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I mean he avoids the sun 😆 But yeah, Siim Land who has a less autistic protocol than him has much better biomarkers (although he is younger): You know so many of such claims are bullshit, right? Just quoting an Instagram won't do here.

Then it would have to be "gratitude for the things that made me come to this point in my life", or else it's just pride with separate steps. If you put the focus on circumstances and how it was not you who created them, not even your own sense of motivation, drive, persistence, values, simply that these occurred in your life and you're grateful for them, then you're avoiding the "I am the thing" that underlies pride. I didn't choose feeling like I wanted to do x things. They simply occurred to me, and I did them because I wanted them. I had fundamentally no say, only in an illusory way. But I did do what I want, and doing what I want is important. I'm not removing the virtue of autonomy. Feeling like you're responsible in the moment is key for being an actor in the world. But dwelling on it in the past (or in the form of thoughts running parallel with the present), is ironically to give it away. But of course, if you feel like you didn't want to do anything of it but you still did it, be it of shame, guilt, despair, or because you had to do it for some reason or another, then pride is understandable because it's a step up on the "emotional scale". But if you did things out of joy, pride pulls you down.

The psychic strikes again @Ramasta9 Sorry to hear about that. I hope things work out.

It's quite literally the impeding of movement. Notice if you ever walk on the street and somebody stops right in front of you abruptly, it's so ingrained and spontaneous to get angry. The energy essentially says "move, get out of the way", it's energy that comes when you need to push through some boundary. Even tiny single-celled organisms probably have some kind of anger response. It's so deeply primal. And it doesn't necessarily involve a feeling of hurt. It's much more surface level, like a form of physiological activation. Feeling of hurt usually comes from something else, like shame, guilt, physical hurt, where anger might be involved as a secondary response (some men especially are unable to identify deeper emotions like shame, guilt, but instead only identify it as anger, which again is a primal and kind of physiological arousal). It's a very rudimentary form of emotion, that's what's meant by "lower". Same arguably with pride (despite humans making it complicated with all the mentalistic echoing back and forth). Why place anything in a hierarchy? Why describe anything as any limited thing? Why say anything is a certain way? I don't see why you would limit the problem to emotions or just hierarchical organization. Any type of organization has problems, isn't it?

There is seeing clearly, then there is fear, paranoia, narrative, belief. When everything is seen as a threat, even normal occurrences on the forum, that actually lowers your consciousness, it makes you less able to see clearly. Just like food, drugs, environment, toxins affect your ability to see clearly, so does your sensitivity to threats (real or imagined), and that varies between people. Pointing out how other people are not afraid, might not be due to insensitivity to what is real and objective, but simply insensitivity to threat (real or imagined). 9 years ago, I was in a cult that believed harmful psychic energies existed in all normal people, and even objects they have interracted with, and I felt this strongly. Then as the cult dissolved, I started questioning whether the harmful energies thing was even real (I was always questioning it, but the other people in the cult talking about it as if it was real affected me). And over time, it faded. And that was despite me becoming more "spiritually locked in". The common denominator for people who entertain harmful psychic energies, harmful frequencies from technology, toxins in the environment, in the food, etc., is high threat sensitivity (combined with openness to experience, or else you would not seek out alternative views). That is not to say all of it is illusion. But it can still explain the difference in views and why not everybody might buy into it, despite perhaps being just as "sensitive" as you. Yes, it's definitely possible that you will experience positive changes (and possibly negative changes, which you can play down) from long fasts and juice cleanses and questioning your food intake and environmental exposure, but it's also possible that many of these effects are exaggerated in your own experience (and through amplification through others' experiences). There could be a kernel of truth to everything, literally everything could be technically true, but your gauge of the effect could be completely off and exacerbated by again threat sensitivity and fear-based narratives which core biological function is to amplify things in your mind.

Meh.

The more primal in a survival sense (and placement in the triune brain, e.g. reptile brain), and the more self-referential, the lower. Anger is when you run into an obstacle inhibiting your movement. Pride is when you overcome the obstacle or simply move very successfully. Thinking about yourself in the past overcoming obstacles or moving successfully is self-referential. Gratitude may involve thinking about yourself in the past or simply appreciating something in the present, e.g. the food you're eating. It's essentially reminding yourself of the love you have for a thing and cultivating that love. It's not about you, as much as the thing you're grateful for. Notice me saying essentially "fuck your achievements" and how if you feel pride, the pride turns to anger, as I've become yet another obstacle to maintain that pride. While if your "achievements" are just a continual expression of joy, it doesn't matter what you think of them.

Pride is a low emotion just above anger. It's mostly not worth focusing your time and attention on (unless you're working with the emotion). It's something you release when it happens (if appropriate) and get on with it. Try something like gratitude instead.

Why is everything a conspiracy theory 🫠

When I first watched Breaking Bad, I was around 18-19 years old, and I used to identify much more with Walt than I did when I re-watched the show at an older age. Then I noticed that Walt was kinda an asshole right from the start. And if you dig into the vague story around his time with Grey Matter and his relationship with Gretchen, it becomes a possibility that this was an ingrained thing. Whatever happened that made him break up with Gretchen and exit Grey Matter for 5k USD (the cause seems very vague but was at least somewhat interpersonal in nature), it could have been due to some dark traits in Walter already, but it definitely left him with great resentment and insecurity when the company later skyrocketed to billionaire status (allegedly mostly based on his work, his ideas). This darkness, irrespective of how ingrained it was, seemed to be the core fuel behind his increasingly outrageous decisions. But if you are willing to overlook those small details and identify with him as the seemingly good guy he appears to be at the start, you can identify with him all throughout the show, and that's a masterful display and lesson of how ego works. Whatever outrageous decision is made, seems understandable, because you identified with him from the start, and you are gradually taken through all the justifications, all the defenses Walter makes for why he does it. And it even makes you actively dislike the characters that are actually good: it's a huge phenomena that people hate Skyler or Marie in the show. They are seen as obstacles, they try to put a stop to Walt, and it causes anger and resentment when you identify with Walt. All in all, it's a genius display of how ego works, made possible by the formula of taking a seemingly good guy and turning him gradually bad, and you again have to work through all the same justifications and ego defense mechanisms as he does, as it's happening, and that's as exciting as it's disconcerting. It makes you question whether you could be bad (which you are of course, by virtue of identifying with yourself to begin with, but specifically in the criminal sense).

AI - disqualified

@enchanted Ah, just two gay guys talking about how porn turns you gay. You know what, Nick has a gift for orating and producing easy-to-follow thoughts (even if they're right-wing slop). He will go far if he doesn't get *political environment in US*-ed.

Have you tried meaning? It's my understanding that in nature, we didn't just walk around alone and doing nothing. We did useful stuff, with other people, for other people. Just like a monk can endure isolation in a grey prison cell or cave through meditation, a normal person can endure the grey life of the concrete jungle through meaning.

Eat tons of veggies and fibrous foods. Make at least 50% of your meal in weight be veggies or fruits. And that means every meal, no "snacks" allowed (unless it's veggies or fruits). If that alone doesn't work, up the percentage of fruits and veggies and/or protein intake. If that doesn't work (which if you do it right, should basically be impossible), eat the same amounts of food every day, and if you don't lose weight, reduce some amount of food.

Closing your eyes in silence for 50-60 minutes works too. But of course living in an environment for the next 23 hours of the day has an impact. I want to go out in nature more too a lot of the time. Sometimes I get stuck merely scrolling through Google Images of natural environments often near me.

You have natural on your mind a lot.

It's a CUP OF JOE (and testosterone). The guy has always been like that though, he's just an explosive individual, pro wrestler, powerlifter. Actually ADHD. Btw, this is the guy I recommend watching for lifting advice. Take advice from somebody who actually loves lifting and does it for fun and has an intuitive understanding for what works and doesn't fill his head with a bunch of crap (and he's not exactly a dumbass either, he has a degree in kinesiology, which is about as relevant of a degree you can have, unlike more physiology-focused exercise science degrees a la Mr. Mike Israetel and the loads upon loads of academic delusional rabbit holes those guys dig themselves down in). All the "science-based lifters" are the Looksmaxxing of lifting. Completely soulless, lifeless, body dysmorphia-driven and skewed priorities and probably even wrong most of the time. Any lifting "coach" that makes lifting into something depression-inducing and life-draining should be fired immediately.

I saw them live last year. I could not stop nodding my head to the music. I never thought I would end up enjoying that kind of music. My signature is like a Meshuggah lyric. It's un-non-noddable once you get the song. And of course that can be a challenge because the way they write the songs is more like deriving a mathematical formula than "playing from the soul" as they say (which has pros and cons, but damn, sometimes it's just beautiful). They essentially write their music as if it's electronic music and then they play it on their instruments (they use a drum machine and try to find an odd-time rhytmical pattern that they repeat in a certain way over a straight time signature, and that's their creative process most of the time; so much for "nobody buys a song for its rhythm" 🤪). And can I just say the massive cojones it takes to perform that particular song live with the whole band playing at the same time in the studio and that being used for the album (of course while splicing together the best parts from multiple performances, but still)? These guys are tighter than a box of sardines. Let me re-iterate: the sounds you are hearing in this particular YouTube video is the entire band playing live.

Holy BUCKETS!

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I'm not so sure he is drawing the inference "the void is x therefore I must live better". It was rather a thought he had in the void. This is more of the issue of (Leo) declaring thoughts in the void and without as "Absolute x". It did not occur to me that Bryan was declaring he is now delivering the gospel of Truth as he experienced it in the void. He was sharing a thought from the void. When he said "it is impossible to explain with words. Whatever you imagine, multiply it by 1,000 and then add infinite width and depth and dimensions", that seemed more like he was trying to convey the actual experience of the void itself. You know, not everyone is a "epistemic pervert" as they say.

It's exactly if you think "grasping the Absolute" implies it necessarily is not that way, you haven't actually grasped the message, only made faulty implications about it. It's to overstep and make it complicated (which has more or less become the entire shtick with this place), and then view those who don't do that with condescension, that's to not grasp the message.

"Save Soil" too I guess. I think you're wrong. It matters in a relative sense. If no effort to survive mattered at all, you would curl up in a ball and die right now. But you don't. You still keep on surviving, in the limited way you desire. Some prefer surviving in a different way.