Carl-Richard

I did respond to it, just not the interpretation. Prophetic dreams creep me out. I had a near accident on an electric scooter today and I thought about your dream afterwards

I'm sorry. I just didn't know how to respond to it

@Someone here I had an interesting dream last night which is very likely related to this. First some backstory: One of my roommates last year (who I no longer live with) was at that time a very disorganized stoner in the midst of a downward spiral, extremely similar to me back when I was very much a drug addict. He was smoking weed 24/7, stopped going to his job, and started getting into benzodiazepines (which I did a little bit but which wasn't a central part of my story). Now a few months later, after moving to a new place with one of my current roommates who also lived at that old place, this current roommate told me that the guy has started taking heroin after his girlfriend broke up with him, and that he has been in and out of rehab trying to sell drugs to the guys in there (like fucking Jesse Pinkman). The dream Anyways, so the dream consisted of this guy being with me, my mom and my little brother in my mom's dining room. We had set the table and were ready to eat. My mom and my brother were sitting at the table and I was about to sit down. I was looking at the guy, telling him: "come, it's time to eat!", but he was just standing there a bit further away from us, staring at us with a distraught look on his face. Then he was overcome by some kind of suicidal rage, picked up a kitchen knife and started stabbing himself violently in the gut. We were all just staring in disbelief as he continued stabbing himself. The thing was that the knife was for some reason very dull, so it didn't really do much. As he noticed the failure of his efforts, he instead tried to slit his wrists, but that didn't work either. I then tried to grab the knife from him and eventually pinned him to the ground and started beating the living shit out of him to get him to drop the knife. Finally he did, and after that, I spent the next part of the dream on the run frantically trying to avoid him, as he was hunting me down trying to kill me. Interpretation One way to interpret this dream is that he represented a version of me that didn't make the transition out of the downwards spiral, and that him doing everything he could to hurt himself right in front of my family was a symbol of how the downward spiral consists of you constantly hurting yourself while your family is watching you in disbelief without knowing what to do. Me having to attack and disarm myself symbolizes how it's ultimately only me who can stop hurting myself. And finally, me spending the next parts of the dream trying to avoid myself symbolizes how I'm still trying to avoid that aspect of myself to this day. Also, I felt that the distraught look on his face came from a feeling of jealousy, of how this current version of myself is now absolutely loved by my family, while he was getting all these looks of concern and pity, this pathetic drug addict in front of them who is not able to come to the table.

Postmodernity, meta-irony.

My point is that an evolutionary stage theory doesn't make sense. It's way too complex. Phylogenetic theories and ontogenetic theories make sense.

Ah. It was a weird pose, didn't get the Ronnie vibes ? Ronnie is a ninja turtle.

@Jannes Big Ramy? I can see that thickness from a mile away

If I was enlightened, I would not be here

Because I'm a naughty nice boy

I'm so tempted to post the naughty videos in my recommended (but I won't because I'm a nice boy)

I become an animal at 5 days.

You can make your own model which is inspired by SD without any of the empirical research or theoretical grounding, but then it's no longer SD.

Now is a good time for Leo to post interesting pictures on his blog again Up the difficulty level. Show me that "transmutation" in action ?

Weed. My recovery was mainly due to my spiritual awakening. It changed how I experience all hedonistic pleasures. They're literally less enjoyable and literally feel empty. I remember making a frozen pizza like I've always done, and when I bit into it, I didn't get that same rush of "hell yeah – pizza!", and I was actually shocked over how profound it was. Same thing happened when I tried weed again a month later. It was just very empty and hugely anti-climactic. But despite that, I actually forced myself back into the habit, because the habit was safe and comfortable. However, when I actually did end up quitting for real a year later, it didn't have the same grip on me, so I could let go of it easier. While the high itself is one factor, in the bigger picture, it wasn't really the high that was driving the addiction. I used it as an escape from my surroundings which had caused me a lot of stress and existential despair for many years. I had very much anxiety around everything; people, school, my future; and when I found weed, I was given an escape. The way out of that escape was first of all thanks to my mother who didn't give up on me and forced me to give school another shot, Leo's channel who initiated my awakening, and some old spirituality discord which was coincidentally anti-drugs.

It's one thing to use jargon. It's another thing to write like you're trying to birth a new language out of your left nostril.

@DocWatts I get anxiety halfway through that text ?

Obeying your conscience makes you care more. Speaking as an ex- drug addict who played hide-and-seek with his conscience for 3 years.

He did have a psychic who told him what he thinks his spawn count is. That is not a joke.

No, I mean your conscience: the inner voice that tells you what is the best thing to do in a given situation. It's what makes conscientious people conscientious.

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You can't be serious.

Do you feel that you are able to listen to your conscience?

This performance is just insane 24:25 - 30:33

Who is more evolved: a creature with wings or a creature with fingers?

Which animals do you want to observe? Birds? Monkeys? Tardigrades?