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✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (very strong urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling Eating healthy✔️❌❌ ❌i did overeat ❌no lp course ✔️reading (Daygame) 4m/30m mind powers ✔️meditation ✔️5/10 concentration going to bed at a decent time ❌ How many times i checked out this forum? 5 times or more OTHER: 6th day of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES: low urges; I wanted to watch a movie i felt on top of the world today i finally took action to fix one of my insecurities after delaying DOING IT for several years I really like about myself that i am relatively relaxed around strangers which is a priceless asset for pick-up. Of course, i have my bad days and insecurities of which i remember from time to time and than feel like crap and i get irrational thoughts if i do smth new which is out of my comfort zone. but i can fix them by journaling about what actually made me feel anxious. also mindfulness in those moments is good. i started my homework sooner than ever. tomorrow=3rd shamanic breathing session. i am spending to much time checking out how many views does this thread has accumulated since the last time i checked. tomorrow i will go to study at a coffee shop. i wander if it will be as productive as studying at the mall. i am anxious and worried to meet with some people i no longer speak with . i hate them . although i am reasonably relaxed around strangers i am really don't want to meet those people. what if the staff will kick me out for staying to long?lol nonsense. hmmm now, let`s flip this worrisome thought upside down with logic. i bet 2 lemons that i won`t meet them + and if i meet them i will have some negative thoughts and emotions to tackle and untangle. i met with them a few months back, it was not as bad as i imagined that it will be. i feel better now. a couple of insights i had whilst reading from Daygame: Don't send to many messages, don’t be needy. Neediness drive people away Some girls want casual sex as men do . Sex can just be sex. Not everyone wants a relationship. Library pickup- can you recommend me a book for a friend?? Don’t relay on alcohol for your successes. Although getting drunk at going to a club with no game in mind sounds good but the sex that you might get is most likely bc of luck and will happen just a few times. Go out at least once/twice a week. ``Worcester clubbing taught me that you can get laid randomly jut by being vaguely sociable and letting nature take its course, but that what you end up with was like fishing in a canal…it could be a salmon or a shopping trolley. Just by being social-leaving your house and speaking with to women- things would irregularly happen .`` Make a point of being sociable. Talk with everyone at college and on at every opportunity you get. Affirmation -Talk with everyone everywhere Again, it's ok to be clueless at the beginning of pickup , keep growing . No shame no growth You`ll struggle but you`ll have your successes Have rational goals, even after 100 girls you'll have nervousness at openings but it gets better with time lo. Experience. Aka it`s normal to be afraid. Open indirectly, attract with GENTLE teasing. Attract a woman through non-needy behavior and a display of value. build comfort and than seduce through leading and physically escalating. --add to vision board

✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 1/5 ✔️no fap ( strong urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling Eating healthy ✔️(morning) ❌(lunch) ❌(dinner) ❌i did overeate ❌no lp course ✔️reading (Daygame-it`s amazing) 5/30 or Only 5m out of 30m of mind-powers ✔️meditation ✔️concentration going to bed at a decent time ❌ OTHER stuff: 5th day of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES: I was so so so close to watch a movie but i resisted after i realized that i don't want to disappoint the people that are reading my journal. Ha! i felt down bc i procrastinated which resulted in watching cringy vines for hours on YT but i come back at the end of the day to being productive i got wrapped up in negative thoughts about my future such as: ``i cant do pickup, i cant succeed at my work, i cannot deal with my problems perfectly``. i finally made that smoothie:(coconut flakes,oatmeal,1 orange, 1 apple and ashwagandha powder). It was delicious. 4150 days left of until i turn 30. 162 days left till college i have read some RSD field reports. i felt inspired. tomorrow i will go to a mall to study . it`s time to do my homework before the due date. i will try some coffee shops as well . i am spending to much time on this forum. i will let myself to read this forum only twice a day a couple of insights whilst reading from Daygame: tom torrero had far more problems to deal with regarding pickup than i have : He had depression, severe acne, panic attacks, no friends, thick ugly glasses ,literally zero social skills, overweight and so on. I don't even have a quarter of his difficulties. i don't deserve to complain and bitch about my baby/midget challenges. Being at a college doesn't make you grow. You do by taking action don’t be needy. - Cold approach will makes me stronger and effects in all other area in my life in a good way Talking with people is good for your mood. Do it more. Invite people out. I am confident in my abilities to make friends lol. He count even make friends. Stop whining. It`s never to late to improve your skills with girls. Why? Bc 5 yrs from now you'll be older. That`s why. we are the product's of our own thoughts .

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✔️pushing my comfort zone daily (i will assess how much i did it from 1 to 5) today was 4.5/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling Eating healthy ✔️(morning) ✔️(lunch) ❌(dinner) ✔️ i didn't overate today ❌no lp course ✔️reading (notes) ❌mind powers ✔️meditation ❌concentration going to bed at a decent time ----nope ❌ ha-ha OTHER: 4th day of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES: moderate desire to watch some tv series. i did not organize my schedule properly so i had no time to do make that smoothie . There is some invisible unwritten rule on this forum ``dating and pickup is bad -concentrate only on enlightenment``. As a consequence i feel slightly worried and ashamed of talking about my dating /youngster problems to not be seen as dumb. But is all in my head and this journal keeps me on track so fuck it . Knowing that i can basically abandon this account at any moment without any real-life repercussions gives me courage to express myself, regardless of possible negative feedback. i watched a play held by teenagers at a small theater. It was so painful to watch that started daydreaming about being anywhere else but there. SO MUCH CRINGE But i had some deep insights so it was worth it in the end. i could not help but feel embarrassed and anxious just by witnessing it . i got triggered emotionally a couple of times. SO MUCH CRINGE I realized that i had avoided so many naturally embarrassing situations over the years at the point of forgetting that i have my own unresolved self-esteem issues. i thought that i am not cool enough to approach girls. nonsense. it was fear talking! i am in a conflicting state- i know that i am good enough and i think that i am not in the same time. i realized that i don't have to be somewhat different to pursue my goals. i have all i need right now. i will never feel 100% ready. i come to the conclusion that feeling embarrassed or ashamed or being unexperienced is fairly normal in the process of improving your social skills and especially at dating i wont improve in this area unless i adopt a growth mindset and i accept that it wont be easy + why wont i be feeling negative emotions whilst actually growing myself rather than feeling them from a default position of misery? i compared myself with the people on the stage although it makes zero sense since we had different difficulties and goals. moreover, a few of them where pretty good mainly bc they have been practicing their craft for years.(and so can I) i thought that i will have to drink and smoke at college to fit in and to banish feeling anxiety but i remembered that it`s not worth it long-term and not even short-term! i felt jealous that those people where on the stage, doing a extracurricular activity and smth with their life whereas i spent my leisure time in high school watching tv series and movies, listening to music,browsing around,daydreaming about that one day when i`ll do smth worthwhile with my time ,rooting at home and generally wasting time on things i cant even remember . i thought that i am not cool enough/i am not the kind of dude who attends extracurricular activities . for me acting classes seem such a difficult activity since you are bound to look ridiculous playing your character at first as you gain experience. on the other hand , it`s seems somehow interesting and a promising activity to use for my personal growth therefore, i have decided to take some acting classes during college, as a thorough comfort zone challenge ! HEY! I was pondering whether I should live in a college dorm room or in a rented apartment during freshman year? Which one is better suited for self-actualization? Will it be harder to meditate with all that noise around? What do you think about this?

✔️pushing myself today ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling Eating healthy i dint eat bread today! ✔️(morning)-2 bananas ✔️(lunch)- meat +fried legumes ❌(dinner)milk+a lot of cereals ❌ i overate only at dinner ❌no lp course ✔️reading( i have just finished ``The Rum Diary``) ❌mind powers ❌meditation ❌concentration ❌going to bed at a decent time 0ther: i felt guilty for not have started pick-up months and years ago. (again) 3rd day of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES: moderate desire to watch some MOVIES i will make that smoothie tomorrow.... now i am sorting my notes out from that book and i will read them once a week for a month i will start listening to reading ``the defining decade``Daygame`` tomorrow or smth like that i realized that i cant distinguish whether a salesperson is telling the truth about a product or not. My intuition tells me that he is honest but the facts tell me he`s lying i realized how much of a rabbit whole is to buy the decorations and furniture for your place. there is all that daydreaming that people will like your design and that you`ll feel a little peace of mind , but only after you buy all those objects. all you want are pleasant feelings,right? You can get good feelings and even more by meditating and doing countless positive habits for free! i asked a teacher various questions about her life : one of them was : ``Are your fellow colleagues gossiping and separated in different rival groups like in high school?`` she told me ``high school never ends``. Her colleagues talk about each other`s shit behind their backs just like teenagers do!! also, they aren`t a united community as i expected Of course that i know that people at large gossip regardless of age but i had high expectations from intellectuals Although they gossip more subtle way than younger people.

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✔️pushed myself really hard today ✔️ i have studied today like i used to do one year ago! ( i sat on a bench in a mall; i will go again; i felt inadequate to just waste time like i do at home since i went all the way to that place) ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling Eating healthy ✔️(morning)-nuts,1banana,1orange ❌(lunch) half of a tick (dinner) ❌ i almost overate ❌no lp course ❌reading mind powers❌ meditation❌ concentration✔️ going to bed at a decent time ❌ other i felt guilty for not staring pick-up 2nd day of NO TV SERIES/MOVIES: slight desire to watch some episodes i had zero motivation or energy to write this post but i forced myself -now i am proud of myself. to do : to write what i do in a day from dusk till dawn -in order to acknowledge how and where i waste time. i will make a smoothie tomorrow if it wasn't for that journal i would have watched those episodes yesterday i wanted to write about something else but i forgot the topic.

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Meditation ✔️ 10m concentration practice ✔️ Pushing my comfort zone ✔️ going to bed at a decent time ❌ Spending time outside ✔️ Eating healthy ✔️ Reading (currently The Rum Diary) ✔️ No fap (faint urges but nothing massive) ✔️ Daily journaling✔️ No Lp course ❌ I failed to not overeat❌ Only 5m out of 30m of mindpowers ❌ I procrastinated before starting to do my homework ❌ I have started a 30days no tv series /movies challenge bc in the last 5 months i wasted ridiculous amounts of time watching them (i had a significant ego backlash and watching them was a way for me to distract myself from my challenges) . 1st day: i felt a moderate urge to watch some tv series (Ash and the Evil dead and It's always sunny in Philadelphia). I resisted. ✔️ (for later use; copy&paste style) ✔️ ✔️ ✔️ ✔️ ✔️ ✔️ ✔️ ❌ ❌ ❌ ❌ ❌ ❌

2nd trip report 30m; April 18th 2018 i didn't fell asleep this time i felt some tingling sensations in my hands inconsistent breathing Afterwards, i felt an inexplicable peace of mind . music:

trip report (30 minutes); April 9th 2018 music : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qx0qkoOd-fE&index=3&t=0s&list=PL2gLp9VvXVU_KmE3dZqzErqMgGT5-ZrFo It was difficult to keep breathing at a consistent speed. I wanted to quit. I said to myself that i can do it. I felt surprisingly calm twice. I moved my body and swallowed a few times I fell asleep at the very end . Afterwards, During the 10m of mindful observation i felt two distinct subtle mix of negative emotions but i couldn't identify them or what triggered them. What both of them disappeared and I felt calmer than ever.

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Share your personal wisdom and experiences with us if you want to help other fellow self-actualizers to grow. For example: If you skip a day or two from doing your routine is ok. Just analyze what went wrong and get back on track! At the beginning of 2016, I interrupted completely my meditation habit just because i skipped two or three days. I got back on track after eight or nine months. =)))

Just unfallow from all your friend's posts on FB. For me this worked . When I was seeing a pic of them or some check-in in a fancy place on my wall, I would automatically start to go down on a spiral of negative thoughts about my self-worth and on all kinds of victim mindsets. However, the best choice long-term would be to deactivate your account. Seeing certain people from your past every day won't help you to move on.