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Where I've been going wrong then. Don't we measure true growth from our emotional reactions?

@Faceless Yes I've read the power of now, some deep contemplative shit in that book man that opened my eyes immensely and changed my perspective a lot.

Where could I post some newbie psychedelic questions to gain more knowledge before a first trip? ?

@Faceless Thanks for sharing that. Sounds extremely interesting! I'm really interested in going down the route of exploring the nature of thought and how it links to identity etc I believe that could break down a lot for me. Would you recommend any sources? Books? Video's? Or is it a case of Googlesvile? Thanks again! ♥️

@Nahm So the homeostasis perseption myself and @AlexBis experiencing is a misunderstanding of something we've experienced/observed in the past. I've been sat here contemplating this for almost an hour trying to figure out what the misunderstanding could possibly be. With regards to the being cut off example you gave, I totally understand that now. As a matter of fact I've grasped what you said so deeply I feel it's altered and shifted something within. A deeper/broader understanding seems to have taken place. Thank you ♥️ With regards to myself resonating to what Alex explained in his OP for myself my monkey mind has kicked in tenfolds and being present and aware has backslided a little and become extra tough. Thank you for your patience with me Nahm as always.

How did you do this Mr faceless?

How would I feel if someone cuts me off? Are you referring to how aware I am of my reactions and understanding of other? If so yes, my awareness kicks in when I feel any type of 'trigger'. I hope I've grasped your point ?

@Nahm Nahm could you elaborate please friend? @AlexB literally going through exactly the same thing, no joke. It's in my top 10 list of mindfucks put it that way.

@Ether Are you still on AD?

@Michael569 Thankful ? Out of interest Michael where did you gain all of your knowledge? I learn so much from you and plutes ?

?? @okulele I'm no expert but methods I use in everyday life are... Example: When I talk to people, I fully concentrate on what they are saying, this helps me remain present and stay out of my own mind (Takes practice and patience). Walking around? Listen to the sounds around you... Bird song, cars passing, whatever it is listen. You could also bring the awareness to the pressure of each foot hitting the ground as you walk. Brushing teeth? Feel the texture of the toothbrush in your hand, the taste of the toothpaste, the sound of the activity. This goes for ANYTHING mundane, even having a shit.

@Paulus Amadeus If it's working for you then fair enough! I'm just a little weary about what's going on inside and me completely unaware of it until years later. @Michael569 Yeah I think I'll definitely get some VIT D as I live in an area which doesn't get a lot of sunshine ?. I'll also get some B12 as you mentioned. I've just started with the chai seeds again so the omega intake will be okay for now but I'll definitely look into the link you've posted thank you. Pretty sure I have some turmeric powder in the cupboard also. Thanks so much @Michael569 you little genius you...

Should we eliminate Grain's from our diet? If yes, why? If no, why?

But the internal dialogue your referring to isn't your actual self is it? So what/who exactly are you creating this relationship with?

@Max_V I've heard a lot of grains cause many medical issues, depression, cancer, diabetes etc so I'm also trying to cut them completely. Although the organic oats I'm eating don't seem to be doing me any harm. I ate something yesterday that contained lots of wheat and I felt exhausted afterwards, very lethargic so I'll be definitely avoiding foods like the one I consumed.

@pluto Thanks for that Pluto. Most helpful @Michael569 Thanks for your reply. I couldn't help laugh at the fact you poisoned yourself I'm not actually looking to do the whole sprouting process myself although I won't right off for the future but looking to purchase Sprouted foods and grains for the time being. I'm unsure though wether to just go totally gluten free. @Outer I don't have celiac's disease but the more research I do into grains the more I'm leaning away from them naturally.

@Michael569 @pluto Have you (you probably have) heard of Sprouted grains? I've read it's much better for you. What's your take on this? I'm doing a lot of research into grains. @pluto Yeah I'll definitely give that a try. Thanks dude ♥️

@Faceless

@pluto I tried the raw meat diet with my dogs, they got sick. Probably my fault for starting their life off on shit dog kibble. I have looked at organic high quality dog kibble but it's so expensive!!

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@spicy_pickles What a lovely new beginning to your story! ♥️

It's the meaning you assign to the thoughts that's can become the problem. Maybe Google some CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) for yourself?

Thanks for your inputs @cirkussmile @Michael569 Preash ? ♥️

Thanks for your reply. I'm home alone a lot of the time anyway @Elisabeth I don't mind being alone, I crave it a lot actually ?. My mood is definitely starting to lift again now ?

Last Tuesday I had surgery (was put to sleep), was very positive, very calm, rejected medications because I felt I was able to deal with the physical pain via meditation etc. Prior to surgery I was at a calm, neutral state. My levels of awareness and consciousness where higher than they'd ever been. 2 days after surgery, my mood rapidly changed, like rapidly, up and down and everywhere, crying, angry, depressed, irritable, paranoid, cravings everything. I didn't want to leave the house. My outlook on everything at the moment has taken a radical shift for the worse. I feel like absolute shit. Total shift overnight. I still feel very emotional, angry, annoyed, depressed and negative. The fact this has come about after surgery has left me scratching my head. Not only that but for the first time I'm struggling to meditate. The fact that I'm feeling resistance to Meditation and Yoga is bringing feelings of confusion. This is usually something I could do effortlessly. Anybody shine any light on what's going on please? ♥️ EDIT: Been 6 days since surgery and still feeling the same.