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Hey I had another day going to bed late and waking up a wreck. Arrived late at work. Solved some tasks but i had a hard time getting shit done. I wanted to do nothing at all. I felt stupid for wasting my time working there and i am still not making the money i want to make. I am not even making $1000 a month. I am still afraid to get new clients and fuck things up. Of. Made some mistakes writing some mails etc. I felt tired and exhausted. I am looking forward to order more and sell more. I need to quit work to make my own schedule and move out of my house. But i need to stay here until we make enough sales. I finally made the first wire transfer to an agent in china associated with the telegram group i am a part of. Cool. I am very anxious to do this since the beginning. I am looking forward to order more with them and also alone. I am excited man. I am looking forward to quit work and do this full time. I am wasting my damn time and potential. I cooked for this week and i am proud of this. I am also eating more junk food each time i have an occasion. I need to stop that. I took a 40 min walk after work and met with one of my high school friends. She got hired at the same clothes store her friend works in. This is her first job. She asked me if i wanna hang out with her and her BF afterwards but i said i was busy. I should have said i am tired. I wanted to go home and send the money to that agent. I am growing frustrated with my high school friends. It seems that i am the only one trying to keep the group alive. The others dont bother tho. But why do i bother tho? I can do so much more with my time than to see them. It isnt as fun as it used to be. Maybe leave them alone and wait to be called. Focus on other stuff. She messaged me this morning saying that she is busy until Christmas...lol. Yeah, i am so important that she doesn't have 1 free hour to see me. Lol. I still have my tinder app turned off. Might be the longest time this year. I feel calm. I dont have to speak with these girls all the time. It is exhausting, especially that i dont have a place to bring them at. Also, it seems that dating got harder once i finished college. The girls i met seemed to not be very pleased with what i had to offer to them. A work colleague said that dating after 25 is very different. Laufey - Second Best

Hey We set up and decorated the Christmas tree today. I felt so tired each year when we do this. IDK. Had more orders and we gave a printer to my brother to make some packages from home. I proposed to talk about setting up some side hustle goals for next year. How many orders to reach, how much money to make and so on. I was thinking 10.000 euros as a target but it doesnt it that hard to make. It will be awesome to have this goal on a piece of paper and right down each time we make 1000 euros for example. Hehehe. I asked out again the Swedish girl and she said she doesnt know what schedule she has next week. She will let me know. Basically, if her friends dont meet with her she is free haha. I am not that important as you can tell. I am always setting up meeting with friends after dates. Maybe this is a problem for me. I wont ask her again next week, i feel annoying doing it. If she wants to meet with me she will. I was thinking to watch some tv series next year but isnt a wise choice. I can use the little free time i have after my day job to work on my side hustle. In other words, each hour counts in order to quit my job faster. Each hour watching those shows will make me progress slower. I can actually make it if i put enough time! Each weeks brings me closer to make money only from eMag and not being employed. Yeah, i can get more pleasure now from porn and tv series but it wont help me long term. I can actually use that time to find the right products and quit my job! Imagine that! I will make my own schedule and change my life completely. I spend most of my time at the office but once i quit i can schedule my days however the fuck i want! I wont have to deal with my boss, commuting, agency clients and a set schedule. Imagine using all those WASTED hours watching tv series to INVEST them in a job who will make me a full time entrepreneur. After i get to that point the sky is the limit. I can wake up when i want and make my own schedule. I will earn more money than i ever made so far. I will be able to take vacation when i want and choose how much i can work. I will be able to move out and so on. I am basically giving up watching tv series in order to attain freedom. Imagine having the POWER to make your day how you want to be instead of just going to work. I can earn $2000 and more. I can invest real money in stocks. Wow. So it is worth it to trade tv series with freedom. I am choosing a way to change my life drastically. Most of my time each week is at work and i am not even making lots of money. Man, i am excited now. I cant wait to make my salary in just 1 day and so on. Imagine that! Wow. Imagine not feeling sad that i have to go to work on Monday. One of the best parts is that i can work all day and actually see results. I cant do the same at my job. No matter how much time i put next month, i will get the same salary. Lol. I will break a mindset and a lifestyle! I wont have to be sad like my co workers. Wow. I have to admit that i am anxious to quit but i have to do it in order to leave a better life. Imagine being able to actually afford to travel each month, to save up money, and invest for real, not $20 a month here and there. Also, i enjoy eMag related work more than my actual job. It is so much easier and i love to work these types of tasks. I can basically brute force work and win. It is so simple. From mid October to now me made 1.910,94 $, of course before taxes and commissions, etc. All of it working part time with investment from our own money. I think that is amazing what we can achieve in the next few months and years as we learn more and more. I am looking forward to hit a monthly income of 10.000 euros. Wow! Laufey - Promise (Official Audio)

Hey I figured out that some products dont sell because the listings are shit. Made new ones or improved what i could and im waiting for approval. I really want to watch some tv series. I am going to celebrate 1 year without TV series and movies in 3 weeks. I feel like i want to be lazy for a while. I will be in vacation and it will also be chill at work. But i can use that time to find new products and so on. Why do you want to be lazy? We went to her place to take out the carpet with shit. She had explosive diarrhea on it =))) It was worse than i expected. We realized she cant take her pills right anymore. She combines them or doesnt take anything. Also, we suspect that she is cooking with expired food. Me and mom were preparing her pills when my mom was literally shutting down from being so stressed. I didnt really understand why but she really couldnt rake it anymore. She cant take care of my grandma. It is too much for her. Im playing polytopia once again. I am tired and looking for some escape. Im less stressed with clients tho. It was really hard a few weeks/ months ago. I finally sent the list for both imports from China. I am waiting for a response now. I am excited to get our first legal import. I am looking forward to order some more products next month. I cant believe another year passed. I feel i made so much progress since i finished that stupid degree. Pff. I am excited for my future. I cant wait to do eMag full time instead of my regular job. I dont feel that i am using my full potential at my current job. But with this side hustle it looks like the sky is the limit hehe.

Hey Last year i arrived on time at work parties and got drunk faster. This year, i didnt even want to go. Arrived 3 hours later. Why even bother? The vibe was lame. I refused to drink for the first few hours. I got some beers and shots but remembered to drink loooooots of water. I didnt get fucked up at all. It felt good being sober and not embarrassing myself. I even took care of a colleague and a girl from SEO. I gave them to drink some water until they felt better. The boy got drunk as fuck and opened up too much. He told to my boss and supervisor how he needs to tell them about his secret past once he hits 1 year at this agency. He told me that he got fired for arriving high at his previous job. I found a bunch of new things about old and new colleagues. My old supervisor doesnt want to own a business or work in management because he values his freedom over money. Interesting. He doesnt seem happy tho. My boss is more relaxed than him. The SEO girl told me how she made a shitload of money from owning her own affiliate beauty site with her BF. They did well until the site went down until she had to get a job. She loves the freedom she has here for being an employee. She didnt like working all days and worrying about her site all the time. I understand her but i want to make money. I think is worth treading peace for money. Especially now, that i cant even afford moving out. I admire my boss's personality. You cant complain to him since he will make it seem you are dumb. Whatever you say he throws it back at you. He is confident to the point of delusion. He is the same age as a co-worker but they are totally different. The other guy is very insecure and frustrated. We feel bad for him. Everyone is making fun of him. We had a new colleague in our department. He told us they he thought of starting his own agency after working in PPC for 10+ but he didnt have a partner. Too bad. He seems frustrated. His GF left him and this is why he wants to change his life. At the Christmas party i was thinking what to say when i want to quit my job in the future. I am overthinking it waaaay to much. I will have to adjust to that new life. My grandma is getting worse and we encouraged my parents to get her proper help. She mixed some pills and shit on her carpet =)))))))))))))) My mom barely keeps up with the stress of taking care of her. She started eating more and my father is also putting pressure on her. She didnt get hired after the last interview. The saloon wanted her to work for FREE for 6 months and only after that she'd get hired. Unreal. She would start cleaning toilets, being a desk clerk aaaaand after that being a massage assistant and so on. Ridiculous! My brother moved in with his GF and we cant even talk with him on the phone for much before she gets upset. Ooof. We are worried for him. We had 12 others today - never had so many in one day. It paid off to associate with other listings =))))) I am looking forward to sell more and grow this side hustle. I am wondering what is going on with my high school friends. We barely meet with each other and i also dont feel like seeing them lately. I dont feel inspired meeting them and we dont even have fun as we used to. I also feel upset that i am the only one reaching out except for 2 of them. I am wondering how will they react when i quit work to do eMag full time. I think that it is amazing that you can make $10 just by making a package in 1 minute. I still didnt drive since summer.... I feel bad about it. I am still afraid as fuck. I am still off tinder and i feel good. I am spending so much less time on insta as well. The Swedish girl texted me after 1 day and we kept talking. I am wondering if it is worth it or not. I will ask her for a 3rd date today. Let You Break My Heart Again - Laufey & Philharmonia Orchestra (Official Audio)

Hey, I deleted Instagram from my phone once again. I was spending too much time there. I was very excited about the products I found a few days ago but we can't sell then because they are counterfeit. Of. We finished the list and split the order in two. A part will come by plane and another one by ship. I associated with other seller's products by having a lower price. I want to get read of those stocks. It is working hehe. I felt better today. Yesterday was really hard. I had to calm myself down. I am making so much progress now. It's good that we don't have more money to buy stocks since the initial stocks didn't work very well. My brother moved in with his weirdo girlfriend. So far he didn't work much on our business. It was hard to catch him on the phone since that girl made him to do smth each day. I gave him some tasks to do which I didn't want to actually do. I did some other tasks. Looking forward to sell more. I am thinking to watch some TV series after this year ends but I'm not sure. I made so much progress since I got that shit out of my life. It was such a great year 🌞🌞 It was really hard many times but I really feel I made progress in different areas 🌞🌞. What a year woaaah ;)))))) I didn't even imagine I will make so much progress this year. I didn't see more than finishing college. That was the biggest obstacle before doing whatever the fuck I want after work. I am not looking forward to do a masters. I learned sooo much from actually starting a business versus getting some stupid paper 📜.

Hey Trust your intuition. She seen my last message from last night. I feel stupid trying to sooo hard to go out with her. I was thinking of her questions about my longest relationships. I am 25 and only had one relationship a little longer than a year, 2 months last year with another girl and some kind of relationship this year for 6 months. I thought (for the first time) that it doesnt look good at all. Why didnt i have more relationships and dates bu this age? Anyways, i am dealing with this as well. This year i dated more girls than ever before. I never kissed so many girls and never had sex with 2 girls in 1 year. Isnt much but is honest work haha. Made another mistake at work. Classic. I feel tired and discouraged to be honest. Instead of getting money for this Christmas like last year we got vouchers for eyeglasses. Some of us dont even wear them. Ridiculous. I saw that another colleague got double my amount of money on his voucher. Pfff. I dont even get the same bonus. Maybe i should change my job.... My boss told us how bad is at other agencies and how good we have it. But i know from my brother that he earns more and works less. Some of his colleagues get to work at noon. So once again beating myself up for my salary. I didnt even worry about this for half of this year. This is a new problem. I feel stuck and i also feel impatient to make money from selling shit online and quit work. This wasnt even a problem a few months ago. I finished college several months ago and it feels like a lifetime. I am not wasting money on clubs and drugs but i cant say i am investing them either. I dont have enough to actually make smth with it. Whatever, I should shut up and keep working on my business.

👋 Went to bed at 4am. Couldn't sleep. I was too frustrated. Went to work and called a new client. I was anxious since I don't like calling them. I changed some of my accounts radically. I'm looking forward to get more conversations. I had to push myself to do it since I didn't feel like it. I felt anxious about meeting with the swidish girl. I kept thinking she'll cancel again. We met and she was colder than last time. We had fun at the Christmas fair. She opened my eyes about what more is to life. She asked me about my longest relationships. I had just one hear and a month of smth. Nothing serious since than. I don't think she liked that. .Asked her if she wants to meet again and I got a feeling it was a no even if she said yes, we'll see. She told me about her 10 year relationship and how he lived in different countries blah blah. I thought wooow, so cool, this girl is out of my league. But I was thinking how I thought that my exes exes where better than me. My standards were lower. I helped my brother to move out yesterday. We met with this gf who ignored him for some reason. Turns out that she is having a hard time just moving out for the first time. She is afraid she won't be able to live in an Apartment with my brother. That she misses her mom and she is making a big deal out of this. Wow. I can't believe this is real. I met younger girls who moved out and didn't react like this. wtf is wrong with her? so some things are really hard for others. some things are hard for me. I spoked with my sister about ordering new products. she has very good ideas. why don't we just but the most sold products instead of trying new and invalidated products? Really! She has a super good point. We have just 1000 euros to make the next order. Not much honestly. But we might see better sells from the products I found. If we just spent so little on stocks it will take a while until we can quit work. Yeah, it will take us longer than I thought to actually get to 2000$ per person each month. Back to that date, I feel envious on her affording to travel and have fun. I'm not doing much lately. Me and my friends don't have money to travel like her friends. We don't even see each other much now. I'm looking forward to make more international friends and have some fun. I'm stuck with this job now. Yeah... What else? I still didn't use tinder. I guess I should wait a little bit more until I date again. I don't feel like I can give real value to someone. I still live with parents. I still use my little money for silly little things. Some food at work, some dates, some products and that's it. Not much honestly. A simple life. I still feel frustrated, of course. I'm at work all day just to make enough money to live. Actually I'm not there yet. I'm not looking forward to go to work honestly. My colleagues don't seem happy. My supervisor was stressed today having to take care of another colleague's clients. I did smth awesome today 🌞 I refused my colleague to help her with her tasks. I spent my day working on my clients. What is the point in helping her if I don't get paid better? I have to get a few more clients and after that I finally got $1000. Which isn't much anyway I would like to wake up early and work out

Hey I didnt sleep well. I had a massive headache. I met with friends from HS and i felt frustrated that one of them kept pushing the meeting hour just to arrive (still) one hour later. Lol. He told the others with an upset voice that i dont want to work for him in the future. I told him again i have to go to work and he told me that working for him will make me lots of money. Yeah, sure =)))) He said he wanted to be the guy in the shadow after he gives us to run his future businesses. I got triggered. I am working for someone now, my goal is to be my own boss in the future. I dont want to do this shit, man. I know is just talking shit but man, i got upset. I felt like a joke because i have work tomorrow while he and another friend is free to do whatever they want since they dont have jobs. Never did. Me and another dude are the stupid ones having to work and we dont get money from parents. Offf. I checked if the best sellers jewelry from a clients' site are matching the best selling products from eMag. No, mostly not. So what is the point in having this job? I cant even relay on it to use insider information. After i arrived home i did some more associations for our businesses. It turns out that most of the products i chose arent hot or super hot on this marketplace. Of. I didnt know. Good that i didnt have more money at the beginning. Honestly, i m not looking forward to go to work. All this work for a shit salary. My company charges premium fees from their clients but we get dick. I feel frustrated that smaller employers pay better.

She cancelled again. Maybe we'll meet on Monday. I spent the beginning of the day listing the rest of the product list for my friend. He is too lazy to do it. I helped him because he also helped me with my thesis and on my first steps with emag. The rest of the day i was searching for products. I looked up some tik tok trends. I found some but nothing wow. I was frustrated. I got a headache. After many hours i remembered that i can check my clients' products from Google Ads. Than i remembered that i can check on eMag if a product is ,,super hot'' and basically buy it and associate with that offer like an asshole. WOW. Why did i stress for so long to find products before they are viral? Most of the products i bought arent even getting sold. WOW. I dont even need to have my job to see what my clients sell. No fucking way that is so simple! I have a massive headache and i will take a break now. I am super excited to order more products and seeeeeeeelllllllll ehehe. I am also looking forward to quit work and do this full time Just 3 of them want to meet tomorrow. The others didnt even bother to give me an answer why they dont want to meet tomorrow or whatever. I am frustrated. Why did i even bother to ask them out? Kendrick Lamar - Money Trees (Lyrics)

Hey We had a talk with my brother about his crazy GF. He defended her. We are worried that he will stop speaking with us since she is suffocating him. The other girls showed even less interest while texting so i stopped trying to make conversation. She didnt reach out either. No problem. Im looking forward to meet with the Swedish girl. I didn't open tinder again. What is the point? Worked from home today since i was so tired. I wasn't super productive. I got a new client but we will start next month. Some client wants to leave next month and another one isnt pleased with his number of leads. Meh. I wont have to deal with them in a few years. I made some more progress with the business. Invested even more time. Im hooked. I want to make it work faster. I am preparing to make the first order from China with this group. They have higher prices but i wont have to speak with the suppliers and just relax. I am anxious about this part so it is ok for now. We wont be able to order again best sellers because shipping routes are super full around this time of the year. Meh. Too bad. I know for next year tho. At least we can sell more on other sites. We will try to at least. Im really happy with my decision to not start a masters degree this year. Time wasted, man. I worked out today but i am not feeling like doing it lately. I want to make it smth regular tho I am trying to meet up with the whole high school gang and they either dont respond to my messages or just saying idk if they are feeling like hanging out this weekend. Wtf? We used to go out each week a few months ago. Maybe they dont enjoy my company. I dont know. Last week i set up some FB campaigns for a colleague and he told me this week in front of everyone how i set them wrong. I was very anxious doing that task for him because he used to criticize me each time i made a mistake when he was my supervisor a few years ago. I was so anxious i could have done worse mistakes. And i was very close to making even worse mistakes. Later that day i was laughing my with new supervisor and he interrupted us to tell him what i have done. He made it feel like such a big deal. I felt bad. This is one of the moments i dont want to work there. He earned a praise for the company for setting up some Performance Max campaigns for an account selling jewelry. He received $250 for his effort from my boss as a praise. With his ads set up he made millions for that seller but he is not even getting a fraction of that. I feel bad for him. He told us a few years ago that he doesnt want to start an ecomm because he doesnt want to deal with stocks and other problems. I know he can make more money if he would do it. I wonder why he isnt doing this tho. Is he lazy or is smth else there? I see that i have the drive to make more money by being a seller myself instead of working here forever. I am looking forward to make $2000/ month and quit. I feel this business is for me. I am fired up. It feels easier than my current job at times. Little Life - Cordelia

Hey My trip to Prague was amazing. We returned today. My supervisor from work was supposed to take care of my accounts but I think he had too much to work and didn't replay to 2 upset clients. I replied to one of them while I was in vacation and I left the other want for my supervisor. He didn't reply at all and I was freaking out I'll loose my job blah blah. I replied to the first client while I was in vacation because I'm afraid to get fired. Lol. I was on a break. It's understandable. I don't have to be so afraid to loose this job. I want to quit anyways. I felt frustrated that I spent so much money on this trip even if it was amazing. I arrived home and felt so much motivation to work on this business. Did a bunch of tasks I postponed for some time and discovered some mistakes I made on some listings. I'm looking forward to do this full time and not bother with clients form work. Man, with this insane determination I can grow like crazy! I can't wait. It doesn't feel fair having so little free time during the week and still not making a ton of money man. I was telling to a date I had that I can't live in the small city again because I have nothing to do there. But I have to be honest about my schedule In a big city. I am not taking advantage of the city and staying mostly inside at work or home. So what's the difference really? I'm happy I don't have to spent money on another trip for NYE but isn't this sad? I'm trying to save every penny because I don't earn more. I should toss aside traveling just to save some money and still not make enough to travel or move out. What is the point? ;)))) I'm shouldn't use my drive on my job. I won't make real money there. It feels so stupid that I kept myself back from earning more and I still do. It feels like another world to not have to go to work everyday but work all the time for myself. Imagine all that free time I'd have The French girl stopped texting a few days ago and I didn't reach out. We didn't have enough in common. I finally set up a 2nd date with the swidish girl. The other girl started replaying with less interest. Asked for a date and she said she's at the gym all week and after that meeting with friends. Idk what she's doing at the gym after work for the rest of the day. She finishes work at 16.30 so I guess she has time for more stuff than just gym :)))). Anyways, am I not doing enough or taking dating too seriously? All these girls seem to have better stuff to do than dating even once a week. I am basically making my schedule around these girls but maybe I shouldn't.🗓️ I'm telling them I'm free all week besides x day. Maybe I should be busier? Does It look desperate to tell them I can meet them almost all week ? Of course, once at home I would do more stuff for eMag but still.📅 I won't date for the next month and a half :)) Last year most girls where out of town or here just for vacation. I wasted trying to get a date. I managed to get smth in January. Maybe I should enjoy this time to focus on other stuff as well. During my trip last week my thoughts wandered and I got some memories/ imagines i didn't want to remember. Five years ago, while I was in the Netherlands I used to hang out and smoke weed and drink with a guy living in Prague. I remembered that smth happened while I was way too drunk or high. At the time I thought we kissed and than some images of him jerking me off in my bed appeared in my mind. I don't even know if this really happened but it looked real. I buried this memory or whatever happened. I dont have a good feeling about that memory or whatever happened. This explains my homofobia and my relactunce to get close to men. I felt disgusted of myself remembering all of those stuff. He took advantage of me. I don't know how to deal with this. I wasn't ready to deal with this.

Hey I'm excited to go home and work more on this business. I ate a quarter of that cookie yesterday and it was still very strong. I slept half of the day during and after the trip. I needed to rest so much. Didn't sleep like that in months. I set my goals for next year while I was high. The first thing is to quit work around September 2024 and focus on selling online stuff on eMag. It feels so scary to even imagine quitting work and actually pursuing this path. I still don't truly believe I can earn more. I feel limited with my little life back home. My little commute and my little job who doesn't pay even more. It is hard to imagine that I can escape years of routine working there and also reprogram my mind to think free again 🤔 I imagined how I'll feel next year around this time and is hard. Not actually being employed anymore? That's crazy! Being able to make more money than ever? Not having to be afraid of making mistakes and so on. You know what I mean? I won't have to be nice with my boss anymore. I won't have to care for my clients. Wow. Imagine being free to work as much as I want. Man... That's nuts.

Hey My supervisor from work announced me that we will quit next month and get a job at another company. I was shocked. His brother is one of the bosses, i thought we will be here forever. He really helped me with my new accounts and im worried what am i going to do without him. We got several products out of stock and we also managed to get some jewelry orders. I checked the guy whom i kicked out from associating with offer with ours. He associated with literally all other offers for those products. I got triggered and i got upset on myself for this. Is just a business. We can kick him out, move on and dont ruin your vacation. It was really hard to let it go and deal with this next week, I freaked out thinking i will never quit work and travel like other people. I really envy these people affording to travel and enjoy life so much. I am not there yet but i want to reach that level asap. I am tried of thinking i dont have money and being so frustrated. I am at work all week but i dont see the point since i m not making enough money. I feel motivated and also impatient to quit work and sell on emag full time. Also, skip on some purchased witch are so necessary like buying some sweets or burgers. I wanted to eat smth better but i exaggerated a little bit. I smoked a joint with HHC and i had to smoke almost half to feel smth but wasnt strong enough. My sister's boyfriend was very cringe, asking me if i am seeing things and trying to make me drink with him. Than he exaggerated being drunk. It was so cringe. My siblings didnt like me getting high. I didnt like my brother's GF. She was very annoying as usual. I found a shop called Chill Bill and bought a cookie with THC. I ate half and went to a classical music concert. I dont think i was ever that high. It was amazing and scary at times. I was thinking how cut up i am in my little life back home. Going to work all the time, being stressed and not seeing the world. And after all of that i am still not making enough to live like i want. What is the point? Why not sell shit on eMag and make more? What am i so anxious to quit that job and develop myself more? Man, i am so excited to make that business work and see what else is out there to explore. Why am i ok with such low standards of living? Why not get more and do more stuff?? I let the other go out today and i stayed in, worked out, meditated, took a shower and did some diction exercises. I am going to join them now. I would prefer to stay in and do nothing but i want to explore the city

Hey 👋 I asked for one more account. I was anxious but I had to do it. When I started this job we had an older colleague who thought is everything. He scolded me several times for not paying enough attention at the tasks he gave me. He asked me to help him with some tasks this week, first time in over a year and a half or longer. I was super anxious and it took me a few hours to get his tasks done. He complained not working faster and I made some mistakes the second day. I was surprised that my supervisor helped me with some advice. I didn't expect to be kind with me. He also asked me how I'm behind my colleague who started in the same time with me, 3 years ago. Well, I was at uni and didn't give a fuck. They told me I wont use my degree but I wanted to finish it. It was a stupid choice, man. I feel very stupid now. I could have done so much more instead of a 4 years waste of time. The business is going well. I calmed down. I decided to do most of listings myself and let my siblings do the packages. I learned more and I'm excited to purchase next shipment from China. But Im out if money now. All I saved since the beginning of the year it's almost gone. That swidish girl messaged me again and I asked her if she's just polite or wants to see me again. She said she's busy but wants to meet with me again. Not sure man. Does it even matter? I am feeling resistant to use tinder again. It feels too much to replay to those girls. I felt the same 2 months ago.

Hey Two of my friends announced me through another friend that they wont come to hang out last night because it was cold outside and they prefer to get high at home. Messaged another friend to go out and he replayed - WE are busy this week. I didnt even ask about his GF =)) We met at another friend and we cooked and drank some beers. Another friend called me to ask if i want to hang out and what am i doing. I thought he doesn't want to see me so I didn't ask him out again. I told my siblings to list products Friday night. Watched them spent the whole day yesterday with their partners. Today it was the same until an hour ago when they started doing the work. I am growing frustrated doing all these extra work because they wont move faster and do their tasks on time. What is the point? I could have spent my time watching TV series or YouTube. What is the point in doing most of the work myself at the end of the day? My friend from college was right - don't start a business with family. I was supposed to have a date tonight but she got sick. Asked the Swedish girl out for the 2nd time and she said she might be free on Tuesday but she'll let me know. I feel like a clown asking again and again. She spent her last few days hanging out with friends and having fun. What am i doing with my life? I spent my weekend working on this stupid business while everyone else had fun. I did learn some new things but still. Maybe i should quit work to have more free time. I can make this work. It looks like i am going to make it work alone. I feel frustrated bothering my siblings to work harder. They are not made for it. Me neither.

Hey Organized a night out with my friends since no one wanted to set smth up. We had more orders and only now it downed on me to try selling similar products with our best sellers. I learned a lot from those group for sellers. The more i invest in this the more i learn. We need to invest more in products. I solved some problems with some tickets and so on. It is going great. I am also thinking to ask for a new client at work as well, from my own initiative. Went to bed late and woke up tired. Didn't go to the office. I worked for a few hours but didnt do much honestly. I was tired and also didn't feel like working. I am thinking to put more money from my own pocket to buy stocks and sell more shit. I skipped spending my NYE with siblings in London just to save some money. I dont have plans for NYE. I didnt bother to organize smth. I have better things to do with my time. I put lots of work last year into finding a place and they didnt even check my links. So idk what we'll do. I am still waiting for my siblings to do their tasks for this business. It is annoying. If it was for me i would have done everything alone. I want to quit work and focus on this full time man. I messaged them again and one of them responds once a day and the other is quit active once again. I am going to ask her out again tomorrow. If she says she's busy again i should definitely wait for her to ask me out next time. I should get the hint and stop asking. We will see. I am in the city for 3 days next week so i wont turn on my tinder profile just yet.

Hey We had 5 orders today as well. Someone made an order at 5 am. The rest where from Hungary and Bulgaria. Looking forward to order more hehe. We can make a business out of this. Step by step Arrived home after my job and worked some more on our business.

Hey We had several orders since the beginning of the week. Tonight we went over 658,72 $ since we started just from our country. Spoke with some Chinese sellers from alibaba. I feel very anxious to talk to them and it feels to much honestly. But i can do it with more practice. I tried to make an order without an agent and the delivery cost to my house from China are expensive as fuck. I asked the younger guy who he imports his products from China. He told me to not complicate myself sooooo much and just pay an agent to do all this work. I wanted to do it myself to save some money. I think this is ridiculous. Just let that man do his job. I can use the agent ppl from the seller group from telegram use. I wanted to avoid making a sub account in dollars at the bank and to avoid paying extra fees. Why am i so cheap when it comes to starting a business? I am playing it super safe. At work, i complain about clients who dont want to invest more in ads. But i am not rushing to start making ads on Facebook. I am avoiding spending money. So the young dude offered to help import these products together with him. Basically I would go from paying 9$/kg to 5$kg. Insane. I feel so excited. I am also considering getting some products with the agent from the telegram group. I am preparing some documents for the boarder for the last products i ordered. I am making it legal. My supervisor asked me if i want to take 2 clients from him. I hesitated but i said yes in the end. I need more work and more experience. All was fine at work when i got a message from that annoying client who sells sex toys online. He questioned my ads set up and threatened to leave. He was quit for several weeks. They started having more orders than before. Three guys run this business and one of them is a big asshole. It is a side hustle for them as well. We cant even collect data from the site because of the cookie polices. Anyways, at least i didnt freak out so much like last time. Oh, on Monday i got another mail from a client with the title: ADWORDS STOP! He was confused about the set up fee, agency fee and also the ads budget. It wasnt my fault and had all info in my inbox. Apparently he complained for months about our fee. Turns out that he is stingy since his business made around 5 million last year =))))) What else? I am disappointed that two of the three girls are two busy to see me. I set up a date with the third girl. I will get on tinder again to secure some dates. I wasnt very lucky last year in December and beginning of January. I am not hopping for dates. I feel frustrated i spent most of my day at work. I came home, ate, spoke with siblings and did more work for our business. I had to choose what tasks i am going to do today since i dont have time for all of them. I am looking forward to make enough from selling online and quit my job. I want to make $2000/month in the future. I need to be patient and keep selling online and getting better at this. Yeah, it sucks but i have to keep up the good work. I am already seeing progress. I need more patience. I cant wait to finally not have to go to work and put all this drive into my own business and also make more. I feel stupid for having my current job. It takes sooo much of my day and i am not earning lots of money either. Also, i am looking forward to not skip traveling and food in order to save money. It is stupid. Funny that no one is making me do it. I am choosing to work there each day. I can quit if i want. But i need money from there to invest in my business. My boss scolded my colleagues for making some mistakes with a few clients. If you mess things up with 1 client it doesn't matter you did well for 10. He told us than there will be penalties for such mistakes. 12 employees in one room being told what to do by their boss, me included. All of us can leave for better pay, you know? Why am i not leaving? I got comfortable. I am afraid i wont do better elsewhere. Yeah, we all tired and we dont like some of our clients. We need to put up with them to keep our job. I dont like this shit. I noticed that my boss is full of energy and rarely at the office. He leaves early all the time. Me and my colleagues have to stay there and work. He asks us each week what did we do in our free time. Most of us did nothing because they are too tired. This isnt fair! But no one keeps us there. I could spent my days off once again watching tv series. But i dont see the point. I choose to spent that time to earn more with this business. Im excited to quit work in the future. Make more money than i can being employed and so on. I envy our clients. Anyways, good night

Hey We had 5 orders in a day for the first time ever! Yesterday it was raining a lot. I asked the girl i was supposed to meet with if she wants to meet. She did and i went to the date on that horrible weather. We spoke for hours but i didn't feel like she's what i m looking for. Kept speaking with the other girls as well. From the all three girls i like the most the Swedish girl. I like the body the last girl has but the personality of the first one. The second one is also super hot but dont think we have enough in common. I wonder which one will i sleep with. I am not sure if it will happen. Looking forward to doing that tho even if i am afraid at some level. I spent my weekend pushing my siblings to list products on the marketplace. I felt frustrated seeing them really not wanting to do it. I thought they will work all weekend like i did. Today none of them added any product. They hang out with their siblings. Good for them, what can i say. I gave them more tasks to do but i dont like that it takes them sooo long. Spent my weekend reading a bunch of comments on those groups. Trying to understand what should we do to earn more. I learned a lot of stuff and i wish i fucking payed for this group weeks ago. I tried to understand how the ordering process from china should go legally. From top to bottom. I feel really lost even if i literally have all the answers there. I read them and i am still not understanding what is going on. I did a list of all the steps to make it more reasonable for me to understand it. I am trying to go cheap to save a few hundred dollars by doing it all myself. I have to option to pay someone from the group to take care of the whole process but i am so resistant to pay for this service. I feel pissed that i have such little time to understand how it works. I have to go to work next week instead of using all my time into this business. I feel frustrated. I am used to not take full responsibility at work for example. I feel so afraid to do this whole process. I feel so lost and frustrated. I sent some messages for practice. I hope for the best. I hate that i don't understand faster how this ordering process should be like. Take a break and breath. Work out for a little and relax. I made some progress today. I made it seem less difficult. Do some other tasks and see what can you do tomorrow. I can do this. Others did it. Just breath and everything will be fine. I will solve this problem. It cant be that fucking hard. In a few months i will look back at this step and laugh. It can be done!

I wanted to go over her place but i was also anxious to sleep with her. Done. Man, i feel so pissed i didnt join it months ago. We made soo many mistakes just to avoid paying extra for knowledge. I have been on this group for a few hours and already learned so much. It was really stupid to jump into this business with a bad accountant and unprepared. They have a video about how to get free EAN bar codes. Insane. They also provide help with order fulfillment from China. To be honest the whole import process is too much for me to grasp right now. I asked their boarder commissar about what we did so far. Isnt good. Since we started we had a total of 17+ orders. We almost hit $400 just for our country since mid October. We also have some sales from Hungary and Bulgaria. Went to bed late and woke up laaate. I worked from home and i didnt do much for my job. I was so lazy. I just sit around on insta. I felt really bad for myself. I didnt believe i can make this business work. I felt lazy and resistant to search for new products. I didnt like it. I got a new client this week as i wished. I am still anxious i will mess things up. But i really want to earn at least 1000 EUR per month. It feels so hard now. I dont believe i can do it. We had a colleague who quit because his mom got sick recently. Another guy got hired now with literally zero google ads experience and 6 months for facebook. They gave him a bunch of accounts from that guy and another girl. I dont know why my bosses did that. He literally doesnt know what he is doing. No body actually trained him. I helped him last week with google ads. I was shocked that the guy who quit set up campaigns like shit. Man, they made no sense, yet he was earning around 1000 EUR. WTF. Two girls from tinder asked me if we already spoke some time ago. I really dont know. I spoke some more with the girls from this week plus the one meet tonight. I am not sure what to expect. I am looking forward to meet the Swedish girl next week. The french girl is in Sofia now. I envy her. She is living life while i am wasting my time at this job. Maybe i should quit and go balls deep in eMag and ecomm. Maybe i am wasting my fucking time. It doesnt look like i will make 2000 EUR salary per month with this job alone. I didnt even get to 1000 EUR yet. Maybe i am not putting my energy where i should be investing it. The guy i learned this business from is making a ton of money just by himself. Yet, here i am working for this agency for not even enough money to move out of my parents coop. I am 25, man.... When will i quit work and aim higher with my goals? Yesterday, my supervisor asked me to do some campaigns for him and i did them as fast as i could and i was so proud. Lol, why? I am ridiculous sometimes. Why am i proud helping others make money? I went in another room to hide and send some ticket to support for the marketplace. I was afraid for my colleagues to find out i started selling shit online.

We had at least 1 order each day. Many from Hungary for some reason. I managed to kick someone out who associated with our offer. The younger guy taught me to order the competition product, take pics comparing the products, lie/exaggerate and make a ticket afterwards. It worked. Amazing. There where some differences between our products but i exaggerated some. Im looking forward to make more money from that business. There is so much more potential. I spoke with siblings to join a membership subscription club with some eMag sellers. Im looking forward to get in. Hehe. There is so much more to learn from there. Work is fine. I am still afraid to mess up. I got a new client right when i wanted to ask for one. I got a video chat studio haha. Had two dates, one with a very sweet Swedish girl and another one with a French girl. The last one was waaay more beautiful than in her pics. At the first date i was anxious to escalate in the beginning of the date. Both wanted to be kissed and i did that well. I asked them both if they want me to walk them home but they refused. Anyways, i had a good time. I really liked the Swedish one and i am looking forward to see her again, Lesson? Dont date girls you dont look forward to meet. I felt envious on these girls. They are travelling and having fun while i take my job soooo seriously and cant even pay a rent rn for myself? Is it worth it tho? I go to work so often now and i want to go even more. Should i even? Maybe i should quit once i make my salary and focus on that. What am i doing with my life now?

Went to bed late and woke up hating having to go to work Helped some more my colleague from work to do her tasks... Felt stupid again and afraid to ask for more work I thought my brother how to add products while his GF was at home and she kept complaining i gave too much to work for my brother. Lol. He got pissed he has to add another product after an error and quit. He is very lazy and i need to give him tasks to do. He told mom he waits for me to give him smth to do. I need to take the ''boss'' chair and give them shit to do. We had 4 orders for the first time ever! Amazing! Today we had 3 orders, including another one form Hungary. Set up a date for tomorrow and another one for Wed. The one for tomorrow is with the Swedish girl. I think it was last month when we should have met. I asked what her schedule is like this week and she had smth going on with friends or gym each day but yesterday. Interesting. My schedule is so free and ready to meet these girls while actually had to chase her to get a date. Again, date the girls you really feel a connection or smth. Dont waste your time just to have some date. Also, dont give up other tasks to date these girls. I bought some groceries and cooked some food for the whole week. I also said hi to a friend working nearby. I asked my supervisor what he did last weekend. He did nothing all week. So i was bitching about my week for nothing. I was productive last weekend even if it wasnt perfect as i wanted. But at least i did smth, right?

I felt stupid the whole day. I woke up late, spent time on insta, did diction exercises and mediation, some errands i postponed from months, researched products, listed new products, worked out and showed my sister how to list products. I felt stupid using my free time to invest in this business to make money while my siblings spent their weekend with their partners. I am impatient but i want to see results faster. I shouldn't have chosen jewelry products such as rings. Found new potential products. I wondered if i am wasting my time while doing it. Why not spend my weekend having fun? Why not doing nothing at all? I felt stupid being able to work so much but not making money. I need to ask for more work at my job to get another raise. I wasted 4 years at university thinking that i will figure it out afterwards. I learned more in a few months since i started selling online than i did 4 years at university. I am so glad i didnt start a masters this year. Pathetic. Man, i went to that stupid university for 4 years, thousands of hours for nothing. I cant use my degree and i didnt learn to make money. I was talking with my friend from university that we were so stupid for waking up so early to arrive at uni to listen to frustrated professors than go to work to do smth to get paid. All just to wake up at 25 that i wasted a part of my damn time. As a friend from HS said, at least i started working during college. I would have felt worse starting from literally zero now if i only focused on uni. Why waste 2 years for a masters? Week after week after week just to learn nothing. Imagine spending all that time to grow a business. Insane. Not sure what to say about my job. Maybe i should quit to earn more elsewhere? Maybe i should ask for more work since now i dont have crazy clients anymore*. Maybe i should get freelance work. Maybe i should focus even more on this business. I kept forgetting to mention that my right shoulder is 99% pain free once again. I think i had an injury last summer and had to take it easy for months. I didnt even do push up for a while because of the pain. This week i did push ups and pull ups several time. Trained 4 times. I want to train at least 2 times. Ideally 4 times. Carlie Hanson - Good Enough [Official Lyrics Video]

I was wondering why it takes so long for eMag marketplace to translate my products to Bulgarian and Hungarian and why i cant change the documentation for the products i already have there. I asked on that group and they told me i have to make a ticket to get this solved since it was translated by the platform. Of. For over a month i thought that i have to wait for the platform to translate all my products (25 for now). I have just 5 products in both countries. =)))))))))))) Man, i didnt even think i can just upload them manually. I could have done that weeks ago. I didnt even think to ask. I got translation for a few products just after i had sales. I thought im not allowed to list all of them haha We changed the prices for almost all products. Now they are cheaper. We had 2 order today, and the first one from Hungary. He spent all day with his GF. He arrived home late at night and we 3 met in the kitchen to change the prices. Meanwhile his GF kept trying to get his attention. She got upset than he isnt coming upstairs to watch a movie. I saw fear in my brother's eyes. He was really afraid of her to complain for him being late to the movie even if they spent all day together. When my brother finally went to her she started criticizing him for being late. OMG. Maybe my brother thinks he doesn't have time since he has this baby GF to take care all the time. I asked my brother to do smth for the company after he asked me and my sister to do it. He put less effort into this business than my sister and me so far. He said he will try to make some time for this. I will also ask him to translate and list products in HU or BG since they are soooo many. Went to the cooking class this morning since i felt stupid spending that tine to work on our business alone while my siblings spent their day with their partners. I did smth for myself. It was fun! Spoke with more girls and they seem to loose interest. IDK. Not sure what is going on here. MY NEW CREDIT SCORE IS 641! Last month was 628! All i did was to use a single card to buy food and paid it back. I got another credit card last month. The payment is due on 24 nov. Maybe the score will grow faster since i have 2 card now.

I joined a telegram group for sellers. Right afterwards, my ex work colleague messaged me asking if i want to sell online as well. He is the one i saw at first this whole business. I freaked out and said i am just looking. He offered to give me advice if i have any questions. I supposed he will hate me for selling there as well, especially i am selling one of his rings. I spoke some more with him and it turns out i did the whole buying process wrong. I should have contact a boarder agent to help me and should have used Alibaba. I felt so upset on myself for not just asking him. It would have made this whole thing so much simpler. I told him about our accountant and he was shocked how incompetent he is and we pay waaay to much for him. I am so upset now. All this shit could have been avoided if i just asked some questions a few months ago. Pathetic. We just ordered again from Shein. Fuck. What else? I have to figure this shit out somehow. It is not as bad as i make it to be. Of. I am not looking forward to go to work. Today i felt that laziness i had a few months ago. Horrible. I just wanted to watch some tv series instead of working. I was upset when my colleague messaged me to give me tasks. Of.,,,,