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Yes definitely torture would be an even worse option, as for reliving the exact same life, I don't think that is something that is happening, does't feel right.

@Mindfang413 I would suggest doing a really big step and starting doing something. A hobby, a study, anything! When you are constantly doing something you will find that your mind will be so busy so the bad thoughts will have no room. I mean you don't have anything to lose. Just stand up go an join a Capoeira martial art class. Or start cycling or go hiking, join a mountain climbing group or learn to do kendama tricks, find a job. There are endless things you can try. There is something for everyone. Fill your program and you will see results. Sending you much love .

That is one of by biggest fears too, not dying, but that I may be born again in an other body and not remember anything from this life. And be a person( or anything else) that never wonders about existential questions. I feel like that would be so sad. So that's why I'm trying to live this life to the fullest...

@erik8lrl Yes that's true, I'm seeing it too! See you ^^

@Leo Gura Yes I agree, I did a smaller dose just in case, as yesterday on 5meo was really something...(almost too much for me to handle) For sure DPT won't be so gentle in the higher doses. Now I think I'm ready for the big steps We always begin from something. Also update: It has been a little more than two hours and I feel totally normal and not sleepy at all(unlike it was with 5meo) Probably because of the small dosage. I'll write on here when I will do more research with the substances. Also question: has anyone tried combining them? I guess it should be safe..

Sorry in advance for any grammar mistakes, English isn't my native language Okay so... It's been about an hour+ since I took 25mg DPT(plugged) I'm feeling really happy I must say. Generally it reminded me a lot of 5meo which I tried yesterday for the first time. But I felt it more gentle that 5meo(same dosage) Maybe because I knew what to expect kind of... Only thoughts in my mind right now are that I love my life sooooo much. Like soooo much. And old school trance music. Probably not exactly what I should be doing right now. But this music calmed be down so much, I feel literally in a state of bliss. Music with headphones on psychedelics is really something...and this uplifting music, I'm feeling so alive, such a weird dejavu feeling. It's also really nice that I can type with no problem right now. Random facts about yesterdays 5MeoDMT experience: I was having the most random thoughts possible, non stop until I got a feeling that I was losing my body and then I just fell asleep and woke up about 10 hours later, one of the deepest sleeps I had. In the beginning all I was thinking was "this is nuuuts" haha I can definitely see how "death" can happen on higher dosages. Random thoughts also are that I just wish I had company for all this experiences, It's hard to find like minded people my age(I'm turning 22 12th January) that are interested in spirituality awareness psychedelics etc... Much love to everyone <3 Listened on repeat for almost an hour https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EM2dsZf1oKg

Yes, I have been following Leo for about two years now, I've watched the one about rectal administration too, which is really helpful. I've done also a lot of psychedelics and mostly for personal growth, to raise my vibration, consciousness etc. Since a crazy trip I had on 2cb I always wondered if there is something even more eye opening, so I definitely feel ready for 5 meo and Dpt. I'm going to write on here tomorrow on how it goes. And thank you

Ohhh myy I just got 5meo and Dpt, I can't believe it, I think I'm going to pass out from excitement, It's actually happening!!! I'm planning to try them tonight. (5meo today and maybe dpt tomorrow) Any suggestions? How should I prepare?(I think I'm trying plugging) Thank you in advance <3

@Jed Vassallo Thank you, just watched it, sooo interesting, I just can't imagine a trip like that, can't wait to try it. Hope in a week or so... I just have a question, if we the "head" imagined everything, all reality, why is it imagined in this specific way? I don't know how to make this question more specific... like why planets why humans why do we have this form and all material objects this specific way? Was there an inspiration to make everything this specific way? I'm soooo exited to find answers... Just hope not to lose my mind

@dimitri Yes I've tried a lot of "classic" psychedelics and at really high doses... for example 55mg 2cB orally was a trip I will never forget,or 450ug of Acid, sadly tho because I don't smoke at all, smoking DMT was every time a fail.. I just can't hold the smoke, I immediately cough. That's why 5meo and dpt (plugging) I feel like will be more suitable for me.

Just found the topic of DPT on the forum, that's what I'm going to be trying

Ok because I feel like it's going to be a secret for a long time, I'll just order a mix of tryptamines to try... As Leo says we have to investigate everything by ourselves right? Challenge accepted ! (had an awakening experience today so I really need that extra push of Truth) and psychedelics are just such a powerful tool... I'm going to update you when I manage to make any progress in the investigation, meanwhile please if anyone has any more clues? Would be really helpful as ordering every tryptamine might be a little expensive