Carl-Richard

How often do you say "I can't do x because y"? I can't do x because y" is a pattern you can identify in your life and try to fix the y's or challenge the premises. Often when you fix one y (e.g. cutting down smoking), many x'es free up. If you start by identifying a few smaller y's, maybe one every week, you can start to get the ball rolling. And if you identify the big y's or you identify the general impulse to self-sabotage, many of your problems will evaporate. Sometimes the x'es and y's go in a circle, and then you're stuck, but then you might also notice how they're a manifestation of the general tendency to self-sabotage. Sometimes the "hardest" thing is the simplest and in fact easier thing in the long run. If you avoid doing the hard things, they will eventually pile up and start eating you in the ass and you will have to do them later. Zero friends ever? Are there not any people you know (even your mom) that you could ever possibly hang with?

He's a big fan of Ray Kurzweil, and he's like the Ray Kurzweil of pharmacology.

I go to the gym to channel inner gorilla energy and pack on deltoids and chest and the rest and to download natty opioids and dope-amine/serotoneen and be on top of my game cognitive-physiologically (that's a word right now).

He has mentioned it before somewhere: more muscle means better glucose control, lesser risk of injury and fatigue. Being fat creates high blood pressure, diabetes type 2, elevated bad cholesterol, wear and tear on joints.

Sometimes I feel like being this guy though:

My brother was assaulted by a woman in Scandinavia in a bar

Haha now I stopped taking them and I feel like shit. I'll try to spread the dose throughout the day and maybe some other ideas.

Meditate 1 hour, lift weights, do high-intensity cardio, brain training, hang out with friends.

I take them with my breakfast and it lasts the whole day. I have only tried this brand.

Mmm. Thanks for the input. It's kind of a funny tangent, but I've noticed every time I've added something new to my supplement stack, I get this feeling of like a system upgrade where everything seems to run smoother, and it's eerily similar across the different substances. The first few times, I thought it was because I was actually filling up a very specific "hole" in my nutrition, like "oh, so this is what zinc feels like?". But now I think it's more like you pour some coins into a vast range of bodily processes (as each micronutrient affects many), and what you mostly pick up on is a general state change ("wow, that's different") and not necessarily a state change specific to that nutrient. When I took the multivitamin, I got that feeling on steroids (it was actually like taking a drug, like an LSD microdose). No I haven't tried it. It's ironic: I want to avoid taking as many things as I can. I only broke this when I bought the multivitamin, and I was very hesitant about it. Turns out I should listen to my intuition more

When I do this to Scandinavian women, they just run away

I figured there are many possible culprits (my symptoms seem like they could be partially gastrointestinal, so things like iron and vitamin C), so I decided to try dropping the multivitamin and see if just supplementing some C and E vitamins is sufficient (those were the only ones that were struggling a bit on Cronometer).

Only if they agree on the rules 🙂

Would you watch a sport where identical clones fight each other? Would you want to compete against a clone of yourself? That would be the most boring sport ever. Fairness in sports is not about equality but agreement.

I didn't understand what you said.

The only word I can use to describe this is "Kuhnian theater" :

If you get heavily invested in meaning, it can be tough when things don't go your way (and things will routinely not go your way in reality, because you're ultimately not in control). But if you remember that whatever happens, you will be ok, i.e. you remember "being", then meaning can not take anything away from you, only add something to you. And you will be stronger as a consequence and more likely to experience meaning. And naturally, the more being you experience, the more these things compound on themselves. One thing that saps being is being low on energy, doing unhealthy things, being unhealthy, being chronically stressed. Your hippocampus literally shrinks when you're chronically stressed, which further makes it harder to tackle the stress (as the hippocampus is involved in tackling stress). And when you're chronically stressed, it's harder to do exercises and be aware enough to embody being, all of which compounds in the wrong direction. Sometimes, you just need to rest and heal to rebuild your hippocampus, and from this foundation, you can then start doing things for increasing being again, which again increases meaning.

I was expecting something like "if meaning is negative, it cancels out because (-x)^2 = x". But ok 😅 I remember the Lorentz factor: in physics class, we had a Kahoot one time, and I named myself "Lorentz" for the memes, and then I forgot that one guy in this class was actually called "Lorentz", so that was kinda embarrassing.

Yet it's not a thing in professional golf.

What the hell did you just say?

I know

Would it be fun to compete against yourself? You're exactly in the same category of everything.

Now you use it every day or?

I get that feeling as well sometimes, but irrespective of the soundness of his theory, his observations on the sociology of physics and string theory and all that could be sound. It's not just him who has proposals for a ToE outside string theory.

When you see through the illusion of self, you see through the illusion of being in control of anything. Even your bodily movements, your speech, your next action, your plans, your wants, desires, future. Everything is in the hands of God and there is nothing for you to do but observe and channel the will of God. And the moment you do not channel the will of God, you feel immense pain and resistance (or you inflict this pain and resistance on yourself deliberately to maintain the illusion that you are a separate self in control of anything, because giving up the sense of being control is like giving up your life which is absolutely not a joke).