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The Bible does not teach non-duality. In fact it emphasises duality. It teaches that there is a greater good you must orient yourself towards, and a despicable evil which you must defeat. The Bible dichotimises reality in its fundamental teachings of metaphysics. There is good and there is evil. Even if such a man called Jesus Christ existed, and was enlightened himself, that does not mean the Bible points you towards enlightenment. Jesus Christ did not write the Bible. Take a look at the most hardcore Christians, and then take a look at the most hardcore Buddhists. Which group do you think is more enlightened? The idea that there is a greater good you must orient yourself towards is a good teaching in the sense that it motivates you to get off your ass, and to change yourself and then the world. You can say the Bible is inspirational in telling you to sort yourself out and do what you need to do, even if the process is painful (you can look at the amount of suffering old testament prophets went through to see this). But none of this ultimately points towards enlightenment, in my opinion. Jordon Peterson is a person I recommend you listen to if you want to get an idea of what some of the metaphorical messages in the Bible are. He has a series of Bible lectures which is called "Bible Series".

So I was just meditating for 20 minutes, and the weirdest things were going on. The nature of my thoughts were completely different. All my thoughts were extremely colourful and vibrant, producing strong images in my mind. My thoughts were filled with bizarre images and scenes, filled with horrendous gore at times but also filled with everything happy. All these thoughts just came in a continuous stream. Sometimes I imagined that these creatures I envisioned were touching me personally in real life. I was imagining myself to be surrounded and touched by colourful and freaky creatures. Near the end of my session, I felt some force was controlling my body to uncleanch my hands and then raise my arms. I felt as though I was being controlled to move my arms around in the air, but then the control lifted. I then ended the meditation session out of being confused. Do any of you guys know what's going on? Has my mind just gone tippy, although I haven't taken drugs? It's an extremely weird experience, and I don't know what to make of it.

Hi guys, I'm a 17 year old male who uses the internet problematically. I will talk a bit about myself so you get a picture of what kind of person I am. Information about me as a whole To say a bit about me, I'm an INTP who enjoys maths and physics a lot. I have depression of some form, and I have had emotional breakdowns where I punch mattresses out of frustration when I'm alone. During two occasions, which both occurred about two months ago, I started hyperventilating and was crying uncontrollably. I've been on medication for three weeks now which has helped me remain stable, and without it I would be even more lethargic,pessimistic and nihilistic then I currently am. I don't fit in at school much. I don't get bullied, but I feel like a misfit in what I deem to be a shallow,fake environment. I'm a very disorganized and lazy person, but I still perform well academically since I focus on understanding things through first principles, rather than directing my focus towards regurgitating facts in the exact manner a teacher or textbook tells you to (although in exams you must write down the answer the examiners expect of you). I hate the fact that teachers wont go through the reasoning that led to a conclusion and then expect you to mindlessly memorize the conclusion. I have a genuine passion for maths and physics, and I try to understand how complex formulas are derived from the most elementary of mathematical principles, to the best of my ability. I'm good at maths and science but I am very far from being a genius. Although I have 6-7 friends I hang out a lot with, I only really feel close to 2 of them, as they are the only people who like discussing abstract ideas with me. People can perceive me as being stuck up and arrogant when I use abstract terms in casual conversation, but that is not my intention, and so I feel misunderstood to a degree. Even when it comes to the friends I do have, some of them are dickish and get on my nerves sometimes, and it's a love-hate relationship with one or two of them. I don't have that much in common with them, and I stick around with them simply because they are better company than my alternative option of hanging around boisterous extroverts who operate on a very different level than me. Since I have a bad sleeping pattern (due to internet use), I'm usually very fatigued and exhausted after school and I scarcely do anything productive outside of school, which makes school take up a large portion of my external world. Time flies when I'm relaxing in the evening, but dilates for me in the anxiety inducing environment for me that is school. I have a problem with social anxiety, I try to avoid crowded areas, as I feel like everyone is judging me negatively. Internet addiction I have a low-self esteem. I am not very physically attractive and I hate the sound of my voice. I am shy around girls, and I think the cause of this is my religious upbringing which demonized sexuality and how I should view the opposite gender (right now I am an agnostic atheist). I am a very neurotic individual who ruminates a lot. I hate myself for all of my deficiencies. I feel depressed. I watch a lot of anime and tv shows on the internet as a form of escapism, and it wastes ridiculous amounts of time for me. To some extent I envy characters like Walter White or Frank Underwood, as they pursue with relentless determination what they want and don't give a shit about what other people think, and I sometimes think to myself that I wouldn't mind living a criminal life which is similar to them. It is a dark thought that occurs to me when I'm feeling frustrated with everything. I use my phone constantly to check social media notifications ( although I barely get any). I waste huge amounts of time on youtube, watching videos with clips of my favourite shows (death note,code geass, dragon ball and etc) or watching videos on politics and philosophy (sam harris, sargon of akkad, jordon peterson and etc) and I also listen to lots of music evoke my suppressed emotions. I have a severe porn addiction, and I've been watching porn since I was 12 years old. The pornographic material I consume has gradually become more and more hardcore,novel, and shocking since consumption of pornography has led to a significantly numbed pleasure response from masturbation. My addiction has only been getting worse over time, despite the fact that I've been struggling to quit porn for over 3 years, where I've wrestled with myself a lot. I am currently in my second week of Christmas Holidays, so I haven't been to school for over a week. I laze around in my house constantly, using youtube and websites to watch a lot of videos of anime,tv shows and youtubers. I should be studying for some exams coming up (luckily they are only practice exams), but instead I fuck around with my life. I've watched almost all of Leo's videos over the span of the last 8 months, but very little has changed for me (which is my fault). I am going to bed at 6am every day, and have fucked up my sleeping pattern. Prior to the last few days, I went to the gym regularly for two weeks. After going to the gym, I felt energized and my mood was incredibly uplifted. I felt normal. However, whenever I took days off from the gym to rest, I would feel as my usual depressed self. For the last week I've kept a mindfulness mediation routine, where I've meditated for 20-30 mins a day. And although meditation feels great and sharpens my awareness temporarily, it has not been enough so far to snap me out of my trance of addiction. I had what you might call an "enlightenment experience" about 6 months ago, where I was hyper aware of the fact that all my thoughts and sensations were flowing through me, and were coming out of a void. It was a profound experience beyond words. Prior to the last week, I have only meditated a handful of times, and this experience was a complete shock to me. I felt extremely blissful, and the memory of that time has kept me attached to the idea of enlightenment. My addiction is also getting in the way of me studying maths and physics, and I intend to study physics to as deep a level as possible in my lifetime. My question So to overcome my internet addiction, should I go cold turkey? Is going cold turkey the best solution for me ( and perhaps my only option)? I've watched Leo's video on overcoming addiction. Will sitting in an empty room ( and constantly meditating) for at least a few hours every day be the solution? How long should I spend sitting in an empty room? And when I'm not meditating, I should just do anything but go on the internet (although I must use the internet for studying)? Perhaps this hardcore solution is the only chance for me, and will be extremely painful. Optimistically speaking however, harnessing my awareness will make resisting the internet more easy. Have you guys got any tips for how I should tackle my internet addiction? How should I go about implementing the advice Leo gives on overcoming addiction? I have probably waffled a lot in what I've written here, so thank you for reading. To be frank, I've typed this post as a form of catharsis, as I feel quite lonely. Any answers are much appreciated. It's 6:30am for me right now, and I'm about to go to bed, so please forgive any grammatical mistakes I've made whilst being tired.