Everyday

Hey I cooked last Sunday for the whole week. Im proud of myself. I did more work and finished my tasks. I was busy helping my colleagues and i didn't take care of my own clients. I feel tired. I went to the cooking class and afterwards i asked that girl out by messaging her on wapp. She didn't even read my message. At least i asked :)))) We had another order and the first return request. Not sure why. I lowered the price since people are watching these products but arent buying. Maybe is because of the price. I dont know. No body bought any of the other products. Maybe is because is too hot outside and people aren't staying at home that much. Fashion clients at work are also fucking up big time since they are not selling as well. I started ads on the platform. Just with a small amount. I thought it will look like google ads but is very primitive. I got banned on tik tok ads because of looking like a bad actor. They didnt clarify it. Pff. Pathetic. I can make ads from the tik tok app tho. I am looking forward to see if we sell on black Friday and the upcoming weeks. The cost per click will raise due to everyone making ads. I stopped talking with a girl i didnt like that much on tinder. I am trying to actually go out with a girl worth it the time. Today i celebrate a month since i made my first credit card. I am looking forward to see if my score is going up. I repaid back all i spent.

Hello, Went to bed late and fapped. I couldn't abstain. Didn't feel too well afterwards. I made my first ad campaign on the platform we put most of our products. Some our of products have high interest - why not promote them some more? We made more tik toks and the one from last night hit 1050 views today. Just one person clicked on our link. Hmm. Maybe the price is too high. Idk. But people are interested in those products. I am impatient to sell more. Worked all day on the terrace to edit pics, add products, make ads and so on. Our tik tok ads account got suspended. Not sure why. Maybe the video used wasnt good enough. I am admiring the creators on tik tok for putting content out. I am shocked how the most retarded videos have thousands of views. They are really putting work in. Indeed, you cant go out all the time and make a lot of money. You need to go overtime. People buy the new products we are selling not the ones which already exist on that platform. Maybe the other sites sold those products just because of their brand. Im going to iron some clothes for next week. I figured out i can do the diction breathing exercise while meditating. Awesome. I worked out yesterday. Nice. I was quite frustrated but i feel better now. I am waiting for those ads to start. I understand a little better what our clients go through with their businesses. This client who complains spent a ton on a website, stocks and now ads and agency fee to sell his products. I feel sorry for him He had just 9 orders so far. I feel sorry for him. Now i am also frustrated im not selling more and i didnt even pay for ads yet. I know that starting a business is stressful etc but man, i want to see results faster. I have a lots of doubts. Asked my brother to do the on-boarding on another platform and he spent all day with his GF. My sister recorded some videos for tik tok. I will ask my brother to do some shit for this business as well even if it takes longer and im impatient. I finally went to the drugstore and got the hepatitis vaccine. Also, i bought some medicine for my dermatitis. I am in owe of the opportunities available on tik tok and ecomm. I need to keep testing products. I need to make some more ads and list some more products.

Hey Yesterday i went to the office again and i implemented 2 campaigns on tik tok. I also needed help with some more stuff and my supervisor helped me fast. He reminded me about calling some clients. We didnt have more orders. I added more products on the platform and felt frustrated the process doesn't go faster. I skipped the cooking class to work on this business this morning. Worked on it all day. Went outside just a little bit. I remembered how to use some tools in paint to edit these pics. The secondary pics i uploaded are shit. I finished a few of those pics in no time. I need to add some more products and move faster. I told my sister to modify a pic in paint but it takes too long again so i will do it myself. My brother told me to stop uploading new products and just wait. He is afraid we wont manage to send a bigger volume of packages. I dont think so and me and my sister calmed him down. He don't have that many products anyways. I asked my brother to do the on boarding on some other platform. He feels resistant so i have to do it. I dont want to wait for them to feel like doing it. Overall, i am making progress. I turned off tinder again. I am not sure anymore if i should use my little time to go on dates or actually work. I should choose both i think. Not sure. The girls i manged to speak for a few days from there arent as hot as i want. I need to improve my conversation skills to actually be worth the time of going to a date. I am proud of myself. I am really making a difference in my life and i am growing so much, both at work and with this business. I am really going hard but i can go harder. I need to improve my speaking as well. I notice ppl have to ask me what i said in order to understand what i said. I see a small improvement. I saw a video online on how to have more drive and he recommended to stop fapping since is a cheap dopamine reward and is very strong. I didnt watch porn* this year but i did fap to pics of hot girls. I need to cut this as well. Is the same thing. Billie Eilish - Happier Than Ever (Official Music Video)

Hey The call with the client was ok but i was really anxious. I should have thought for a little what campaigns can i make. I didnt take action after the call 2 weeks ago. I just said the account doesnt work fuck it. We didnt have any orders yesterday. I checked the platform over and over again. But today we had another conversion. My siblings where home and took care of the order. I stopped asking my sister for those pictures. She feels resistant to make them. I get it. I made them myself. I was also resistant to use paint again after not working with it since high school. I changed some pics and now i am waiting to see if they get approved. I was feeling frustrated waiting for her to make them and getting upset when she would hang out with her BF or do anything but prepare those pics. I gave up bothering her and did it myself faster. I asked my sister to make a tik tok with some products but she felt resistant to make them. I let her alone and did it myself. Nice. It looks pretty good. I recorded my screen while watching a yt video of the product. Cropped and added a text. Hehe. I was so excited. I added 2 more products for Bulgaria and Hungary. I am trying to figure out if i should date now or not. I turned tinder off again. I am thinking to stop fapping and watching hot girls on tinder and Instagram in order to boost my focus. Olivia Rodrigo - logical (Official Lyric Video)

Heyyy That Swedish girl i was talking about said she;s super busy to date this week, I feel like she is not interested anymore and i wont try anymore. The girl i met 2 weeks didnt say anything and i wont bother her either. Both arent really looking forward to date me so i dont need to message them at all. I turned tinder off again. I struggle with conversation over there. Was ok at work, my clients dont bother me for now. We got our first REAL ORDER today around noon! Moreover, at 17:00 we got another order. I am so excited. We figure out how to make a real order done. The fake ordered returned because i made 2 awbs. We are sending all three orders tomorrow. I feel more optimistic now. While i was at work i started having doubts. What if people wont actually use their real money to buy these shit products? Turns out people do buy shit indeed. Looking forward to sell more hehe. I was thinking to ask for another client in a week or so.

Hey I felt resistant and lazy to upload products to that new marketplace. I also felt lazy to add other needed documents. I felt so upset on myself for having this habit of delaying tasks. Spent Friday and the weekend in Greece. It was beautiful. I worked a little on Friday and Saturday and my siblings got upset on me. I did work for our business and job. We need some pics for the products we received in the last few days. My sister said she will take care of them but is moving slow. She got upset on me for asking several times to re-size those pics in paint. She said i am aggressive and pushy. She made fun of posting links and pics to make it easier for her to do does pics. I feel frustrated for wanting these tasks to be done asap and being met with laziness. She is like me, feeling resistant to do those pics and i get it but it feels frustrating. She has more free time than me. I want my siblings to work more like i do on this business. They spent this evening with their partners while i was at home trying to figure out how to fix some errors and other shit related to the business. I feel frustrated trying to do this as fast as i can but being met with this behavior. I need to do those pics myself if i want to list those products asap. She arrived home after meeting with her boyfriend and got upset when i told her to make those pics. Same for my brother. I feel stupid. Here i am, wasting my free time trying to make this business work while my siblings hang out with their partners. I feel frustrated for wasting my time trying to make this shit work while they are having fun. I am considering skipping some trips with my siblings to save more for this business. I feel upset for not selling anything since we started. I feel frustrated not earning more while working 9-6 and using my free time to make this new business work. My siblings dont seem to care much. They are making more than me with less effort. I feel stupid. I am ready to work more but i am not doing it. I can really make more money if i work for myself or for other people. I wasted this evening trying to make this business to make a little progress while my siblings went out with their partners. Looks like i am the stupid one here. They make more than me and i work more than them. Not fair. Man, why didnt i spend my night watching some tv series? Why did i waste it trying to make this shit work for all of us? Met with a client from my family's business on my way home. He told me how the sales guy from the agency i work for made him an offer for 1000-2000 euros but he considered it too expensive for now. Man, some of our clients really pay that much per month. Meanwhile we, the employees work on 20 such accounts even if we make our salary from 1 account. I feel even more frustrated. Maybe my focus isnt in the right place. Maybe i should look more into freelancing or smth. I arrived at work today and i was afraid to get a call from an angry client. I felt very frustrated feeling this. I want to make more money so i really need to deal with this shit. Maybe i should ask for more clients. Make it more stressful and harder. Not feeling the best for now and i havent finished uploading all info on the new marketplace. Maybe i should ask my siblings to do it as well.

Thank you! Didnt expect to get this message - Today i woke up feeling very cold and decided to work from home. I was productive but still wasted some time here and there. I got more emails than usual. I was wondering if i should ask for another account. I need to speak more with these clients. Called a client today and it was all good but i still need work on this skill. We joked that we broke the marketplace with that order. Basically it was supposed to be picked up from the same locker it was delivered. I did the check in for another marketplace. I need to re-order our documents to work faster. I was surprised to get a message from the girl i met last weekend. She was super busy or smth. That is what i used to say when i didnt want to speak with a girl. Man, i feel so relieved i dont have to see M. The whole relationship made me very stressed. I felt frustrated that my mom wasnt called by the different massage cabinets i sent her cv at. I need to send even more. I feel impatient about earning more money. I have a lot to learn but i am wondering if i should start freelancing now or wait some more. So far it seems that work takes most of my time and soon i hope to send packages quite a lot. I feel frustrated that i am not earning more from my work and i am not sure if i want to have 20 clients as well. Hmm. I will think about this. I feel stupid taking work seriously now just to get more work and not make really a lot of money. Maybe i should use that energy into smth else or working for someone who pays more. I didn't play minecraft or watched related videos in a few weeks. I feel very proud of myself. Worked out with my brother. I felt lazy but pushed through. I got some small dividends last month from my investments in stocks. I asked a girl from college how is she doing at her masters. She only could get a shit job and she is waiting to quit soon. She said she feels frustrated that no body answers to her CV. I was thinking that i only know 2 people who work for themselves. The other people i hang out with are employed or jobless. How is this affecting me? Not sure i will do a master next year. Man, that would be so much wasted time. Ridiculous.

I was productive again at work. My clients dont stress me for now. I helped my superviser with his account quite a lot. I am feeling good helping him out. Pff. I dont like that i am feeling a sense of achievement finishing his fast in no time. Anyways, i am looking forward to get more clients and i am also afraid. I need to get better at talking with these clients. I want to earn more and get better doing my job. I came up with an idea about how to fix those stupid pics for the marketplace. Just crop the original image and paste it on a right size white image. It looks good as fuck. So simple even i was so frustrated about this. I worry we wont sell shit. In two weeks will arrive the other products as well. I couldnt cancel that order made by mistake. I made a fake order to add reviews at 2 of my products and i made two awbs. The package is still on the way and we dont know what really happened. Went to the cooking class and we had a new chef. He isnt as good at the old one but it was fun. Started flirting with a girl and i didnt just stare at her. Actually went to her and said some small talk. It was really hard to start. I was looking weird in the beginning. The bad part is that she is underage lol. Spoke with another girl and we connected quite fast. She has a boyfriend. She was very honest and fun. She told me she actually wants to be a cook and has been a kitchen helper for the last 8 months. She was very fast and on edge. Indeed, hard jobs keep you fresh. I worry to get soft at my job. She earned more than me and is just 20. I need to make more money haha. She noticed how i look at the other girl and advised me to better fap than get into trouble =))))) I asked out again that girl i met last weekend. She didnt even bother to answer to me. I expected that but i tried anyways. Started speaking again with the Swedish girl. I dont feel extremely uncomfortable to message these girls during the day. Maybe it was too much for me last month. I am feeling really relieved to not see M anymore. It was very stressful. Today i arrived home and i fell asleep in my brother's bed. I was tired. A girl from work told us she only orders food because she doesnt like cooking at all. She also pays rent. I wonder how much money if any she can save per month. Man, ordering food twice a day should be expensive as fuck. How much is she making /???? Also, i was thinking that this makes sense since i wasted a few hours cooking when i could have added some products. Olivia Rodrigo - all-american bitch (live from rehearsal)

Hey Went to work and i was productive even if i was tired. I waited to leave home to do some more about our business. When i had time i listed 2 products after approval. We made a fake order to add reviews. Nice. We took pics and felt so excited to put it in the locker room. Hehe. I optimized the 2 products some more. I need better pics. I feel both excited and also worried it wont work. Idk. We will see what happens. Looking forward to get real orders.

When i met the 17 year old colleague from work, two years ago i didn't believe i could even sell shit online. It seemed so complicated. But seeing him doing it made me feel courage. I didn't start right away because of that stupid degree. Now, it seems possible even if i doubt myself i can sell like him. I finally uploaded some products and i am waiting for approval. I feel excited and also afraid. What if i chose the wrong products. Man, i have like 30 products. At least one will work. I am thinking about the freelance jobs i could do and it feels so complicated right now. Maybe i am talking too soon. I just got new clients. Things will get better. I am worried. I am also wondering if it worth investing all that time to get better at my job when i can just sell more products online. Maybe is too soon to think of this. I think is stupid that i am single and i have all this free time on my hands but still not making enough money. I need to do more and i am doing more now. I will see results from this business sooner than i think. At least this is what i hope. What else? I hope to sell our first product in the next few weeks. I am excited and also worried. I hope for the best. I am so happy i gave up watching tv series. I wasted so much time watching that crap. Last year around this time i was watching a lot of that crap. Several times a week. I was a zombie. I opened another credit card with 2000 euros. The other one is around 250 euros. My credit score is still 628. If i want to raise my small card limit i have to go to the bank. To get more money it was easier to actually make a new card. Man, this is insane. I am also looking forward to grow my score in the next months. I am thinking to open another one at another bank. But for now it is ok. Loyle Carner, Jorja Smith - Loose Ends (Audio)

Hey Went to the b-day of a girl from high school. It was fun. Her neighbor was there as well and i thought she liked me. I messaged her after the party to set up a date. Suddenly, she didnt seem that interested. I will ask her one more time and after that i wont insist. It was the first time i acted so fast when i noticed a girl likes me. Nice. Woke up tired and wasted the whole morning in bed. Didn't do much. I felt guilty. I dont feel like adding these products on the platform. Took a million breaks. I added a few and got frustrated because all images werent the required size. Pff. Went to see what my sister is doing. She was watching a tv series with her boyfriend and didnt do more product pics or descriptions. I expected her too take this more seriously. Same for my brother. He spent all day with his gf. She is looking at wednesday, i saw that in a day last year. I felt sick thinking of that time wasted. No thanks. Man, it is amazing that i quit tv series all those months ago. It really made room to do smth with my life. Ten months passed! Amazing. I looked on Instagram again and i was shocked to see that most people are out, having fun. Yeah, this is why they dont make more money. A friend told us how he cant wait to go home and get fucked up with his gf. He said he will get baked all day today. I got tinder again... yeah... to see if that girl who cancelled our date said smth. She actually messaged me on Wed. I didnt expect that. I went nuts on swiping and messaging girls. Ups. I am a little anxious about work tomorrow. I dont want to fuck up these accounts.

Hey Yesterday i went to work at the office and i managed to get done sooo much. It was also fun to hang out with my superviser and my other colleagues who choose to come at work on Thursdays and Fridays. It was easier to ask them when i found problems in my accounts. We have a colleague at work who is flexing the amount of money his clients affords to spend on ads. I really dont see what is cool about it. I got another client today. I have 10 now. Nice. I am still afraid to get shit calls from angry clients. So far it is ok. On Thursday i arrived home, did some invoices and fell asleep so fast. I was sooo tired. Today i managed to start learning about the invoice software. Man, is way easier than i thought yeaaars ago seeing the french guys make invoices. I am excited to start selling so soooon. Finally. I talked about this first time a year ago and now i am finally doing it. I am so glad i didnt start a graduate degree right now. I have time to actually learn new things at work and also at home, with this business. Not sure if i will get that high education diploma next year. It seems such a waste of time. I already wasted 5 years for this stupid college degree. I fapped and felt better. I am getting used again to not having to speak with some girl from tinder. It was so tiring having to listen to them and live in that stress knowing M wants a relationship. The stress wasnt worth it even if i liked the sex. I feel so calm now. I want to keep this peace in my head for some more in order to focus my time and energy on smth useful. I dont feel like i have to answer to messages from girls just to keep the conversation alive. It feels such a waste of time to go on dates even if i am learning more and sometimes getting laid. But i really dont see the point right now to have a normal relationship. Man, why would i spend my time seeing some girl several times a week to listen to her shit? Most likely i wont even like her and i just want to get laid. Again, i can actually use that free time to earn and learn more. Olivia Rodrigo - bad idea right? (Official Video)

Hey My superviser had a call with these clients and calmed them down. I didnt get scolded or anything. Their site was suspended today. Work was fine overall. I havent talked with other clients. I am looking daily on campaigns and still afraid i am messing shit up. We got even closer to finally start selling online. Today i made the courier contract. All we need now is to upload some products, inventory and log in the invoice program. We can do this. My brother joked about making his GF join our business. NO! I dont want my sister's boyfriend either. Just us is enough. I dont see what value they can bring. More time wasted. Went to see my sis and her BF - he kept talking shit about his ideas for us blah blah. Went to drink after work with my colleagues. I used this time to learn more about my colleagues and especially to speak more with a colleague who is older. He has a part time hustle making his salary just working on weekends. He invests all of that money in crypto and stocks. He told me his plans and i listened. We talked about freelancing and i told him how i imagine i need to know everything before approaching those potential clients. He told me how i need to do just PPC and i can find someone else to do SEO or programming. How much can you charge a client if you are doing everything for him??? Indeed, good point. Small clients expect you to know it all and also be cheap. He plans to do this job, freelancing, investing and his bartending job as well. Interesting. I can do my job, freelancing and selling products online. Hmm. I feel motivated after talking to him. He told me his experience on Amazon and his friends' experiences. I was speechless hearing about all those money coming in for them. I want that as well. I need to work on my self confidence and learning to sell myself. I was thinking again to turn tinder back on haha. Just to days of saying fuck it! I need some time for myself. I will wait some more. I was surprised to hear how much my colleagues pay for rent. Man, i need a break.

She just replayed with a short text: ''No problem, chill. Anyways, i dont think we were right for each other. Thank you for the time spent together. Good luck with your new business. ''. I feel so cringe for all the drama i made about this whole thing. I was anxious to tell her this for weeks. She took it in very well and is clear she felt the same about me. Chill man, indeed.

I asked if she believes that i am lying about being sick. She believes me but she still doesn't like that we couldn't meet. She reminded me i canceled on her another time but i cant remember. Also, she pointed out that we dont talk much and when we do isnt about smth important. She had only valid points. I didn't want to spend all day texting her and meeting often. Anyways, she is right, i didnt talk about important staff because i dont have many deep topics to talk about. I got this complaint before. Most of the times i cant think of topics to talk about with friends or girls. I finally messaged M and told her i want to break up. I should have met with her F2F but i feel extremely anxious to even send her a message. Im waiting for her response. I have done smth i avoided since we met. I behaved like a coward with her. This relationship was stressing me for months. I should have stopped it sooner. Each month it become harder and more complicated. I said this before, but now i need a break from dating. I dont know how to describe it. I dont feel emotionally available. Dating and relationships make me feel stressed. I head people say they need a break from dating but i never understood how they feel. I think i know now. I feel so consumed from my new responsibilities at work and this new business. I did more progress with the new business documents. Tomorrow we will get some help for the delivery option. I am waiting for my sister to write descriptions. We are getting closer to start this thing. I am very cold with my family because of this small thing that happened at work today. It is not normal to be so afraid to get fired or scolded. I am learning. I have done worse mistakes. Where does this fear comes from? Lack of perceived options? I have been here for over 2 years and i have been afraid i will get fired from time to time. I dont think is ok to take my job so seriously. Why am i cold with family and so affected by making mistakes at work? I am not looking forward to go tomorrow to work. I want to avoid facing my problems. It is my mistake for what i said to the client. I am seeing that i am making mistakes but i keep making them. I wont get fired but i still react like a madman. Maybe i should quit this job. I am having a hard time delivering the same results as my peers. Maybe i should do a job like SEO or Amazon keyword research. I dont have a problem with working long hours but i struggle to analyse accounts and other ,,thinking'' tasks. Maybe i am delusional thinking i can do freelancing. I didnt do well speaking with the client. The fear i felt during the meeting was high as fuck. Maybe i am delusional in many areas of my life. Maybe my dating standards are too high. I am not an amazing match, especially on the intellectual side. I am not actually doing well in my ,,career''. I am struggling. Maybe i should try smth else. Maybe doing packages all day will be better for me. I dont know what to say. I am disappointed of myself but maybe i am doing smth too hard for my level. Maybe there is more to life than this job. Maybe i have blocked myself in this job, thinking i cant get out and i cant live without. Maybe i am just dramatic. I dont want to go to bed now. I want to watch some dumb shit online. I want to avoid waking up and having to see those clients. I also dont want to see M's response after she reads my message. But i am looking forward to not see her and feel guilty for leading her on. I am so afriad to not have this job.....afriad to not have money to hang out? I mean, i dont have to worry about paying rent. I am making this bigger than it needs to be. Breath. Fazerdaze - Bigger (Official Visualiser)

I feel pain in my ears. Not sure what is going on. Had a call with a client and i was quite confident beforehand. One of the partners started questioning me when they'll sell based on the similar sites my agency had in the past. I asked my colleagues if we had similar ones and no body said yes. The sales guys said yes, of course - i was dumb enough to tell them the truth and now i have another meeting with the sales guy and my supervisor. I am very nervous during the call. I couldn't explain what i actually knew and i was all over the place. I was ridiculous. It was my second call since last year. How can i think of doing freelancing when i shit myself with a simple call like this? I caught myself being afraid as fuck that i get fired, just like i worried for the last 2 years. I calmed myself down. Told my brother what happened and he said there is no point in stressing about it since isnt even my company. Indeed, i needed to hear that. I can search for employment elsewhere and focus on my business. I dont have to worry and freak out. I was mean to my mom while being afraid to get fired. This isnt ok, especially for a shit salary. What else? I read again what i spoke with the younger girl on Saturday, when i was sick. I couldnt understand her messages and replayed to her out of context. I guess she didnt really believe me i was sick. She didnt replay to my messages yesterday and i didnt contact her today. Hmm. We got another package from Shein.

Hey I feel better now. I only have a light headache. I finally sent the bar code request for all those products. Cool. I have 33 products. I also made up some promotional packages. I will look up today how to use merchant and i have to re-watch GA4 explanations. I forgot some terms

Hey I starting feeling a light headache last night and i couldn't sleep very well. Woke up with a massive headache like i never had before. I couldn't think or function until midday. It was horrible. I added more products on the platform to give me bare codes. Had problems with some pics. We ordered some packaging for our products. Yesterday we got one of the packages without being called by the boarder. I looked some more into Fiverr. Besides Google ads and Facebook i see that there is a lot of interest for amazon services. I am doing enough things for now but i will keep this in mind. Now, i just want to get better at my job and also start selling products online. There is so much to learn and earn from, man. Cant wait! Maybe i should have focused on SEO and amazon 2 years ago instead of choosing Google ads. It is so complicated, man. Maybe i will ask to work for someone doing Amazon or Google ads on fiverr or upwork. I can learn from them much more. We will see.

Went to bed at 3 and woke up with a lot of struggle at 9.30. I already felt bed for not doing my routine before work. One of the clients i got from my colleague messaged me and i panicked. She helped me answer but i reacted ridiculously. I still worry to get fired and not do a good job. I struggle with analyzing data on these accounts. I felt very stressed and i didnt look forward to go on the date i had planned tonight. She canceled last minute because she found out a relative has cancer. I didnt mind, i wanted to stay at home anyways. I did some research to decide what delivery company to choose. I made some description for a few products. My sister promised she will do them but she went to see her boyfriend. I waited all day for this guy to help me with the bar codes. Turns out is really easy. Just need to manually do all those codes. Pff. He was lazy. I still need to buy my codes since his are only for his company. Time wasted. I will help him do them to learn. I cant believe how lazy he is. Offf. I am thinking again to take a break from dating new girls. For some reason it stresses me to speak with these girls a few times a day, even if we meet once a week. I feel overwhelmed with work and this new business. Maybe i should indeed take a break and stop for a while. I am not helping myself feel better by going on these dates. I feel stressed having to replay during the day, meet them and so on. I feel i should do it all at once but it feels like too much for now. I have all this free time and i am wasting it trying to get laid. Hours and hours in a park with these girls and most of the time nothing comes out of it. Better use those hours to do your job better, make some packages and so on. Also, i can date once a months or smth. I will think about it. Right now i should invest more time in some things which really matter, this is for now the new business and my job. It would help a lot if i had a place to bring these girls. Now i am just relaying on them to have a place. I could use that time dating to get a better salary and use a part of it to move out. Also, use some of your free time to drive again. I have all this free time and i am wasting it. I can really get faster to becoming a freelancer if i learn at an exponential speed. I feel stupid that i stopped cooking to save some money for the last 2 years. It is just stupid. I should have made time to cook food in bulk instead of eating from my mom and being happy i saved some money. How about just making more at work?

Hey Each morning i got late at work. Tried to wake up several times. Went to bed each day around 2 am because i tried to do more (diction, working out, new business). I had more dandruff and worse skin since i got the new accounts and waited for the raise. I was stressed as fuck. I am also tired. The new clients are fine so far. I am still afraid to fuck up but it will be fine. I struggle now to analyze accounts. I block my mind when i have to do it. I need to learn how to. I want to ask for more accounts to learn faster since i want to do freelancing. I need to get used with this new business and afterwards i need to take some freelancing work. I have nothing to loose. I will try. I wont get far in life with just 800 euros per month, man. I am learning this skills in a better way right now. I am putting more effort and i will see results in a few months. I spend some time again on Insta. Didnt make me feel better. I set up a date for tomorrow night with a new girl. I will meet with M on Friday and with Teo3 on Saturday. I am thinking to stop seeing M since it goes too much into relationship territory. I need to watch some dating advice. I need to improve my texting. I need to save some more money as an emergency fund. I am bad at this. Eat last 2 weeks only food from home and nuts, other snacks at work. I feel very good about this. I am not sure if i will do my masters next year around this time. I dont see the point. Asked a friend what he does all day since he isnt employed. He kept saying all along that he works all the time. I tried once to talk with him about my work-life problems and he said yeah, i work all the time man, i cant relate. Well, it turns out most of that is bullshit. He works a few hours a day and after that meets with his gf or watches shit on YT. Really? I really thought i am not doing enough. It was all bullshit. Man, i am so glad i dont have uni this year or the next. It was so stressful for me and it ate so much time from me. I could have started around this time. But i feel that it is more to be made and learned from what i am doing now. I wasted sooo much time with all that shit at university. It was ridiculous. I felt so stuck. I just wanted to be paid at work and didnt really bother much. Yesterday was my first ex b-day. I had a nightmare, meeting her after 5 years with her BF. We broke up 2 years ago, almost 3. Why did i think of this now? Why did i dream that? I doubt my drive and motivation. She had that. It was a toxic relationship tho. It is funny but i cant remember the b-day of my last ex. It has been a year since we broke up. I have learned so much since than. I was so dishonest with myself. I just wanted to date more. I felt so stuck with her. Had to deal with all that drama. Pff. Well, in order to become a good freelancer i need to be much better at my work. I need to put even more effort.

Hey Woke up and wasted 2 h on my phone, journaling about doing freelance work. I came came with another idea - to message these freelancers and ask if they will hire me for a few projects. This is seems so logic but for me so mind blowing. I can do the same work but i will get paid much more. I had thought about this for hours. New plan - learn as much as you can from my job and look into freelancing again once i figured things out with the new business. I am wondering why arent more people doing freelance work or asking for employment at top upwork sellers? What is the catch? Why do my colleagues work for this salary when they could make more that way? Meditated, exercised and did some other chores. I met with friends and bought some veggies. I arrived home and wasted some time on my phone. After that i cooked, first time in 2 years i think. Wow. Ironed some clothes and did some other tasks. I listened to some interviews. Did some diction exercises. Did the product list which we have to upload on the marketplace. We need to think of some names for a few products. I didnt go to my brother;s GF's b-day party. I didnt want to see her honestly. My brother got upset. I am glad we are finally doing this business and not just speaking shit about starting. I am so proud of mself for almost achieving a whole year without tv series. I do crave them from time to time but my life got so much better. I had to sit with my emotions frequently.

Turns out i ordered 90 units of one of the products. Lol. I have to wait 10 days before i ask for a refund. Today was quite productive and i also met with friends. I finished a list evaluating how much i will learn selling those products, did some gardening, worked out and some diction exercises. I harvested 3 bean pods from my garden :)))) I am still thinking of FIVERR. I dont feel yet that i am ready to do it. I need to deal more with clients at my work and to learn to use GA4 in a more proficient way. I also need to learn how to do tracking for Meta and G ads. This seems complicated for now but i didnt watch any videos about it. At work i just need to do my part of the whole process of setting up an ads account. I can learn to do this.

Done! We ordered almost all products. It was more expensive than i expected. The profit we will make looks good for now. Forgot to order and test some of them a few months ago. I am so glad we are finally over with this step. Tomorrow i will try to take some pics and learn more about those bar codes. I am so excited to start selling in a few weeks. I feel excited as fuck. I am also worried people wont by all that crap that we want to sell. Who would do that? But i do know that people buy shit. I checked on the Fiverr how much do people doing my job charge for their services. Bro, i was shocked how much they make. Why not try this before that whole agency thing? It seems easier to get jobs from this platform. I was shocked that some dude was charging like $50 for basic keyword research. Unreal. I am doing that all the time. Man, i feel inspired to try this as well. Even if i make $100 per month from this is still amazing. I can get a few clients and not even worry about my job. A new door opened. I dont know why i didnt think of this before. I just got stuck doing my job and not asking for more. I got used to be lazy and not think what can i do more. I could have done this years ago. But i didnt even think i could. I still dont. Insane. Working full time and worrying about money doesnt give you time to grow. Why dont more offer PPC services on Fiverr? It looks like you can make more than your current job, doing the same thing? Am i missing something?

I used it to just buy some snacks :))) The 3rd diction class was awesome but i felt bad not practicing more at home. I was lazy or tired. I need to practice even more. I need to speak much better. Now i am fully aware of this problem. We finally got the EORI number. We can order the products tomorrow. Awesome. All we need now are pics and a delivery contract. Went to meet with M, had lunch and went to her place to bang. I felt bad lying about going on vacation together. I dont want that. The sex was better than last time. She told me about 2 friends working in a company doing affiliate marketing. They just need to add banners to different sites. They work 3h a day and is super easy. I cant believe it is so fucking easy. Lol. I looked online on what can i do with it and i need to learn to do social media and edit videos. I watched a guy promoting starting your own agency. Interesting. I can actually use my knowledge makings ads to do ads for people in the west or start my own agency and make even more money. It doesnt have to be anything big, just a few clients. What do i need to do that? I just need to get better at my job. Keep up the good work, bro. Why not try this as well at some point? It sounds amazing. I need to learn to talk and explain what i am doing much better. I didnt really think about this before. I can do my exact job but actually make more money with less clients. I can simply not get clients for free or the ones who have no money. I am not looking forward to get clients like the ones i had on my own. It was too annoying for all that stress. I can at least try to message a bunch of people in order to get some awesome clients. Why not try this? rainbow kitten surprise - its called freefall.

Done My mom finished her massage courses this June but is still afraid to apply for jobs. I took the initiative at last and i will apply for her. She is scared as fuck to work again. Work was fine. I arrived earlier and did my tasks. Some stuff i avoided to do for many months. Awesome. I need to get used to do shit as fast as possible. No delays. The new clients dont seem so crazy. After work i walked for 40 min and did some exercises once i got home. I listened to a webinar about investing in stocks. While i took a shit on the toilet i opened my first credit card. I could have chosen to borrow as much as 4000 euros. Unreal. I chose the least amount - 250 euros. It was super fast and easy. Lol. Now, i am going to build my credit score. I invested some more in a P2P lending platform. I'm looking forward to order those products. Now, is time to get some awesome pics! Cant wait :)) I dont like to see my colleagues with more experience at work being so stressed and unhappy. Most people going at work in the morning dont seem happy or excited. I am not looking to stick around for several years. Get as much knx as you can now and get the fuck out.