Everyday

Hello 👋 I drove a few times. it wasn't so hard as I expected. I got tinder back last night and scrolled for literally 2-3 hours. just wanted to see some girls to keep improving myself. Damn, the first swipes where just with hot girls. They know how to dress and they all seemed super smart. I felt not good enough to even date them. I even saw my ex there. I forgot how much I disliked her. it's funny that I don't think of her very often. She's just some girl haha I met with some friends this week and It was fun. I ate junk good afterwards by myself. I felt horrible for that. I think the biggest obstacle to be more productive is to go to sleep at a decent time. 22-23. but damn it feels impossible. I just don't feel comfortable to just sleep so early. I am looking forward to 2026. it will be even a greater year than this one. it feels unreal that I quit my job a few months ago. it isn't even 6 months.

Hello 🏋️ Things are doing well overall. The allergy I had is gone. Now I am able to function normally I worked a lot last few days. I am wondering if I am productive enough. Where should I put my energy? am I making progress? some days it feels like I'm not making any progress. I need to give more tasks to my siblings, especially my brother. He's slacking off. I am struggling to go to bed on time. it feels uneatable. I don't know how to balance work with family. I feel like should spend less time hanging out with them and more working. I have to go to another trip now Friday-Sunday. honestly I didn't want to. it's cold outside anyways. I want to work. I'm still waiting for some proof of making money to tell them sorry I have to work. I refused to hang out last Friday to work and I did work a lot. They said I should have hanged out with them instead. I'm waiting for some moment to say no to anything. I can do this in November for example. Try to be ultra mega focused. 12 hours work days. What else? I watched a bunch of TV movies reviews on YouTube and it isn't enjoyable anymore. I got sick of it. I feel shame. I decided to do 3 months of Spanish with a tutor starting tomorrow. I think it will be a big thing to learn a new language besides everything else I'm doing RN I got my car back today. honestly I am scared to drive again. I had a 2 weeks pause ⏸️ ⏯️

Hello 🚢 I had some knee pain after climbing the mountain and I did legs at the gym right after. the pain left after 2 weeks. now I am much much better. I started once again to train until failure at some sets like I used to do when I was training at home. I bought $1000 worth of tools for eMag. I was very anxious but now I am trying to use these amazing resources as best as I can. I have to organize myself better I am waiting to do my first sea salt flush 🧂 in about 2 weeks Gym is going great. I'm making progress. I started also doing stretching I am struggling to go to bed on time I am watching porn and even worse, movie recaps like I sued to do 3 years ago. I am watching while working but still. I shouldn't do that. why? I feel overwhelmed by the amount of work I have to do. I didn't drive for about 2 weeks. my car is in service I am reading the last jihad book from the dune series. It's fucking amazing I am eating better. I am cooking eggs daily. I am disappointed ☹️ of myself because of this porn thing. I'm tired to fap daily. I am 🤔 pondering if I should pay for online tutoring for Spanish. I do want to learn it fast and well. I m not sure tho. Or should I get the optimized programme. I don't know. there are other stuff I should take care tho I'm already paying for gym, food and stuff. I'm already taking money from my savings. I should wait 🫸

Hey 🐦 So this week I climbed the Musala mountain from Bulgaria and than we went to kavala, in Greece the same day. I was amazed that I was able to keep going even if I got tired but I wasn't out of breath like a few years ago. it's the first time since I had a trip in the mountains since I started the gym and cardio. I also tried super hard to eat super clean while I was traveling. I was surprised how hard it is. apparently It's weird to eat a bunch of protein bars and fruits. My sister's husband even said it's not healthy. What? 😂 I worked harder on my business. I got even more hyped. But I also waste some timer per day watching reels and shit like that's. I even watched dome movie recaps from marvel zombies, first time in years. I felt like shit. I wasn't as good as I hoped. I felt very tired this week. I woke up early daily to hit the gym and worked all day afterwards. I had to take some naps and procrastinate. I was super tired. At night I spent my time watching reels which made me feel even fucking worse. I still have a hard time going to bed at a decent time. I find it unnatural to just sleep when I could do stuff. I plan to buy even more expensive 🫰 products to sell in the next few months. I feel very good overall. I can't believe I'm actually living my dream and I'm working as much as I can on my business. I feel happy even if I want to change so many things. I feel 100 times better than I was at my last 2 jobs I feel discouraged that we don't make more money because of the products I chose months ago. For example we're stuck with some shit products from the beginning of the year and even last year Because I didn't think things through. I had to focus on my job at the time I also feel like my siblings don't see the long game and why we need to work more to want more. My brother keeps saying oh I don't want to do packages all day blah blah. My sister doesn't want to do this business full time. I feel like they don't understand why I m working so hard. Like they say to take it easy but also we make progress because I work a lot. Simple as that. But before I make a lot of money it doesn't seem true that hard work pays off. Sure it doesn't look like it right now. But I do see massive progress looking back. anyways, I plan to do my first sea salt flush next Month. I feel a lot of resistance to do the whole 2 weeks detox protocol. small step. cleaning my insides makes sense also, I feel like I can grow much faster now than when I was going to the office just a few months ago. I was really keeping myself from making progress when I was surrounded by my colleagues. When I was there, the simple fact that I came from home with food for lunch looked like being crazy. lol. i wasn't even eating the right food hahahah. I didn't even date to speak about having a business with them. we didn't even grow there as people. I know I didn't. I felt so fucking stuck I spent 6 months being employed this year. Soon I'll hit 6 moths being funemployed. I finally arrived at the place and time to do my own business. Amazing. man, I worked my ass of to be able to be here. I created this each time I chose to work weekends and afterwork. So here I am! I feel so much better having this struggle than being employed. That's another form of struggle. I prefer this one. I am looking forward to eat as clean as I can in the following years

👋 👋 👋 👋 he yoo-hoo So once again I forgot to post here hehe Since last time wrote here I developed some allergy at something after Budapest. I have to take Aerius just to breath through my nose. I also had some brain splitting headaches from this allergy and maybe modafinil. It was horrible. I am making massive progress at the gym. I'm aslo taking even more care of what I'm eating. anyways, a few times I ate junk food and felt horrible because of it. Just like old times. Eating because of feeling bad. I drove some more My friend kept asking me to take care of the advertising for his website. I delayed it away too much because I just felt anxious to deal with it. But I have to help him. He helped me too. I asked my old colleague from work if he wants to work together and he said he'll call me ahah. But after doing ads for my friend I'm not sure I wanna do this as a part time thing I have moved my gym schedule earlier and earlier. It used to be 10, than 9,30 and now it's 8. I'm aiming at 7. I felt super excited about our business. I finally decided to try to sell more expensive products. I already ordered some stuff on the plane and the other stuff by 🚢 ship. I wanna get even better products next time. I'm hyped. It was super hard to buy better products because of some insecurities I have I started flirting with some girl at the gym but I'm not in a position to date. I should have minded my own business. I noticed that I get a lot of pushback for eating clean from my sister's husband. Nobody else really cares. I find this very annoying I have started reading the second book for the holy jihad war from dune. HOLY SHIT ITS AMAZING 🤩 I FIND annoying that my siblings try to motivate me to get a girlfriend while I just want to work on our business. I'm still putting more work and I see the results! I'm also a little panicking being able to make enough money sooner from my business. This is why I want to work more. I figure out I have to wake up at 6 or SMTH to get my shit done Last month I was setting up google ads for my friend and I looked up some accounts I have access on my personal email from my first job. I just found out today that I made some changes there by mistake. It's a big NO. I WASN'T supposed to even look there. My old supervisor got super mad. A colleague told me this. I jumped out of bad and relieved all the times he bullied me and made me feel dumb. I still have this feeling. I calmed down a little but still, just the thought of having to explain why j did that terifes me. But I already blocked him. Nobody cares. I'm overreacting. It's that deep. I still have my own job and I'm funemployed. I love it. But I'm thinking that I'm not working hard enough. I should be doing stuff that grows my business daily. But I'm doing it just a few times a week. This is why I'm trying to wake up early. But I have to go to bed early. Honestly it feels impossible. I had some hard days. I hate doing stuff right before bad and going to bed late. I have a hard time just taking a break to sleep. I am still feeling ashamed with what my old colleagues from my job would think if me for not making more money with my business. But I love my life now. I hate it back than. also, I found it weird that I also fear making money by selling better and more expensive products because I'm not thinking I'm smart enough for that. I found myself daydreaming of having a girlfriend but I also loath having to keep a relationship. I just see it as a waste of time. My siblings tried to set me up with a girl from their group. I felt triggered for some reason. I don't know why. I think they look down on me for being single but I'm really doing very good 😊. I found myself abusing porn and Instagram once again. I want to wake up early and work on my business but I feel very resistant I m 27 now. I can't believe how much progress I have made last year. It was amazing. I didn't even dream of being funemployed anytime soon. I thought that I didn't date last year after that last girl but my life went up in so many areas. I really made progress. it was so hard to even quit my jobs. I'm proud of myself. now I fear that I'm not working hard enough to charisma this journey and opportunity So some old colleagues reached out. One of them, with whom I was close just stopped replaying after I told him I quit my job. I didn't tell him about my business. I lied the other two that I have some family stuff. I am afraid to tell them about what I've been doing for almost 3 years I feel upset that didn't quit sooner. But damn, it felt impossible. I can't believe I am doing it now. This feels easy. I can't believe I worked there for 4 years. That's insane. I can't believe how many years I had to wake up and pretend to like my colleagues and supervisor. I can't believe how miserable I was I used to waste all my turn working there but now, I don't even want to go to sleep sooner because I don't want to waste time 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣

Helllllllllllllllllloooooooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 I can't believe I didn't write ✍️ here since the beginning of the month. I drove my mom together with my brother and father to her retreat. I was super anxious and scared on my way there. i had to take a few breaks. All that stress made me so tired. The second time was better. But it was much better overall compared to February, when I did the same drive. I still have to start driving alone. I actually did that a few times. This week I hit the car a little to the fence while I was parking it. Nothing horrible. I said to myself that it's ok and I need to keep practicing. My father can't understand why is so hard for me to drive. It's alright I started taking modafinil. It's fucking amazing! I feel so much more motivation on 100mg. I can't say I feel smarter tho. I feel anxious to take 200 mg. Gym is going great!👍 I ate some shit her wand there but I'm working on it. I finally quit that game, kingshot. I was playing it for about 2 months. I made a lot of progress with my business but I still feel there is sooo much more to do it. I am working on my sleeping schedule. I got a smart fit band, Xiaomi 10. it's awesome! It's super big for me that I decided to change my sleep schedule from going to bad late and waking up late to waking up early and going to bed at midnight. I still struggle with the going to sleep part. I noticed that I felt so frustrated that I woke up some days at 12, did some packages and had to go to the gym. If I wake up early I can work more even if I do stuff in the evening. Sooo now I'm going to the gym in the morning. Afterwards I'm doing packages and than I work on the platform. This works much much better for me than waking up late I have been going to bed late since high school. It's such a huge change for me. I still feel weird man. I am used to go to sleep sooo late, get 8 hours of sleep but feel like shit in the morning. I went 3 days in Budapest with my siblings. Amazing city! I finally decided to make some changes in my business. I want to get shit done and make more money. I'm not afraid that my siblings will quit. I can do this with someone else. it's alright. We are discussing now what products now to sell from now on, the one which bring as little money. I want to make more money and work smarter. I finally decided to pay a dude to make some listings for me. I had a few products I didn't list yet. Since I'm taking modafinil I'm doing stuff I delayed for months! I also feel upset that i could have fixed these things months ago. Today I finished the list for the next import from china. we'll take some shit with the train. it's a first for us. it's taking too long on ship my friend got a big loan and told me I can use some of the money if I want to buy shit from China. Man, I can take maybe 20000 dollars , even 50000 dollars. That would be fucking insane. That's why I want to get better products man. I want to make money man. I feel anxious to give up the products which bring me less money but they do sell. But it's the next step we need to take I had a barbecue with friends. I got too drunk haha. one of them asked me if I still go to the gym. I said yeah, with a trainer 3 times a week. He said but I don't see much difference. I had baggy clothes . It's ok but I did get a little upset. He wants me to fail? So I am thinking to contact my ex work colleague who's a PPC freelancer and get some clients from him like we talked about since November 2024. I'm suuuuper scared I won't be able to keep them. But I want to make more money. I want to prove myself that I can. But I also feel stupid, I should focus on work now. I'm doing eMag full time and still don't have enough time to do everything. I don't. know what to do. I feel like I should get 2 clients. Maybe get an extra income. Let's see what happens. I'm watching porn and fapping daily . haha. even more now that I don't use Instagram anymore and I don't play kingshot. Anyways, overall I feel amazing and super proud of myself. Life is great! I'm excited that I have these challenges. This means I'm growing. Next month I'm turning 27. Man, I'm truly excited for the future 🧬 I've done so many changes this last few months. I feel just great. These changes started last year. My life is soooo much better now! oh, last year around this this I was dating my ex. I was soooo stressed about that relationship. I was trying to make that relationship last. I went to Greece for two weeks and hated each day I felt like I need to talk to her just to keep the relationship going. it's been a year since I had sex and my life is soooooo much better. I used soooooo much time focusing on myself. to be honest I wouldn't have quit anytime soon if I was still dating her. I would give that relationship up anytime for the life I have now. That's better than any relationship I ever had. I dated her for 2 months and that relationship took soon much time to manage. I had to see her instead of making a difference in my life. I didn't make a difference just seeing her and feeling sooo annoyed. So I'm greatful for the life I have now!

yeah boyyyyy 🦐 so I had some days I felt really really down and watched some porn and fapped. yeah, that's sucks. Gym is going great. I've been consistent since February. I'm thinking to go in the morning so I'll have the rest of the day to work. I got a fitband from Xiaomi to track my sleep and other stuff. I got a sleep score of around 70. I find it hard to go to sleep on time because I feel guilty for not being productive. So I stay up late and work or read. Wake up late next day but feel like shit because I didn't sleep well. I'm finally on track to fix my sleep. Damn, it's so hard. I've been going late to bed since high school. This helped me build my business after work. But now I don't need that. I can make my own schedule. I am thinking to buy some earplugs and sleeping mask. I wake up in the morning because of the sun going throw my curtains I'm reading Arete by Brian Johnson. It's amazing. I'm doing each exercise even if it's taking longer. Afterwards I want to do the elite programme made by him. I'm excited. I want to get some tools to navigate funemployment hahaha so I was thinking today damn, I'm living those days and months I'll will remember years from now as happiest of my life. I feel so calm and chill even if I'm stressed about my business. But I'm going to the gym, working out, reading dune, reading Arete, driving, working on my business and eating better. That's amazing! I try to think about all the people who don't have this and I feel content and greatful I am still driving and I'm produ of myself. very fucking proud. I'm still reading the butlerian jihad. I'm also reading (finally) the comments from the marketplace group. I finally decided to focus on finding better products. I'm grateful I quit my last job. I told to my friend that I was working so much there until the last day there. He could t understand why. He said man, you should have ran away, fuck them! But I really felt stuck. It felt impossible:(

buenos dias 🌤️ unfortunately I fapped 2-3 times this week. the hardest part I when I wake up. that's when I'm the horniest. I thought that it has been already 3 weeks since I quit. but it's actually just 2 weeks. unbelievable. it feels like it was a while ago. i really like this life! i was thinking lately that the bar was very low at my first job. you weren't allowed to grow too much not encouraged to be better. nobody said hey, bro! you can do more! aprently it was wow that I did meal prep. nobody talked about productivity, making more money, etc. it was a general understanding that working overtime and weekends it's bad. But our bosses did that to make more money. And everytime I worked overtime I felt horrible. But now, I want to make more money so I work overtime. It's no brainier. It's encouraged. And thus I make progress. i was paid just do my work. i felt miserable. i was indeed wasting my time. i felt uncomfortable to be asked why I'm tired. i couldn't say because I worked on my second business. Same when asked about my weekends. that's why I was tired. And above all it wasn't an environment were we talked about making more money, investing, eating better and so on. My colleagues where shocked I do meal prep. Not even talking about eating clean, reading books, working out, growing your business, being a freelancer, etc. I see it now. I wasn't surrounded by ambitious people. I had this older colleague who spoke shit about everyone who wanted to be a freelancer. All because he was too afraid and hated everyone who had the balls to do it. I see that now. All that negative talk got into my subconscious mind. I'm still terrified to have my own business or to be a freelancer. I'm scared as fuuuuck. I don't feel good enough to live like this. Sometimes I still want to be somehow lazy like before. At work I couldn't. set up some schedule of deep work because the tasks were haotic. Now I can do that and I feel anxious even if I was looking forward ⏩ for this opportunity Also, it feels weird to not switch from takes to task while working. I don't have to check my mail, answer SMTH on slack, check my phone and so on. But I do feel much much much better without swiping Instagram between tasks. i did wasted some time on it but not daily like it used to be. Anyways, I feel sooooo much better to work on my business, cleaning my diet, read, hit the gym, drive and so on. Now I'm thinking about how to be more productive. I feel so good knowing I don't have work in the mornings, especially Sunday nights. I was thinking to finish that confidence course I've bought in 2020.... But I just can't. I'm very anxious about it. I have decided instead to do that heroic elite course for the next 3 months after I return from Greece. I'm anxious but I want to take my business to the next level. I want to be much much better i struggle to make a schedule now. Should I sleep for 8 hours? Should I work 4, 8 or 12 hours a day? i dont know. i still feel extremely resistant to sleep at a decent time. Hate it. i feel like I'm wasting time. i won't have a business now if I slept like I should have. I got some Resistance from family and my sister's husband when I say ,,I don't want to eat this or drink another glass of alcohol ". I get this especially from him. He's like oh you really take this seriously? It's just an ice cream. c'mon. i find it annoying and I told him that.

Hello I finally decided to take working more seriously and to listen to stuff on YouTube like interviews and TV series reviews (I watched some of them lately). So yesterday I worked 4 hours without even music. I felt restless. I wanted to check my phone and do something else. Today I did check my phone and listened to some music. I noticed my thoughts wondering and not really paying attention. I realized I daydream a lot while working. I have to focus more on what I'm doing. But overall I was more productive and felt proud of myself. The tasks was finished much faster because I didn't have to stop several times to check the screen and think 🤔 of what happened in that video 📸 I find it easy to work but hard to work smart. I struggle with this. It's been two weeks since I quit. I feel very good overall. I still work on my work schedule but it's alright. I am figuring things out. So now I can actually implement all those self help advice and hard work advice but I feel resistant. it's alright I'm still thinking I don't have time to do stuff. I have the opportunity to work on my work schedule and to optimize it but I feel resistant as fuck. Interesting! But I guess it's just normal to feel like this. I fapped yesterday. I was dreaming of fucking an ex. Woke up and felt horny as fuck. Didn't feel as good once I finished. I feel very good knowing that tomorrow (today) I don't have to wake up at 10. It still feels weird to make my own schedule. I see a lot of self doubt having my own business. Interesting. Why do I think that? I feel like I'm not good enough. That I'm not smart enough to be productive. Being productive requires to follow some steps. I can follow them therefore being productive.

Hello ⛓️‍💥 I'm trying to remind myself to check how I feel these days. I feel a deeper sense of peace of mind. I don't have to worry about my clients, getting fired etc. I have less things to focus now. I feel well but weird. I can't remember the last time I felt like this. I worked more last few days. I'm tired but I don't feel frustrated like I felt working for the agency. I went to the gym and worked out harder, even did two sprints on the treadmill. I felt so good! I'm finally able to make my own work schedule. Lately I have been working until 4-5 am and woke up at 12 I finished two books, dune 7 and 8. Absolutely amazing. I worry that I'm not working enough. I should do more, work smarter and so on. Stuff I'll figure out in the following months. I feel like I should get another job or SMTH to cope with some worries I have. I worry I won't make enough money with my business etc. We'll that's why I am working now. I spent a few hours on Instagram here and there but not as much as before. I feel so much better without it. I did spent some time on yt shorts. I feel some imagined pressure to make money with my business asap. I didn't really feel this while being employed. It was like some excuse for why I don't earn more. Do I'm reading, working on my business, hitting the gym and driving. I'm still not thinking I'm doing enough. But that's fucking amazing!🥹 I used to spent my time waiting to be here, at this moment. It's been a week and a day since I gave my laptop. Time flies! I have been productive. I was so worried about wasting time I didn't fap again but I did watch porn yesterday. Weird how it started.

Hello 👋 I had a lot of tasks to finish for the last days at work. We had a meeting 🤝 online with the whole PPC team to tell us goodbye (me and a girl who also left on the 20th of june). I felt ashamed to say I will take care of my granny after I quit. Someone said I guess you'll watch a lot of TV series. Another colleague said that's what he'd do. I also worked overtime, even on Saturday to finish everything. Damn, I had a lot of shit to finish. I saved a bunch of useful documents Even of Friday a client freaked out about some mistake I have done in one of those campaigns. It was 20:00. Damn, she even threatened she'll go to another agency. I felt really good I don't have to deal with her anymore. The girl who also quit said she is going through a break up now and have up her 1 month vacation to start at the other job sooner. So this Tuesday I went to the office to give them back my laptop. The secretary kept asking why can't just my parents hire someone to take care of my grandma etc. she was very suspicious. Probably all of them know I lied but I have a place to come back 🔙 if I want to. Basically a plan B. I visualized the moment of walking home after leaving my laptop for months. I felt weird and anxious. I also felt relieved. Damn, I signed the contract in February. It's June. It was really really stressful to know I have to quit and than having to finally quit. I was also stressed as fuck with those clients. I was so frustrated having to work overtime while I neglect my own business. But I learned a lot. And I felt so much better working from home. It turns out my old job was toxic. I also felt stuck there. I thought I'm not good enough to get hired in other places. I showed myself that's not true. I silenced a lot of fears and problems with the excuse that I have to work sooooooo hard to finish my tasks at work. But afterwards some problems didn't solve themselves. I'm right where I left from The last few days I felt everything from frustration, calmness, joy, boredom, concern etc. I can't believe I am actually doing it. I quit my job to pursue my business. I feel worried that I'm not working enough. I don't have a fix work schedule. I think I should work like 10-12h a day with no excuses. The last few days I took breaks to cook, clean, read, waste time, gym etc. Before I didn't allow myself sometimes to even eat because I had to work. It feels weird to not have to postpone business related tasks because of my main job. To be honest I got used to delay a lot of stuff. Now I feel resistance to do some of these stuff. I worry I'm not smart enough to make money with this business. Funny, since I just started. I watched some TV recaps over the last few days. I feel horrible about it. Now, while working I try to pay attention since it's very interesting 🤔 so I stop often. that's not ok. These tasks take even longer. I find it harder to focus now. I feel the best in the morning/noon, when I don't have to run upstairs and to take part at the morning meeting. I don't have to stress so much about clients and tasks. I still didn't far since last time. I feel very horny, especially in the morning. I noticed my sister's boyfriend trying to have me eat unhealthy. I find it annoying. I bought rice and vegetables in bulk. I drove more. I managed to park the car alone, several times. I went to the gym and I found it hard to push myself even if I thought that's what I'm going to do after I quit. Take the gym seriously. But here I am and it's still hard haha. However I had a great gym workout after sleeping 8 hours. I think I have to change my sleep schedule as well. I spent a few hours on Instagram. I felt so bad afterwards. I took a break for a few days. I deleted Instagram again. I felt so sick. I am anxious to make a schedule now. I'm anxious to test myself to work for 12h a day or SMTH like that. I feel like I don't deserve to have the life that I'm having now. I'm not the smartest etc. But why not take advantage of it anyway? I can't believe it's almost a week since my last day of work. Unbelievable! Time it's flying 🪽

Hello I fapped twice this week (Friday). I felt so fucking guilty about it but I chill out. Beforehand (haha) I was thinking about wanting to fuck and to have a girlfriend. Afterwards I was like yeah... it was really pleasurable but nothing changed. It's morning, I have a full day of work to do. Sex won't change your life. It's just like drugs. It's nice but you end up in the same place afterwards. Nothing has changed. Life's the same. I feel anxious about doing eMag full time. What if it doesn't work? My friend is doing so fucking well for himself. I'm struggling here. But I'm also doing it besides another full time job. So it's alright. I have a back up plan now anyways. It's alright. I am focused on eating cleaner. I'm surprised they I lost some weight. I drove 4 times this week. It's getting better! It's still hard but not as hard as before. To be honest I expected life to be easier after I quit. Now I see that it's still hard but in other ways. I can't believe tho that's my last week of work at last. I have dreamed of this moment since I started selling stuff online, almost 2 years ago. Here it is. After two years I'm able to do this full time. Wow!I I did spent some time on Instagram but on desktop. I didn't go nuts like I used to. Man, those weeks were very frustrating. Work this week was stressful. I had some meetings with my clients and colleagues. I made some briefs for my accounts for my colleagues. I'm looking forward to not stresses about these clients next week. Hack, I'm looking forward to not have to stress about my office job at all. I'm anxious but also excited.

Hello ⛓️‍💥🪓 I have to say that I feel better not spending an hour a day on social media. However I did try to log in by default on my phone. I spent a few minutes from my desktop here and there. It made me feel bad but I didn't spiral. I am looking forward to quit this job. I'm really stressed. Next week it's my last. So I basically have to put my shit in order and have a few more uncomfortable calls.😰 After that I'm done. I can't believe it's basically next week. It still feels unreal I'll be able to make my own schedule. I feel excited and also worried I'll waste my new found free time and peace of mind. It's alright. I'll deal with that. I stocked some of my colleagues on Facebook. One of them has a kid already and so on. It reminded myself that life is short. You don't have much free time besides work. Use it wisely. I'm anxious to waste my free time. I'm already 26. I'm watching video game story videos while working and I don't like it anymore. I can't pay attention to what I'm doing. I don't like it man. I should be focused. I feel anxious to tell people I quit my job to do eMag full time. I feel like they judge me and I have to show them something. But I didn't feel this while I had a job. It felt like I protect myself from such questions. I have an answer for them. But long term I see that it doesn't matter. Focus on your shit man. After all, really use your time to improve yourself. What else? I started the 7th dune book and it's amazing! I took a one month break because I felt bad reading so much instead of working on my business. I was also procrastinating a lot and I wasn't doing much at work. It was horrible. After that I spent my time on reels. I started at some girl's bodies at the gym. Damn, really hot girls. P.S. It's not not hard to quit social media after all. Uninstalling the apps helps.

Hey 🪰👋 I am getting 💪 stronger at the gym. I see some results. I'm still working on eating clean. I have little success with the choices I make when I eat. I was very tired yesterday. Had 4 calls. Slept after one of them. Went to the gym afterwards and pushed myself hard. It was harder since I went to bed at 3 or 4 am Knowing that I have to have the discussion of me quitting made me feel horrible for month. Basically I stressed the fuck out for maybe 20 minutes of a hard conversation. That was it. I quit, that's it. I am back on Instagram daily, as well as Facebook and watching video games recaps. I hate that I'm doing it. It feels once again hard as fuck to quit my phone. Damn, I'm still not watching porn or fapping for maybe 2 months and I feel amazing. But how could I quit porn and not social media? I don't even post I'm feeling anxious about being funemployed once again for un undetermined time span. I feel like I should be extremely productive because I have this opportunity to not have a boss. I feel like I dont deserve it. Why do I get to choose what I'm doing tomorrow while millions of people don't? Why can I work on my business and read books while others can't? Do I deserve it? It feels illegal to be able to work full time on my business, to go to the gym earlier, read books, enjoy the sun, take a walk and so on. Maybe one of the best things is that I can drive more often I'm also single and I don't have to worry about having money for dates and so on. I don't know why but dating is very stressful for me. What can I do to manage the anxiety of spending my time right while being funemployed? To work as much as I can. It would be to quit social media once again. I'm anxious to tell someone I quit my job to pursue my business until I make money to sustain myself. But I'm also excited to have all that time to improve myself. If Im a better driver at the end of the year it would be such an amazing thing man.

Hey 🦧 I finally had a meeting with my boss about me leaving this job. I'll stay until June the 20th. He wanted until the end of the month. He said I can come back in the future. That's sounds great! I have a plan b. Basically I don't have to feat for the future. Give everything to make this business work. I was so stressed with some tasks at work that I thought to skip gym today. I'm glad I did go. I still feel embarrassed that I had to quit but I can't keep this shit going on. I went back to work after I returned from the gym. I spent some time while being at work to get brainrot from Facebook and Instagram. Man, I feel like quitting social media apps it's harder than not fapping. Wtf? So it took me half year to finally purse my business full time. Crazy! It was so fucking hard to quit the second time around. Hack, it was horrible the first time as well. I'm finally going to pursue my own business. I'm anxious about it. I feel like I don't deserve to have this opportunity to pursue my own business while also improving myself 🥹 I can't believe what I can do from now on. I can basically work like crazy to be better in so many ways. I'm excited as fuck. I'm also afraid I'll be watching tv series and being lazy. It's such a great opportunity tho