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@Michael569 Thanks for all the links Mr ? ??? Never seen you swear as you speak very intellectually so this made me giggle!! Well I did not know this! So thank you indeedy. Thanks for your input @pluto Yeah I certainly don't have that luxury ? you lucky bugger! Yes in the air as well exactly. I feel as if I've just entered some sort of chamber ? Certainly is buddy... Certainly is. Cheers dudes! ❤️

I went swimming not long ago and accidently swallowed some chlorine. My throat was sore for days. It then made me ultra aware of chlorine. How bad it must be for the skin etc. I've stopped going swimming because of this chemical. Am I being paranoid or is this something I really shouldn't expose myself to? I really would prefer to go swim in a lake but it's too cold here at the mo.

@Rilles ??? Right I better shut up now talking shit before Kieran whips my ass for derailing his thread. Soz Kieran bro dude.

@Rilles ?

I'm not sure about it showing in a test but if it's legal just say you had a bit from a family member? Would be like taking 2 paracetamol off your mum or something wouldn't it? @Alex bAlex

Just throwing ideas out I've met some amazing men and women at yoga classes/retreats.

I was recently in a bar with a big yoga group and everyone of us weren't drinking. So not everyone drinks there @kieranperez Have you attended any yoga classes, personal development workshops, retreats, deep in the woods (lol) or anything along them lines? That's where you're most likely to find someone that your looking for.

@Shadowraix That's why understanding the mechanics of the issue would transcend the 'issue' altogether.

Thursday Awoke. It was amazing just to sit in bed and breath. In the afternoon I went out with the dogs. I sat on the cricket pitch for 2 hours on the floor lent against a bench, in the sunshine, dogs off lead, just being. I cannot explain how content, grateful and happy I was. Time was non existent in the moment. It was like winning the lottery. Nobody around except for me and them. Just unbelievably blissful and grateful. In the evening I got back from the supermarket and I really didn't feel like doing the workout but regardless of how I was feeling I went into the bedroom and shut the door and cracked on with it without thinking. This is also something I've noticed over the past 6 months. Whenever you feel like not doing something or think about not doing something, clock the thoughts, let go and do it without further thought. You will be pleasantly surprised at what you can actually do. After the workout I went into the kitchen and just danced. I was so grateful at being able to move the body to music... grateful is an understatement. Yesterday I got a reply from the college of naturopathic medicine. They have offered me a place on the 31st of march. They'd like me to fill out a 3 day food diary and bring resent blood tests. Thank you @Michael569 for providing me with this opportunity. It means more than you know.

Awesome man!!

Ego loves to talk about negative experiences. Telling everybody around them continues to feed ego by recurring thoughts of negativity. Understand they literally cannot help it as it's a negative thought feeding loop.

@CreamCat I'm assuming your concerns do come from a place of love but let me tell you something as I've been in the same situation but with my brother. Accept her for what she is. She is exactly where she needs to be. If radical change (if any) has to come about through deep suffering then so be it.

Self deception part 1/2/3 Victim series. I know that's 4 but it's tough to choose!

Oh I do ?

Last night I had the strangest dream... this man that I knew in my dream was dying in front of me. He said... "You got to let go." I replied. "How?" He said. "Love." And that was it. That was the dream. Stayed with me all day that. I haven't thought about its meaning truly because I believe it will reveal itself. Came home after college, cooked tea and then smashed out an hour of Pilates and 30 minutes of guided meditation. I really liked this video. It was a mixture of meditation and self inquiry. I highly recommend it. I'll pop it below. Pain level today 3ish. Small limp after a long walk (thought I'd push myself further to see how it went). Hoping to go to another Pilates class tomorrow but tomorrow I can just be. I plan on dedicating the first half of tomorrow to just sheer self inquiry and meditation.

@phoenix666 Why haven't I seen your journal Mrs? ? Popcorn and reading glasses later me thinks ?

100% Creating drama with her is just another way to get her to communicate with you. Any thoughts or emotions are a way to bring you back to her. Ego will do anything to bring you back into homeostasis. Just keep observing and going meta. You seem really aware of what's going dude, that's awesome. Let yourself grieve until you cannot anymore and then let go. I wish you strength and healing ❤️

@Zigzag Idiot I know right! ❤️

10 week Philosophy course: ... WOW! I can't believe that I sat there for 2 and a half hours listening to what I was hearing. I've found a gem. I'm not even joking. Do you remember Leo talking about great philosophers being so so close to the truth. Well this man that delivers the class I feel is there. He's just missing the golden nugget by a millimeter ?. I'll upload the handout as I feel it could help anybody that reads this that holds interest. I did actually get some insights during: I'm letting go of all my knowledge of enlightenment, consciousness and experiences. The info I've read over the past year or 2 are another distraction. As are any 'experiences' 'I' had. They've been taken on as another belief in the form of memory and now prevent any further direct experience from immerging. This 'work' can be ultra tricky and Leo's one million percent right about ego taking any mystical experiences, even the present moment and using it for itself. I've observed this. Its the biggest conmen of all conmen and the trickery that could go unnoticed is somewhat fucking beautiful it's that clever. I have a stronger ego that what I initially thought. Again, another clever trick

@GabeN Its unbelievable isn't it. Like no words can communicate just how outstandingly intelligent and breathtaking it is ❤️

Quick update: Think I smashed the test. Meditated in the corridor prior. Worked a treat. Got home smashed out Pilates and meditation as I'll be arriving home late this evening. Pain level - 2 (buzzin) no limp Got my notebook ready here with me. Arrived early. Can't wait to see what this is about

Physio session 2. Started off with various exercises in the gym. Then went onto treatment. Told her about the breakthrough. Her explanations aren't great. They're always answers like. "Oh the body can be weird." Or something similar. I asked a question? ?? She said I have a strong core it's just my right gluteal muscle isn't firing. I'm guessing this is causing the knee pain on the same side. Get this exam out the way today and then I'm going to ramp up the Pilates to an hour everyday. Hopefully go to the gym on the weekends also. Limp is still gone. Pain is still massively reduced after the Pilates breakthrough last night. Brilliant to walk normally again. Philosophy class this evening... Eeeeeeeeek ?

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@Shroomdoctor @Shroomdoctor I'm gonna give it a go anyway dude regardless. Thanks Pluto!! ?@pluto @Shiva @The Don Sorry guys ignore tag.