Carl-Richard

I'm just preemptively clenching my anus for when somebody points at me in the same fashion to explain comments like your's and threads like Zeroguy's, "this is your creation", since I started talking about cults and all. And Leo did not find it funny at all let's say that.

@AION Bruh stop. If there was something that created Connor, it was Ayahuasca and his bipolar tendencies.

A glimpse into truth doesn't fix an unstable ego. It can start the process of fixing it. But it doesn't automatically fix itself. A radical experience can leave a lasting imprint and cause what seems like serenity on the surface, and it can also cause a radical neurotic and obsessive bungee smack. Bipolar mania has many of the signs of neurosis and obsession, that you get hyper-fixated on certain things and it seems extremely profound, but there is also a restlessness and resistance. A manic person who is not resisting is just in bliss, their mind is silent, where does the energy go? To create bliss. That's especially how kundalini awakening can either cause immense bliss or immense contraction and not coincidentally mania. You're just upping the energy levels. How you deal with it, how reactive your ego is or self-fueled it is, that's what dictates whether it's chaotic and difficult or calm and pleasant. A subtle nuance is that your mind could probably still be "psychotic" while being in a non-dual state, but that would have to be in the realm of thought content ("thought disorder") rather than immense contraction and the associated restlessness, neurosis, perhaps more in the direction of schizophrenia than bipolar mania (although both see worsening of symptoms under elevated stress and energy levels). Like you could imagine someone who has immense calm but their mind is simply computing things quite differently than other people.

I asked Nick Fuentes "Nick you mention non-dualism/perennialism sometimes. Is there a baby in the bathwater there (mystical experience)? U had one?" and he answered "I've never had a mystical experience, no". But he seems to know what it is because he answered it immediately (not surprising of course if you know about non-dualism/perennialism). But man, I was expecting like an answer on why non-dualism/perennialism is bullshit and why Christianity is the goat but he just skimmed right over that :Z It's at 4:20:36: https://rumble.com/v7ciea8-america-first-ep.-1713.html?e9s=src_v1_ucp_f

How so? Can anybody link direct information from the police and not news articles that allege the police said something?

I post a lot about virtuosity (sheer technical skill), but on the other "side" you have people who are very into songwriting and creating a certain refined sound perhaps by chasing an internal vision of what they want to see. A band that has recently stood out to me there is Sybreed. Think Krautrock, industrial, Rammstein, with prog and djent elements, and then just this soulfulness that is hard to pin down but it's just there, pure clear inspiration. Another band like this is Cynic (similarly ecclectic but still highly visionary and intuitively attuned; in fact I know of no other band that sounds like Cynic even in terms of the genre, not just the visionary signature).

They say that good music keeps you at the edge between familiarity and surprise. Too familiar becomes boring, and too surprising becomes hard to follow. Musical improvisation is the manifestation of this in real time, and you can usually notice when the player is engaging in well-established/familiar patterns ("licks") and when the player is creating something completely original. I'm used to improvising a lot on guitar, and I've noticed that I'm able to imagine impossibly intricate and original lines of improvisation in my head, but I'm in no way technically advanced enough to manifest that through my instrument. When I listen to the most complete virtuostic improvisational players out there, even though they can come very close many times, I always feel a tension between boredom and impenetrability. Of course, this desire I have of hearing the most hyper-creative lines of notes that I can possibly imagine is impossible to fulfill. It's completely relative to my unique conception of music, and I would probably never in a million years get to hear somebody produce even 10 seconds of those exact notes (which would be absolutely transcendentally orgasmic if it happened). Nevertheless, I know two players who come extremely close, and I'll try to weigh to which extent they're too "boring" ("musically conventional" is a better word) or too impenetrable (too melodically or harmonically complex) relative to my impossible standard of imaginative perfection. Guthrie Govan (obviously). It's tricky, because he is so versatile that he often fluctuates between too conventional (like bluesy bendy stuff) and too complex (like jazzy shredding stuff). I'll give an example for each player: Allan Holdsworth is notoriously known for being impossible to imitate by other players. For reference, Guthrie Govan can imitate virtually anyone but him. He often becomes too complex. I sometimes have to listen to his songs 30 times to understand what he is doing (like the run at 1:28 in the video below). (Btw things become more interesting around 0:40).

I had a thought that what most "shredders" (people who play fast guitar) do is their either don't improvise, or if they do improvise, they play very simple and isolated and repetitive phrases that usually don't connect to a larger story (or it jumps into a quite different story, one at a lower level of speed and intensity). They do the equivalent of saying very fast "I like cake, I like cake, I like cake" and then maybe "I like muffins, I like muffins, I like muffins", and then they go to singing more slowly "Oooh cake, caaake...... cake" or "Broccoli! Kale! That's what I like". Meanwhile someone like Shawn Lane, Guthrie Govan or Allan Holdsworth are like really fast like Eminem rapgod speed "I went down to the market to buy some cake and then I saw this lady with this massive cake and I thought 'damn, how much does that cost?', probably priceless if you ask me". They tell a whole story, they do interesting and funny things, like Guthrie Govan especially, he is like a guitar comic, he tells literal jokes on the instrument, some sounds and deliveries (lead ups and punchlines) he makes are so surprising and crazy but also witty and they make sense, they make you laugh, like how Theo Von talks almost all the time. And again, all while playing at lightspeed. It's one of those cases of having both a high IQ and high cognitive complexity (which usually translates to genius), or simply being tapped into pure creative intelligence. Watch this: And then this: https://youtu.be/I7AaKrHgK1A?t=312&is=HooO5XrolcOOxe-5 Or this:

https://chatgpt.com/share/6a26cd3e-d82c-83eb-9d2d-85e5e78f0ed3

My favorite 🤩

You're God but God has humans in it and we love humans. And so that nobody gets the wrong idea, my "cult critiques" (if you can even call them that) do not involve drawing histrionic associations to people dying. That would be a "corruption" of those critiques. There is no good statistical argument for that as far as I'm concerned, certainly not a guy allegedly jumping in a lake and getting a cramp in his leg 5 years after ever interacting with this place. Although I understand why somebody who might be affected by somebody's passing would want to try to make sense of it by drawing such connections. Religions all throughout history have questioned the veracity or realness of death, physical reality, and you can find so many ways to attribute someone's death to those ideas, yet they're ubiquitous and people don't tend to question it to the same level as more "cult" variations on the same phenomena. And yes, mentally unstable people can get caught in such ideas in less than ideal ways, or they just do mentally insane things, and mentally insane things transpire. That's a cause for caution, but should you throw all such ideas under the bus because of mentally unstable people? Probably not. But I also say we should probably have guardrails which do not currently exist in our culture for many people who instead go to cults and take in open source information without any proper guidance. Call it a new religion, with institutions, norms, that allows some sense of protection for people engaging in such ideas. But there too, mentally insane people will a find a way to be mentally insane.

Other than mystical experience or awakening, what is it you think Curt is missing?

So the claim is x person is "lost in concepts". Now, merely knowing about a state that puportedly goes beyond concepts (not even having had an "explosive" experience of it directly, but perhaps feeling it is possible through intuition), would that mean you're "lost in concepts" or is your position more "aware of alternatives to concepts but being mostly focused on concepts"? Again, if the lesson is "not being lost in concepts", start by investigating your judgements. Then again, I know Leo likes to judge. It is promoted here. Contrast it to a physicist who has never heard about the concept of non-duality, who is stuck in his mind and disconnected from his body, and thinks even psychology is woo woo.

Does Curt not have "any clue" what it is?

"You're lost in non-concept". Or perhaps that's an overgeneralization? Maybe it's not that simple? Maybe you just focus on different things but you can recognize the same lesson to a fundamental extent. Curt is painfully aware of non-duality, he has interviewed Gura, Spira, etc. Abstractions do give you some things, as limited as they are, they are more than simply non-concept alone (more than non-concept without it). "Lost in x" is a judgement (and maybe a particularly harsh one), the very concepts you want to question. If you talk to Curt, he will give you his take, his take on non-concept, and it will not be entirely captured by the judgement, even if it's accurate. And as harsh judgements often go, they can be prone to being inaccurate. They tend to stem from some charged place, not from clear seeing, not from clear engagement, but entrapment in some limited view. Non-duality is not that special, non-duality is not very obscure. You have quite mainstream people, Alex O'Connor, Nick Fuentes, talking about it on multiple occasions. Some people just go to something else because it's in a sense quite simple and you can do many other things with your mind. Sure, you can deepen your non-dual 'understanding' and embodiment. That's a valid way to refining one's connection to reality. But it's not the only way, and again, people focus on different things. But don't necessarily judge them as "lost", perhaps they are as painfully aware of their limitations or more than you (although you do gain a kind of advantage by being on the outside of something, some distance. But that also goes the other way. Maybe you're too "lost"/immersed in the non-dual to recognize the validity and landscape of concepts).

Car Bomb is da bomb. And that was fabdonkulous.

I wouldn't take my late night "raps" and pleading for the lulz to make me stop too seriously, but kundalini has been active for quite some time (years, especially since I got awakenings when I was taking in Jan Esmann energy). Not sure I would say it's properly "awakened", but it gets aroused at times, I feel it in my spine and it directly corresponds to a shift/increase/non-dualification in consciousness. I not too long ago resonated with somebody saying that the kundalini process starts "from above" in that it's a shift in consciousness that then pulls the energy upward. Intellectual "masturbation" is how I expend a lot of that energy. I'm energetically and philosophically vegan. My "vegan activism" critiques are sort of intellectual masturbation. I wouldn't want to kill an animal in the wild.

No talk

Copy the white.

@something_else Try debating whether a tomato is a fruit or a vegetable. Did that once. I repeat: once.

Quack? 🦆

Need when you sleep to. Need you when sleep to. Need you when to sleep. Need to you when sleep. Leaving me with a few options here. Why is my brain like this when I have to sleep, thinking like a sheep, not counting them, counting on being sleek, getting girls real steep, won't peep, go deep, I've become the comic relief, not even smoking leaf, not talking to her from the Great Barrier Reef but the great Sweet in Swed-en, no jacket on, just a Coat, goatboat. I will never rap again. or will I rap again, probably not, only listen to snotnosed metal music and jazzfusion, fusing my wires in a Twist, like the Swedish candy (no sorry that's Noruegan, I'm not vegan- STOP). Somebody stop me 🤖 (Somehow I'm triggered by saying "I'm not vegan", I don't have OCD, that's just a role I'm playing - didn't intend that to rhyme but oh well).

You want to see how "not talky" I can talk? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣤⣶⣶⣤⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣾⠛⠁⢰⣧⡈⢻⣦⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣇⣼⡀⠻⠟⠁⠀⢻⡆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⢀⡞⣹⠙⣧⡀⠀⠀⡀⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⣀⡴⠋⠀⣀⣴⣿⡷⠴⠞⠁⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⢾⣁⣀⡤⠾⠛⠁⣸⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠈⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⡟⠀⠀⠀⠀⣾⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣿⠁⠀⠀⠀⢀⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⣰⡿⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢿⣶⠶⠿⠟⠿⠿⣶⣦⣄⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⣼⠟⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠻⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠛⠿⠶⣶⣤⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⣸⡏⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⢀⣀⣠⣤⣤⣤⣤⣤⣀⠀⠉⠙⠳⢦⣄⡀⣀⣤⣀⣀⡄⠀ ⠀⢀⣿⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠻⢶⣀⠀⠀⠈⠉⢁⠈⠏⣿⣁⠀ ⠀⢸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠻⣦⣀⣀⡴⠁⠀⠀⢙⣿⡾ ⠀⠘⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠉⠀⠀⣀⣠⡾⠟⠃ ⠀⠀⠹⣧⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣀⣀⡔⢊⣵⠞⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠙⠿⣦⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⡠⠚⠉⠀⣠⣴⠟⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠳⠶⣤⣤⣄⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢤⣤⣴⠊⣁⣤⠶⠛⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠙⠛⡷⢶⡶⠶⠤⠔⢺⠃⡟⠉⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣀⣀⠀⢰⡇⠀⡇⠀⠀⠀⢸⠀⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⣹⣤⣭⠿⠟⣃⣾⠋⠀⠀⢠⡟⢸⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⠈⠉⠙⠛⢋⣿⣙⣶⣾⡿⢷⡿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠐⠛⠛⠻⠧⠶⠾⠛⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠘⠛⠚⠛⠻⠟⠛⠓⠟⠻⠓⠐⠚⠒⠛⠁⠀⠀⠸⠓⠇⠞⠛⠚⠙⠲⠀⠐⠞⠀⠀⠀⠀

This is too intellectual for me.

His whole "it was an act" after his hospitalization was obviously a cope, trying to gain control in a situation where he probably felt he lost control. So this could be a sequel to that, trying to re-iterate that narrative. Or he went cray cray again and he jumped in the lake in a lapse of judgement. Both are not the most unlikely scenarios. But to be fair, he has not acted as unhinged as he did act those couple of years ago in his last couple of videos. He seemed too put together, even in his last video. That he suddenly went cray cray after a night with no sleep would be odd, a psychosis tends to build steadily, unless of course there were drugs involved.