Carl-Richard

How do you know?

How do you know that you're not trusting in experience?

By doing that though, aren't you trusting in the experience of you not trusting in experience?

Suffering is the currency of survival. Because survival necessitates evolution. Suffering drives evolution, evolution drives survival. If the universe is boundless and infinite, it must also contain you as a possible configuration of itself, or else it couldn't be absolutely infinite. If it didn't contain the limited little you who is suffering and asking anthropocentric questions, then it would be limited and not infinite. Delusion is just when you take an illusion for its appearance rather than its substance. An illusion is simply something that appears as something it isn't. The illusion still exists, therefore the illusion is true, just as much as the thing it appears to be is true.

Alcohol is actually the only drug that causes aggressive behaviour (according to Jordan Peterson who has done studies on it). Of course It depends on the person and the situation. One time when I became blackout drunk, a friend of mine told me that I just went around telling people how much I loved them

It's not a pratice. It's just you going about your day without unnecessarily fueling your attachment to spirituality, without creating neurotic patterns around spiritual pratice itself. Your spiritual practice obviously shouldn't be a source of neurotic behaviour/thoughts. It's directly antithetical to what you're trying to achieve. You don't want to spend the rest of your life doing a 24/7 spiritual practice. That is what you're setting yourself up for. Do your spiritual practice, then drop it and go about your day. "Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water."

That is exactly the problem.

Do you think this is related to the massive dose of MAOIs that you talked about?

Hell no. If you haven't talked to anybody in your entire life, dropping the internal narrator doesn't automatically grant you social skills. Becoming awake will only keep you from holding yourself back (drawbacks that stem from neurotic thoughts), but being social is an actual skill that you have to develop by actively engaging in it. For example, you don't become a guitar god by realizing you are God. That's a ridiculous expectation.

Do you want to induce non-dual states or do you want to abide in it? It's apparently easy to induce it, but letting it become your natural state is a completely different task. Focus on the problem of resting in non-dual awareness. These types of practices is just a hamster spinning in a wheel. You need to be able to rest. By rest I don't mean "becoming aware of your true self", or becoming mindful, or inducing a calm state. I just simply mean relax, stop searching, go on about your day. Limit your spiritual practice to a select time period of your day. When you're not practicing, you're doing something else. Whatever you're supposed to do, do it fully, then when you're not doing it, let it be. This is important, because a non-dual state only becomes your abiding state if you're already at rest. I keep seeing this type of ADHD spirituality on this forum, and based on my own experience, it's really detrimental to both your mental health and your spiritual progression. By following half-baked practices that you can just do on a whim whenever you feel like it, you're setting yourself up for intrusive thoughts and compulsive behaviour. Your practice shouldn't impede your daily life. Have some structure, establish a routine, and your work will actually pay off.

This is a non sequitur. The only way you build social skills is by doing it in practice: go out there and be social. You don't become more social by putting more ideas about it inside your head. Being social is about getting out of your head, learning to feel others and meeting them where they're at, and you cannot think yourself to that place. You have to walk yourself to that place, and only then you can start using your mind, to interact with other people.

I just sit.

Lol

That's just your inability to conceive of something outside your own perspective. I'm perfectly capable of understanding why people feel like they have free will or don't have free will. There are more valid ways of arriving at either conclusion, namely through experience. If you still feel like you're the source of your own actions, then you just have to wait until you experience merging with something greater than yourself, where your own personal will gives in to the greater cosmic will. Then you become the source of every action in the universe, because you are everything. Therefore, you are simultaneously the source of your actions (because you're all of it) and also not (because you have no choice but to be all of it). That is the trick of non-duality: it can be expressed through both sides of a duality.

That is not an argument for compatiblism though, because compatibilists use a relative definition of free will. You're talking about The Absolute. Free will as a concept becomes meaningless when dealing with The Absolute.

Realizing you are God kills the ego. The egoistic person would never want that.

No? You seem to be missing my point though. You're supposed to say "but I'm not Joe Rogan", and then I'll say: "and Russel Brand isn't either".

Just work for me for free and set up a patreon account and take some sponsors lol.

Meditation is about discovering that you're not in control and never will be, and in giving up the need to control, you actually gain control. If there is nothing you need to control, then you're actually fully in control. The idea that you have to do something in order to gain control already assumes that you're not already in control. There is nothing you need to do: you're in control.

It's there... in the dark, where it belongs.

That's not the point. If you put something in the dark, you won't see it.

That's always the narrative, and it doesn't really matter.

Will you transcend orange and work for me for free?