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fried vegetables&chicken (half of a batch of cauliflower, 1 broccoli, a quarter of zucchini, 2 carrots, 1 parsnip,1 bell pepper + flax&hemp seeds at the end; because in the pan the seeds are wasted and burned on the bottom of the pan as Ive observed so far) she taught me also to make a chicken soup with extra vegetables *suggestion: use dried mushrooms in any of he recipes above

hey 31 juli 2018 Tuesday /dinsdag: i went to the park to rent a bike & cycling yesterday and today`s morning again also i am struggling to schedule the next 4 yrs of my life. it`s quite challenging. a lot of things seem urgent. this list commences my main goals; now i m guessing&pondering which ones to delay and which ones to start doing sooner Planning/organizing/minimalism Pick-up Lp clarification smart Studying (using hypnosis,info geek college,books,videos) Deepen myself into self actualization(college hacks,shamanic breathing 1h, mindfulness meditation 1h, hatha + other form of yoga, self hypnosis&nlp techniques, katie baron&gremlin&reiki&shadow work) Heal back contractions&pain Become motivated, deal w/ procrastination , fix hard addictions, Develop self discipline Get more life experiences (volunteer farms, get job, retreat,travel solo) Eat healthy (paleo-vegetarian/vegan mix-up diet) Swimming,cycling,bjj, hatha + kryia/kundalini Yoga Learn Dutch/English advanced Confidence/self esteem books,exercises,courses driving Get into minimalistic lifestyle More meditation/fix meditation inconsistency Spend more time outside/Visit more museums/festivals/art galleries Normal sleeping schedule Becoming more independent/Push my comfort zone still pondering : lucid dreaming, astral projection Join a club( oratory classes, swimming, improvisation club ,acting,) 1 august 2018, Wednesday/woensdag at 12.01 i realized that i will start college in less than 29* days!!! then i couldn't fall asleep. thoughts i had: i ma not ready! i haven't read enough college advice; it`s to soon; my English isn't perfect! i haven't read enough socialization books; i don't know how to budget my time and money properly; i don't have enough time to take care of my plants nor to make a worm farm . interesting. but as a counter-argument i will never be ready for anything 100%. though i will really miss my plants later this day i got nervous and overwhelmed again and i wanted to watch an episode but i realized the paradox! i feel overwhelmed>i want to distract myself> tv series/overeating> even more overwhelmed>more tv series/distractions>and so on . but i can simply feel the neg emotions and do my chores my mom thought me today how to make red lentil cream soup and a week ago how to make rice+vegetables. though all my family made comments that i added too many vegetables lol. i guess no one will say this when ill be cooking only for myself soon btw just by watching college advice videos ill be ahead of 90% of fellow students even if i wont apply all of those tips i am planning to go swimming at the beach. i am insecure of a characteristic of my body and therefore haven't swam since middle school. yap . but i started to take care of it lately. i loved swimming. therefore i want to start swimming classes at college. it would mean the world to me.

important: if you'll move to college next year, be traveling for a few months in a different climate or simply relocate -buy your clothes right now. it may seem nonsense but trust me you will stress less when you know that you will leave in one month and you don't have to spend money on clothes after you've had so many expenses already

i bought the cheapest ``organic seedling pots`` a few months ago. it was a waste o time an money. those ``pots`` where garbage and ineffective. the soil would dry up no matter what. lesson: DON'T buy cheap biodegradable pots. i planted them just to see what will happen (after all the seedings existent died) as an experiment.

I couldn't agree more!

26 juli 2018, donderdag /Thursday I rented a bike for a hour again! I even cycled around the park on those tiny streets with other bikers and people. Yay! I hesitated at first but i positive-talked myself out of it. I didn't even had the courage to do this 8/7yers ago! The therapy is going well. Monday it will be the last session. Time flew. My assigned kinetic therapist is pretty cool. We joke around all the time. From Monday onwards, ill do the exercises at home. I'll do them in other room since i tend to take too many breaks whilst doing them in my own room. I will get a broom stick lol to do some of those exercises. Also, i made a couple of purchases lately. I noticed that i want to buy even more! I know that i don't need those books&objects now but i want them! I know that i can buy them in the future but i think thwt by buying and using them now ill grow faster. Maybe i think that i am not doing enough. Hmmmm. Intersting. Hey reader! Have you experienced smth similar lately?

24 juli 2018 mint plants have natural insane roots. i am just putting them into soil to help create a new plant(ill cut the root and therefore it will be an entire new plant)

i got this insight whilst listening to a hypnosis audio last night: i`ve been struggling to do my routine for months now. why wouldn't i make it easier? i mean better x min daily than 30m once a week 5m concentration 20m meditation (ive been struggling so hard to stay focused during meditation, its so so hard, it used to be easier) 10m shamaic breathing +5m observation i gave up on starting pickup. i just have to much on my head right now. i am afraid to do it and this is an excuse i give up on learning dutch too for now, at least. revising the English grammar is more important for me right now. i had these urges lately, wanting to buy buy buy self help products or to adopt a new good habit. hmm note for college self: you can do it!

I am taking 3 days of quiting my bad habits entirely only to discover my true reality, the feelings that i deny by taking ``pain killers`` aka bad habits. also, i am gathering info on how to quit bad habits. last night i washed my teeth on time,cleaned my room , and did other chores i delayed for weeks. although i felt proud + i felt negative emotions. i don't know whats behind them yet. i watched shity videos till 3;00 on yt to banish these feelings.

`sup yesterday i went to a park and rented a bike for 1h. this may not seem important for someone else but for me was a huge achievment why? because when i was in preschool i hot a cop car with my bike by mistake and than i ran away lol. and since than it got worse. i developed a fear of hitting people&cars and especially of cycling in through traffic. this was combined with my father screaming at me to stop cycling so slow and with my anticipated fear that he will scream at me if i hit someone. therefore sometime in middle school i abandoned completely the idea of riding the bike anywhere a few weeks/days ago i thought that i can re-start cycling in NL since their traffic isn't quite as insane as here. than i was like: hmm i can rent a bike here! why would i start from the bottom in NL wen i have this opportunity right here? so 2 days ago i thought of going; than yesterday i felt so resistant to actually go that i had to force myself to do it after wasting a couple of h in front of my pc`s screen. my biking skills where WAY better than i`ve expected. i didn't fall off. obviously i had difficulty with balance and so on. anyways i started small by cycling on a street beside the park and slowly i pushed myself into the park it was a tremendous jump of my comfort zone on on top of that very pleasant i took my like 7-8 years to realize that i can rent a bike from a park and that i can slowly work my way into traffic by increasing the level of difficulty a lil bit each time.

lol i burned half by plants i poured ROSEMARY ESSENTIAL OIL directly straight out of the bottle on plant`s stems. this alone or contaminated with the fallowing day`s sun heat resulted into this. lesson: always run a small-scale test of a substance on a leaf/plant before going nuts and using it on all of your plantation. wait 48h to see if it does any damage to the plant or not. anyways, this was a lesson. 7 July/juli 2018 17 juli/July 2018

less than 50 till college 4064 days till the end of my 20s bla bla bla

last week i made an appointment to schedule my first kinetic therapy session. initially i wanted to do it on Monday but i succeeded on Thursday due to insane resistance.. 2 days ago i finally went there. yap. i finally did it. i can be proud of myself or whatever

How to start a conversation with your future roommates what I`ve learned so far: take charge. don't wait passively for someone else to start the conversation/chat group. do it thyself break the ice with some random joke ask for a minor favor ( to gain their trust or smth) don't act needy. do not message them excessively ask them about themselves don't be overly serious repeat/incorporate your ``ice-breaker joke`` into the conversation once again in order to create an INSIGHT JOKE. and you can used it laterally at college too detach from outcome: don't fear rejection because you don't have to be BFF with them. they aren't the only ones in campus almost a week ago i was asked if i want to share my email with the other students with whom i`ll share the apartment(student house). I`ll be staying with 2 girls (one fro central Europe and one from Asia). I chose this apartment/room based on my INTUITION.I waited a few hours for someone to make a move. i gathered my courage and i decided to lead the conversation : i asked for their numbers in order to make a chat group. obviously, they shared them with me and i became very anxious and agitated bc i couldn't add them on the chat group. after some more minutes i realized that i just had to put a simple + in front of them in my phone. Than i wanted to avoid a boring conversation (interview style) so i broke the ice first by saying the first thing it came to my mind: i bet one of us will break a mug or a cup withing 2 months. It worked! eventually the conversation resumed to regular topics aka interview style but with a more playful and chill overall attitude. I was insecure of my English skills and of being criticized over them. surprisingly for me is that they didn't make fun of my English skills as people in my country did. interesting that foreign non-English speakers are nicer than the people from my country. i was extensively criticized&ridiculed in high school by teachers and especially by colleagues if i wasn't pronouncing and speaking perfectly. hmmmm i felt needy and i sill do at some extent. i wanted their total approval but than i realized that if they wont like me i will simply make friends with other students .

less than 60 days till college (approximatively) 4072 days until the end of my 20s

very important: how to swear in Dutch

today i went to my family doctor to get some papers for uni. I realized that the walls are painted in pink. I asked her whether they`ve renovated it since last year and she stared at me for a few seconds and said: we had rehabilitated this place AND PAINTED THESE WALLS IN PINK 10 YEARS AGO i could swear they were other color -it was like i saw that color for the first time in my life

well, it was definitely worth it !

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