Everyday

hei went to uni and got burned under the sun. ate a Vietnamese soup like i used to last year with my friend from uni. went to drive a little. i was rusty again and i felt bad not driving even more. i called my brother to check the car because it was making weird noises. my brother said is alright. my father thought i called him cuz i hit the car. He started yelling that he doesnt have money and some other crap to fix the car. met with my colleagues from HS. we went to some art gallery and then to visit one of our friends at work. he is renting bikes in a park. he told us about his date from tinder. they went out a few times then she ghosted him. I was thinking to invest on etoro on some companies. The stock market is down as well. i was thinking to buy sp500, coca cola, apple and so on.

the daily return on this bnb miner is decreasing each day. a guy online said you need to deposit some more to see it going up. pfffff. no thanx. i will withdraw every 2 days a tiny amount of BNB after sell tax. i am still earning from the other ones. all are going down each week. finally, i found some eyewear frames i like and i am waiting for their arrival. i will get new glasses in 2 weeks max. went to look for clothes yesterday. they didnt have the same ones i saw 2 weeks ago. The ones they had weren't my size. i got one belt and one summer shirt. i was disappointed.

what i was seeing was just the gas fees. i was able to withdraw 0.0049 BNB. I passed yesterday that test with a 6! was so happy ahahah! the other failed. i was really stressed with this stupid test. i bought $30 worth of BTC last night. i want to get some ETH as well. what else? going to get new accounts and this makes me scared. i will get less than my colleagues cuz they are better. i should have put more effort into this job early on. i am nervous about taking those pics next week. feels beyond what i think i can do or what i deserve.

hei i have that test tomorrow i am really stressed about it. i want to run from these feelings. Ugh. fuck this test. want to be over with it. i finish uni in 5 weeks. after that exams start, then practice, then other exams and then peace ahahha. hopefully at least. so tired of this university shit. that guy i mailed yesterday about photos called me. we are going to take those pics next week on Thursday OR Friday. i am quite nervous about that as well. man, did i tell you about that annoying girl from work? she is just beyond annoying man. i dont know how she can talk so damn much. the glasses i ordered last week just arrived. dont like them. found other but more expensive. i will get those instead. https://bnb.cropsfarmer.online this bnb miner makes me 0.0054 a day but when i wanted to sell only 0.001 could get. WTF? I staked some bnb i got from those miners on binance for 52% APY for 21 days. Not much but smth safer than these miners. Also just moved my btc into defi staking for a higher yield. Id like to get some more eth and bnb but i really want to get those pics. blah blah bhal. mom is alright after that surgery. one friend from HS got annoyed with us for having exams this summer. he wanted to go abroad with us but almost all of us are busy. he will redo his 4th year at uni bc he failed some exams years ago. smth like that. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3apkywzYf0&list=PL7ee065wMTPPHva-g-h-hidAiB8ayFMlF&index=4

hei i am feeling anxious about that test tomorrow. i moved some btc from flexible staking to fixed staking because they offer a bigger APY. just messaged that guy to get some pics taken next week. i am really nervous went to uni when i should have been at a work meeting. next week i am going there. it was an important meeting today. some new seo guy was hired today. we dont know anything about him.

hei Drove some more. Made some mistakes but all good. Need more practice blag blah. I drove my brother and his gf to her house and she wouldnt stop talking man. It was really annoying. My grandma turned 80 today. She said she doesnt want to see anyone and stopped answering the phone. We had planned for her to come at our house and celebrate. Went to her and she was really annoyed by us. But in the end calmed down a little. After Easter i drove my grandma home. Made some mistakes. My grandma told my parents i drive like shit. Today she said - is he driving? Better be careful. He is a bad driver. W T F ! Man what a bitch! How can you say that?! Went to meet with friends from high school. One of them had an accident before Easter. His was using his father's car. Now he is waiting for the insurance company to give him money. Another colleague said she is waiting to finish her Master's to get a job because shes bored. Last summer one of them got tinder. He spoked with a few girls and actually went out with one. I was surprised. I didnt know this! If he can do it i can!

hei i noticed that i was not making as much per day on baked beans and that on the other two i was actually decreasing in rewards. These are probably the anti-whale systems they talked about. I took rewards. I will compound for a week and then stop again and just collect. I discovered that binance offers 52% for locked staking of bnb. put some money into that after i got profit from those bnb miners. So i bought btc, eth and a little bnb for around $250 when it dropped. I wanted to buy more but it would mean no money for the other stuff i wanted to do this month. I wanted to take this opportunity but there are other things id like to spend money on rn. I put borage all over my yard. I got lots of seedlings from last year. I went to driving alone the longest i have been so far. I made some stupid mistakes but all good overall. Today i arrived at 17 from working on that university project for my degree. I did some work and basically not much else after some gardening. Mom had that surgery. She is alright.

Hei She had the surgery yesterday. Everything is fine now. the whole 21 kg of substrate i sterilised last week got burned. Invested some more in eth, btc and a little in bnb. I just realised that my beth and eth a liquidity pool dropped in value. lost $20. I locked my btc and eth for a few months to earn more. I locked my bnb for 21 days to earn 52%. Those bnb miners are compounding very slowly. Id like to invest some more in eth and btc but i want to get my new glasses first and to use the money to drive some more. Dont want to spent them all now. The market is going down even more. Going to do some gardening this week. The test i had last week was alright in the end. She just scared us. Three ppl she didnt like failed the exam. Went to uni daily and it was so tiring. Soooo much bullshit. I was thinking to buy some stocks on etoro or smth as well. Dont have to wait for another account or smth. Checked some clothes in a mall after i looked for some frames for my glasses. I was surprised they have ready made outfits. I just need to take them. I made everything to look more complicated in my mind. Worked on last week and still feeling sore. Uhhh. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C9vxKrV38s4

hei that test i was preparing for a few days went really bad. the vine leafs i studied werent like the ones the professor gave us to identify. also, she was yelling at us and speaking shit. tried to set that test i failed 2ice for next week but no body responds on the group chat. i talked with the professor to have it next week. someone from that group got annoyed i want so bad to pass it. they dont want to prepare for this. got sawdust for my mushrooms but the autoclave malfunctioned and all substrate from that batch got burned. the government needs money. they said the land my grandpa received money for was over-evaluated. they are asking triple that amount. the whole thing is really serious. my grandma can loose her house and we can loose ours. my grandma still doesnt give my parents all papers to prepare better. also, we found out she has another house we never knew about. wtf? if they start this lawsuit all money in the bank will be blocked. my brother went with my grandma to take out some of her money from banks and she started crying. on top of this she is still going crazier day by day. made up pretexts to not go out with high school colleagues. dont in the mood for that rn on easter night went walking and drinking with my friend from uni. he wants to loose weight so didnt eat anything. we have no idea how we arrived at his place. we were to drunk man. he told me how important is to travel and i told him my opinion - nothing changes no matter how much you travel. he asked me about girls and shit and i was embarrassed as usually. thought more about it. mom needs to get surgery next week. it was supposed to be last week but the doctor was not available. bought a bunch of seedlings and put all in my garden i extended my plot of land by 3x3m. my father went nuts. yelled for days. still is. explained to him how i want more land to grow veggies but he wouldn't understand. he is still upset and i dont get it. we have a yard and dont grow more veggies? why? i want to make a drip system for my plants. im going to save a lot of water and time. as the whole market tanked so my bnb miners. all investment went to shit. decided to stop paying for compounding and just wait to take profits thus hurting the protocol. i m upset i lost another sum of money on crypto. so i will wait a few weeks and than take whatever i accumulate from these miners. hopefully i will get half of my initial back. planetwatch is still down. it will take months to recover. if they will. they have a new plan and ppl like it. drove some more alone last weekend. i want to do it more often. like going where i need to go by car. man this is a huge frustration of mine ahahha. last month went by very slow. i still earn interest from what i put in on nexo and binance and celsius. a few cents a months but is smth. i want to put some into p2p as well. also into myself. i finally went to consult a doctor about my sight. it got worse last 2 years. i bought more stuff i needed or wanted. when i got my salary in march and spent it all on planetwatch i got upset. especially after it tanked. it was a stupid idea. i want to buy some clothes as well. i dont many good tshirts to wear. i feel so stupid i saved each month to put all into crypto and didnt even spare some to get my eyes checked. my teeth and so on. i mean i didnt even buy good scissors for practice days at uni. i used a rusty one. but i still feel resistant to spend on food at work and to go overboard when feeling bad. i just cant spend that money on junk food just to feel sick. especially doing it alone. the bad part is that i feel resistant to cook weekly, i havent cooked much lately. let alone eat at work. at work, i just eat fruits or nothing. or free sweets when is someones b day or some event. most days i eat nothing. wait home to eat.

hei went to work and i felt bored at times. wasnt scolded but i felt stupid i didnt do better on my campaigns so far. Some of them. I added too many negatives lol. trying to focus on studying for uni

Hei Made some changes on some campaigns this morning. I was in vacation but it was an emergency. The day passed very fast. Last night was bad. After writing all that i felt really frustrated and had trouble sleeping. Woke up a wreck. Going at work tomorrow. Not really thrilled cuz i might get scolded. Probably will get scolded. Made some mistake again. Man i am stressed with those stupid tests and upcoming exams. Isn't even funny. I should be working harder, study harder and so on.

Hei Last few days - It's Easter over here rn. Parents are arguing more than usually. Lots of food. Slept a lot as well. Fell asleep under the sun. One of the bnb miner had problem with some hackers. The page was down for a day. The TVL has decreased since then. The other ones are going OK. Got drunk last night with my friend from college. Stayed at his place overnight. Ate junk food and drank beer. We walked for hours while drinking. Felt tired the rest of the day. I felt really desperate after affection from a girl when i was drunk. It hit me really hard. Now i am better. Studied a little for that test as well. 2 weeks from now. Maybe more. Last year in summer of autumn i thought of getting pics taken at a studio and in parks for Tinder. Toyed with the idea for months. I feel really weird to ask my sis or friends for this. I am also perfectionist so i dont have good pics online with me because i just dont take them. Last time i used tinder i had 2 pics from 3-4 years ago. One of them was even blurred. I have been delaying doing this for a long time already. I was thinking of doing it next month. Man i feel so weird doing this. Is it weird? Feels lame. Is it? I would like to invest $200 from my salary on some bnb miner. But i already invested a lot and i should invest in real life as well. I am talking about making new glasses, buying plants for my garden and some clothes. I feel resistant and lazy doing this. Finally, drove 2 days ago and today. I am rusty man. I am worried about planetwatch. The price is only going down. Saw they will sell some new miners next month and especially june. I am worried it will all go to crap and loose all that money i gathered for months. Looked over some accounts each day after i made some big changes. I added new countries and new counties to show my adds.

Hey Last week i worked some more on my final year project. Man, i need to find the word in english haha Last weekend flew by fast. I watched a few seasons of different tv shows and studied a little. Monday was scolded for making stupid mistakes on some account at work. I was tired after being at uni and working from home in the morning as well. Practice at university was tedious but fun. Lots of trolling. We celebrated an event last Sunday. Father asked me for money to buy food. lol. Worked out last sunday and today. Feels amazing. Man, i was so resistant to start. Took $70 profit from Safuu and put it into Gold Grinder. Left $20 there to recompound. Titano is down more than half. Investing in a new bnb miner tomorrow. Invested my scholarship in two bnb miners a few days ago. I am impressed with the way Baked beans is evolving. Planets from planetwatch are down at a new all time low. Still waiting to get my money back from that failure. I should have had a test today but the professor told us to do it after easter break. I was stressed about it. Its the one i failed twice. Felt like crap for some time this week for being alone but got over it faster. I will have same problems single or not. Spent more on food at work and at uni. I was hungry and didnt want to wait a few more hours until going home. What else? Worked from home today. I was stressing with some stupid project i was lazy to do. Still have no idea where the fuck to start. Man, cant wait to be done with this degree. Is so stressing doing both work and uni in the same time. I feel stupid either way, No time to do either of them well enough. Didnt drive at all. Excuses and other crap. My grandma is getting crazier each day. My sister is still struggling to finish her degree. Lots of procrastination and shit. My sister's BF family will come over on Easter. My parents and them never took dinner together even if my sister if together with that boy for years. Laughed a lot about the way my mom doesn't like my brother's GF. So funny. It was easier to be around by siblings' S.O. One of our professors told us she cant wait to retire. I was surprised. I thought she wants to work until death. She said she wants to take care of her grandkids. My grandma said she wants great-grandchildren. We all laughed. Dont see her taking care of kids at his mental state.

Hey I had two not so great days. I am exhausted after work and school. Didnt do much afterwards. I have that test i failed next week. I will take it again. I should prepare you, know? What else? Lots of fapping and tv series. Making mistakes at work as usually. I worked less today. I am tired. Bought some meat to cook. Everything got more expensive at the store. I havent cooked in months because i was saving money for planetwatch. We where supposed to have a BBQ this weekend but my father spent everything again on that vacation house we cant afford. He is complaining how much utilities cost and shit. He should have done better with his money but his age. He doesnt know how to manage money well and that's why we are in this situation. Anyhow, at least i am able to invest my money myself. Got $63 from Baked beans today. Wanted to invest in Shpere but you need $100. Next week rewards will be $100. I will wait. Family is preparing for Easter - they are arguing and yelling. My sister is trying to organise a trip in summer with all of us. He is getting annoyed i am busy with university or work. To be honest i dont want to go with my sister's BF and my brother's GF. Especially there in that reservation. They will complain non stop and i dont want any of that.

Hey I am back on track, going to uni in the morning and work afterwards. I am tired again. Chose to work from home for a few hours this morning, then to university, then back at work. Worked out Last Sunday. I missed it a lot. I should have done this for weeks. Two weeks i was sore from physical work but last week i did nothing. The resistance to work out was big. I figure out i can reduce the gas fees for baked beans. Safuu is good and titano is going down for now. Planetwatch is going down as well. The price token is falling daily. Lots of ppl complaining on reddit and twitter. A girl from work told us how she cheated on her boyfriend. She was smoking afterwards and turns out her boyfriend lives across the street in another apartment. They looked at each other and he asked her if she is following him. I was amazed she has sex with two guys since i find her extremely ugly. Was with the friend from 2nd internship and his friends and gf at some event in town last Saturday. I found his gf quite annoying. I felt out of place with his friends. I was waiting to leave. I was invited out this week to hang out with friends from high school. I declined. They wanted to meet at 19. I am at work or too tired. They went to the batman. I remembered they all wanted to go to this movie last month but no body organised anything. I didnt either. Just let it be.

Hei Decided to get a refund for all my licences worth $400. Put the money in another project right away. Chose baked beans. Did well so far. I dont want to stick around Planetwatch to see how they handle this week problems. Too much risk for me to keep on with this. I should have left earlier man. I set a sell limit at $0.15. I will get my money back and smth extra. Finally, started my last year project. Went to the lab this morning. I wanted to sleep to be honest. He told me about his disappointment with PW. We only recovered $15k his overall investment. It was a good experience anyhow. Some other ppl are in a worse position than i am.

Hey Work was fine just upset i didnt learn more. I went to uni and found out i have to redo some labs i missed last semester ew. It was tiring to go from work to uni and back. Arrived at home at 22. My bother was telling me how he worked 2h all day and some other crap. I rolled my eyes. Latest AMA with Planetwatch was a disaster. The token price has dropped to $0.89. I am thinking to get out of this project. Things seem to go from bad to worst. They wont take data from Airwar elements anymore so everyone who wasnt early is fucked. WTF? I dont know where this project will be in 3-4 months but it really looks bad to keep hoping it will get better. I am very optimistic about these projects but it seems too much even for me. I shouldnt have invested so much. Wasnt the right call to make. 7 days passed since i invested in Baked Beans and just got $14 out of it. Yay. I got my investment back from Safuu and Titano isnt doing fine lately.

Hei Woke up and arrived at work at 8.30. Was stressed my superviser will criticise me for a mail i got from a client last Friday. I explained to him that he didnt look right into these campaigns but admitted i made some mistakes as well. For some reason i added the very keywords in the negative list. I have no idea why. Anyhow, my superviser congratulated me for the detailed answer i gave to this client on how he is wrong. Even told me i shouldnt have admitted i made a mistake but say i was optimising the campaign. I asked him if he is joking but he said he really likes i should to this client that he was wrong. Wow. I skipped university today and focused on work. I left work on regular schedule, at 18. It felt so weird to arrive home while there was still light outside. I even had some energy to study. Wow. Im taking profits on one of those dapps i invested last week. This will be on Friday i think. I will take around $9 or more. Got my interest from nexo and celsius as well $0.32. Have had money in there since January or December. I might have a test this week and the next one. Was invited out this weekend. Not sure if i will go for sure. When i arrived home everyone was either watching tv or tv series. If i would be in their place i think id do the same. I am weak. If i had sex and more food i wouldnt move a muscle. I would be again lazy as fuck as soooo frustrated. Reading about these successful people from my country atm. Indeed my father isnt successful. Is not normal to struggle with food because of his stupid choices with money like that vacation house. But is too late for him. I felt proud of the amount of money i saved in the last 3 months, even if i decided to not invest all of it into planetwatch anymore. I didnt know i have it in me. I was quite lazy this weekend. But really like the batman.

Hey Went to see The Batman with my brother, his GF, my sister's BF and my brother's friend who came with his GF and two other girls. I was amazed by the fact that my brother puts up with his GF's bullshit. Not many people are so annoying. She kept complaining, got upset before, during and after the movie and wouldnt shut up. Wtf is wrong with her? My brother's friend payed not only for his GF food and movie tickets but also for her friends. He told me they never pay and he ends up borrowing money often from his mom. Wow. He got a loan to buy some pc stuff, a phone for his gf and for him. He is in debt for the next 3-4 years. The pc video stuff was like $1700 alone. Didnt do any trimming trees on Friday or Thursday. Just more digging and making fun with my colleagues. Some guy who tagged along me that i started to get annoyed with bothered me all day. Some much shit talking man. The professor watching us noticed that i was working harder than my colleagues. I just felt bad that no body else was doing much work. I didnt want to be told that we are lazy or smth. I did some thinking and decided to ask for a refund for 3 of my licences from planetwatch. I wish i chose this sooner. The earnings wont be as fast as i made with Titano and Safuu. This project isnt doing good at all. If i keep all 5 licences im too exposed to loose everything. I dont want to loose the money i invested so far. I am waiting for a refund, for the price to spike so i can sell with a profit at $0.17-0.18 and to reinvest in other projects. I should have asked for a refund instead of saving more money that i was comfortable with. My friend who recommended me this project didnt get his initial investment back yet. He invested $40.000. He is very stressed he is going to not break even. He borrowed all this money. Probably has like $20000 to get back.

Hey man Last weekend i was supposed to work on my project with the guy from 2nd internship. He bailed on me cuz his gf is upset he is working all the time and he doesnt have time for her. I am available only in weekends and he said his gf wont let him see me. I told him we can meet at 21-22 during the week. He said is too late. Second week of practice at university. We were supposed to learn how to trim trees. Monday - Last day trimming vines. Learned a lot and it was fun. Tuesday - went to a field trip. The professor explained a little what we have to do and the rest said we should have known from labs and courses. Me and my colleagues left from that orchard not really knowing how to trim trees. Wed - Thursday - We just had to dig holes. Only the girls from our class learned to trim. We just dug holes all day. My colleagues had less desire than i even if i also had work afterwards. We spend these days making fun and laughing a lot. I did my part of the work and just had fun for the rest. They didnt work much at all. Lots of poor work ethic and destroyed trees. Let them do whatever they wanted. At some point i felt bad not finishing the work we where supposed to do and helped them too much gave up and chilled as well. One guy started playing around with the shovel and cut some branches when he was swinging his shovel. He almost hit another colleague in the head. That guy is nuts. Another guy who studies remotely or whatever is called came to work with us. He was super annoying and started bossing us around even if he had no idea himself. He got so upset we didnt treat him as a boss he just left to trim trees with the girls. I am terribly tired. Arrived home after 21:00 from Monday to today. Went to work after practice. I was so tired and stopped myself from falling asleep. My colleagues went home and slept. I used to do this as well. What times... How is work? Didn't speak much at all with my colleagues. On Monday one colleague got super upset with a mistake i made. I felt like shit. It was a stupid mistake. Made another mistake on Tuesday. Kept all problems for myself. I was scolded enough. I was smart to buy planets using limit orders but in the end the price dropped at $0.11 right after i bought. It was due to their problem with an older sensor. It is a mess. It wasnt right to buy 3 year licences. I learned some stuff last 3 months. Didnt receive some money on time and i will have to put the last money to buy planets from this salary. I will get my salary tomorrow. When planets drop again i will buy some. Indeed took me 3 months to save 2000 euros. It could have been faster but i made some mistakes over the last couple of months. I know more now. My investment is safuu is still down after some movement. Titano is doing better. I didnt discuss about salary with my boss, nor if i will get fired. I missed some stuff at work due to this stupid work at uni. I wont get a raise cuz i dont have 15 accounts yet. Finally, That client paid me for the work i did for him 2 months ago. Finally. My grandma gave my father another batch of money for that stupid house in the mountains. My father borrowed a lot from my brother. My brother borrowed from me. I am the one who makes the most money in this house at the moment. They have too many debts at my grandma. When i arrived at 22 yesterday my brother told me that after coming from his girlfriend place he spent his day playing video games. Whole day. Sister spent her day on web and laying around. Saved some money this last 2 weeks but made some exceptions to buy some food when i was too hungry after work. I thought about my goals with crypto and stocks. I want to not be my father's age and needing money from a granny to build a house. I want to have a passive income 2x higher than my 9-6 job. I will get there slowly. I am impatient at times. Money management is more important that i thought 3-4 months ago. Money problems are fucking real.

Damn. The price is going up again. Hopefully i can buy the dip. I m counting on this man.

Hey Studied some more for uni. Worked out a little. Felt better afterwards. Set an order limit to buy planets at $0.11 which are currently at $0.1339. Abandoned the idea to swap bnb to ltc and so on. I will resume to it another time. Put $100 worth of eth into eth 2.0 staking on binance. Might be locked for 2 years. The price will go up and i will get network rewards after eth goes from proof of stake to proof of work. Miners atm receive millions $ worth of rewards. All this will be transferred to nodes which stake eth!

Hey All week went to uni to work in the field. I have to go next week as well. Woke up early, went to uni half day, went to work until 21:00. Didn't have any energy to study for uni. Got scolded twice for making yet another beginner mistakes at work. Just kill me already. Working at uni was very fun. Learned how to prune vines and laughed a lot making fun of each other with colleagues at university. Rethinking this, i will gain more from LTC than BNB. Im waiting for the market to crash again. Hopefully it happens until April =))))))) Gains from Safuu and Titano are good. $42.3 with Safuu and $50 with Titano. Noticed two of my professors being very frustrated for not making more money at their age. I dont want to be like that. One of these professors told us the things she cant afford and her hate of kids with rich parents.

Hey Studied a little yesterday, drove a little today as well. The thing i haven't been doing more than once a week is working out. Studied for uni and watched some movies. I went from $32 on safuu and titano to $44 and $41 since match 9th. I am reading news about planetwatch and watch videos about crypto daily. Lots of ppl bought the cheapest pw sensor and now they got burned. The reward limit was passed for some time. Ppl didnt read the saturation points for these devices and bought them. I think i will get be able to pay my sensors in April and receive them in May. Just speculation. I learned that the pw price was artificially raised because of ppl buying licenses and sensors. Furthermore, at the end of the month when they send new sensors the price spikes. Ppl buy new sensors, then the price goes down. I plan to buy again at $0.11. When the buying for my sensors will come i will have some $ extra just because it will be $0.16. I was thinking to buy BNB with my currency when it drops back to $370. Swap for LTC when BNB is $400, move everything to bitfinex, swap for USDT, then swap for PLANETS. I will make $120 profit. Maybe i should do this whole thing with a smaller amount since it will appreciate two times, one for bnb and one the planets themselves. This would save me some money i could invest in other stuff. I am thinking to invest more in titano, safuu and also in libero. Especially titano and libero. I was thinking to put some of that interest into stable coins and btc and eth. A few weeks ago i used the initial investment from titano to get into safuu. Most of it since i miscalculated the withdraw fee.

Hei https://support.google.com/google-ads/answer/9176942?hl=en&ref_topic=10307955 I just read a few articles about various google ads practices and ad types. It is the first time i am doing this since that training i had last year in February. I spent a few hours reading and already had answered questions of some of my ads not working better. My superviser was right, even i am hiding this from myself but i am not giving into my job 100%. I could have spent a few hours each week for a year and would have not been in this shit position i am now. I am making these fucking mistakes from a luck of proper preparation. Hack, i could have been 10 times lazier but would have studied these things and looked much better. What else? I asked a girl who works for 7 years at my job about payment bonuses. She knew nothing about bonuses per campaign performance. She said they wanted to give these bonuses but the pandemic came and now the war came. She doesnt think we will get bonuses anytime soon. But the other older colleague said he gets bonuses for working on these accounts. Weird. Not sure what it is going on. She told me salary is given after level of knx and value you bring to company. Mine is the lowest on that scale. I realised that a raise this year is less likely to happen. A raise for what? I have just a few accounts and cant even manage those well. She said every few years they ask you to tell them how much more you want. If they think you arent working hard enough they will give you more tasks. She didnt tell me her salary because in the past some problems and envy was brought to light by comparing salaries. I sit on my glasses by mistake a few weeks ago. Tried to change that and resulted in a broken arm of the glasses. Fuck. I went to uni this week and felt super dumb for not understanding what the fuck is going on. I neglected studying for months and here i am not knowing shit man. Uhh... I am getting frustrated more and more thinking about defi, crypto and stocks. I thought i will go to the moon with a few hundreds of euros invested. No shit. I wont. I need to invest much, much more. I feel discouraged to be honest. I need to take it easier. Safuu and Titano are going ok for now. I used the initial investment to put into Safuu some time ago. I am waiting to get my initial investment on Safuu and make back the money i put out on Titano. I am compounding faster on Titano while Safuu is going down as hell. My mom said she wont make more rice cuz my father told her he doesnt have money to buy more. Used everything into that stupid vacation house. Tried to tell him its a bad investment but he got upset. Tried to tell him we cant afford right now but he got upset. Went out and bought her some rice. I asked where my father is and she said he is drinking with some old friend of his lol. My father is upset on me and my brother for not buying more stuff like food. We are literally out of money on a regular basis. All money are going to that house. Our fridge is mostly empty most of the time. My mom needs a surgery and my father doesnt have money because he is making that stupid house ?. When we where kids he bought an apartment in this redneck village. We didnt like it there. We didnt go much and the story will repeat again and again. My grandma is getting more insane as days go by. My family is worried her condition will worsen and we will have to take care of her. Last week she told someone we are starving her...just because my brother didn't act immediately on her whims. I found out one of my friends from HS got an apartment. Dont know if he did it by bank or not. Wow. If he did it by getting a loan its fucking bad man. My colleague from work, 45 with 2 kids got a new apartment a few months ago. Now, as inflation rises he is getting more and more mean to us. He told us he is struggling financially now. This made me put more faith into financial education. You can be old as fuck and still make bad investments. Went out with HS friends last weekend. One of them was upset his father doesnt give him more money, just after just bought him a gopro and a new phone. I told him my father stopped giving me money a few years ago and he said yeah, man but i am doing art, my father gives me money to do smth, you know? What a prick. Another one told us this guy making 2000 euros per month working overtime at his job. Wow. And i have been struggling for fucking 3 months to save up that amount. On Monday we had this lab with a kissasser professor. He was telling us unasked for life advice. He is frustrated.