Leightonm

Going from unconsciousness to consciousness is the hard part.

@fridjonk thanks, will try this.

I have developed an interest in web development/design, and have been absorbing content/info like crazy for the past few weeks/months. My job has been occupying (and still is) most of my headspace though. How do I tip the scale?

@Serotoninluv you just lost me. I will contemplate. Thank you.

@Serotoninluv what seperates belief and action? It just seems as if belief is action without movement. It is someting being done; Unconsciously, but still.

@wavydude negative beliefs, safe from negative action, has a negative effect on the body?

@Serotoninluv interrelated, how?

@Serotoninluv Belief: identification with thought. Action: the doing of things, to put it simple.

Meaning depression and suicidal thoughts can kill without you actually committing suicide? The act. @wavydude

Can an idea without any action kill you? And secondly, is belief an action?

Everything is the most beautiful thing.

WHAT IS CHANGE? ...and why do I want it? Why am I seeking it? Is it an inward or outward moving force? Can it be controlled? Or guided? How does it manifest? Is it even a thing? If it's not a thing, then why are no two moments the same? If it is a thing, where does the driving force come from? What is pushing change along? Or is change just the result of some other force? What would this other force be? ______________ I believe I need to be someone else. My current self is just not coping. Change is co-operative, or rather it can be cooperated with. Is this true? It just happens. How and why can be known. I don't know now. But I can. I'm afraid of what that would entail. I'm afraid of the responsibility. What might be asked of me. This puts me in a rather peculiar position; one where I'm actively looking for change but not willing to accept and embrace it. I'm tired of the stories.

FEAR, DEVELOPMENT, CHANGE I have a visceral aversion to change and development. Just visiting the Toastmasters website induces stress, judged sensations, and memory recall. I cannot go further than that. I recently went through a whole process of researching the best martial arts places, found one I would like to go to, and nothing happened. It's just hanging there now. But at least it's hanging there right? I don't know. I had the idea that I have changed. But the idea of change is not change itself.

I have experienced this in a trip. The story/thought and result/manifestation is immediate. It happens at the same time. I don't how to get back there. May just be my imagination.

COLOURS Colours is a concept. Not colour itself, but the categorisation of it. No that's incorrect, colour is a concept. It doesn't exist. The tree in my backyard does not have a definite colour. It has no colour. It is what it is at that exact moment. Nothing less, nothing more. Yet all I can see is a tree. PS: Spiral Dynamics takes advantage of the fact that we have these colours within our awareness. It highjacks the meaning and inserts a new meaning on top of it. Ingenious really.