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@Kamo Pros:you become more concious,have a better map for life,can see whats higher perspective etc. Cons:you get lost in your imagination,you have all this knowledge but your life looks the same,hiding behinde concepts not taking action,could produce more clutter in mind worsen mood(in my opinion) etc.

Plesently surprised by the topic not too shabby ??

@Grant6 Yeah approval is an inner game in a sense when you start being true to yourself and not hiding behinde your masks then you wont be needing approval but thats also needed to be practiced with people...authentic non people pleaser =being true to yourself and nobody elses opinions matter because you are who you are(more than good enough)your opinions dont need to be approved at that point you are grounded in truth of who you are as a person @Ulax ?

You can still do pick up without doing pick up ...going to events or places and approch group of people and strike up conversations and you can work on being more authentic with those people...breaking up that inner resistence and becoming more real and authentic.Watch yourself when you are trying to pick words that would appeal to other rather express whats really going on inside you in calibratet way ..meaning reading social situation... you can pick something challenging and breaking through that like speaking in front of a crowd...

Thats nature of the mind:progressing,regressing feeling joy feeling depressed you see the pattern ?Its unstable and temporery you can only use "let go" technique or put focus on something else thats all i can say from limited information...

Like people say you read 5 pages and if theres something valuable in those 5 pages you go straight to practice it in real life...reading and doing nothing produces only conceptual knowing...

Im the same im forcing myself to engage in social activities and it hurts my motivation to do pick up ?

If you wanna fake it best way is when you talk to her you say things that make you feel good not her, coming to her not to do something to get her approval, rather you come there to offer something about yourself (giving something rather than taking its an energy).. example like: hey! you seem interesting do you know what crazy happend to me..insert something some story...(just an example) And to really not be needy its an inner work you do with action you dont wait to become non needy...

I would say theres some kind of softness feeling to it,nurturing soothing experience that doesnt force you into feminine but encourge the masculine...but on the other hand making you go out of logic to fun unlogical dance of relaxation from solving problems...im getting phoetical over here ?

Your "evidence" is realizing the nature of reality

@Vivaldo im more of a mr. steal yo words than mr.steal yo girl ?

What you doing is banging your head againts the wall distracting yourself from working to be attractive, to attract that type of girl you desire which is not an easy task, so you get your fix from engaging in emotional phantasy that gives you some low level satisfaction and in the end you feel more unworthy ...

@Leo Gura If you see that a girl is into you why not just ask for sex directly ?

Yeah its attachment to life as a dream seeing that its not,seeing what it actually is(truth of it) ffreaks you out because you want to experience dream more i think thats it(from my experience)...

@Preety_India Man are used sexually all the time some girls will use a guy for a kiss or sex and thats what i heared from girls..i dont get how a guy is sexually objectifing a women if hes just wanting sex and not relationship while you want a relationship and because of that you feel sexually objectified its seems to me from understanding im having(which is not big atm)...i mean if a girl is down for sex only how would i know if i dont ask her?

@Michal__ thats potential emotional trauma right there if you say that after sex ?

You should have asked that from the start now its little weird and probably wont work i dont know... i dont get comments here why you are getting upset with upfront approach its way better you dont get manipulated and see if you are on same page i dont get it ,some people just want to enjoy sex for the sake of having sex its way more emotionally abusive to act as someone that wants to be in a relationship and then proceed to do it just for sex which most of the guys do its weird?...

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@Preety_India we are done here,im trying to help and im just triggering you nothing coming out of it...miscommunication...hope you will solve this some other way peace <3

@Preety_India then listen to people and things that you wanna hear that appeals you, you are not actually growing that way, but i get you are emotional women and operate differently and would answer this with another emotional response thats how it goes,facing truths is hard and the truth is always within us not out there,blaming men even though they are wrong would never grow you but ok...

@Preety_India You are attracting them that's why they are approaching you ?

Root cause :seems you attract narcissis all the time check it out for yourself why?

@Leo Gura True,got caught in numbers and what people are doing... Ill try really low doses and built it up from there... Hahah this is funny/scary and conforting at the same time

Here we go! first ever psychadelic trip experience! First a little background story,ive been practicing spirituality for 8+ years hardcore and in most of my day im in no mind and so called nothigness with being concious of infinity(not too strong) had over 10 enlightement experiences without drugs so i could compare it and knew whats happening...Considering that i didnt want to take even 1g because i knew it could open me up bad but didnt know how much, so i took close to 1g of dried mushrooms on the empty stomach as first try.I took it at 11:20 am,i started to feel changes 20 min after eating.What was left of ego started to melt and i already start to see infinity better nothing special but could feel changes...already in 40 minutes into a trip i went into what i was calling God head(but its not really just really weak one thats taking shape)everything was light and fun.My intent was to find out some queastions about authenticity and life and test how it will open me up since ego is not strong as regular person..in 50 min in it was still 2 steps back and stronger infinity experinece than 10min ago(as i compared it with my sober enlightment experience)... Suddenly i could feel vibrations through my fingertips and after each vibration i could feel joy/happiness, everything around me got a sense of erotic feeling(remembered Leo saying its like making love to reality thats what i thought atm but its not related)at this point everything was nice until suddenly i could feel the shift hour and 10 into a trip..Suddenly i wasnt conected with my body i could easily see im not the body and when looking at hands i could see those are not my hands(had that experience sober so nothing new)...until suddenly oh boy it hit me i was faced with my death all this thing called life dissaperead it was just pure experience and it was so shoking that it freaked me out...i was facing with my death no association to the body whatsoever and diassociated with this thing called life! At the time that was really tough thing to swallow,didnt know how i would relate to anybody and life in general because there is no life! And shock didnt end there i got face to face with Gods presence like never before and first thing i noticed how powerful he is (immidietly saw why they call him allmighty God) its so much power that all i could do is to go on my knees in his presence it felt like im just a spit of dust...you could feel how alive he is and that hes holding the strings of reality..this is what i wrote at the moment:"God is no joke hes all powerful Respect at his knees Now i get it!!! Face to face with god it was too much Im inside pure conciousness its unreal This is serious shit im not even kidding dude Im completely dead its so radical that its too much" At that moment realized why supressing experiences is a feature not a bug some experiences are too much to handle that its sometimes better to deny it to save yourself! At that point i started to pray to God please dont go deeper i dont know i can handle more its too much it was scary because i didnt know how deeper it will take me and it could take me much much deeper and i took close to 1g...this lasted 30 min or so but sense of time is seen as imagionary so i dont know...slowly it took me back to what i would say nonduality phase and there it was for 3 hours or so but big problem was that i got disconnected from my body and when you are,body sends signals of anxiety hits i would call like little knife..this lasted whole day it was like hell and i was doing grounding exercises to help with it some weird energy that was shooting in my legs got also fear that i wont get kundalini awakening or something ? whole trip lasted from 11:20am when i took it until 11pm when i went to sleep exhausted...my conciousness is still expanded until now... I dont think i would take psychadelics anymore mybe in a year or so because it opens me up so badly and Truth is so radical that when it hits you its so serious that its hard to stomach and you see why illusion/mixed with enlightement is best for me atm...next day it was freaky to talk to people because you can see that Gods speaking to you not a person ? It was lifechanging experience but wouldnt want to experience it again or rather not soon because i feel like i survived with my head almost chopped off?

@Leo Gura Yeah i could see that,it could go so much deeper,it showed me that im so attached to this life that i want to first live it then let it go thats where that huge resistence came from...im not sure how to dosage because this was a light dose and it killed me, so many people dont even get an ego death with 3g of mushrooms.. @Gregory1 I was looking at it and sensing something is missing ?@OBEler Yeah when i drink a glass of beer my conciousness expands...i immedietly knew somehow that this was most important thing in life @Batman Previous awakenings were not this strong it was desolutions of the ego everything would become more alive and colorful rush of energy would flow through me i could see that im the whole room and everything is made out of me...but the deeper you go God becomes so real and strong that you dont look at it as yourself because it freaks you out how itspowerful and holding whole reality together! With every awakenings without drug ego mind would become less and less loud... @Vincent S Yeah i got a taste of what door im barking on and its 1000 more serious than i expected its no joke @eggopm3 Yeah everyone i talked in real life were confused as how i could trip 10+ hours on light dose@SgtPepper Thanks for reading! @Yousif i had 100s of ego backlashes in my life i dont think i could get serious one anymore the resistence is to surrender life for awakening and honestly havent lived to the fullest yet to let go of it...acid is even more powerful i assume? I wanted truth so bad but deeper ones are just so radical that you are not so eager to surrender to it at this point ?