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I feel it, my salary was not increased past 9years, I guess it was too high ... hmm, wanted to "retire" 3years ago and then corona hit (it was great time) and then inflation hit so I decided wait until I see we are out of the woods. According to Mr. Moustache I saved 25x yearly spending so I can "retire", I just try to stick to a plan rather than hurry.

Until when ?

here are my results .... I lack empathy, strange. Anyway, I'm quite able to accept antisocial behavior and certainly lack some effort towards socially rewarded behavior. I guess it can be related to COVID times .

and Nothing is Everything.

Proof? Stamp? Certificate? Vaccination? Yes, I'm fully vaccinated by freedom and still ... I do like to slip into a persona. Do I fully understand it? Well, as best as I can.

Finally ! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9v_wwg6DIY&t=260s

Yes, there is only me. There is not you !

my favorite https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wU0PYcCsL6o

what dreaming ? who is dreaming ?

Jump onto real-estate train as soon as possible in the area that is going to stay desired in the next 10-15years. Whether it is a flat or house does not matter too much unless running costs differ dramatically. It is your inflation protection. Ideally, buy one where you want to live and another one in the country that has young(er) population ;). You can thank me later.

I've chosen good paying job (top 1%) and almost no free time. However, I knew nothing about different way of living when I started working ... it was all about the money .... since I woke up there was a resistance towards my job. This job allowed me to plan my job retirement within 2years and I can concentrate on other things and not to be bothered by the money. As a householder, get the money and do as much sadhana as you can. If still unsure buy Leo's course and find your niche/purpose for instance. Also, learn from Leo's journey as well. In my experience, many of spiritually oriented people still have/had residual blocks and issues related to wealth and money.

@Consilience Congratulation, just 2h per day for 1y is zero in terms of time of the universe. Without Leo's or similar explorations it is difficult to grasp the is-ness. The order of understanding is as in @Leo Gura quote: "You are God. You are Love. You are Infinity. You are Leo." Contemplating in the reverse order .... who am I? what am I? who is the other ? what is this ?

Explore it as a strange loop.

God can be conscious devil. Consciousness does not guarantee moral concepts.

yo

Returned from holiday. It was short but I enjoyed it. I listened to Great Minds of the Eastern Intellectual Tradition https://www.amazon.com/Great-Minds-Eastern-Intellectual-Tradition/dp/B00DTNVNT2 I liked it and found many things that I even never heard of, one interesting character that I', aligned with is Nagarjuna. https://iep.utm.edu/nagarjun/ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm part of online dyads group that I appreciate. I booked flight to London and I plan to attend few days retreat. Hopefully, second wave of COVID won't be the issue because I already cancelled previous retreat in May. It is something that I'd like to bring into Center Self+Love. The opening of center has still few months to go.

Goal: finish Leo's course, self-realization , self-actualization, center for enlightenment I started with self-actualization and self-realization when money stopped making me happy, actually lots of things stopped making me happy, I got into relationship problems and I tried to find out way out of misery. It is already almost 9 years now. Time to move on !

I'm really thankful for COVID lockdown in a sense that I have ability to build Ikea kitchen and at the same time listen to Leo's videos. I've just listened to stage red video and I've seen myself in certain situations in stage red. Not only that I had realization that when I used to play games as a teenager I appreciated more Civilization rather than Doom and similar. It is not that I did not play Doom/Wolfenstein or similar but I got bored much earlier than some other strategic games. Therefore, I appreciate Leo's remark on playing games with elements of red stage in a sense that it should give red perspective and serve as some kind of bust/release of red stage behavior. This might be the way how to move teenagers trough stages faster than earlier generations.

Dyads is something that I wan to do in Center Self+Love therefore I signed for online dyads. I wondered how self realized I am. At first, I had dyads with somebody who wanted to open to me because I was asked to repeat communication. However, in the second set I fucked up because I jumped in on purpose, I wanted to do good but I realized that I was not asked to do it and therefore I failed and lost trust, it was a good lecture. I apologized and I accepted it but my hope was understanding why I did it. Well, what to do I have to let go. Today, I just finished first evening with group working and I had opportunity to have dyads with master. It was interesting to see how people are struggling at different levels. I looked like people are at different levels of spiral dynamics but they struggle similar way, it looks like reaction to barrier is the same, banging head against the wall instead of finding the way to break or go somehow around it. If anybody feels he/she wants to try dyads with me feel free to contact me.

It is unbelievable how life plays its cards. I have to deliver to officials project that is done by architect or similar and I asked my uncle whether he would do it. Long story short he agreed so we almost almost finished the project. Here comes lump inside the breast of his wife and all is stopped, rushing to doctors, hospitals, surgery. Many people say that it wants to tell me something. Well , I just say, if there is any suffering I'm too attached to a project. Or one can say, waw, what a coincidence! At the same time we all become more conscious about the limited physical life as we know it.

I'm just listening to Leo's new video and I went past 17min realizing that I had that realization in the evening after 5Meo when I wondered whether there is even something .... I questioned here and now and I saw there is no-here and no-now that was mind-blowing . Interesting, Leo claims that: all there is - is nothing and the reason that it exists is that it is nothing, excellent. after 35 minutes thich nhat hanh advices to ask if you got "empty" glass. Empty glass ... but empty of what ? reality is just superposition of mega wavefunction that is actually virtual ?

I heard it in one of the recent films: "Gravity is a reaction to loneliness." I cannot unlike it. I triggers lots of buttons. It seems I did not post for several months. This does not mean that I was doing nothing, it seems I do not need spend time writing memos but I was living life. Is there any better film than your own?! One should keep living rather than keep watching ... However, I also realized that how attached I become to the project Center Self+Love. Once I realized that all is as it should be and there is nothing to be done it helped me to return to parvatha state. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- To infer one’s existence no other evidence is necessary. The senses and the mind arising from the ego cannot serve as evidence relating to the Self. The Self is their basis. They do not exist independently of the Self. One’s own existence is self-evident. Bliss is the Self. All become dear only owing to the love of Self. Love is not different from the Self. Love of an object is of an inferior order and cannot endure. Whereas the Self is Love, in other words, God is Love.

I heard it in one of the recent films: "Gravity is a reaction to loneliness." I cannot unlike it. I triggers lots of buttons :).

what layer? Sure , I get it, you want to put it into concepts.

Hmm, that is the shortcoming of language. I mean the definition of real. What is? Yes, all seems real until it isn't. Also consciousness is real until it isn't. Even Newton was looking for a substrate of light (ether). If projection is what we experience etc. we still do not know how many dimensions one need to go to get to the director, if there is any. Ultimately one is going to ask why? .Substance aka matter aka ether