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“And still, after all this time, The sun never says to the earth, 'You owe Me.' Look what happens with A love like that, It lights the Whole Sky.” - Hafiz

I knew it instantly upon meeting him, we've been together ever since. Destiny as I knew upon our first conversation (he jokingly proposed to me after talking to me for 5 minutes) and over the years this has just gotten deeper and deeper. We broke up for a few months, but then had a telepathy experience and feeling of being at home occured. So yes, difficult shit did happen (the mind is a bitch) but somehow you cannot be apart because it feels wrong. And denying what is right just hurts.

I have experienced and am still experiencing this. It feels like destiny. It is a different kind of relationship. The feeling of yin meeting yang is all how I could describe it.

Start off being vegetarian. I became a vegetarian when I was 12 years old, none of my friends or family was vegetarian and therefore I needed to start cooking all my food myself. It teaches you a lot You can do it!

Perhaps Rupert can seem a bit too sensitive to some, but that is the beauty of his expression. He makes this art, his book Being Aware of Being Aware is the loveliest book I have ever read. Rupert <3

The more time spent on this forum or any other forum in that case is time (at least for most of us) spent not present. Not in the truth. Yes other monkeys are great but they will not figure out this stuff for you. Only "you" can.

This experience happend about a month ago and it has really been the point of no return. I was looking at my environment whilst candy flipping and of course, naturally, felt very good. The question arised, where, what and which is feeling good. I did not try to think this thought, I felt it. And then suddently there it was. The me that had been was no longer there yet I had never felt more at home. I no longer was but yet "I" was everything. My partner, who had helped push me to this point my helping me realize that my thoughts were not in my control and were not me, was sitting next to me and I began to thank him. I felt as I was thanking myself as I did not see any difference between us (or with myself or anything else.) Then the most oddest thing happend. I began to read his mind? We kept looking at each other and without saying a word had conversations. I felt as I was him and he was me and saw that they reason that I had fallen in love with him, was because I saw him as the exact opposite of me. The yin to my yang. He had recently left me after a long relationship and I had felt extreamly unhappy due to it. I had felt as I needed him. I realized that what I thought I was needing in him was already in myself. As he was me. I was him. This sensation of truth and of being complete was odd very familiar yet something I had never felt. Everything that had ever happend to me seemed like the biggest joke I had played on myself. As I, and my partner had both hinted to this, as I had always known the truth. The telepathic conversation added another dimention to this and this was the single most important thing that ever was. I have had this thought at the back of my head for a long time, I am kind. The meaning is to be kind. And there I truely was. Kindness. Love. Everything. I asked my parter what he wanted to do, as I was free. I did not mind what would happen from this moment on. I knew what I was and I knew external things would not change it. I knew there as happiness at every moment, I just needed to stop and be it. Prior to this knowing of the truth I had been a very emotional person, easily led away by thoughts and emotions. Although thoughts still arise, I recognize that they are not true. I feel as I am less emotional, although there are still some times (very rarely) when these get a hold of me for a moment. I'm sure I am forgetting to mention some parts but I thought that this could be an experience worth sharing, especially for my fellow monkeys who might define themselves as emotional. There is the truth, just keep doing the work. I leave you with this quote from Gangaji: The love that you search for everywhere is already present within you. It may be evoked by any number of people or events. But finally, you must realize you are this love. The source of all love is within you. Thank you <3

@Nahm Thank you. Don't be jealous as you most likely already are "here" too. You just need to remember it. Much love

@molosku Yes, I indeed did, although I do think it was both of us doing it. To me it was a mutual awakening although I do not prefer using that term. I love us, this, all as well <3

@molosku just be. like gangaji says. just. be. there is no trick around this.

i found that tibetan singing bowls, although not exactly music, are better if you feel the need to have some sound. although i do love silence the vibration somehow seems to provoke less thoughts.

You are resisting meditation if you feel it's a chore. Try to learn how to enjoy the process, try to feel how nice and peacefull it is to just be and enjoy the moment. If you can't stop resisting meditation, just meditate less, you could start with really short sessions, like just 5 minutes. Don't push it. Eventually you will want to meditate longer.