Charlotte

@Shin Your use of vulgar language is insulting sir

@bejapuskas shins humour is obscure so sometimes I have to draw a diagram and present a pie chart for him to understand ?

Totally agree! The more I've gotten into spirituality the more I've dissolved the modern meaning of religion and been able to see the deep truths that lie beneath.

I kinda think your onto something with this and I've often thought the same. Over the summer I attended a theme park and when I was on the rides I was in a state of pure laughter and excitement, just sheer absorption of the present moment. No thoughts.

Ideology ??

@Shin Was a joke shin ? didn't mean it literally

I was reading like... "Does he understand the meaning of healthy?" ??? Last meal was last night and it wasn't too healthy as I ate out. Plant based curry containing jackfruit, lemongrass with a coconut sauce. Smashed cucumber side salad and white rice. Healthiest meal all week? Mushroom stew with lentils, onion, garlic, Bragg's amino liquid, carrots and red rice. (All meals listed are plant based)

@How to be wise same... Walked past a very small perimeter of forest today and I just stood and gasped at its sheer beauty

Whip out a picture of your mum ?

Why do you take your worth from others opinions? (Contemplate)

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I feel called to do a trip, I feel ready. I don't know why, but I just do. I feel it's my next step BUT my mind is dick head ? I struggle with letting go, I struggle with just flowing. It's pure fear, nothing else, pure ego driven fear trying to guide me away. It gets so bad it causes panic attacks but I don't want this to stop me! Part of me is like "come ooonnnnn" and the other part is like "nah, sit down and shut up, this ain't happening". I have fears based around psychosis and schizophrenia. My mum had an episode (she was studying Personal development at the time) and so did my Uncle (coming home from a festival then taking LSD). What if I trigger something? At the same time I'm like "nah, I'm not them though". A lot of contradiction going on in my mind. @Leo Gura how could I practice letting go sober so I feel I've got a hand on things when stuff pops up? Would it be a good idea to maybe go to a guided psychedelic retreat? Any help from anyone would be appreciated ♥️

@Claire Verlyn Read into the self seeking identity through validation and security.

I'm with ya! I see the difference. Yes I see what you mean! You can literally feel it return in someway, the only way I could explain it as feeling as if the perceiver has returned. Thanks everyone ♥️

@Haumea2018 Yeah definitely considering it as there's too much negativity in my house (from panic attacks).

@SOUL But isn't being aware in the present moment just another form of "I" thought? What if (sorry I've just had a thought ? lol) we all assume we are aware and in the present moment and actually it's the "I" sneakily controlling this also! Making us think we are when in fact we are not, it's just more illusion? ?

First word that popped to mind when reading this was homeostasis. Find a balance, compromise but lean more towards option 1. @Viking You know what's going to benefit you the most in the long term, it's not rocket science. 'Short term losses for long-term gain's?' or short term burst's of pleasure for a shit life? Your decision ?

@Marks199 I kid you not mine does exactly the same during meditation!!! Your not alone brother ??

? Agreed, just unlearn, will bring suffering unfortunately

@yawning_ I agree, I've used this in the past and it's definitely worked. Thank you so much for your input ♥️

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That guy is triggered TF. It's hilarious how much!!

@Nahm Ill make sure I contemplate tf first Nahm so I can see through this illusion. Thanks again brother ? @Serotoninluv Thanks for replying ♥️ @Outer Yeah some anxiety is probably normal outer it's the panic attacks! ?

@SgtPepperThanks so much for sharing this, it's actually made me feel a bit better because I thought I was the only one ? That's exactly how I invision it might go for me also, then again I could be completely wrong. I don't mind have some general anxiety about the whole thing, taking precautions is fine, it's the panic attacks that top it off for me ?