Maybe it's completely fine for me to be depressed and sapped of energy. So where does that leave this sad kid? Who is he and can he be, or have, anything? Maybe it's fine if he lives the most unremarkable and dull life there is
  9. Shamanic Breathing is a form of hyperventilating, which has the effect of depleting CO2 in your blood. I couldn't tell you about this shamanic breathing practice, but constantly low levels of CO2 in your blood during the day 24/7 isn't a good thing (reference- "The Oxygen Advantage"). What can cause this would be a habit of overbreathing, and then over time your body becomes less tolerant of CO2 build up. One thing which causes chronically low CO2 throughout the day is mouth breathing. So always nose breathe, unless you're doing this shamanic breathing practice. Look up "The Oxygen Advantage" if you're interested in this all. There's also this neat thing called "BOLT score" https://oxygenadvantage.com/measure-bolt/ -- Hyperventilation will tax your body, that's probably why Leo and most people don't just reccomend to anyone that they do it everyday by themselves. It would vary by individual. It could very well be that you're fine to keep doing this very regularly, I have no clue. I ain't a doctor or knowledgeable to know how good or bad this practice is if done a lot. A Google search will show studies saying holotropic breathwork is safe. Again, I have no idea what the full scope those studies can make and how good they are. But it may be the case you're fine to keep doing this most days, for a while. I would recommend to anyone however that they don't overbreathe during their regular life (outside of this practice). Lots of people overbreathe 24/7 without even realising it (e. G. Mouth breathing).
  10. In a parallel universe somewhere

  11. SSRIs withdrawal is hell!!

    lmfao replied to Eren Eeager's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Hmmm, first time I've seen the name of this drug. Cymbalta. [I don't know the names of many drugs]. Looking it up it seems like a strong drug, and the half life is very short. And you've been on it for a while. Good luck on your journey as well! To update my situation from my posts 2 months ago in November. About 5 weeks ago I stopped SSRIs completely. Had serious withdrawal for about 1-2 weeks. Now I'm in the process of learning how to heal and deal with depression generally, in addition to lingering withdrawal of SSRI and living life without it. Do whatever you need or have to do, whether that means slow or fast. The only universal I've seen for depression is being proactive. But life's hard, progress doesn't come easy, and it only ever feels like the beginning. It is what it is, I knew for myself what I had to do. I felt incredibly degraded in settling for a passive mentality where I wasn't proactive. Especially when the SSRI had especially negative side effects for me. And obviously those repressed emotions of shame are still here, I just don't open to it much. I went to the funeral recently of one my best friends who commit suicide, so I'm still very stressed out and perturbed. But thankfully I'm still relatively fine.
  12. @BipolarGrowth Solipsism is a common theme for me. There are some directions you can take it in, in regards to asking what morality or empathy means. I've felt weird and disturbed. But I (somewhat) know not to believe my framing of solipsism, or the mirage of my instinctive emotional reactions and thoughts. Alan Watts put it pretty funnily about what a conference of solispsists would be like, where everyone is trying to argue they're the only real person in existence. Of course that's nothing but a piece of humour that does nothing to solve the question. But it's pretty funny.
  13. The question of forcing or not is a repetitive theme of self growth. Sometimes phrased as " accept yourself vs improve yourself". I find a lot of truth in saying something like "If you don't do something other than what you typically do, you won't get anything besides what typically befalls you". That's my level or place of truth from the life I've led, people and experiences I've seen. 'Forcing' is tied to motivation. Ime, there are good and bad ways of forcing. Some "bad ways" will involve feeding negative fantasies for fuel. Also, if you lack attention to the present and are too caught in the fantasy you will be straining your mind neurotically, inefficient and lose energy. (What grounds this for me are vivid experiences of exercising with different mindsets) The "good way" of forcing on the other hand is outrageously simple, but it takes unlearning false. Even then, it might not be perfect or you want something more. -- Something which is true about forcing, which has also been a theme in the above messages, is about practicality and workable solutions. A matter of asking "what can be done?". People here are describing Pickup as the practical and workable thing. But perhaps I'm doing a disservice by saying "practical and workable solution" rather than just "solution", for in the prior case I'm attached to an idealism of sorts. [I'm talking about more than just pick up, not excluding though] An energy of dissatisfaction where I think "If only it was like this", "It should be ___", "survival and evolutionary forces are a bitch", etc
  14. I'd say porn makes men as weak and effeminate as the Internet does generally. Which is to say I think it's a half truth, in the context of addiction and compulsion. And how the Internet and information novelty can fry your dopamine system. I don't know what you specifically mean, but I've seen a narrative of men becoming "weak and effeminate" be very loaded with other ideologies. It's a handwavy statement right? That men are becoming weak and effiminate. It's the sort of thing you can say vaguely. I'd argue that the vague and hazy meaning of it is there because it is the expression of idealism. Vague ideals. The sorts of ideals you pick up from hyper masculine depictions in fiction and portrayals of history. It starts to become a matter of having a specific identity that you have to pretend. Like I said though, there's a partial truth in a way to it. Convenience can make you lazy.
  15. I think it really comes down to personality and whatever other random factors. One of my weaknesses is a tendency of detachment (towards people), individualistic and in my own world. These can be good things if channeled and not pathological. But these things can become coping mechanisms to dodge facing life viscerally. And also to evade emotional sensitivity and responsibility. But now this is larger than just marriage. After typing this out I realise. Part of me feels guilt about any future intimate relationships I might have, due to feelings of inadequacy. But I also feel like interacting with people is an energy drain and a waste of time, and that's some belief I've picked up or learnt, probably due to negative experiences. -- My parent's marriage is pretty awful in a few ways so I don't exactly feel encouraged.
  16. Disillusionment with science and stage orange

  17. teacher, mentor, or alone?

    lmfao replied to K VIL2's topic in Personal Development -- [Main]

    Of course you need a mentor
  18. @SaWaSaurus Sounds very based, might read.
  19. @Dunnel there is nothing and there will never not be nothing, and so you are immortal
  20. I haven't read much fiction so this will be corny: Lord of The Flies Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep 1984
  21. I've only read Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep. Do you prefer VALIS?
  22. Good points tbh. My guess though is that bitcoin is the most stable out of all the cryptos currencies and will rise in the long term, just because it has the most public clout.
  23. This guy gets it. I haven't seen the movie rebuild. But to anyone who hasn't seen Eva, just watch the anime series then The End of Evangelion film I'd say that the film is completely non-dual, but that won't make sense untill someone has seen the anime and then the last film. But it really is worth it as a masterpiece. "If there's no love for Eva there's no Kensho" - Master Hideaki
  24. I agree that bitcoin isn't a gamble. But I don't think it's just herd psychology, I'd say bitcoin is a useful technology with substance. But that isn't incompatible with calling the buying and selling of it to be a lazy way to make money. * There is a limit on the number of bitcoin that will ever be in circulation. Owning some bitcoin is almost like owning a share in this technology. But in practice it certainly does not feel that way since you're just trying to squeeze out money in this competition with 1000's of other people. *And like you were getting at, that doesn't make bitcoin investing an inherently bad thing. But it obviously is often used to support a parasitic lifestyle of the systems in place. If I really wanted to, I could spend my day making money through exploiting capitalism without creating anything. Getting into this finance shit with a brain for numbers. But living an unsatisfactory meaningless life like that would make that all for nothing. --- At the end of the day, someone is going to make money from this shit, so I see no moral reason to not make money from it. But I wouldn't want it to define my life, make it more like a side hustle.
  25. I've been hearing some shit from my brother about Tether being criminally investigated for a while, I wonder if it's a ticking time bomb for crashing all crypto in general. At least a "temporary" crash anyway, since I think bitcoin can only rise in price in the long term since it's such a good technology? But I genuinely have no clue or any experience to predict. The overall impression I get though is that crypto is free money. But that might just be because I know people who've profited big. -- I really wish that all those years ago, I was more darkly curious kid who dared to use Tor and steal my mom's credit card to buy this unknown currency called bitcoin ?