Krishna Siva

INTP /INTJ mix

Name: Krishna Sivakumar Age:17 Gender: Male Location: Chennai, India High school student Hobbies: Learning about personal development, Programming, Cooking, Thinking and Introspection Martial Status: Single Kids: None I got into personal development in the start of 2017, when I discovered astral projection. It required me to meditate, and when I started meditating, my mind began to think (consciously). That made me get into reading on philosophy, spirituality, religion, meditation, paranormal phenomena, and personal development. Challenges I have overcome: Social Anxiety Victim mentality Excessive amounts of fear Stuff I have accomplished: Think strategically and critically Becoming more open minded Doing Introspection What I'm working towards: Becoming Fit Removing myself from all my biases

Even though all the other habits are currently failing right now, I've stuck to my meditation habit, which is kind of nice. Sometimes, I don't realize that I'm part of the mastery curve, and try to quit. But now, that feeling of failure has gone away. One more thing is that, If my perception isn't reliable, then how can I tell what I see is true? Then, how can I trust any kind of information in the outer world? Does the outer world even exist? If my perception isn't reality, then the outer world and me didn't exist. That's what I'm coming to ? Yet another thing is that I've finally stated to use my commonplace book.

I came across stoicism, and it really fits me. It's quite simple and elegant. I have been meditation consistently, but not so much. I've only been meditating for 15 minutes a day. And at last, I can control my impulses a little more than usual. That's really good, at least for me.

I try to do stuff as much as I can but sometimes when I try to do something, I just can't push it. I feel restrained or what I call a 'regressive emotional reaction'. Or maybe it's just plain laziness. I don't know what to do beyond that.

I'm consistently meditating for the past 2 days. That's a good sign. One thing they I noticed today, is that eating junk food for dinner affects my morning energy. It make me really sluggish and sleepy. But still, I'm missing out on my other 2 habits. I know you have to start small, and keep the bar low, but I'm a little ambitious.

Hey guys, I'm new to the forum. I'm having a problem, where I just brag about myself in my mind, again and again, and it's extremely stimulating. I really want to break out of it, because it's eating up a lot of my time, and mental resources. How do I break out of this thought pattern?

Woke up really early today, and felt energetic. I meditated for about 20 minutes, and that was really peaceful. I attended tuition, and studied a bit. But I mostly wasted a lot of time, which is kind of frustrating. But I hope everything's going to be better. Plus, I've been noticing for a while that I have 2 faces; one that I put on in front of everyone, one that is extremely energetic, while the other which I hide from others, which is extremely thoughtful (at least when compared to the other). I don't know what is triggering this change. I have to get to the root of this.

Thanks guys

My goals right now, are: Building an consistent study habit Exercise regularly & Meditate daily for 20 minutes Starting small is extremely important, since you don't want to push yourself too much, which might make homeostasis act on you, for you to backslide. My mental goal is to cast off my mental limitation that some things can be done and cannot be done (which affects my real world problem solving issues, and my problem solving in math and science). I hope this works out well, and an Homeostasis including the above accomplished goals is established.

Chennai, India