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@Faceless Thank you faceless! Means a lot I've never experienced fear like it, I grew up in a safe environment with a privileged upbringing so I have been fortunate with those circumstances. Once I had a slight touch of this fear during a Panic attack (which I also believe the term 'panic attack' is a massive underestimation of the actual situation) I feel I experienced fear directly in the face, I never forgot it. Something deep within told me I needed to face this, I NEEDED to understand it and actualize it. I needed to put everything I've been doing into actual practice. I believe I could, and I have. Witnessing the mind/thought and observing it's capabilities/deceptiveness has been incredibly eye opening. I now go on to question... "Where else does this occur?". I feel I have been deeply asleep until today. Microdosing with psychedelics may not have provided me with the 'trippy' insights I wanted but they have provided me with the most deepest sober realisation. How would one begin to see this? This is excellent news. So glad to hear this ♥️ Again, thank you so much! With regards to being my own teacher, I feel I need to apply more trust in myself, to apply the capabilities to trust in my own wisdom. I am 100% commited to this faceless, it's just learning how to go around things a certain way so you don't end up down the wrong path. I do however, feel I'm deeply starting to grasp this, things are just 'clicking'. The only way I could psychically describe grasping/experiencing an insight is your head feels like it's just cracked from the top, opened up and some cosmic energy floods in/out ??

@Faceless Ill read it deeply tomorrow. I'm absolutely exhausted now... Today I decided to take every bit of advice you gave me and actually do something with it. I went into my room on my own and purposefully triggered a panic attack over and over... I COMPLETELY surrendered to any type of internal/external movement. I was aware of what my mind was throwing up at me to escape the situation, I remembered that was also another movement of fear itself. I did lots of research this morning and deeply took it what you told me. I sat with the printout right in front of me during the whole time. Guess what? I conquered it. Well... By conquering I mean the opposite really ? So now I'm sat here flaked out tf because I've worked damn hard today. I confronted the darkness and shone light onto it. ? Thank you ?

@Nahm Thanks Nahm!? Was having a debate with parents ?

Printed and pinned above my bed. Thank you faceless ♥️? I have a feeling that understanding and experiencing frequent fear will 'set me free'.

@LiakosN lower back pain/sciatic nerve pain ♥️

@Faceless absolutely amazing read faceless! Wow!!! I must resist any reaction to the fear. My mind will trick me to react to evade but this will perpetuate the fear, as it is all still one movement of fear. This is completely liberating and I will go on to learn the origin of fear and deeply understand it. ?♥️ Thank you

Would anybody be kind enough to recommend any 100% organic sunscreen (tried and tested)? Around SPF 20-30 (I'm UK based) Thank you duuuuuudes ♥️

Thanks @BjarkeT I do in fact think I need to work on my thoughts more so, still association going on, meaning being given. I had another panic attack AGAIN today ?

@phoenix666 Loved reading this ? So happy for you

@Solace Good for you! You will know when your ready ?. I'm actually going to properly, intentionally microdose today. I plan on starting a journal/dairy on here. Leo's video on how to use psychedelics for personal development is the bomb! Take notes, I took many! ?

@Solace Thank you Solace ♥️ Yeah I also believe facing it is the only way. Yes, definitely a form of healing, I went on to have thee best day yesterday. I was very aware of the thoughts and images that was trying to 'pull' me in to the panic, which in contrast to the first panic attack is a massive positive. I was able to distance myself from the thoughts, observe and completely surrender which in turn eliminated the panic. Thank you again Solace ??

@Ether ? @Key Elements thank you so much for your input sweetie but unfortunately we live in different countries ? all I can do is verbally communicate with her and hope she puts the necessary work in. @egoeimai Erm... I'm unsure, I hope so. I kind of left her to it and remained hopeful she's done the research into shadow work or whatever. We shall wait and see ?♥️

@Saumaya @LiakosN @phoenix666 ♥️??

I'm starting to realise everything is nothing. It's nothing, everything! ? My mum, my dad my dogs, everything. Everything is complete nothingness. All there is, is nothing. I need to keep expanding this shit. I need to grasp this at an even deeper level, how?

Today, I met my partner's friends for the first time. I watched my reactions closely... *Sweaty palms *Ripping bits of tissue up whilst sitting in company *Shaking a leg *Faster heartbeat *Forgetting what I'm saying, not being aware of what I'm saying and talking to fast Your probably thinking "This is normal" , thing is, why is it we get nervous when meeting strangers? Is it the thoughts we are having? I don't like my reactions to be honest, I don't feel calm and grounded and to me, it's a type of suffering, emotionally drained by the end of it. I would love to be able to take control of this issue. Any advice would be greatly appreciated ❤️

@Torkys ?

There are people who live there who do use the forum

https://www.tripadvisor.co.uk/ShowForum-g293860-i511-India.html India forum? This will literally answer all your questions

@Torkys Thanks so much dude! Bless your heart ♥️?

I wont write too much in responses but I'm grateful for each and every comment and have read each in depth. Thank you. Love you all... ♥️ @MarkusSweden @Solace @tsuki @Principium Nexus @Highest @Nahm @Empty

@Solace @John Iverson Thank you so much guys. I've pointed her towards this website and this thread so she will be able to read all advice ♥️ Only if I allow that rebec. I completely agree. I don't take people's problems on my shoulders, that's up to myself. Thank you so much for your generous reply all of you ♥️

@John Iverson Thank you for reply. She explains she has lost weight in the past but she always fails and returns to junk food. It's in the long term she struggles. I don't know John I think her troubles are much deeper than motivation, perseverance based.

@Ether Yep

@Solace whilst I completely agree with what you've said, we both know that unfortunately that isn't going to happen any time soon ?. Although if the middle east did have water food shelter etc I still do believe there would be wars, humans always find some reason to fight. I've noticed if it's not one thing, it's another. Until they wake up there will always be conflict.

@SoothedByRain thought you might be interested in this thread