Charlotte

? Go crap ?

The self that wants/needs/desires ego death is itself sustaining the self. Let it go. No shit, just let it go. Become aware of the self sustaining mechanism.

?? I buy organic as much as possible and drink shit loads of purified water. Literally follow Leo's 'how to shop for healthy food' and also read 'how not die' by Michael greger. He's the shiz. Me now...

Exactly? Jesus ? Have a look at a typical healthy vegan diet. I go for 80% healthy af with 20% being my wiggle room for frozen pizza or eating out etc. "The gaaaaaainz" ?

I've been attending the gym, doing yoga twice a week eating one large plant based meal a day (nutritious most of the time) and I've just started building muscle for the first time in my entire life ?. What I'm trying to say is I've not necessarily been counting calories, just eating my one meal until I feel satisfied and also eating as close to nature as possible. Try not to over complicate it because you can easily get sucked in to all the muscle building hype.

@Serotoninluv We seem to have gone through quite a lot of similar 'circumstances'/'experiences' which intrigues me. Yes exactly, it is uncomfortable and beautiful at the same time. @robdl Thats very interesting. Thanks for your input. So fear and the resistance to it sustains and creates the "I"? You literally summed it up in a paragraph for me. Thank you. Yes, I've been unconsciously choosing fear (literally unconsciously hence the huge release). I need to let it grow now... It's all about trust. @Hellspeed maybe so. I can tell you though... I've done a number of therapies and I've never had any breakthroughs like this ever ? @Solace Arw Solace wow. Thank you so much for your response. It's beautiful man ❤️ I will take your advice and be the tortoise with this. Thanks for the heads up. May I ask in what way was you the rabbit? I also agree it is uncomfortable and does hold a lot of discomfort but at the same time it's just to beautiful to turn your head away from, it's like it's calling you to be observed and that calling cannot be ignored. I also need to learn to create a clear communication between the heart. I'm still aware of self deception.

@Baotrader Would you like to talk about this before doing anything rational? I'm happy to Skype call? ❤️

@Solace

@DrewNows Wow okay. Thanks for replying. It's great to hear others perspectives on it at the moment because I feel like I'm processing again. Thank you again. ❤️

@Salvijus What makes you say that? @NoSelfSelf I feel extremely confused I know that much ?

@Seed Not at all. When I have a bit more time (later on) I sure will x

A lot of criticism and duality created in your op. I sense resistance. Big time. Are you fearful of something? Point your finger back at yourself rather than outward.

@Preetom ?? Yeah her attitude is reflecting that ? ? Amazing to see how her schooling (friends) is shaping her newly formed ego (she started this year)

Nature is outstandingly intelligent. Animals are incredible. Everything and everyone is infinitely perfect. That is all.

The biggest game changer @Viking was when faceless told me your mind projects an image of what you should be (very quickly in certain circumstances) once I became conscious of this it literally started to melt away as I could see the hazy images the mind was projecting in the present moment. Sneaky sneaky ??

Your mind is projecting. Trick your mind by redecorating and creating a 'sacred' space for yourself. (Oil defuser, meditation pillow/mat/stool, wall art/tapestry etc)

Awesome man! Yeah your body craves nutrition so it's no coincidence they taste so good ? Keep up the good work bro ??

@Michael569 Michael thanks so much for your reply. I'm interested to know why probiotics rub you up the wrong way? (I'm curious) Thanks from your opinion really appreciate it. @pluto Cheers Pluto! @TylerJ @Crystalous thanks guy's! Just polished off a bottle of kombucha actually ? Love the quote Nahm. Link is also interesting af! ❤️ Thanks so much

@Preetom apologies for late reply. Very true by the way and very beautiful if you ask me

@Preetom time to me personally is only relevant to appointments. Yes the entire globe is bound by it I agree, it creates the biggest boundary between the present moment and past/future, it keeps the illusion solid. Yes everything is working against the flow. My niece is only just being indoctrinated with time, she's asking the time and day of the week... My response is "Now." You could clearly see less than 9 months ago she was constantly in the present moment and that's now slowly shifting due to concept of time. Watching her grow and develop ego has been one of the greatest gifts I could ever ask for. It's opened my eyes to how easily it happens.

@Preetom not at all

@Joseph Maynor I'd LOVE to meet anyone off here Joseph. I'd love to 'pick your mind' and listen to your perspective ? Believe it or not I've never actually been to London so it would be a new experience for me to ? (I live up north) Yeah man get saving for your travels if that's your calling

@Chris White Nice one for updating. Love reading your journey

Lions mane Day 1 Started taking lions mane extract as a self experiment (5 day) (2tsp in hot water in the morning) Now I have to be mega careful of placebo effect but yesterday I journaled the following effects: Yoga practice (54 min) was completed with less monkey mind No difference in meditation. After meditation & yoga felt unbelievably chilled Smashed out studies with precision concentration. Very 'flowy' and with definitely less mental resistance Present moment awareness has increased Incredibly 'flowy' (this was the most noticeable difference) zero mental pressure for the days errands ahead Bit of a headache (as usual with me with any mushrooms)

@Pharion Awesome post! Completely agree! My mum recently said "Doesn't life fly by fast". I said "Depends how present you are."