Carl-Richard

How so?

But you're not saying anything!

Because you're essentially trying to get through your day while constantly getting bombarded by intrusive thoughts about staying aware. There is nothing spiritual about it.

I call it neurosis, but yeah, once you are able to let go, the momentum you've built up can catapult you into an awakening. By the way, just to clarify: when I say I stopped smoking cannabis for a week, I meant that I was sober (or in withdrawal rather) during my awakening, not that I was resetting my tolerance in order to get really high. Infact, I stopped smoking for a month after that. Now it's been 2-3 years since I've smoked.

How... am I that psychic??

I stopped smoking weed for a week. I was smoking more cannabis in a day than you should probably ever smoke. Apparently, cannabis withdrawal has an interesting effect on attention. It also probably helped that I spent that week prior being totally obsessed about "staying aware".

I had an awakening on my 3rd ever meditation and I thought I was going to disappear forever.

Not only that, but I have a tiny suspicion that we might be talking about a very specific form of clouding here...

Annihilation. It's the most accurate representation of a bad trip that I've ever come across. I literally have PTSD from some of the scenes.

Yes please give a concrete definition of these otherwise extremely relative terms. Something tells me that is not going to happen... but sure, I'm not going to stop you.

But I'm seriously saying that you didn't say anything about what capacity means, or what you mean by integration, or the distinction between "this environment" and "any environment". I just didn't expect to read this amount of text without taking anything away from it.

If I have to be completely honest, you didn't actually say anything.

He is just off the herb for sober october.

The thing you're doing right now? Well, it's not working.

Yup. It's easy to watch one youtube video about it and patting yourself on the back for understanding the gist of it, but if you think that makes you on the same level as someone like Noam Chomsky, then your interpretation of SD becomes of very little substance.

Remaining sober while smoking the biggest cigar I've ever seen...

That is exactly my question to Leo.

Get down from your high horse, buddy. He is obviously not healthy (anybody can see that), but I'm actually interested in the specifics around mental illnesses as a psychology student, which is exactly why I'm asking about the specifics...

At 21, you've at most barely entered Yellow. It's one thing to able to absorb the material that Leo is presenting, but it's another thing to have a broad and rich silo of perspectives that reflect those principles, and that only comes with time. It's like the difference between a building made out of steel and a steel nail: they're made out of the same material, but they're not at all comparable in size, scale or complexity.

Do you have any information about the specifics?

There are different dimensions of this issue. For example, anti-racism and racism both contain elements of division, but you should be careful with comparing them.

You can't blame the Left for that division. It's the main selling point of the Right.

It depends where you are in life. Development naturally happens faster at a younger age, but when you're older you're able to streamline your development (like you're suggesting here). I'm not old enough to comment on anything outside the childhood/early-adulthood developmental aspects of SD, but for me I unlocked stages in steps of 3-5 years. I would emphasise the difference between "unlocking" and "maturing". I wouldn't consider myself fully mature in neither orange nor green. That might take another 10 years.

That's the biggest strawman I've ever seen lmao.

You're defining science as an ideal rather than looking at its actual presence in the real world. That is hella naive. Self-realization doesn't cure cancer or end world hunger.