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College Packing List Click on the images below: It`s irrelevant to post about t-shirts and socks so i will only refer to more essential objects instead: Crocs lol Seward Trunk College Dorm. Laundry bag / basket Scissors Flash light hangers Nail Scissors pocket knife multi-functional pocket knife + other supplies ill buy from there and i will update this list a couple of times more note: Remember, if you don't wear it at home, you're not going to wear it at school. If you're debating whether or not to bring a piece and it's not something you absolutely love, leave it at home! You can always pack up a box of "maybes" and have your parents send it to you if you decide you need its contents. https://www.theodysseyonline.com/22-new-things-at-22 also, don't bring any kind of collection with you (stems,etc)

the title is cool lol

1 juli 2018 lol zundag zondag/Sunday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers hmm can I replace this with hypnosis? ✔️20/30 meditation ✔️5/10 concentration ✔️20min Shamanic breathing -quite a struggle today but i felt calmer at the end ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Requiem of a dream is getting deeper and more real than any other book I have read. I actually feel bad for the characters who are getting more and more addicted to heroin/pills. Helped my grandpa today. Old people are disgusting they are helpless and weak and dirty. Their age stripped them from independence and growth potential. They are floating dead-carpets now. I have no idea how will I be able to stand myself being like her one day Tomorrow ill go at the doctor again 30 juni 2018 zaterdag/Saturday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( low urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️15/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck)

29 juni 2018, vrijdag/Friday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️15/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️✔️✔️Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Run randomly at a subway station into a colleague from high school. lol. We made eye contact. She broke it immediately by looking down. She avoided me when I stepped out of the subway wagon but I said to her: hi or smth like that. She felt ashamed i guess and said a half-assed hi What's the big deal about this? I REALIZED THAT AS I DON’T WANT TO RUN INTO SOME HIGH SCHOOL COLLEAGUES NEITHER THEY WANT TO RUN INTO ME. This means that some of them will avoid me to so therefore less stress and worries needed lol Take short trip to a some mountain resorts (1-2 days) $20??? 28 juni 2018, donderdag/Thursday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( ? urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ? overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ?/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️??Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Why do i feel guilty for building my true self? Why? Why do i feel guilty for running away from poisonous people? 11.45pm I was walking after I went to the wrong hospital to see a doctor for my back pain. I felt resistant to call but I rescheduled. halfway to my destination I saw the friend I talked about earlier. He was together with some other dude -I forgot his name lol I felt a Sudden spike of negative emotions :worries, shame, what will he think of me? = omg my clothes aren't top notch neither my haircut clean and fresh. Omg no! Now he won't envy me seeing that my life is better since i ended our friendship and that this new life reflects exclusively through my outfit and grooming. lol so orange Almost instinctively i looked at him with a disgusted and frowned face. I saw than the other dude too. I kept my disgusted expression. I walked faster to avoid them going at the side of the sidewalk I felt frustrated that my short^s sleeves weren't folded neither my t^short^s. Lol for the next 20+min i just remained aware of the fluctuation of negative emotions, arising and falling but even if i met him with dirty clothes i would have still kept my REAL LIFE ACHIEVEMENTS : GOING to study Netherlands in fall, no alcohol 1 year mark, etc. These achievements are mine regardless of my clothes/presentation. And his opinion has no value for me because i have to bear the burden of my growth alone. Wow! So why would i want his approval, to be his friend if i was worse when we were actually friends? 27 juni 2018, woendsdag/Wednesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily3 /5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) slightly before 2am ✔️❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I am on Facebook again. I am sill watching tv series/movies. What sex does mean for me? Is it bout power? The English tutor didn’t responded yet. But I wandered around through familiar profiles…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cant you see? You are building your own ``profile`` WITH EVERY ACTION YOU TAKE. it seems that the people that I left behind found people that resembled me to fill their group with. Or in other words people tend to stick together based on their vibrations aka alpha or beta. In any group there it is. The legendary quest for power. Some search for beta people and some join groups as beta and some create groups as alpha. But in a group like .......`s only beta may join. And so on. You weren't so special after all>>>>>>>>>>> you were just fitting the group needs/your own needs. That`s all. I was their friends cause I accepted a role/made a role for myself. But as my greed is growing I need more, I need to become an alpha not to keep being beta to ascend on spirals upwords 26 juni 2018, dinsdag/Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ? overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ?reading ?/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ? ?Eating healthy ✔️❌Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) The more you spend far away from technology, tv series, movies, videogames, etc the more you connect with nature and people in general Lol i am sitting in my room all day long looking at a flat BLACK screen. Lol. This screen is seducing me, showing me what i want to see 27,6,2018 Am i tacking action bc i want or bc i am afraid that my daddy will love/respect me more if i am ambitious etx? Hmmm i went to an art museum today. i had been resiting to go again since the beginning of the year main insight: start a mindfulness practice because i love when i am aware of the present moment and the beauty of nature 25 juni 2018, maandag/Monday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( high high mega high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ? overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ✔️/30 meditation yes! Shortly After I woke up ✔️/10 concentration ✔️❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️✔️✔️Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I sent the message I wrote to my senior year English tutor. She really got me started with English and therefore I made tremendous progress in no time. I felt to resistant to call her so I sent a message to her from my high school Facebook account Next radical self-challenge? LEARNING TO FUCKING DRIVE I made some fruit juice today: (spirulina, cocoa powder, ashwagandha powder, raw honey, peaches, apple leftovers, soy milk, coconut flakes) 24 juni 2018, zondag/Sunday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap (high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Read restaurant/food reviews on YT to practice Dutch What I don’t see at my current ego backlash? (watching movies all night/all day, going to bed at 5am and so on)? I think I refuse to do the hard thing: to not watch movies, to go to bed and to basically FORCE MYSELF TO NOT DO IT I spoke in English by instinct whilst taking with one of my siblings. I am much better than I give myself credit for lol Ok, so I am now on Facebook in order to sent that message to my high school English private classes teacher I felt disgusted of myself for being here again. I feel afraid to be persecuted/criticized. What if ……..(see OneNote) and others will see that I checked out my high school account???? Lol there are other people too in that class. Do you really think that one of them checks the other`s profile? Wow I am really still giving a fuck about high school.? Lol. For a second all these grudges seemed foolish. It`s not as important as it used to be Lol I feel now that i cannot accomplish anything. I feel bad and powerless. Some unsolved problems here boi Also, the irrelaistic unrealistic leap I expected to happen in a year is pure garbage really. No one can change 100%in one year and why rushing anyways? Lol who cares if I am better than some loser from my past? THAT`S NOT AN Achievement. Not at all Wow I don’t care whether ……..(see OneNote) failed to get a job or to prepare for a uni or not. It wont make an impact on my life anyways I don’t care either way.(maybe just curious or hypocritic) but not caring as in hating them ……..(see OneNote) and her friends seem just foolish kids like me - I love this perspective I still get self doubts by watching these pics (maybe I can use this to improve myself) Also imagine that now your are a senior/junior in college abroad. Not so cool anymore lol? Hey! When I was striving for acceptance, in hash school my life was shit, even THOUGH SOMETIMES SOME OF THEM APPROVED ME. Wow! My life was worse back than ALBEIT ALL THE APPROVAL I WAS STRIVING FOR than is now when I fear that all of them might hate me. Deeeep down I am selfish -I want my life to be AMAZiNG regardless if I get approved by high school folks or not. All I wanted was to feel good and to have things for myself. So basically I am happier now than ever. Wow That’s a hard pill to swallow. My life is better in many areas now although I am alone and far away from them than it was when I was striving to get their approval. Its unreal! I pushed myself harder than ever since I am alone. Both indoors and outdoors to say so. :I learned english, I am learning Dutch, (see OneNote)etc And my life started to improve significantly after I started to drift and avoid them what I have done in the last 2yrs and especially in the last year? I was alone a lot I thought,journaled,pondered and untangled about my problems a lot Meditation/shamanic breathing I have done things that I was not at all prepared to do aiming further that I thought I am able to achieve I had to go through intense emotional turmoil and several small and big EGO BACKLASHES I tried to remind myself that I deserve to become the character I want and to study abroad. I reminded myself how hard I worked to get here. Pushed myself over and over well, in a nutshell I have probably begun to make 1-2-3 step plans/action for my main problems, i have been taking small steps every day what to expect in the future? To more seemingly impossible obstacles, HARD WORK ,ego backlashes and achievements

lol beautiful how much did it take you to find them?

23 juni 2018, zaterdag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( no urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ? overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ? ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I need a plan What I did today: ( see one note ) Put some more aluminum mulch. I finally called my grandma regarding the phone number of a doctor for back pain I felt like doing the hard thing after I pushed myself to do the first thing on the list: shopping, than aluminum foil and so on ………………….. I deserve today to go to sleep later and to watch a movie. lol What I`ll do tomorrow: (note for my future-self : see onenote journal) Arugula; i transplanted it even if it had less than 4 leaves because the tray developed fungus nags and other small-ass flies. all of them at their baby roots and fucked with their leaves. The sage died too because the roots where eaten like 70%. but i learned a few tricks and i felt annoyed and regret that i didn't find this video sooner. i will present my results with vinegar traps and petroleum jelly yellow cards in a few days + i learned what`s my language equivalent of the words petroleum jelly lol lol i had no idea that plants can overheat due to the foil layer the whole is to large this layer is to small and it will protect shit later on. and it will be harder to put another layer after they mature( i had an incident with those morning glories so i know) 22 juni 2018, vrijdag/Friday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( medium urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ❌/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ?go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I am spending to much on this forum reading random threads and saving them or screenshots but I remain with nothing in return . It`s just mental masturbation I want to be liked by fellow users of this forum, I want their approval. And I know from personal experience that by being a people pleaser I will destroy myself bit by bit. I am not that into spirituality yet and that`s fine. All I want to get by doing those ``spiritual practices`` is to be happy, to be more into the present moment, to be confident and to heal myself from limiting believes and trauma This on line journal is restricting my honesty and power to heal myself I feel resistant to access the pimselur(link) course although I finally bought it 2 days ago. I am trapped again to watch tv series and waste time around. I don’t like it. Yesterday and the day before yesterday I felt deep contempt of my self-imposed situation I need a plan- I want to do so many things that I got stuck. I am chasing after to many things 4049 days till end of college Less than 70? days till college(because i will start college at the end of august, there where 165 days because i thought ill study in my country bc i was not good enough) beer trap see? it rotted a bit because i poured to much water after transferring it from the pot 21 juni 2018, dinsdag donderdag/Thursday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️21/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌❌ Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I put 4 more plants into the ground (pics) I haven't been working on the challenge i`ve committed to LATELY at all. Why am I getting so angry and resistant about gardening ? Why? leaf miners; buy neem oil https://www.planetnatural.com/pest-problem-solver/houseplant-pests/leafminer-control/ leggy seedings. The cure? Put them closer to a light source. project: DIY tomato trellis https://morningchores.com/tomato-trellis-cage/

Morning glories @S33K3R Hi! Glad to know that other people from here are into gardening too you can make some kind of mulch with the reaming tree leaves i guess lol you can make barbecues every other day till you get enlightened

20 juni 2018, woensdag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap (high urges)- I was so clue to relapsing but I self-talked myself to not do it ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 4am ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck)-not finished pronunciation deck I planted a bunch of seedlings . I felt good. Yes, this is me. I need a 1234 plan Back pain doctor Put money on pinpas/card for italki More time outside. English grammar /speaking; italki Laptop for school Gardening pest control Swimming lessons sage seedling. pretty feeble put in the tray was eaten by small black flies so i chose to move in here. it didn't survive tomatoes first day a few days later this little guy just appeared even if i put the seed there a few months ago parsley morning glory during noon, under strong sunlight. it will be fine by the end of the day

19,6,2018. Put money on pinpas/card for italki English grammar book, anki, itaki create account and skype 20 juni 2018, woenSdag I watched movies till 4am.i slept in till 13:12 I had intense dreams. I mean very very complex and rich dreams. Whole worlds created in front of my eyes 23.06.2018, UNSANE 2018 Wow. Being a woman stalked by a man is hell. I never thought about this. What can you do? If you are like most girls you've got 2-3 friends? No one to help them. I mean would your friends help you if you would be stalked by a creep? What can you do if you have no friends and no family? And even of ypu have friends they won't probably help with such big problems. You are all alone What can you do? Go to a lawyer? A cop? It's pretty shameful to do it. It's embarrassing to tell to your friends and family about this. The dude might stalk you day and night but this isn't ilegal. You can't do anything about this. They are just there. But you marinate in god knows what kind of terrible emotions. Damn. THAT'S SCARY. 19 juni 2018, Tuesday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap (low urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️30!!!!/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) I feel insecure. I read the thread `` shamanic breathing.`` I felt bad that I avoided doing it for 3 weeks. I feel that I m not doing enough practices. But I do! I am going to nl because lp! I re-started meditation. I AM LEARNING ENGLISH. I am learning Dutch . I am doing shamanic breathing. I AM STRUGGLING BCASUE I AM GROWING SO FAST,. Moving abroad it`s a perfect way to grow yourself fast and intense. I am gardening as best as I can bro I hate my father. he`s a neurotic motherfucker. he had decades to deal with his short temper and anger issues. why didn't he do it then? https://athleanx.com should I go to the gum for 2-3 years. Just to build a better chest/upper body. I am a little insecure that I don’t have well defined muscles. so????. Well, first I heal my back pain/injury which I have avoided to do so since last year bro. this gym thing can wait for a few more years i found these moth shells under a raspberry bush. i pured to much water too often and therefore the stem rotted. DO NOT water a plant-like-cactus to much or this will happen again

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-36610000 https://news.artnet.com/art-world/painter-zehra-dogan-sentenced-to-jail-for-artwork-902015

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@Star Net I`m definitely in. i love to watch the sunset in general

You seem like You used to not sleep or sleep very late at night, and Maybe that is the reason that You are facing problem when it comes to sleep, yes, i feel resistant to go to bed pretty much every day i went to sleep very very late in the last couple of days without doing the breathing sessions at all BUT it was an interesting experience overall and i re-started my shamanic breathing after a few weeks off. Thank you@Star Net for coming up with this challenge

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18 juni 2018, Monday /maandag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat ✔️reading ✔️30!!!!/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ✔️/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) 17 juni 2018, Sunday/zondag? yes ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap (high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ❌reading ✔️20/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower -lol i just realized i wrote WORM not WARM lol ❌30 /30m mind powers ✔️30/30 meditation ✔️10/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) ✔️ ❌ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Join us e4rd challenge/star`s challenge---- bla bla bla. Abstained/refrained eating junk food. Contemplated further the other night plans. Considering even more to try a italki session in English etc. Star net challenge-- sleep: 23.00-7.00. bla bla bla procrastination I will wake up at 4 o`clock I am excited lol.---i woke up latterly btw That`s a wasp/small flies bee trap. i used some last year. great kill count btw https://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Wasp-Trap 16 juni 2018, Saturday/zaterdag zondag ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 2/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️21/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ✔️go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 23.00 !!!!!!!!!! ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) Had plenty of time to think. Difficulty falling asleep I listen to the first Pimselur free Dutch lesson. It was fun af. I will; buy the course. ( btw i bought it ) I will buy the f forever in-development app. Their pronunciation thing is helping me really good. ( btw i bought it , i am pleasantly impressed by their pronunciation cards ) Should I boy the pronunciation product for English too? no the 3rd leaf from the top was eaten by slugs/snails 15 June 2018, Friday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily 3/5 ✔️no fap ( high!!!!! urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ✔️❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ( yes! I woke up at 12:00am and I brewed a green tea and than went in my garden and read and drank it. It was a very very pleasant experience. Ill do it again tomorrow. ✔️10/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 3.30-4am ✔️ ?❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck) n[ɱ] as in "bronwater"[bʀɔɱʋa:təɹ] I find the Dutch language exciting and interesting af. I feel tremendous resistance to be productive. I felt tribble urges to eat junk food lately. These urges kicked in stronger and stronger since I started doing shamanic breathing Tomorrow I will start the 3rd challenge(set link). I am glad that this turned out to be the definitive challenge although I voted for the second one. I really need to fix my sleeping schedule. . Some tourist stopped me today asking where he can find a taxi. I felt anxious af. I tried to talk with him in English but all he was saying was taxi taxi taxi. And I don’t know how to give directions in English also . Its strange that this made me feel anxious and relived afterwards -not every foreigner is fluent in English as I expected , yet they have the balls o travel and work in other countries. I realized that I take myself to seriously `` who? They to laugh at me??no no no!!!``. Lol Learning Spanish - Pimsleur, Italki, LingQ, and Memrise Start pimsleur(its fun, easy, listen whilst commuting,---- schedule: 2- 3 times a week an hour long, he used it for several months.(it will take time to learn dutch lol) Italki-very useful, you can teach you teachers Romanian Lingq (use it later) -I can import lessons so I can use self help books/restaurant menus to learn Use memrize to build your vocabulary. Build your own courses. 14 June 2018, Thursday ✔️pushing my comfort zone daily ?/5 ✔️no fap ( high urges) ✔️spending time outside ✔️daily journaling ❌ overeat (my goal is to not overeat so✔️ means that i didn't overeat but if i did that mean that i overate so❌) ✔️reading ✔️11/10+ seconds cold shower after worm shower ❌ /30m mind powers ❌/30 meditation ❌/10 concentration ❌go to sleep at a decent time (goal- 23.00\00.00) 5am again ✔️ ✔️ ❌Eating healthy ✔️Anki (fluent forever Dutch pronunciation deck + personal deck)

well, this applies to me 100% . thank you for this tip. i really need to figure out my strategy for the fallowing months

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the day before yesterday: i did no breathing session,went to sleep at 23.30(early for me), i had a hard time falling asleep too@Star Net @now is forever because my mind was filled with problems i avoided to contemplate for weeks. yesterday: i woke up at 7.00 and did the first session of breathing but after it i wasted pretty much all morning. i did the second round after 18;00 instead of 12;00. and finally the 3rd one at 22;00. i had a hard time falling asleep again -though not like the previous day today: woke up at 6;00. hesitated at first but did the 1st session eventually. than i wasted again pretty much all morning. around 17:00 the 2nd one but fell asleep half away through it. i did the 3rd around 19.00 . i wasted some time till 22.00 on the internet because i felt resistant to go to bed. I find it difficult to keep a steady breathing peace. problems: I find it difficult to keep a steady breathing peace and to not procrastinate in the morning